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How to Say I Love You Out Loud
When Jordyn Michaelson’s autistic brother joins her at her elite school, she’s determined not to let anyone know they're related. Even if that means closing herself off to all her closest friends, including charming football stud Alex Colby. But despite her best intentions, she just can't shake the memory of kissing Alex last summer, and the desire to do it again. Can Jordyn find the courage to tell Alex how she really feels—and the truth about her family—before he slips away forever?
240 pages, Paperback
First published August 13, 2015
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Karole Cozzo
6Ìýbooks235ÌýfollowersKarole lives outside of Philadelphia, PA with her loving husband, exuberant little girl, and smiley little boy. She adores YA Romance, because it would be awesome if life in general had a requisite feel-good happy ending rule. Vices include obscene Haribo gummy consumption, addiction to Starbucks NF vanilla lattes, and tendency to hoard Bath and Body Works 3-wick candles.
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January 22, 2016
*Warning: This is not a review. This is a rant.*
There are so many reasons why I disliked this book, and the main character, Jordyn, makes up 99% of them. Seriously, guys. She is infuriating.
I absolutely hated the way Jordyn treated her younger brother, Phillip, who is autistic. She treats him like crap, like he's the bane of her existence and the source of all her problems, which I just could not understand, and I had such a hard time forgiving her for it. She watches people (including her friends) treat him badly, isolate and ostracize him, give him mean looks, ridicule and mock him, call him ALL TYPES of cruel names, and just stands there... watching. And why?! Because she doesn't want to be connected with him and risk her reputation. I wanted to slap her. She doesn't even acknowledge him as her brother!!
Jordyn spends the entire book whining, complaining, yelling at her parents. She is so unbearably selfish. How Jordyn reacted when she found out that Phillip's specialized school shut down due to a lack of funds, was so immature and uncaring. She doesn't care that his education will suffer, or that the changes in school will impact him drastically on an emotional level. No. So what does she care about??
And what really riles me, is that throughout the book Jordyn tries to justify her reasons for treating her brother so cruelly. Like, she is actually looking out for his best interests.
But her lack of concern and just overall love for her brother is blatantly evident. When her brother gets into an accident at school that could have led to him getting badly injured, what's her response...?
Yes, because reputation is so much important that your family's well being. And of course, it's all Phillip's fault.
Can I shake her? I just really want to shake her. Jordyn is so self-centered, she can't take the spotlight off of herself for two seconds to appreciate any milestone that her brother achieves. Like when she stumbles across a videotape of his first word, which is abigHUGE DEAL because his speech was so delayed. What was going through her head, you may wonder...?
And honestly, I felt like she had no real growth in the novel. Sure, she finally takes her brother out in public to show him to the world at the opening of Alex's park.
Of course you didn't, Jordyn. You did that out of the goodness of your heart. I mean, you did use that time to introduce Erin to your brother so she wouldn't be upset with you, but... One page later...
Whoop. Dee. Do. Jordyn does one good thing towards the end of the book for her brother. I guess I better go bake her some cookies.
Now, at the end of the book, Jordyn gives a speech, and it really wasn't all that spectacular, but I have to admit that fortwo no, one second I was a teensy bit choked up. When she ran off the stage, not caring how she did... it touched me.
But then...
Do you guys see what I'm seeing? I mean, seriously Jordyn. The world does not revolve around you.
Well, I guess this book does, seeing that she's the MC and all. *shrugs* Oh well. Besides her self-centered tendencies, her other charms include: being spectacular spineless, finding new things to whine and complain about, lacking a personality, and just being all around annoying.
Okay, so I did say that Jordyn only made up 99% of my problems, but since she took up so much of this review I'll briefly touch on the 1%: I didn't like the writing. It was filled to the brim with cliches, had a weird flow to it, lacked depth and emotion, and was just poorly executed. The romance was so unbelievable. I never once felt the connection she had to Alex. It just all felt so superficial, and this book opens up with the "I'm in love with my best friend but I don't realize it until he gets in a relationship" trope, and I just knew that was a bad sign. I also didn't care for the friendships. Once again, they just seemed so flimsy and superficial.
This book got one extra star from me because I tend to appreciate books a little more when they bring tough issues and topics to the table. Depending on how you view this book, you may value it more (as I sort of do) because it illustrates the challenges a family faces when there's an autistic member, and I can understand that it isn't always easy. But while I appreciate Karole Cozzo for showcasing that, I just found Jordyn's way of dealing with it to be so appalling, and it really tore this book down to shreds, to the point I hardly enjoyed it.
What I recommend reading instead: This Ordinary Life by Jennifer Walkup. This book features an amazing female protagonist, Jasmine Torres, whose younger brother, Danny, has a severe seizure disorder known as epilepsy. This is such a well-written, engaging, heartfelt book, and I'm sure many readers would enjoy it! Check out my review for it by clicking the title! :D
There are so many reasons why I disliked this book, and the main character, Jordyn, makes up 99% of them. Seriously, guys. She is infuriating.
I absolutely hated the way Jordyn treated her younger brother, Phillip, who is autistic. She treats him like crap, like he's the bane of her existence and the source of all her problems, which I just could not understand, and I had such a hard time forgiving her for it. She watches people (including her friends) treat him badly, isolate and ostracize him, give him mean looks, ridicule and mock him, call him ALL TYPES of cruel names, and just stands there... watching. And why?! Because she doesn't want to be connected with him and risk her reputation. I wanted to slap her. She doesn't even acknowledge him as her brother!!
"As it turned out, I never really got a brother at all. Sometimes being reminded of this can leave me feeling very sad and alone, even when I'm struggling to acknowledge that that brother exists in the first place."
Jordyn spends the entire book whining, complaining, yelling at her parents. She is so unbearably selfish. How Jordyn reacted when she found out that Phillip's specialized school shut down due to a lack of funds, was so immature and uncaring. She doesn't care that his education will suffer, or that the changes in school will impact him drastically on an emotional level. No. So what does she care about??
"It's not fair. I cannot deal with Phillip at my school. I can't take the whispers and stares, having them turned in my direction once everyone realizes what Phillip's last name is."
And what really riles me, is that throughout the book Jordyn tries to justify her reasons for treating her brother so cruelly. Like, she is actually looking out for his best interests.
"And for the record,"I inform them, "Phillip will get eaten alive at my school. Kids will be mean to him. Teachers will be mean to him. Trust me, at my school, you're expected to fit in. You're going to subject him to that?"
My mom rubs at her temples and closes her eyes. "It's temporary. By November, all of this will be over."
"By November, my life will be over! Thanks." I stomp up the stairs, tears of anger and bitterness blurring my vision. It's. Not. Fair.
But her lack of concern and just overall love for her brother is blatantly evident. When her brother gets into an accident at school that could have led to him getting badly injured, what's her response...?
"No way in hell I'm stepping foot back on campus today. More gossip. I can count on it. I close my eyes and say a second silent prayer in thanks that I missed that latest Phillip debacle at Valley Forge High School."
Yes, because reputation is so much important that your family's well being. And of course, it's all Phillip's fault.
"Phillip is so damn oblivious to the damage he causes. It's Phillip's world and he can't see beyond it to how his world sometimes really messes up other people's worlds."
Can I shake her? I just really want to shake her. Jordyn is so self-centered, she can't take the spotlight off of herself for two seconds to appreciate any milestone that her brother achieves. Like when she stumbles across a videotape of his first word, which is a
"As I put the DVD in the case and slide it carefully back onto the shelf, I think about where I fit in the context of these battles. I was left alone. There's no denying this--I just saw the proof of it on the screen--and somewhere deep down, I can still detect the roots of resentment."
And honestly, I felt like she had no real growth in the novel. Sure, she finally takes her brother out in public to show him to the world at the opening of Alex's park.
"I hope Alex doesn't think I brought Phillip to make a point, because I didn't, other than that my brother really likes to swing."
Of course you didn't, Jordyn. You did that out of the goodness of your heart. I mean, you did use that time to introduce Erin to your brother so she wouldn't be upset with you, but... One page later...
"Erin's not mad at you anymore, I remind myself. And you did some good deeds for your brother and parents. There's no reason to be upset."
Whoop. Dee. Do. Jordyn does one good thing towards the end of the book for her brother. I guess I better go bake her some cookies.
Now, at the end of the book, Jordyn gives a speech, and it really wasn't all that spectacular, but I have to admit that for
"I never had any plan to stay for the results and I don't really care to hear my score. A victory is not something I wished for in the first place."
But then...
"I was too emotionally spent by the end of my speech to even think about how it was received. But, as someone who's amassed all these ribbons, certificates, and awards, I should've known my underlying high-achieving tendencies would reveal themselves. Curiosity gets the better of me and I log on to the Contest's web site... I feel the slightest twinge of regret that I didn't make myself stay. On one hand, I accomplished what I set out to achieve, on the other, it would've been sort of nice to have the moment captured on film. Maybe the contest organizers will mail me my trophy or something?"
Do you guys see what I'm seeing? I mean, seriously Jordyn. The world does not revolve around you.
"I can't keep the smile off my face, because this praise, I like. This praise, I earned. This praise is about me."
Well, I guess this book does, seeing that she's the MC and all. *shrugs* Oh well. Besides her self-centered tendencies, her other charms include: being spectacular spineless, finding new things to whine and complain about, lacking a personality, and just being all around annoying.
Okay, so I did say that Jordyn only made up 99% of my problems, but since she took up so much of this review I'll briefly touch on the 1%: I didn't like the writing. It was filled to the brim with cliches, had a weird flow to it, lacked depth and emotion, and was just poorly executed. The romance was so unbelievable. I never once felt the connection she had to Alex. It just all felt so superficial, and this book opens up with the "I'm in love with my best friend but I don't realize it until he gets in a relationship" trope, and I just knew that was a bad sign. I also didn't care for the friendships. Once again, they just seemed so flimsy and superficial.
This book got one extra star from me because I tend to appreciate books a little more when they bring tough issues and topics to the table. Depending on how you view this book, you may value it more (as I sort of do) because it illustrates the challenges a family faces when there's an autistic member, and I can understand that it isn't always easy. But while I appreciate Karole Cozzo for showcasing that, I just found Jordyn's way of dealing with it to be so appalling, and it really tore this book down to shreds, to the point I hardly enjoyed it.
What I recommend reading instead: This Ordinary Life by Jennifer Walkup. This book features an amazing female protagonist, Jasmine Torres, whose younger brother, Danny, has a severe seizure disorder known as epilepsy. This is such a well-written, engaging, heartfelt book, and I'm sure many readers would enjoy it! Check out my review for it by clicking the title! :D
June 16, 2016
This is the book I’ve been waiting for from SwoonReads! While their other titles have been quirky and cute, none of them really made me swoon, so I went into this title with a bit of trepidation.
I’m so happy to say that I got everything I had hoped for while reading this lovely story.
Jodyn Michaelson has spent most of her life in the background when it comes to her life at home. As the older sister to her autistic brother, Phillip, most of her family’s choices have revolved around what is best for him � and she’s a little resentful.
Having to move in her junior year of high school to a different district, one that could accommodate his special needs is practically the last straw. When she starts school, she tells no one about her brother� not the girl who is quickly becoming her best friend, and certainly not the boy who she has a crush on, Alex Colby.
But when her brother’s school closes due to funding, there is no other school for him to attend except hers and she’s determined to never let on that they are related, especially when it turns out the school starts gossiping and talking about him.
You guys, Alex will totally make you swoon. Of course he’s hot and he’s super popular and a football player, but he’s so much more than that. He genuinely cares about people, he’s lived through heartache and pain and he’s determined to do what he can to help others who have disabilities. I loved that he was just more than the popular guy.
Jordyn� she’s such a complicated character and I loved that about her even though there were times I couldn’t believe the things she was thinking or doing. When you first meet her, you totally understand where she’s coming from, what she has to deal with can’t be easy for a teen� that’s not to say I agree with her attitude, but I can see where it comes from and it’s authentic to how I think most teens would feel in her situation. Her struggle to see how her mom was trying to make a life for Phillip and to understand that sacrifices were necessary was genuine� but her growth by the end of the book was perfectly done. I will secretly tell you, that at one point I had a few tears in my eyes.
