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123 pages, Kindle Edition
First published November 3, 2022
Time collapses as the value rises, bossman turning away complaints, a fifty pence scratching through the code quickly becomes a ten pence dragged across the numbers that disclose.
A day becomes every other and weekly silences quiet her enthusiasm for home. They are too busy, she thinks, but it’s her, she’s the one who is here.
The distance between death and life proclaims absences unbearable. Distant glimpses of waning villages assuage the emotions of scarcity.
She stops calling and spends more time with her brood of thoughts; she finds extra shifts to take her mind off what she’s lost.
This isn’t it, though � he thinks of who should be the one to care for her.
Norm-switching form and a Union Jack sways outside the home she’ll die in.
Does she know who he is, does she not care or has the atrophy made her unaware, who is there, a few drops left of memory.
He can’t take it, her, what is this, Ghanaian or not she planted her seed to bloom over here, wafts of western idiosyncrasies pungent to her frail identity.
On Sundays her hand slips into his, a light renewal of platonic perfection, until her son becomes someone else’s reflection, the face of so many she loved but could never tell, though she always shows warmth to whoever approaches her church.
To watch a mother become a woman, deteriorate to become a girl, an infant who can’t be held, waiting, unaware, to submerge with a family’s final and stifled breath.
This is where she should be. Briefly, to see him smile she’ll remember it was him, and she’ll stretch her arms, an embrace with no charm, ingratiated with this terra, hell, an immigrant mother who will die here alone and can only rise with the body of work her son has done well.
I made the creative choice not to translate any Twi in my book and also decided against a glossary. So many reasons for this but mainly it's because many West African kids didn't have any of that either. Our parents regularly refused to teach us. Had to figure it out. Welcome
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Her hand rubs her spine
A son steps foot on her back
Relief through labour
You okay, Mum?
My back.
You want me to walk on it?
Mmm
Okay.'
My mum had one of them laughs that the harder it goes, the more it starts to sound like that cartoon character. That duck one who never wore trousers. Actually, that's jokes because mum was the opposite. Ghanaian mums don't see breasts like the rest of the world, it's mad. Bruv, obviously I'm not talking about my mum's breasts. Low it.
He’s always wanted to ask what she hoped to achieve, ‘without me�, without displacement, without history, a sentence without words to follow, a life without a plot. She’d say, she’d make life, what that means, he’s never known, looking back, what she sees, he needs to let go, let her be.
She was sent away, told Auntie would watch her from now, because the house was too small and she was the eldest, she’d had more life with family, her arguments not allowed to conclude even though when she lands, new documents will read her younger than every sibling.
The binding piece shrivels, though she
returns to it every day; she’ll mother every
piece of him, even if parts must be taken away. Will she stroll through another childhood with dusty and deserting feet.
Will she cry when hands reach, will she
let her son suffer her defeat.
He prefers son to any other calling, loves the drop of tone through those three letters, sounding stretched but comfortable in their balance, a name he’s proud of, a lustrous designation so small but brilliant, a reaction of love touching his entire body when his mother summons him with such a small word capable of palpitating all the air around him. He forgets annoyance, every anger an act when love struggles to escape.
Yes, Mum.