The pacing was exactly right� I loved that the romance between the characters wasn’t the biggest thing in this story. Instead, we’re treated to a story where this character needs to learn that there are bigger things in life than being popular or liked� that even though her brother has limited speech and isn’t like other kids, he loves her in his own way and that despite his disabilities he is an incredibly intelligent and loving kid.
If you know me, you probably know I struggled with one aspect of the story� the mean girl. Ugh I kinda hate this trope. There doesn’t always have to be a girl for us to dislike immensely, and I did dislike Leighton. Like almost more than any other mean girl I’ve ever read about. I see why she was in this story, but I almost wish she hadn’t been.
One thing that I really was happy about was how much interaction we got between Jordyn and her mom. I loved that she explained to Jordyn some of her struggles and the reasons why she did the things she did for Phillip. It really helps the reader get into the mind of a parent and see things from a different perspective.
If you’re looking for a different kind of swoony read, you’ll definitely need to grab this one when it arrives in August. I have to say that I was on the fence with SwoonReads after reading a few of their titles that just didn’t work for me, but after this one, I’m definitely excited for more from this imprint!
Thank you to MacMillan for the advanced copy in exchange for my honest thoughts.
I’m so happy to say that I got everything I had hoped for while reading this lovely story.
Jodyn Michaelson has spent most of her life in the background when it comes to her life at home. As the older sister to her autistic brother, Phillip, most of her family’s choices have revolved around what is best for him � and she’s a little resentful.
Having to move in her junior year of high school to a different district, one that could accommodate his special needs is practically the last straw. When she starts school, she tells no one about her brother� not the girl who is quickly becoming her best friend, and certainly not the boy who she has a crush on, Alex Colby.
But when her brother’s school closes due to funding, there is no other school for him to attend except hers and she’s determined to never let on that they are related, especially when it turns out the school starts gossiping and talking about him.
You guys, Alex will totally make you swoon. Of course he’s hot and he’s super popular and a football player, but he’s so much more than that. He genuinely cares about people, he’s lived through heartache and pain and he’s determined to do what he can to help others who have disabilities. I loved that he was just more than the popular guy.
Jordyn� she’s such a complicated character and I loved that about her even though there were times I couldn’t believe the things she was thinking or doing. When you first meet her, you totally understand where she’s coming from, what she has to deal with can’t be easy for a teen� that’s not to say I agree with her attitude, but I can see where it comes from and it’s authentic to how I think most teens would feel in her situation. Her struggle to see how her mom was trying to make a life for Phillip and to understand that sacrifices were necessary was genuine� but her growth by the end of the book was perfectly done. I will secretly tell you, that at one point I had a few tears in my eyes.
The pacing was exactly right� I loved that the romance between the characters wasn’t the biggest thing in this story. Instead, we’re treated to a story where this character needs to learn that there are bigger things in life than being popular or liked� that even though her brother has limited speech and isn’t like other kids, he loves her in his own way and that despite his disabilities he is an incredibly intelligent and loving kid.
If you know me, you probably know I struggled with one aspect of the story� the mean girl. Ugh I kinda hate this trope. There doesn’t always have to be a girl for us to dislike immensely, and I did dislike Leighton. Like almost more than any other mean girl I’ve ever read about. I see why she was in this story, but I almost wish she hadn’t been.
One thing that I really was happy about was how much interaction we got between Jordyn and her mom. I loved that she explained to Jordyn some of her struggles and the reasons why she did the things she did for Phillip. It really helps the reader get into the mind of a parent and see things from a different perspective.
If you’re looking for a different kind of swoony read, you’ll definitely need to grab this one when it arrives in August. I have to say that I was on the fence with SwoonReads after reading a few of their titles that just didn’t work for me, but after this one, I’m definitely excited for more from this imprint!
Thank you to MacMillan for the advanced copy in exchange for my honest thoughts.
April 30, 2019
I thought this was going to be another silly romance but it’s so much deeper than I expected it to be. I didn’t expect to tear up. The writing is fluid and relatable while the main plot and theme are so significant- how this girl tries to blend in and find some normalcy being a sister of someone with autism.
I love how it tackles the power of speech and how the author presented this subject in the light of a person with autism as compared to a normal person. It’s also very honest and the heroine’s realizations are very much affecting. So much of the ideas presented in the novel made me rethink of some of my worldviews and for a novel to be able to do that, I think it's quite powerful. There is this friends-to-lovers trope but somehow, the author managed to make this element very unique. Definitely recommended.
February 21, 2015
Writing a review for HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU OUT LOUD is going to be terribly hard for me. It's only been a half an hour since I finished reading the book, and I'm still wearing a silly, yes-that-was-a-great-ending grin on my face, while also wondering how my day could possibly be better. I've got a book handover real bad. Thank you, Karole.
In an effort to remain spoiler-free since HOW TO SAY doesn't come out until August, I'll be brief and gushy. Be prepared.
Jordyn was an excellent main character, at once frustrating and believable. Her struggles with balancing her life at home with her autistic brother, Phillip, and the life she wants for herself -- being JUST Jordyn - is heart-wrenchingly relatable. Her disappointments and attitude at the beginning of the book made me like her more, because her reasons behind the hurt were so clear and well-developed. As The Older Sister who played second fiddle growing up (for different reasons, but nonetheless), I found myself shaking my head and thinking, "Yes! That's exactly how I would have felt! Oh, and I'm pretty sure I've said that before!" Her growth as a character is wonderful to watch. And then there are the secondary characters.
Jordyn's friends, Erin and Tanu, and wonderful supports for her, and I love how strong their friendships turned out to be by the end of the book. Leighton is almost too fun to hate (I was shaking in my boots along with Jordyn). Phillip's love of Spongebob and vacuums added some warm, well-placed humor amid the serious parts. And Jordyn's parents were awesome. I mean, I kind of wanted to hug them a few times.
AND ALEX. Alex, Alex, Alex. He is one of the sweetest book boys I've come across, and very refreshing from the influx of moody bad boys I usually find in YA. He's well-developed and so swoonworthy, with his jokes, caring attitude, and golden heart that is not buried underneath, but rather always on the surface.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I might have to reread a few scenes, just to, you know, because they are awesome.
In an effort to remain spoiler-free since HOW TO SAY doesn't come out until August, I'll be brief and gushy. Be prepared.
Jordyn was an excellent main character, at once frustrating and believable. Her struggles with balancing her life at home with her autistic brother, Phillip, and the life she wants for herself -- being JUST Jordyn - is heart-wrenchingly relatable. Her disappointments and attitude at the beginning of the book made me like her more, because her reasons behind the hurt were so clear and well-developed. As The Older Sister who played second fiddle growing up (for different reasons, but nonetheless), I found myself shaking my head and thinking, "Yes! That's exactly how I would have felt! Oh, and I'm pretty sure I've said that before!" Her growth as a character is wonderful to watch. And then there are the secondary characters.
Jordyn's friends, Erin and Tanu, and wonderful supports for her, and I love how strong their friendships turned out to be by the end of the book. Leighton is almost too fun to hate (I was shaking in my boots along with Jordyn). Phillip's love of Spongebob and vacuums added some warm, well-placed humor amid the serious parts. And Jordyn's parents were awesome. I mean, I kind of wanted to hug them a few times.
AND ALEX. Alex, Alex, Alex. He is one of the sweetest book boys I've come across, and very refreshing from the influx of moody bad boys I usually find in YA. He's well-developed and so swoonworthy, with his jokes, caring attitude, and golden heart that is not buried underneath, but rather always on the surface.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I might have to reread a few scenes, just to, you know, because they are awesome.
July 3, 2015
My full review--
I received this ARC from Swoon Reads when I attended a panel that they hosted at BookCon in NYC earlier this year. I have loved all of the books published by Swoon Reads so far, so I was ecstatic to be lucky enough to get my hands on this ARC!
I want to be very up front and honest and say that I did not like this book. I did not like it at all. I realized that I didn't like it about 50 pages it and pretty much just hate-read through until the end because I was hoping there would be an amazing ending that would be the much needed redemption this book needed. Unfortunately, this book had one of the most predictable HEAs I have ever read.
I knew going into this that the book would have a strong theme involving disabilities because of the synopsis and also the Author's Note at the beginning stating how she has worked with disabled people and has the utmost respect for them and their bravery, yadda yadda. Here's the thing. This book has probably one of the most disgusting heroines I have ever read about. The book follows Jordyn and her path on learning to overcome and deal with her brother's autism. Yep, you read that right. She spends the entire book complaining about how inconvenient, embarrassing, and UNFAIR it is to her life for her brother to have been born with autism. There is one scene in particular where Phillip, Jordyn's brother, is pretty much having a break down at school because there is a fire drill happening. The poor boy is laying on the floor in the hallway with a group of people gathered around him (to watch and mock) crying and wailing. In the midst of the group is his sister Jordyn. She knows that it is the sound of the fire alarm that is upsetting him and that is needs these noise cancelling headphones that he carries around (he is verbal, but his speech is limited). She knows that he keeps the head phones in his backpack. She knows all of this, but instead of helping her brother, she stands there in the crowd embarrassed and ashamed (even though no one knows that he is her brother) and does nothing. Finally when the principal comes and makes the group of kids leave, she sticks around and when the coast is clear, she pulls out the headphones for him. I was so disgusted and upset after this scene that I very seriously considered putting the book down and never picking it back up. I was so angry, but I decided to keep going because Jordyn has to get better, right? She has to have some sort of self realization about how sad of a person she is. NOPE. This is just one big event that happens out of so many that makes this book completely unforgiveable. Obviously, because this book does have a HEA, she does have the great realization how big of a d.ck she is and how awful she has been to basically everyone in her life. And because she has overcome her d.ckness she is now enlightened in how much she sucks in all the other aspects of life. She makes things right with everyone and rides off into the sunset with her Prince Charming. It is all so eye roll worthy that I cannot even begin describe how done I was with this book when I finally finished.
I get the point the author is trying to make. I get it, I really do. This is SUPPOSED to be about how this girl has struggled with her brother's disability her whole life and has resented him and their parents because of all the extra attention he has received. This is SUPPOSED to be about how she finally sees all the good in her brother and learns to accept him for who is his, autism and all. This is SUPPOSED to be about how a selfish 16 year old learns that the world doesn't revolve around her. Unfortunately, the message gets so lost in the awful situations that the main character creates for herself. I just can't even properly articulate how awful this main girl is and how angry she made me. I. JUST. CAN'T.
I'll just go and ahead and say that Swoon Reads really missed the mark with this one. If I were to pick up this book and know nothing about SR, I probably wouldn't read another book published by them. Like I said before, I have loved everything else published by them in the past. I know that the books that are published are voted on by the readers, so it absolutely amazes me that enough people liked this book enough to want to be put in print. Skip this book and check out one of the other amazing Swoon Reads authors like Sandy Hall or Temple West.
I received this ARC from Swoon Reads when I attended a panel that they hosted at BookCon in NYC earlier this year. I have loved all of the books published by Swoon Reads so far, so I was ecstatic to be lucky enough to get my hands on this ARC!
I want to be very up front and honest and say that I did not like this book. I did not like it at all. I realized that I didn't like it about 50 pages it and pretty much just hate-read through until the end because I was hoping there would be an amazing ending that would be the much needed redemption this book needed. Unfortunately, this book had one of the most predictable HEAs I have ever read.
I knew going into this that the book would have a strong theme involving disabilities because of the synopsis and also the Author's Note at the beginning stating how she has worked with disabled people and has the utmost respect for them and their bravery, yadda yadda. Here's the thing. This book has probably one of the most disgusting heroines I have ever read about. The book follows Jordyn and her path on learning to overcome and deal with her brother's autism. Yep, you read that right. She spends the entire book complaining about how inconvenient, embarrassing, and UNFAIR it is to her life for her brother to have been born with autism. There is one scene in particular where Phillip, Jordyn's brother, is pretty much having a break down at school because there is a fire drill happening. The poor boy is laying on the floor in the hallway with a group of people gathered around him (to watch and mock) crying and wailing. In the midst of the group is his sister Jordyn. She knows that it is the sound of the fire alarm that is upsetting him and that is needs these noise cancelling headphones that he carries around (he is verbal, but his speech is limited). She knows that he keeps the head phones in his backpack. She knows all of this, but instead of helping her brother, she stands there in the crowd embarrassed and ashamed (even though no one knows that he is her brother) and does nothing. Finally when the principal comes and makes the group of kids leave, she sticks around and when the coast is clear, she pulls out the headphones for him. I was so disgusted and upset after this scene that I very seriously considered putting the book down and never picking it back up. I was so angry, but I decided to keep going because Jordyn has to get better, right? She has to have some sort of self realization about how sad of a person she is. NOPE. This is just one big event that happens out of so many that makes this book completely unforgiveable. Obviously, because this book does have a HEA, she does have the great realization how big of a d.ck she is and how awful she has been to basically everyone in her life. And because she has overcome her d.ckness she is now enlightened in how much she sucks in all the other aspects of life. She makes things right with everyone and rides off into the sunset with her Prince Charming. It is all so eye roll worthy that I cannot even begin describe how done I was with this book when I finally finished.
I get the point the author is trying to make. I get it, I really do. This is SUPPOSED to be about how this girl has struggled with her brother's disability her whole life and has resented him and their parents because of all the extra attention he has received. This is SUPPOSED to be about how she finally sees all the good in her brother and learns to accept him for who is his, autism and all. This is SUPPOSED to be about how a selfish 16 year old learns that the world doesn't revolve around her. Unfortunately, the message gets so lost in the awful situations that the main character creates for herself. I just can't even properly articulate how awful this main girl is and how angry she made me. I. JUST. CAN'T.
I'll just go and ahead and say that Swoon Reads really missed the mark with this one. If I were to pick up this book and know nothing about SR, I probably wouldn't read another book published by them. Like I said before, I have loved everything else published by them in the past. I know that the books that are published are voted on by the readers, so it absolutely amazes me that enough people liked this book enough to want to be put in print. Skip this book and check out one of the other amazing Swoon Reads authors like Sandy Hall or Temple West.
August 5, 2015
Thank you NetGalley and Swoon Reads for providing this ARC.
It’s difficult to write a review for a book so heavy with emotion, because everyone reacts differently to it. What I can tell you is that this book is beautiful. It’s honest, moving and powerful. I wasn’t really a hundred percent sold on it until the last 40 pages or so, but those pages brought tears in my eyes and left me with a warm, fuzzy feeling in my chest.
How To Say I Love You Out Loud is a stirring story about a girl and her brother. Jordyn has always been secretive when it comes to her family, especially Phillip, her fifteen year old autistic brother. She’s afraid of having people talk about her behind her back, of them not accepting her because of her brother, so she prefers to hide that part of her life. But when Phillip’s school closes down, he’s forced to attend the same high school as Jordyn, until a more suitable place is found for him. Jordyn is therefore put in a difficult position, because no one at her school knows about him and, if she is truly honest to herself, she’s embarrassed by him. She’s built walls around herself to protect herself, but these walls are about to come crumbling down.
Jordyn is not an easily likable main character and this is the issue that many people will have with this book. But she’s real. Her emotions are truthful and, when I really started to think about it, I’d probably have reacted the same. It’s not easy for anyone involved when it comes to people with disabilities. Jordyn loves Phillip, but she’s never allowed herself to acknowledge those feelings, because he can’t express them back. He’s trapped in his world and this weighs on her too, because she didn’t get the brother she hoped for. Couple that with the fact that her parents� focus is 99% of the times on her brother and with the bullying she suffered in primary school, you start to understand the reasons for the walls that she has built around herself. But she undergoes a powerful development. The Jordyn at the beginning of the book is not the same as the one finishing the book. Her growth is visible and it’s heartwarming to see her realize that she is Phillip’s voice and that she can make a difference.
I loved that the main focus of the book was family oriented. We get a very real glimpse into the life of a family with a member suffering from disability and its’refreshing to not have this disability magically cured. Instead, we find acceptance and growth. I think Cozzo portrayed everything in a very realistic, faithful way - the family dynamic, Jordyn’s struggles as a teenager wanting to fit in, her parents� (especially her mom’s) efforts to accommodate both their children in the best way possible, trying to make them both feel like their worth something big. Yes, there is an underlying love story present, but I think it was well written and while it does permeate the whole book, I didn’t feel like it was the focus of it.
Yes, there will be people with issues with this book, either related to the portrayal of people with disabilities or related to how the main character reacts to this. But I think it’s well written and worth reading. At the least, it tackles a subject not really present in YA books. We need diverse books, we need books that show that these subjects are real and present in every day life. We need to acknowledge them, write about them and read about them.
Favourite quote:
“It's really hard to say the words I love you when you know you'll likely never hear them back�
★★★★
To everyone who got this far, thank you for reading and have a wonderful day! Also, feel free to share your thoughts, comment or tell me anything :)
It’s difficult to write a review for a book so heavy with emotion, because everyone reacts differently to it. What I can tell you is that this book is beautiful. It’s honest, moving and powerful. I wasn’t really a hundred percent sold on it until the last 40 pages or so, but those pages brought tears in my eyes and left me with a warm, fuzzy feeling in my chest.
How To Say I Love You Out Loud is a stirring story about a girl and her brother. Jordyn has always been secretive when it comes to her family, especially Phillip, her fifteen year old autistic brother. She’s afraid of having people talk about her behind her back, of them not accepting her because of her brother, so she prefers to hide that part of her life. But when Phillip’s school closes down, he’s forced to attend the same high school as Jordyn, until a more suitable place is found for him. Jordyn is therefore put in a difficult position, because no one at her school knows about him and, if she is truly honest to herself, she’s embarrassed by him. She’s built walls around herself to protect herself, but these walls are about to come crumbling down.
Jordyn is not an easily likable main character and this is the issue that many people will have with this book. But she’s real. Her emotions are truthful and, when I really started to think about it, I’d probably have reacted the same. It’s not easy for anyone involved when it comes to people with disabilities. Jordyn loves Phillip, but she’s never allowed herself to acknowledge those feelings, because he can’t express them back. He’s trapped in his world and this weighs on her too, because she didn’t get the brother she hoped for. Couple that with the fact that her parents� focus is 99% of the times on her brother and with the bullying she suffered in primary school, you start to understand the reasons for the walls that she has built around herself. But she undergoes a powerful development. The Jordyn at the beginning of the book is not the same as the one finishing the book. Her growth is visible and it’s heartwarming to see her realize that she is Phillip’s voice and that she can make a difference.
I loved that the main focus of the book was family oriented. We get a very real glimpse into the life of a family with a member suffering from disability and its’refreshing to not have this disability magically cured. Instead, we find acceptance and growth. I think Cozzo portrayed everything in a very realistic, faithful way - the family dynamic, Jordyn’s struggles as a teenager wanting to fit in, her parents� (especially her mom’s) efforts to accommodate both their children in the best way possible, trying to make them both feel like their worth something big. Yes, there is an underlying love story present, but I think it was well written and while it does permeate the whole book, I didn’t feel like it was the focus of it.
Yes, there will be people with issues with this book, either related to the portrayal of people with disabilities or related to how the main character reacts to this. But I think it’s well written and worth reading. At the least, it tackles a subject not really present in YA books. We need diverse books, we need books that show that these subjects are real and present in every day life. We need to acknowledge them, write about them and read about them.
Favourite quote:
“It's really hard to say the words I love you when you know you'll likely never hear them back�
★★★★
To everyone who got this far, thank you for reading and have a wonderful day! Also, feel free to share your thoughts, comment or tell me anything :)
October 28, 2015
This story hooked me from the first chapter. Jordyn has a secret and I was dying to know what it was. Plus there’s a guy who’s both cute AND hot, which is a nearly irresistible combination, and she can’t be with him because of the secret? Yeah, my interest was piqued.
When I found out Jordyn’s big secret, my feelings about the book blossomed. This was no longer just a teen romance, but was now a deeper story dealing with very real, contemporary issues faced by very real people.
Nearly everyone knows at least one family dealing with autism. In fact, we know three families with autistic children. In the United States, autism impacts one in 88 children � more than two million � and tens of millions worldwide.
The issues Jordyn faces are not unique to her, but her reaction and the ways in which she copes are all her own. It’s hard enough being a teen girl, harder still when you’re the new girl in town, add to that an autistic brother who’s suddenly attending your exclusive high school, and you have a recipe for disaster. Author K.A. Cozzo brings it all to a beautifully crafted climax and satisfying conclusion.
Plot
The plot is intelligent, nuanced, and layered. Jordyn struggles to get through 60 days without anyone finding out that Phillip is her brother. In the meantime, she watches Alex’s relationship with Leighton, captain of her field hockey team, unfold in front of her, twisting the knife deeper. And underlying it all is Jordyn’s inability to speak her mind, stand up for what she believes in, and take control of her life.
Characters
Jordyn is incredibly likeable despite her faults. You pull for her because you want her to see that life can be so much more than she’s making of it. You can’t help feeling her pain � loving someone who will never be able to express their love back and watching the boy you secretly adore be with someone else. Gosh, I just want to hug her.
And then there’s Alex Colby. He is my new book boyfriend. It was Aiden St. Delphi from the Covenant series, and I never believed anyone would be able to knock him off his perfect pedestal, but Alex Colby has done just that. While not perfect, Alex is perfectly flawed in a way that only makes me love him more.
The supporting cast is limited because this is primarily Jordyn’s story, but her mother is well-fleshed out as is Leighton. They are solid, believable characters that add depth and conflict.
Bottom Line
Autism is real and the author handles the topic deftly, never whitewashing it, nor making it more than it is. This is a deep story filled with longing, hope, love, acceptance and forgiveness, with undertones of redemption that comes from learning to speak out loud for yourself and for others. The friendship and love between Jordyn and Alex feels authentic, and heartbreaking, and beautiful. This story has something for readers of all ages. Don’t let the category be your guide.
Disclaimer: I was provided with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
When I found out Jordyn’s big secret, my feelings about the book blossomed. This was no longer just a teen romance, but was now a deeper story dealing with very real, contemporary issues faced by very real people.
Nearly everyone knows at least one family dealing with autism. In fact, we know three families with autistic children. In the United States, autism impacts one in 88 children � more than two million � and tens of millions worldwide.
The issues Jordyn faces are not unique to her, but her reaction and the ways in which she copes are all her own. It’s hard enough being a teen girl, harder still when you’re the new girl in town, add to that an autistic brother who’s suddenly attending your exclusive high school, and you have a recipe for disaster. Author K.A. Cozzo brings it all to a beautifully crafted climax and satisfying conclusion.
Plot
The plot is intelligent, nuanced, and layered. Jordyn struggles to get through 60 days without anyone finding out that Phillip is her brother. In the meantime, she watches Alex’s relationship with Leighton, captain of her field hockey team, unfold in front of her, twisting the knife deeper. And underlying it all is Jordyn’s inability to speak her mind, stand up for what she believes in, and take control of her life.
Characters
Jordyn is incredibly likeable despite her faults. You pull for her because you want her to see that life can be so much more than she’s making of it. You can’t help feeling her pain � loving someone who will never be able to express their love back and watching the boy you secretly adore be with someone else. Gosh, I just want to hug her.
And then there’s Alex Colby. He is my new book boyfriend. It was Aiden St. Delphi from the Covenant series, and I never believed anyone would be able to knock him off his perfect pedestal, but Alex Colby has done just that. While not perfect, Alex is perfectly flawed in a way that only makes me love him more.
The supporting cast is limited because this is primarily Jordyn’s story, but her mother is well-fleshed out as is Leighton. They are solid, believable characters that add depth and conflict.
Bottom Line
Autism is real and the author handles the topic deftly, never whitewashing it, nor making it more than it is. This is a deep story filled with longing, hope, love, acceptance and forgiveness, with undertones of redemption that comes from learning to speak out loud for yourself and for others. The friendship and love between Jordyn and Alex feels authentic, and heartbreaking, and beautiful. This story has something for readers of all ages. Don’t let the category be your guide.
Disclaimer: I was provided with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
November 28, 2016
Thank you NetGalley and Swoon Reads (Macmillan Children's Publishing Group) for providing an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
It's hard to review thought-provoking books because I'm afraid I might offend anyone about my opinion. I have to think about it and try to understand the main character's situation and keep my mind open about it.
Jordyn Michaelson has an autistic brother. When his school shuts down, he has to go to her school for the meantime. She doesn't acknowledge him at school to avoid embarrassment and bullying. Honestly, I don't like the way she ACTED in this book. I have this aching feeling on my chest that everything just wasn't right. I feel like she's ashamed of her brother and her evasiveness isn't helping at all.
I know it's not easy to take care a person with disability. It takes a LOT OF PATIENCE and UNDERSTANDING because these people need love and attention. It can be frustrating at times. People are all different in handling this kind of situation. To be honest, there are some people who are uncomfortable with it, some just pretend they don't exist and some are pretty understanding.
In fairness to this book, I like how it focuses on the family aspect and acceptance of having this kind of situation. A little love story between Jordyn and her best friend, Alex is okay. The chemistry wasn't bad nor good.. it's just..okay. I guess this book wasn't for me. I just couldn't connect with any of the characters (except for Jordyn's mother, whom I salute for being understanding and patient in dealing with her son's situation).
It's hard to review thought-provoking books because I'm afraid I might offend anyone about my opinion. I have to think about it and try to understand the main character's situation and keep my mind open about it.
Jordyn Michaelson has an autistic brother. When his school shuts down, he has to go to her school for the meantime. She doesn't acknowledge him at school to avoid embarrassment and bullying. Honestly, I don't like the way she ACTED in this book. I have this aching feeling on my chest that everything just wasn't right. I feel like she's ashamed of her brother and her evasiveness isn't helping at all.
I know it's not easy to take care a person with disability. It takes a LOT OF PATIENCE and UNDERSTANDING because these people need love and attention. It can be frustrating at times. People are all different in handling this kind of situation. To be honest, there are some people who are uncomfortable with it, some just pretend they don't exist and some are pretty understanding.
In fairness to this book, I like how it focuses on the family aspect and acceptance of having this kind of situation. A little love story between Jordyn and her best friend, Alex is okay. The chemistry wasn't bad nor good.. it's just..okay. I guess this book wasn't for me. I just couldn't connect with any of the characters (except for Jordyn's mother, whom I salute for being understanding and patient in dealing with her son's situation).
May 27, 2015
This book was on the first page of my Kindle when I turned it on while waiting for my daughter's swim lesson to finish this morning. The title caught my eye so I began reading it not knowing what it was about and a few hours later I have finished it.
As the mother of special needs child I could relate to many of the feeling that both the mother and sister experienced in this story. While there is a typical teen romance within the pages of this book it is backed by a deeper story line that those who live with special needs individuals can likely relate to. I loved seeing the growth in Jordyn as she learned to speak up. And of course Alex was very swoon worthy.
Content: Some language scattered throughout including a couple uses of the F word. Otherwise clean.
Source: Netgalley
As the mother of special needs child I could relate to many of the feeling that both the mother and sister experienced in this story. While there is a typical teen romance within the pages of this book it is backed by a deeper story line that those who live with special needs individuals can likely relate to. I loved seeing the growth in Jordyn as she learned to speak up. And of course Alex was very swoon worthy.
Content: Some language scattered throughout including a couple uses of the F word. Otherwise clean.
Source: Netgalley
April 10, 2016
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What did I just read? Guys, this book is sooooooooo good. I was expecting a cutesy romance, but oh no, How to Say I Love You Out Loud is so much more. It's a book about acceptance, bravery and love. And I loved every single page of it(let's tally how many times I say love). Swoon Reads has delivered some cute and cheesy reads thus far. I've definitely liked what I've read so far. But still colour me surprised upon finishing How to Say I Love You Out Loud and realizing how well written and just on point this book is.
We meet Jordyn as she's start her junior year. As with her previous year at her high school she just wants to blend in well keeping her grades up and playing field hockey. Oh and she's also trying really hard to keep her feelings for her best friend, Alex under wraps. Which is becoming harder and harder, especially when he starts dating field hockey captain and senior, Leighton. As mentioned, Jordyn wants to be seen as little as possible, which means hiding her home life and her autistic brother, Phillip. Everything starts to change when, Phillip is sent to Jordyn's high school and she realizes she can no longer hide behind her hair. It's finally time that she speaks up about Phillip, Alex and what's important to her.
The funny thing with Jordyn is I can't remember there being a detailed description of her. Which fits really well with her whole blending in. If the reader couldn't tell her apart from her classmates than she's accomplishing her goal. I really really liked Jordyn. How to Say I Love You Out Loud was about Jordyn learning to embrace her life and not be afraid to speak out for herself and the people she loves, even when most of society will not understand. Jordyn could be super frustrating at times, but it's what made her realistic and relatable. She of course loves Phillip. But at a young age when your best friend turns the whole grade on you, ostracizes you because of your brother it can leave a lasting scar. See Phillip is on the spectrum of autism where he's very sensitive to noise. Well he's a very smart boy, his speech has not developed well. Phillip can talk, but most of what he says(and it's very little) usually would not make sense. His family has learned to interpret his sayings, whether it's a line from his favourite movie or what not. But Jordyn has never told her friends about her brother. I didn't see it as shameful or embarrassed. I saw it more as a girl who was scared of what her friends and classmates would say. And that become very prevalent when Phillip is moved to her school and their classmates think it's wrong that crazies and retards should be allowed there.
Now here's the thing, I could so see where Jordyn was coming from. And that's what made her character progression so wonderful. There wasn't this one light bulb moment. It was over the course of the book that different people in her life gave her the courage to be brave. Like I mentioned earlier, this wasn't some cutesy romance(although the romance was cute). It was really about Jordyn learning to use her voice, especially on behalf of a brother that can't. It was great that all the characters were there as points to move her character development forward. I'll get into Alex in a moment. But Jordyn's parents are the kind of parents I need to see more of in YA. Especially her mom. What a strong and positive lady. Even when Jordyn was being a jerk about Phillip her mom would just show her how great of a kid he is.
I think my favourite bits were Leighton the "mean girl". Even though I far from liked her, she was loud and self centered even when she was being unintentional about it. Like when Leighton called Jordyn out about not sticking up for Phillip as she was being absolutely horrendous about him. She managed to bring Jordyn down but still make it about herself. How could Jordyn let Leighton say that shit in front of her, it doesn't make her(Leighton) look good. It was so manipulative yet absolutely what needed to be said to Jordyn.
Lets talk about the romance, because Alex is a whole bunch of swoon. When I say he's one of the most kind, generous and sweetest boys, I am not lying. Just an all around good guy. Totally know why Jordyn was crushing on him. The poor guy is also totally in love with Jordyn. But seeing as she's trying to blend in, that's stopped her from letting the relationship develop beyond friendship. Alex still doesn't push her, He's just supportive and caring. He wants Jordyn to see herself like he sees her. Alex wants her to see herself as brave. Alex wants her to be able to learn to depend and share herself more with the ones she loves. And it's all just so effing sweet. Seriously guys, Alex is adorable and I need him to present himself on my door step.
I was just so wonderfully and ecstatically surprised by how on point How to Say I Love You Out Loud was. It really is such a good feeling when you go into a book expecting one thing and get so much more. Jordyn learning to realize not everyone is going to understand Phillip, is okay. What matters is that she loves him and that she uses her voice to help people understand. I just love myself a positive message that comes from such a brilliant character journey.
What did I just read? Guys, this book is sooooooooo good. I was expecting a cutesy romance, but oh no, How to Say I Love You Out Loud is so much more. It's a book about acceptance, bravery and love. And I loved every single page of it(let's tally how many times I say love). Swoon Reads has delivered some cute and cheesy reads thus far. I've definitely liked what I've read so far. But still colour me surprised upon finishing How to Say I Love You Out Loud and realizing how well written and just on point this book is.
We meet Jordyn as she's start her junior year. As with her previous year at her high school she just wants to blend in well keeping her grades up and playing field hockey. Oh and she's also trying really hard to keep her feelings for her best friend, Alex under wraps. Which is becoming harder and harder, especially when he starts dating field hockey captain and senior, Leighton. As mentioned, Jordyn wants to be seen as little as possible, which means hiding her home life and her autistic brother, Phillip. Everything starts to change when, Phillip is sent to Jordyn's high school and she realizes she can no longer hide behind her hair. It's finally time that she speaks up about Phillip, Alex and what's important to her.
The funny thing with Jordyn is I can't remember there being a detailed description of her. Which fits really well with her whole blending in. If the reader couldn't tell her apart from her classmates than she's accomplishing her goal. I really really liked Jordyn. How to Say I Love You Out Loud was about Jordyn learning to embrace her life and not be afraid to speak out for herself and the people she loves, even when most of society will not understand. Jordyn could be super frustrating at times, but it's what made her realistic and relatable. She of course loves Phillip. But at a young age when your best friend turns the whole grade on you, ostracizes you because of your brother it can leave a lasting scar. See Phillip is on the spectrum of autism where he's very sensitive to noise. Well he's a very smart boy, his speech has not developed well. Phillip can talk, but most of what he says(and it's very little) usually would not make sense. His family has learned to interpret his sayings, whether it's a line from his favourite movie or what not. But Jordyn has never told her friends about her brother. I didn't see it as shameful or embarrassed. I saw it more as a girl who was scared of what her friends and classmates would say. And that become very prevalent when Phillip is moved to her school and their classmates think it's wrong that crazies and retards should be allowed there.
Now here's the thing, I could so see where Jordyn was coming from. And that's what made her character progression so wonderful. There wasn't this one light bulb moment. It was over the course of the book that different people in her life gave her the courage to be brave. Like I mentioned earlier, this wasn't some cutesy romance(although the romance was cute). It was really about Jordyn learning to use her voice, especially on behalf of a brother that can't. It was great that all the characters were there as points to move her character development forward. I'll get into Alex in a moment. But Jordyn's parents are the kind of parents I need to see more of in YA. Especially her mom. What a strong and positive lady. Even when Jordyn was being a jerk about Phillip her mom would just show her how great of a kid he is.
I think my favourite bits were Leighton the "mean girl". Even though I far from liked her, she was loud and self centered even when she was being unintentional about it. Like when Leighton called Jordyn out about not sticking up for Phillip as she was being absolutely horrendous about him. She managed to bring Jordyn down but still make it about herself. How could Jordyn let Leighton say that shit in front of her, it doesn't make her(Leighton) look good. It was so manipulative yet absolutely what needed to be said to Jordyn.
Lets talk about the romance, because Alex is a whole bunch of swoon. When I say he's one of the most kind, generous and sweetest boys, I am not lying. Just an all around good guy. Totally know why Jordyn was crushing on him. The poor guy is also totally in love with Jordyn. But seeing as she's trying to blend in, that's stopped her from letting the relationship develop beyond friendship. Alex still doesn't push her, He's just supportive and caring. He wants Jordyn to see herself like he sees her. Alex wants her to see herself as brave. Alex wants her to be able to learn to depend and share herself more with the ones she loves. And it's all just so effing sweet. Seriously guys, Alex is adorable and I need him to present himself on my door step.
I was just so wonderfully and ecstatically surprised by how on point How to Say I Love You Out Loud was. It really is such a good feeling when you go into a book expecting one thing and get so much more. Jordyn learning to realize not everyone is going to understand Phillip, is okay. What matters is that she loves him and that she uses her voice to help people understand. I just love myself a positive message that comes from such a brilliant character journey.
August 5, 2015
Jordyn has recently joined a new school, where she’s making new friends and creating a new life for herself. Her worst fears come true when her autistic brother’s special school closes and he is therefore forced to join her school until a new school location is obtained for him. Jordyn loves her brother, but the thought of anyone finding out that her brother is autistic is beyond her imagination. She has kept this fact hidden for the entire summer and into the school year, and she fears having it known now.
The fact that Jordyn was ashamed of the fact that she had an autistic brother was a very real concern that I think many people are faced with. Whether it be autism or another disability, it’s tough for younger people to accept that it’s okay to have a differently-abled sibling or member of the family, and to not be embarrassed by their disability, but instead embrace it. It’s easy to hate Jordyn in this story and judge her for feeling the way she does, but it’s also important that we look at why she felt this way, and how she grew and changed her opinions throughout the story.
The characters in this story were so much fun. Jordyn, though completely lost and overly judgmental, was still easy for me to relate to. She had her issues that she really struggled with� but the struggle was real, and I could completely appreciate it. Alex, Jordyn’s friend that she met over the summer, was impossible not to fall in love with. He was such a wonderful friend and so supportive to no end. Phillip character was extremely important to this story as well, very realistically showing his struggles with his disability, as well a show it affected his entire family and everyone else surrounding him. The way the kids at school reacted to the incidents he was involved in seemed pretty accurate and honestly broke my heart at bit. It was nice to see the strong parental presence Jordyn’s mother had in her family. We don’t see that nearly enough in YA.
The swoon factor was definitely there� and it was strong!! I don’t want to say too much for fear of spoiling anything, but just know that despite the sensitive and extremely important issues that are discussed in this book, you will also find yourself giddy and swooning all over the place.
This was such a strong story that really stuck with me long after finishing. I think many people will benefit from this story, both for the message regarding children with autism and other disabilities, as well as learning to grow and become a better, understanding, and more loving person. The writing was strong and the story line was even stronger. I’m definitely looking forward to seeing what Karole Cozzo comes out with next!
(Thanks to Swoon Reads for the review copy!)
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The fact that Jordyn was ashamed of the fact that she had an autistic brother was a very real concern that I think many people are faced with. Whether it be autism or another disability, it’s tough for younger people to accept that it’s okay to have a differently-abled sibling or member of the family, and to not be embarrassed by their disability, but instead embrace it. It’s easy to hate Jordyn in this story and judge her for feeling the way she does, but it’s also important that we look at why she felt this way, and how she grew and changed her opinions throughout the story.
The characters in this story were so much fun. Jordyn, though completely lost and overly judgmental, was still easy for me to relate to. She had her issues that she really struggled with� but the struggle was real, and I could completely appreciate it. Alex, Jordyn’s friend that she met over the summer, was impossible not to fall in love with. He was such a wonderful friend and so supportive to no end. Phillip character was extremely important to this story as well, very realistically showing his struggles with his disability, as well a show it affected his entire family and everyone else surrounding him. The way the kids at school reacted to the incidents he was involved in seemed pretty accurate and honestly broke my heart at bit. It was nice to see the strong parental presence Jordyn’s mother had in her family. We don’t see that nearly enough in YA.
The swoon factor was definitely there� and it was strong!! I don’t want to say too much for fear of spoiling anything, but just know that despite the sensitive and extremely important issues that are discussed in this book, you will also find yourself giddy and swooning all over the place.
This was such a strong story that really stuck with me long after finishing. I think many people will benefit from this story, both for the message regarding children with autism and other disabilities, as well as learning to grow and become a better, understanding, and more loving person. The writing was strong and the story line was even stronger. I’m definitely looking forward to seeing what Karole Cozzo comes out with next!
(Thanks to Swoon Reads for the review copy!)
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May 30, 2015
Book: How To Say I Love You Out Loud
Author: Karole Cozzo
Finished Reading: May 29, 2015 (Friday)
Favorite Quote/s and Line/s:
- "But how can you miss someone you never really had. What right do you have to miss when you were the person who walked away from them." page 10
- "It's just hard hearing people make a joke out of your life. Some things aren't really that funny and sometimes people just have no idea." page 70
- "My life might not be perfect but I'm really glad it's mine" page 214
Review:
*I would like to thank Swoon Reads for gracing me an ARC of this book*
First of all, I would like to tell all of you to not to judge this book by its title.
You might say:
"Oh, there's the phrase "I LOVE YOU" in this book. Maybe it's another love story bla-bla."
"NAH, cliche love stories again."
"Just an ordinary contemporary to be published."
IF YOU THINK IT'S ONE OF THEM, THEN YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY WRONG.
You know what? The BEST thing that I really loved about this book is that it's family-oriented. Most probably 80% of this book revolved to Jordyn's family and I REALLY LOVE STORIES LIKE THAT.
Jordyn. Jordyn's afraid of being talked about. I don't want to be annoyed with her decision of not telling others that his brother is autistic. I even asked myself this, "If you were in Jordyn's position, would you rather introduce him to them or not?"
I still haven't thought of the right answer. It's really difficult. It's easy to say "YES" because you're not in Jordyn's position but let's think of the fact that not everyone in this world are open-minded and mature.
This book made me aware that we're so lucky to have a family. Even though we're experiencing undesirable things in life, we're so FREAKING lucky.
I once met a friend 8 years ago. He can't speak properly nor express his feelings through actions because he's a special child. We were doing our best to understand and to mingle with him. Some of my classmates were bullying him and it made me sad. They were very immature and very insensitive. What if they put themselves in his position and treat them the way they were treating the special child? Of course, they'll feel degraded. They'll definitely have self-despair.
Another thing that I really loved about this book is Alex Colby! He's my fave book boyfriend right now. I just wish he exists in real life. (YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN IF YOU'LL READ THE BOOK.)
This book comes out in August 2015 and you need to buy this ASAP. You'll thank Ms. Karole Cozzo for writing this book. This will always have a special place in my heart. IT'S BEYOND AMAZING.
Author: Karole Cozzo
Finished Reading: May 29, 2015 (Friday)
Favorite Quote/s and Line/s:
- "But how can you miss someone you never really had. What right do you have to miss when you were the person who walked away from them." page 10
- "It's just hard hearing people make a joke out of your life. Some things aren't really that funny and sometimes people just have no idea." page 70
- "My life might not be perfect but I'm really glad it's mine" page 214
Review:
*I would like to thank Swoon Reads for gracing me an ARC of this book*
First of all, I would like to tell all of you to not to judge this book by its title.
You might say:
"Oh, there's the phrase "I LOVE YOU" in this book. Maybe it's another love story bla-bla."
"NAH, cliche love stories again."
"Just an ordinary contemporary to be published."
IF YOU THINK IT'S ONE OF THEM, THEN YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY WRONG.
You know what? The BEST thing that I really loved about this book is that it's family-oriented. Most probably 80% of this book revolved to Jordyn's family and I REALLY LOVE STORIES LIKE THAT.
Jordyn. Jordyn's afraid of being talked about. I don't want to be annoyed with her decision of not telling others that his brother is autistic. I even asked myself this, "If you were in Jordyn's position, would you rather introduce him to them or not?"
I still haven't thought of the right answer. It's really difficult. It's easy to say "YES" because you're not in Jordyn's position but let's think of the fact that not everyone in this world are open-minded and mature.
This book made me aware that we're so lucky to have a family. Even though we're experiencing undesirable things in life, we're so FREAKING lucky.
I once met a friend 8 years ago. He can't speak properly nor express his feelings through actions because he's a special child. We were doing our best to understand and to mingle with him. Some of my classmates were bullying him and it made me sad. They were very immature and very insensitive. What if they put themselves in his position and treat them the way they were treating the special child? Of course, they'll feel degraded. They'll definitely have self-despair.
Another thing that I really loved about this book is Alex Colby! He's my fave book boyfriend right now. I just wish he exists in real life. (YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN IF YOU'LL READ THE BOOK.)
This book comes out in August 2015 and you need to buy this ASAP. You'll thank Ms. Karole Cozzo for writing this book. This will always have a special place in my heart. IT'S BEYOND AMAZING.
August 14, 2017
So after reading (and loving) How to Keep Rolling After a Fall, a little over a week ago, I made it my mission to get ahold of this book, and might I say, I was not disappointed.
How to Say I Love You Out Loud is about the life of Jordyn Michelson, a junior who is ready to tackle the new school year. But circumstances fall into place and the one thing Jordyn dreaded the most is now a reality: Phillip, her autistic brother is now transferred to her school. Jordyn desperately tries to escape any association with her brother, fearful that her best friend, Erin and not-so-secret-but-totally-adorable-crush, Alex will find out the truth about her family and shun her forever. Jordyn must make a decision and choose whether to hide her family life from her closest friends or risk their friendships all together.
So, I’ve seen a lot a lot of reviews going on and on about Jordyn’s unacceptable behaviour towards her brother and to that I want to say . . . she’s acting just like a teenager.
(Seeing as I still am a teenager myself, so I am warranted to say this) Teenagers are moody. They’re selfish and make a bad decision, then they brood and stomp off when they think life is being unfair to them. Time passes and they consider what they’ve done, feel like crap for their actions and try to rectify the situation through an apology or something similar. That is how teenagers act, and that is how I saw Jordyn in this book. As a girl who’s been living in the shadows of her brother for fifteen years, putting up with embarrassing situations in public, and frustrated how she always seems to come second on her parent’s list of priorities.
I loved how the author chose to explore the concept of autism this way. We’re not seeing autism first hand like in the Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time and we’re not exploring autism through a parent or teacher or caregiver, we’re seeing autism through the life of a sibling and that’s what makes it all the more profound and real.
This was a genuine story that warmed my heart and had me slightly emotional towards the end. Would totally recommend.
“It's really hard to say the words I love you when you know you'll likely never hear them back�
4 stars!!
September 11, 2015
A HUGE thank you to Lynne from Words of Mystery for giving me her copy <3
AMAZING!!!!
The second I heard about this book I knew it would be good!! Karole Cozzo did NOT disappointed! I'm already impatiently waiting until 2016 to get my hands on How to Keep Rolling After a Fall. I need to get my hands on a finished copy...as soon as Chapters actually gets some in stock -_-
Full review to come.
AMAZING!!!!
The second I heard about this book I knew it would be good!! Karole Cozzo did NOT disappointed! I'm already impatiently waiting until 2016 to get my hands on How to Keep Rolling After a Fall. I need to get my hands on a finished copy...as soon as Chapters actually gets some in stock -_-
Full review to come.
March 6, 2021
4.5 Stars
How to Say I Love You Out Loud by Karole Cozzo is a heartfelt story that will tug at your heart strings. This book fits perfectly into the contemporary realistic fictional genre, as it contains a touching story that really educates its readers. Through its themes, identifiable main character and beautiful plot, readers will be drawn into this book and be left full of inspiration.
Karole Cozzo has created a story that truly digs deep into the themes of disability and family. Jordyn’s brother, Phillip, in How to Say I Love You Out Loud, has autism and is sent to go to his sister’s school. Phillip is bullied due to his disability and called many names. As the book progresses, the theme of family becomes more significant as readers become aware that neither Phillip or his family are not about to let a disability define him.
Jordyn is a very identifiable main character for How to Say I Love You Out Loud. She is shy, not very confident, and afraid of getting close to anyone. However, Jordyn slowly gains more confidence and becomes more outgoing. Jordyn is also quite clever, yet flawed at the same time, making her easy to relate to. She knows not to mess with the captain of the girls hockey team, but she lacks a bit of common sense. She doesn’t tell anyone that the “weird kid in the hallway� is her brother, which is heartbreaking, but understandable in some way.
One aspect that really pulls this book together is Karole Cozzo’s writing style. This story is so well crafted that it makes reading a story that educates very enjoyable. The title might throw some people off, but romance is actually not at the heart of this novel. The relationship between the title and the plot will become more apparent as readers get to the heart of the story.
An inspirational novel that has the perfect combination of message, character development and plot. It leaves you with all sorts of feels. If you enjoy books that entertain and educate at the same time, this beautiful book will suit your needs.
March 30, 2016
Once again, this is a book I added to my "currently reading" shelf after having finished it because it only took me an evening to read it. It was sooooo worth it, though, because this might be one of my favourite YA novels I read this year.
July 29, 2015
This review and more can be found on my blog, .
***I received a free copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. This has in no way changed my opinion of the book. The review below is my open and honest opinion.***
The synopsis of this book really doesn’t do it justice. It makes it sound like this is all about the romance between Jordyn and Alex when really this story is about so much more. It’s not a cutesy, fluffy love story. I mean it is. But it has a depth that I wasn’t expecting. A depth that surprised and touched me.
This story is about a girl who is living behind walls of steel. She doesn’t let anyone in because she doesn’t want to be hurt. She hides who she truly is behind these walls and refuses to reveal the truth to anyone. Especially about her autistic brother, Phillip, who can be super embarrassing. I imagine that going through high school with a brother that is severely autistic would be extremely difficult. Kids are mean. They’re nasty. And even when they shouldn’t they still make fun. And at first, I was really mad that Jordyn wanted to keep her brother hidden from everyone at her school. Because I’m the type of person who defends her siblings to the death. So I didn’t understand how she could sit around while people called her brother a freak and say nothing. But I don’t really understand what she was going through not being in her situation myself.
So what this story really focuses on, more so than the romance, is Jordyn’s ability to accept herself for who she is. To learn how to love herself. Love her brother. And how to admit that to the world around her. She has to learn how to stop caring what other people think. She has to learn how to say I love you out loud. And her character growth was beautiful. There were several passages I highlighted in my Kindle because the writing was so gorgeous and there were just so many lessons to take from this book.
Lessons on giving everybody the same opportunities regardless of their situation. Lessons on the importance of accepting your family, flaws and all. Accepting yourself. Being open and honest no matter what people may say. Letting people in even when it’s terrifying. I want this book to be in classrooms because I think teens can learn a lot from it. An amazing story of acceptance, equality, tolerance, self-esteem, honesty and love.
***I received a free copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. This has in no way changed my opinion of the book. The review below is my open and honest opinion.***
The synopsis of this book really doesn’t do it justice. It makes it sound like this is all about the romance between Jordyn and Alex when really this story is about so much more. It’s not a cutesy, fluffy love story. I mean it is. But it has a depth that I wasn’t expecting. A depth that surprised and touched me.
This story is about a girl who is living behind walls of steel. She doesn’t let anyone in because she doesn’t want to be hurt. She hides who she truly is behind these walls and refuses to reveal the truth to anyone. Especially about her autistic brother, Phillip, who can be super embarrassing. I imagine that going through high school with a brother that is severely autistic would be extremely difficult. Kids are mean. They’re nasty. And even when they shouldn’t they still make fun. And at first, I was really mad that Jordyn wanted to keep her brother hidden from everyone at her school. Because I’m the type of person who defends her siblings to the death. So I didn’t understand how she could sit around while people called her brother a freak and say nothing. But I don’t really understand what she was going through not being in her situation myself.
So what this story really focuses on, more so than the romance, is Jordyn’s ability to accept herself for who she is. To learn how to love herself. Love her brother. And how to admit that to the world around her. She has to learn how to stop caring what other people think. She has to learn how to say I love you out loud. And her character growth was beautiful. There were several passages I highlighted in my Kindle because the writing was so gorgeous and there were just so many lessons to take from this book.
Lessons on giving everybody the same opportunities regardless of their situation. Lessons on the importance of accepting your family, flaws and all. Accepting yourself. Being open and honest no matter what people may say. Letting people in even when it’s terrifying. I want this book to be in classrooms because I think teens can learn a lot from it. An amazing story of acceptance, equality, tolerance, self-esteem, honesty and love.
April 9, 2014
This story was a joy to read. The main character, Jordyn, goes through a lot of challenges living with an autistic brother, but she learns a great lesson about life from him. Jordyn is afraid to let people get close to her because she’s been hurt in the past, but she overcomes her fears and grows from the experience.
The boy she falls for, Alex, is attractive not only for his good looks, but also for his kind heart. It’s tough watching Jordyn shut him out to protect herself from potential heartbreak and “girl drama� at her new school, but he keeps giving her chances. When she finally gains the courage to face her fears and grow as a person, the rewards are immense for Jordyn and those closest to her.
There is an important lesson about tolerance in this story, and YA readers will appreciate the well-written way it’s revealed. I have a mildly autistic son, and would encourage my daughter to read this story once she’s old enough to understand it. I also liked the insight we gain about Jordyn’s mom and what she goes through as a parent of an autistic child. It was very realistic and accurate in my opinion. And as a teacher, I’d definitely recommend this story to students.
Great read!
The boy she falls for, Alex, is attractive not only for his good looks, but also for his kind heart. It’s tough watching Jordyn shut him out to protect herself from potential heartbreak and “girl drama� at her new school, but he keeps giving her chances. When she finally gains the courage to face her fears and grow as a person, the rewards are immense for Jordyn and those closest to her.
There is an important lesson about tolerance in this story, and YA readers will appreciate the well-written way it’s revealed. I have a mildly autistic son, and would encourage my daughter to read this story once she’s old enough to understand it. I also liked the insight we gain about Jordyn’s mom and what she goes through as a parent of an autistic child. It was very realistic and accurate in my opinion. And as a teacher, I’d definitely recommend this story to students.
Great read!
March 26, 2015
Saying I loved this book does not do it justice! I read it on my plane ride back home, and when it moved me to tears, I just sat there and cried. I could not stop reading. The story is so beautiful and realistically portrays teenagers and their desire to fit in. In a way, it reminded me of the ever famous "Wonder" by R.J. Palacio- as someone who has been labeled as "different" navigates through the teenage saga of being exactly like everyone around you. HTSILYOL brings real emotions to the complexities of differences. I feel like everyone should read it for the perspective.
I also appreciated Cozzo's knack for real life situations--- the autistic brother doesn't get magically "cured" or suddenly have a big connection... he is who he is... and that is more than okay. The book is not about him, it's really about a girl learning to be a sister, a friend, a girl, and a woman.
I received an ARC copy for Netgalley.
I also appreciated Cozzo's knack for real life situations--- the autistic brother doesn't get magically "cured" or suddenly have a big connection... he is who he is... and that is more than okay. The book is not about him, it's really about a girl learning to be a sister, a friend, a girl, and a woman.
I received an ARC copy for Netgalley.
February 9, 2015
3.5 stars
It was easy to dislike Jordyn, yet it was even easier to recognize her feelings and thoughts as valid. I don't know anyone who is autistic, but I imagine the struggle she has with Phillip is fairly accurate. Reading Jordyn's journey as she finds her own way kept me turning the pages.
There were some sweet swoons and a pretty awesome ending. All in all, it was a compelling story and a quick read.
**Huge thanks to Swoon Reads for sending me the arc**
It was easy to dislike Jordyn, yet it was even easier to recognize her feelings and thoughts as valid. I don't know anyone who is autistic, but I imagine the struggle she has with Phillip is fairly accurate. Reading Jordyn's journey as she finds her own way kept me turning the pages.
There were some sweet swoons and a pretty awesome ending. All in all, it was a compelling story and a quick read.
**Huge thanks to Swoon Reads for sending me the arc**
June 17, 2017
Me gustó....sÃ. Tiene cosas muy rescatables , como que no abusa del personaje bully, no tiene un romance tan meloso, y al final hay un discurso con palabras muy significativas...
Pero nunca logré conectarme emocionalmente con Jordyn, de hecho nunca entendà sus decisiones con respecto a Alex...
No llegó a mi alma
Pero nunca logré conectarme emocionalmente con Jordyn, de hecho nunca entendà sus decisiones con respecto a Alex...
No llegó a mi alma
September 2, 2015
2.75 ANNOYING + HEART-WRENCHING stars.
As one of the most difficult books to rate in my opinion, sure did evoke a truckload of emotions in me. For that, I decided to give it an actual review, which I'm not sure whether I'm doing its justice or turning people against it by writing.
To be honest, before , I'd never encountered a book whose last 25% managed to engage me so fervently that tears just kept pouring out of my eyes, exhausting my emotions and having me wanting to write for it, despite the fact that its first 75% annoyed the hell of out me and almost discouraged me from continuing. It is not a sad book though; it just gave me so many feels, both good and bad ones.
is about the journey to acceptance of young Jordyn Michaelson, whose younger brother suffers from autism, causing her a lot of trouble getting close to people, as she fears that they will not wish to be entangled into her life once discovering how freakish her autistic brother is. What's more, she is perfectly content not drawing any attention to herself at school, determined to keep her brother's condition and their blood relation a secret, even when an expected turn of event forces him to go to her school.
Jordyn is a nice girl; and that's how Alex, the desirable and likable love interest, sees her, while I most fiercely disagree. Reading her thoughts and struggle, I could only see an unlikable hypocrite, at least during the first 12 out of 14 chapters the book has to offer; that is.
At school, Jordyn keeps to herself and stays entirely in the background on every occassion. She denies Alex, thinking about Alex's bitchy and popular girlfriend and her brother's freakishness. She won't share anything noteworthy with her best friend - Erin, because of her family issue, which is, again, her brother's sickness. She never steps up for herself during the minor bullying sections conducted by Leighton, Alex's girlfriend. She is weak, cowering in front of everyone and everything, unable to stand whispers behind her back. Most of all, she listens to people making fun of her brother every day and yet never makes the least bit of effort to defend him, for fear of humiliation. Seriously, the girl perfectly fits the definition of the most despicable character in my dictionary.
While Jordyn goes out of her way voluntarily doing social services, bringing joys to other kids, who are, by the way, perfectly healthy, and even making a nice guy - Alex, fall for her because of that, all her brother, Phillip, gets is her annoyance every time her mom asks her to do something concerning him. It might be a family dinner, a shared period of time at her school, or a participation in a ceremony for autistic kids who are academically brilliant; whatever the case, she is always reluctant.
She complains about Phillip getting all the attention from their parents while she, a healthy youngster, can't even grant her brother some sisterly affection just for the fact that they comes from the same parents. For heaven's sake, does that sit well with you? It sure as hell did not with me.
The fact that your brother is an autistic child and a weirdo doesn't justify your ignoring and avoiding him. It's not like he carries a contagious disease that requires a certain distance be kept; nor is he always trying to humiliate you in front of others. He is sick, and he needs to be understood. And Jordyn can't seem to get it, which just irritated me to no avail.
I hated her for that. In fact, my antagonism lasted untill the % mark, where her effort at had a big part of my pillow soaked in tears, changing my negative judgement on her character.
It was such a thought provoking scene I couldn't help shedding my tears over, and at the same time started to appreciate Jordyn's character development. I don't know if is even considered a twist, but what a beautiful twist that is! All this must have been planned by the author, and I applaud her for that. Though I can't say I liked Jordyn more after the event. She is still that insecure girl who continues to annoy me despite everything. I did understand her reasoning better, though. So that must count some bits in my favor.
In conslusion, I am not sure whether or not I liked this book. I did not actually enjoy it, because of the annoyance the MC caused me; that is. However, I recognized the author's effort in making the story believable. It is frustrating, yes, but it also has a few moments of glory, namely . I am not going to tell you if you should read this book, as I don't think it is an easy call to make. I'll leave it to you then.
As one of the most difficult books to rate in my opinion, sure did evoke a truckload of emotions in me. For that, I decided to give it an actual review, which I'm not sure whether I'm doing its justice or turning people against it by writing.
To be honest, before , I'd never encountered a book whose last 25% managed to engage me so fervently that tears just kept pouring out of my eyes, exhausting my emotions and having me wanting to write for it, despite the fact that its first 75% annoyed the hell of out me and almost discouraged me from continuing. It is not a sad book though; it just gave me so many feels, both good and bad ones.
is about the journey to acceptance of young Jordyn Michaelson, whose younger brother suffers from autism, causing her a lot of trouble getting close to people, as she fears that they will not wish to be entangled into her life once discovering how freakish her autistic brother is. What's more, she is perfectly content not drawing any attention to herself at school, determined to keep her brother's condition and their blood relation a secret, even when an expected turn of event forces him to go to her school.
Jordyn is a nice girl; and that's how Alex, the desirable and likable love interest, sees her, while I most fiercely disagree. Reading her thoughts and struggle, I could only see an unlikable hypocrite, at least during the first 12 out of 14 chapters the book has to offer; that is.
At school, Jordyn keeps to herself and stays entirely in the background on every occassion. She denies Alex, thinking about Alex's bitchy and popular girlfriend and her brother's freakishness. She won't share anything noteworthy with her best friend - Erin, because of her family issue, which is, again, her brother's sickness. She never steps up for herself during the minor bullying sections conducted by Leighton, Alex's girlfriend. She is weak, cowering in front of everyone and everything, unable to stand whispers behind her back. Most of all, she listens to people making fun of her brother every day and yet never makes the least bit of effort to defend him, for fear of humiliation. Seriously, the girl perfectly fits the definition of the most despicable character in my dictionary.
While Jordyn goes out of her way voluntarily doing social services, bringing joys to other kids, who are, by the way, perfectly healthy, and even making a nice guy - Alex, fall for her because of that, all her brother, Phillip, gets is her annoyance every time her mom asks her to do something concerning him. It might be a family dinner, a shared period of time at her school, or a participation in a ceremony for autistic kids who are academically brilliant; whatever the case, she is always reluctant.
She complains about Phillip getting all the attention from their parents while she, a healthy youngster, can't even grant her brother some sisterly affection just for the fact that they comes from the same parents. For heaven's sake, does that sit well with you? It sure as hell did not with me.
The fact that your brother is an autistic child and a weirdo doesn't justify your ignoring and avoiding him. It's not like he carries a contagious disease that requires a certain distance be kept; nor is he always trying to humiliate you in front of others. He is sick, and he needs to be understood. And Jordyn can't seem to get it, which just irritated me to no avail.
I hated her for that. In fact, my antagonism lasted untill the % mark, where her effort at had a big part of my pillow soaked in tears, changing my negative judgement on her character.
It was such a thought provoking scene I couldn't help shedding my tears over, and at the same time started to appreciate Jordyn's character development. I don't know if is even considered a twist, but what a beautiful twist that is! All this must have been planned by the author, and I applaud her for that. Though I can't say I liked Jordyn more after the event. She is still that insecure girl who continues to annoy me despite everything. I did understand her reasoning better, though. So that must count some bits in my favor.
In conslusion, I am not sure whether or not I liked this book. I did not actually enjoy it, because of the annoyance the MC caused me; that is. However, I recognized the author's effort in making the story believable. It is frustrating, yes, but it also has a few moments of glory, namely . I am not going to tell you if you should read this book, as I don't think it is an easy call to make. I'll leave it to you then.
October 21, 2016
Review
After reading and loving ÌýI knew I had to pick up Karole Cozzo's first book. I got exactly what I thought I would - an adorable book with a flawed but relatable main lady who grows and learns some life lessons all while there is a swoon-worthy boy that has her attention. I mean what is not to love???
Jordyn has kept her autistic brother's existence a secret from the kids at her newish school but that all changes when he unexpectedly has to attend there for a while. She still tried to hide this, even from her closest friends, including Alex. While Alex is a friend, Jordyn can't stop thinking about a kiss they shared and what it would be like to be with him. Can she figure out how to balance her two worlds before she loses them both?
I will say that while Jordyn ignoring the fact she had an autistic brother to her friends at school was pretty awful, I think it she explains throughout the book why she came to that decision. Not saying it was a good one but I understood, especially at the age when I know I didn't make the best decisions at all. Still, you could she was a good person overall. I was glad to see her grow and come to accept her brother and how her family has to be and do things because of him. I just wish she could have trusted some of her friends from the beginning and had support for all her feelings and how difficult it was for her.
I was happy to see a lot of the family presence in this book, especially Jordyn and her mom. I felt a lot of their interactions were very authentic and I felt for both of them. There was one point I got kind emotional about it. I think being a mom has done that to me!
While all that was happening we were treated to the swoon-worthy Alex, her friend and obvious crush. I mean he seemed downright perfect and I didn't blame her at all for having feelings for him. He was good looking, popular but also cared about doing good in the world and all that jazz. Of course, he is taken and that is just another thing in the way of them getting together. Also, his girlfriend was an awful human being and I hated her pretty intensely.
Overall this is a really quick, adorable read with a lot of heart and character growth. I can't wait for Karole Cozzo's next book!
After reading and loving ÌýI knew I had to pick up Karole Cozzo's first book. I got exactly what I thought I would - an adorable book with a flawed but relatable main lady who grows and learns some life lessons all while there is a swoon-worthy boy that has her attention. I mean what is not to love???
Jordyn has kept her autistic brother's existence a secret from the kids at her newish school but that all changes when he unexpectedly has to attend there for a while. She still tried to hide this, even from her closest friends, including Alex. While Alex is a friend, Jordyn can't stop thinking about a kiss they shared and what it would be like to be with him. Can she figure out how to balance her two worlds before she loses them both?
I will say that while Jordyn ignoring the fact she had an autistic brother to her friends at school was pretty awful, I think it she explains throughout the book why she came to that decision. Not saying it was a good one but I understood, especially at the age when I know I didn't make the best decisions at all. Still, you could she was a good person overall. I was glad to see her grow and come to accept her brother and how her family has to be and do things because of him. I just wish she could have trusted some of her friends from the beginning and had support for all her feelings and how difficult it was for her.
I was happy to see a lot of the family presence in this book, especially Jordyn and her mom. I felt a lot of their interactions were very authentic and I felt for both of them. There was one point I got kind emotional about it. I think being a mom has done that to me!
While all that was happening we were treated to the swoon-worthy Alex, her friend and obvious crush. I mean he seemed downright perfect and I didn't blame her at all for having feelings for him. He was good looking, popular but also cared about doing good in the world and all that jazz. Of course, he is taken and that is just another thing in the way of them getting together. Also, his girlfriend was an awful human being and I hated her pretty intensely.
Overall this is a really quick, adorable read with a lot of heart and character growth. I can't wait for Karole Cozzo's next book!
July 27, 2015
Thank you to Netgalley for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for my honest review.
How to Say I Love You Out Loud is Karole's debut novel and it did not disappoint. It was a really short read but it left me wanting so much more. I didn't want it to end -- even if I was crying my eyes out. Let's start with the writing! It was simple and beautiful. It was easy to read and easy to get into the groove. I was able to pick it up right away and I couldn't put it down after. I really liked that the voice of the book really matched the age of the main character.
I really liked the concept and plot of the book. The funny thing is that I picked up this book not fully knowing that it was on autism -- I picked it for the title and the cover! I have yet to read a book with these themes and I'm glad this was my first. This book is pretty heavy. We have our main character who is internally struggling with herself because she loves her younger brother who has autism but at the same time she is so embarrassed by him that she lies about his existence to the people closest to her. In doing so, she alienates herself from her best friends Alex and Erin. After finding out how she feels about her brother, I thought I would despise Jordyn because how could you feel that way towards your younger brother who doesn't know any better. However, I was surprised to see that she was easy to relate to. I actually really like her and her character development was very inspiring -- it's actually my favorite part of the book.
Another stellar thing about this book is that the romance takes more of a backseat in the story. It's still very important and it's still there but it balances out real well with Jordyn's issue with her brother. The three different kinds of love displayed in this book were very well-written. I love the romance with Alex, it wasn't exactly instant and it really built up a lot of anticipation. Alex, oh Alex. I am in love with you. He was absolutely perfect.
I really am in love with this book. It has affected me so greatly. I cried because of how much I relate to Jordyn and always being in the background and never risking anything. I loved it because it reminded me of this kid I liked and just how freaking awesome he is. It was a beautiful, powerful, and impactful book.
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How to Say I Love You Out Loud is Karole's debut novel and it did not disappoint. It was a really short read but it left me wanting so much more. I didn't want it to end -- even if I was crying my eyes out. Let's start with the writing! It was simple and beautiful. It was easy to read and easy to get into the groove. I was able to pick it up right away and I couldn't put it down after. I really liked that the voice of the book really matched the age of the main character.
I really liked the concept and plot of the book. The funny thing is that I picked up this book not fully knowing that it was on autism -- I picked it for the title and the cover! I have yet to read a book with these themes and I'm glad this was my first. This book is pretty heavy. We have our main character who is internally struggling with herself because she loves her younger brother who has autism but at the same time she is so embarrassed by him that she lies about his existence to the people closest to her. In doing so, she alienates herself from her best friends Alex and Erin. After finding out how she feels about her brother, I thought I would despise Jordyn because how could you feel that way towards your younger brother who doesn't know any better. However, I was surprised to see that she was easy to relate to. I actually really like her and her character development was very inspiring -- it's actually my favorite part of the book.
Another stellar thing about this book is that the romance takes more of a backseat in the story. It's still very important and it's still there but it balances out real well with Jordyn's issue with her brother. The three different kinds of love displayed in this book were very well-written. I love the romance with Alex, it wasn't exactly instant and it really built up a lot of anticipation. Alex, oh Alex. I am in love with you. He was absolutely perfect.
I really am in love with this book. It has affected me so greatly. I cried because of how much I relate to Jordyn and always being in the background and never risking anything. I loved it because it reminded me of this kid I liked and just how freaking awesome he is. It was a beautiful, powerful, and impactful book.
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October 28, 2015
I enjoyed reading this book a lot and it made my eyes teary. haha.
Jordyn is definitely not a main character you'd love at first. The way she treated her autistic brother just because of some incident when she was on 3rd grade and how the same incident made her closed herself from so many opportunities.. However, it is understandable and some people are so easy to get traumatic or so difficult to forgive and forget just like Jordyn. So yeah, it makes sense.
What makes me give 5 stars for this book is how the author developed Jordyn's character and realistic portrayal of living with autistic family member. The author really did the job well. And the romance is--like the publisher's name--swoonworthy. Alex, the main male character, is actually too good to be true but still okay. I like him and really feel his desperation. hahaha..
A must read, especially for people with autistic family member. prepare tissue!
Review on my blog:
Jordyn is definitely not a main character you'd love at first. The way she treated her autistic brother just because of some incident when she was on 3rd grade and how the same incident made her closed herself from so many opportunities.. However, it is understandable and some people are so easy to get traumatic or so difficult to forgive and forget just like Jordyn. So yeah, it makes sense.
What makes me give 5 stars for this book is how the author developed Jordyn's character and realistic portrayal of living with autistic family member. The author really did the job well. And the romance is--like the publisher's name--swoonworthy. Alex, the main male character, is actually too good to be true but still okay. I like him and really feel his desperation. hahaha..
A must read, especially for people with autistic family member. prepare tissue!
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April 8, 2018
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How to Say I Love You Out Loud by Karole Cozzo
I received this book for NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
I am absolutely apalled at how the main character treated her autistic brother. I myself am related to several people with autism and I would never act the way Jordyn does towards Philip. I stopped reading this book at 19% and read the end because I could not stand how she treated her brother. I would not recommend this book at all and maybe try and steer others away from reading this book, especially my family members that have an autistic relative.
Love at last word?: NO!!!!!!!!! Will not be recommending and will steer others away. This may seem harsh, but as I said I have some autistic relatives.
-BookNerd
How to Say I Love You Out Loud by Karole Cozzo
I received this book for NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
I am absolutely apalled at how the main character treated her autistic brother. I myself am related to several people with autism and I would never act the way Jordyn does towards Philip. I stopped reading this book at 19% and read the end because I could not stand how she treated her brother. I would not recommend this book at all and maybe try and steer others away from reading this book, especially my family members that have an autistic relative.
Love at last word?: NO!!!!!!!!! Will not be recommending and will steer others away. This may seem harsh, but as I said I have some autistic relatives.
-BookNerd
April 1, 2018
Book Review: 5 Stars
I’ve been wanting to read this book forever!! I gotta admit, it was love at first sight. The cover is beautiful and colorful <3 And then I read the synopsis and I knew I had to read it. But sadly it took me a while to make the time to actually read it. But... The ’s March read: New-To-You Author was the perfect opportunity to finally read it.Ìý
How To Say I Love You Out Loud brings the story of Jordyn, a teenager girl who has to accept her family reality and just live with it, and when her family moves to a new town, she thinks it’s her chance to start over, have new friends and maybe leave behind what has caused her so much pain for years. And for a year she’d been doing really great. She has a new best friend and also a high school crush, she’s part of the soccer’s team and she’s doing really great in her studies. Until her “perfect� new life crashes with her family reality: Her autistic brother’s has to go to her high school while he’s accepted in a new school. To add more drama to the mix, her crush, Alex, returns from summer with a girlfriend!! A very mean girlfriend. And suddenly, Jordyn’s life is ruined. #DramaDramaDrama
I had mixed feelings while reading this book. At first, I thought Jordyn was selfish and cruel and I didn't like her very much, but as I kept reading, I understood her actions and why she behaved the way she did. I wouldn’t know how really is to live with an autistic relative, but I think how this book portrays her family dynamics was pretty realistic. In my personal opinion, I think she was forced to grow up very young. To make sacrifices a young girl shouldn’t do. To accept her parents wouldn’t love her and her brother equally. And sadly, this affected her very deeply, especially when it came to having a healthy relationship with her friends and family. She built a tall wall between herself and everyone else around her and in the present, this was making her life even more difficult, and only accepting her love for her brother and his unique love for her, opening her heart to him and his illness, would show the real Jordyn, and not only to others, but to herself as well.
Her relationship with Alex was amazing. There are not many romantic moments in this book, so I craved her little moments with Alex, and I was jumping up and down at the end of this book, and I loved it.
All in all, How To Say I Love You Out Loud is a book about family, friends, and love. About rising above the problems and find the best version of oneself even in the most difficult situations.
August 7, 2018
"I just really didn't want people to see me differently."
Regarding her flashback of her shared moments back at her camp, it felt itself brought out of the ordinary. I mean, maybe that's why I felt I didn't get to connect this book a lot since Chapter One.
Jordyn's intake of presenting her own "Power of Speech" might be the most moving thing I've ever read in quite a short book. Phillip might make her life a humiliating one but that doesn't stop her from reaching out to speak her own words of honesty and love.
April 18, 2021
4 stars
By the time I picked up How to Say I Love You Out Loud, I was a little hesitant. I've been tempted by so many Swoon Reads titles because of their absolutely gorgeous covers, but they've failed for me more often than not. But wow. I'm so glad I read this one anyway. How to Say I Love You Out Loud is powerful and emotional, and it brings autism to light in a way I had never considered it before.
Jordyn's little brother has autism. This is something that has shaped her whole family and her whole life. He doesn't have the mild kind of autism that you probably hear about all the time - that he just can't connect with other people that easily and is kind of socially awkward. No, he actually has heightened sensitivity to sound, light, and any unexpected situations - to cope, he's usually shut inside his own world. He can barely speak, so when something happens that he doesn't like or cannot handle, he does the only thing he can: he screams. I'm not familiar enough with autism to know if the specifics are right or realistic, but I do feel that Cozzo handled it with the utmost respect.
It took me a little while to get used to Jordyn. Knowing her brother's condition, she can come across as a bit selfish and uncaring. But her narrative voice is strong. All of the attention has always been on her brother. All of their plans have always been formed around her brother's needs. Her family has the philosophy that equality in the love and time the kids receive is not a 50-50 split, but based on how much they actually need. So it's not hard to understand that Jordyn's felt this inequality - has felt less than - and that it would make her resent her brother just a little bit.
The story focuses on Jordyn coming to terms with her brother's condition and being able to love him and others anyway. When his special needs school is closed, he's sent to Jordyn's public school, and what follows is absolutely painful. The reader is confronted by the realistic reactions of teenagers: they don't understand autism, so they'll make fun of it, exaggerate it, and jump to conclusions about the kids being crazy and/or dangerous. Jordyn keeps her brother a secret, because in elementary school she was teased and judged because of him, as if autism is contagious. No one wanted to be associated with the "crazy family". My heart went out to Jordyn. It was so unfair.
Obviously these things all make Jordyn put up immense walls between her and other people. She hasn't told her friends about her brother. She never invites anyone over. She lies a lot to keep people at a distance. It can be frustrating to read, but it is very understandable. When people find out about the lies, they tease her and judge her again - and there's quite some mean girl stuff that happens that is just infuriating. But ultimately the character growth is there. Jordyn finds her voice, and tells her brother's story while he can't, in a scene that almost brought me to tears. This book is important.
There's romance as well, but I'm of two minds about it, to be honest. Jordyn and Alex are absolutely adorable together - for sure - and I did find myself cheering for them to get together. I mean, romance aside, they're just such great friends, and Alex is such a gentleman. But I did get frustrated by how long it took for Jordyn to get over her fears and go for it. I know this tied into her whole narrative and her issues with love due to her familial situation, but it was so obvious time and again that both of them were attracted to each other. I'm actually amazed by how patient Alex managed to be. In the end, I liked the romance, but I do feel it was a tiny bit too melodramatic for my taste.
Summing Up:
I'm glad for the recent outpouring of diverse books, precisely because stories like this come to light. I knew practically nothing about autism before reading How to Say I Love You Out Loud, but it's helped me to understand so much more not only about this condition, but also the ways it shapes a family. Understanding leads to compassion, and so I hope this book reaches a lot of younger readers and older readers alike. It's an impactful story about love, compassion, and the power of your voice.
GIF it to me straight!
Recommended To:
Fans of diverse books and/or books with a focus on family.
*An advance review copy was provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the contents of the review.
By the time I picked up How to Say I Love You Out Loud, I was a little hesitant. I've been tempted by so many Swoon Reads titles because of their absolutely gorgeous covers, but they've failed for me more often than not. But wow. I'm so glad I read this one anyway. How to Say I Love You Out Loud is powerful and emotional, and it brings autism to light in a way I had never considered it before.
Jordyn's little brother has autism. This is something that has shaped her whole family and her whole life. He doesn't have the mild kind of autism that you probably hear about all the time - that he just can't connect with other people that easily and is kind of socially awkward. No, he actually has heightened sensitivity to sound, light, and any unexpected situations - to cope, he's usually shut inside his own world. He can barely speak, so when something happens that he doesn't like or cannot handle, he does the only thing he can: he screams. I'm not familiar enough with autism to know if the specifics are right or realistic, but I do feel that Cozzo handled it with the utmost respect.
It took me a little while to get used to Jordyn. Knowing her brother's condition, she can come across as a bit selfish and uncaring. But her narrative voice is strong. All of the attention has always been on her brother. All of their plans have always been formed around her brother's needs. Her family has the philosophy that equality in the love and time the kids receive is not a 50-50 split, but based on how much they actually need. So it's not hard to understand that Jordyn's felt this inequality - has felt less than - and that it would make her resent her brother just a little bit.
The story focuses on Jordyn coming to terms with her brother's condition and being able to love him and others anyway. When his special needs school is closed, he's sent to Jordyn's public school, and what follows is absolutely painful. The reader is confronted by the realistic reactions of teenagers: they don't understand autism, so they'll make fun of it, exaggerate it, and jump to conclusions about the kids being crazy and/or dangerous. Jordyn keeps her brother a secret, because in elementary school she was teased and judged because of him, as if autism is contagious. No one wanted to be associated with the "crazy family". My heart went out to Jordyn. It was so unfair.
Obviously these things all make Jordyn put up immense walls between her and other people. She hasn't told her friends about her brother. She never invites anyone over. She lies a lot to keep people at a distance. It can be frustrating to read, but it is very understandable. When people find out about the lies, they tease her and judge her again - and there's quite some mean girl stuff that happens that is just infuriating. But ultimately the character growth is there. Jordyn finds her voice, and tells her brother's story while he can't, in a scene that almost brought me to tears. This book is important.
There's romance as well, but I'm of two minds about it, to be honest. Jordyn and Alex are absolutely adorable together - for sure - and I did find myself cheering for them to get together. I mean, romance aside, they're just such great friends, and Alex is such a gentleman. But I did get frustrated by how long it took for Jordyn to get over her fears and go for it. I know this tied into her whole narrative and her issues with love due to her familial situation, but it was so obvious time and again that both of them were attracted to each other. I'm actually amazed by how patient Alex managed to be. In the end, I liked the romance, but I do feel it was a tiny bit too melodramatic for my taste.
Summing Up:
I'm glad for the recent outpouring of diverse books, precisely because stories like this come to light. I knew practically nothing about autism before reading How to Say I Love You Out Loud, but it's helped me to understand so much more not only about this condition, but also the ways it shapes a family. Understanding leads to compassion, and so I hope this book reaches a lot of younger readers and older readers alike. It's an impactful story about love, compassion, and the power of your voice.
GIF it to me straight!
Recommended To:
Fans of diverse books and/or books with a focus on family.
*An advance review copy was provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the contents of the review.
July 24, 2016
Originally posted on .
I read this back in January and absolutely fell in love with the story! It was so unique an refreshing. This book definitely makes it to my favourite list this year!
Jordyn loves her little brother who's autistic but she's not too thrilled when he joins the same school as hers. She even pushed away Alex, her crush because she didn't want to share this secret. But life has other plans, because after a while the news spreads like wildfire that she is Phillip's elder sister. At first she wants to run away and hide but then slowly she understands the true meaning of life, friendship and family.
How to Say I Love You Out Loud is such a heartfelt read!ÌýI loved every bit of this book, it was so, so good! Jordyn wants to start afresh in her new school, so nobody exactly knows about her little brother who is autistic. But that's what exactly happens when her brother class starts in her school. She tries to hide it but people find out soon enough. I loved Jordyn's character growth throughout the book! She wasn't exactly a mean girl or anything like that, she was justÌýembarrassed to tell anyone about her brother but she slowly learned that there's nothing to be embarrassed about, Phillip is her brother and she learned to embrace him as he was.Ìý
It's suffice to say I loved each and everything in this book. Jordyn was a great character, although many people blame her to be insensitive but I disagree, she was a girl who needed a push to understand some things about life and Alex was the perfect guy who made her understand it. It was difficult not to fall head over heels for Alex because he was swoon worthy!ÌýThis book does not rely heavily on romance but I loved every bit of Alex and Jordyn! They were simply perfect for each other!
I loved her speech which she gave at the competition where she finally spoke about her feelings out loud. I loved it sooo much! It was so true and touching! And that's where I feel a little more in love with her character!ÌýI also loved the family aspect of this book which made this book even better. And the factor of autism was dealt sensitively and realistically.
Overall,ÌýHow to Say I Love You Out Loud was a fantastic read!ÌýThe plot was interesting and I felt thoroughly involved with the characters from theÌývery beginning. The romance between Alex and Jordyn was totally cute! And I loved Phillip! The writing was beautiful and smooth and the pace was even throughout the book!
Recommend it?
Absolutely freaking YES!
I read this back in January and absolutely fell in love with the story! It was so unique an refreshing. This book definitely makes it to my favourite list this year!
Jordyn loves her little brother who's autistic but she's not too thrilled when he joins the same school as hers. She even pushed away Alex, her crush because she didn't want to share this secret. But life has other plans, because after a while the news spreads like wildfire that she is Phillip's elder sister. At first she wants to run away and hide but then slowly she understands the true meaning of life, friendship and family.
How to Say I Love You Out Loud is such a heartfelt read!ÌýI loved every bit of this book, it was so, so good! Jordyn wants to start afresh in her new school, so nobody exactly knows about her little brother who is autistic. But that's what exactly happens when her brother class starts in her school. She tries to hide it but people find out soon enough. I loved Jordyn's character growth throughout the book! She wasn't exactly a mean girl or anything like that, she was justÌýembarrassed to tell anyone about her brother but she slowly learned that there's nothing to be embarrassed about, Phillip is her brother and she learned to embrace him as he was.Ìý
It's suffice to say I loved each and everything in this book. Jordyn was a great character, although many people blame her to be insensitive but I disagree, she was a girl who needed a push to understand some things about life and Alex was the perfect guy who made her understand it. It was difficult not to fall head over heels for Alex because he was swoon worthy!ÌýThis book does not rely heavily on romance but I loved every bit of Alex and Jordyn! They were simply perfect for each other!
I loved her speech which she gave at the competition where she finally spoke about her feelings out loud. I loved it sooo much! It was so true and touching! And that's where I feel a little more in love with her character!ÌýI also loved the family aspect of this book which made this book even better. And the factor of autism was dealt sensitively and realistically.
Overall,ÌýHow to Say I Love You Out Loud was a fantastic read!ÌýThe plot was interesting and I felt thoroughly involved with the characters from theÌývery beginning. The romance between Alex and Jordyn was totally cute! And I loved Phillip! The writing was beautiful and smooth and the pace was even throughout the book!
Recommend it?
Absolutely freaking YES!
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