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Before long, their quick and dirty affair becomes an obsession, and getting hooked on a drug as potent and violent as Ava-Rose soon turns Terence’s respectable life to dust. He’s willing to do anything for her: lie, embezzle, steal—and worse. For Terence, losing control is half the fun. But trying to get it back is terrifying.
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The recipient of honors ranging from the National Book Award to the Bram Stoker Award, Joyce Carol Oates has explored obsession and sexual terrors in such acclaimed novels as Zombie, Daddy Love, and Jack of Spades. In Double Delight, writing as Rosamond Smith, she proves herself an abandoned and fearless talent in psychological suspense.
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336 Rosamond Smith 1504045157 Always 5 favorites
I'm not sure if my summary does a good job framing the book but the summary that was is on the actual book page isn't that great either. Spoilers ahead. Also just throwing it out there there is coerced sex/rape in the book for people who want to avoid that.

I really really enjoyed this book and I was surprised to see that other people didn't as much. I really enjoyed another one of Joyce Carol Oates books I read as well and I think it's something about her writing style. It feels really immersive, and it doesn't always work. I know one of the other books was hard to get through because it felt tedious to read all the small details but here it just worked for me for some reason. I also wasn't sure how to expect the book to end and once I had finished it I just felt strange. I think my favorite part of reading is when afterwards I just feel changed as a person and like for days I can't stop feeling the aftereffects of reading the book.

Even though all the foreshadowing made it pretty clear how the story would play out I still felt the visceral reactions that Terence did as he finds out more about Ava-Rose. Just the way he seems to hesitate but can't stop himself from getting drawn into her and the way he becomes increasingly detached from the world around him into his own head and this obsession with her. Also at the god damn end when she grabs his hand, I honestly thought they'd leave him to die. It was also kind of ambiguous about what he was going to do to them and I'm just left like god damn I really want to know how it ends but also I'd probably be disappointed at whichever outcome would have been chosen, it's better left like that because wow I can't let it go.

I'm sorry for the incoherent review, the book really got to me for some reason and maybe I'm still feeling a little spacey and muddled from reading things from Terence's POV and his deteriorating grasp of things outside of his love of Ava-Rose. ]]>
3.86 Double Delight
author: Rosamond Smith
name: Always
average rating: 3.86
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rating: 5
read at: 2018/04/24
date added: 2025/05/06
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Terence Greene is a quite man, the head of an art foundation, living an upper class life in New Jersey. Terence is quite uncomfortable in his life however, having married up into wealth. He spent his childhood shuffled around, with no real knowledge of what had happened to his parents. Terence is also respectable, a moral person to all those who know him. Things begin to get strange for Terence though when he gets summoned to jury duty. Though his wife told him he should get out of it, Terence does that right thing and shows up. He is selected to be on the jury, where he first encounters Ava-Rose. Terence's life begins to unravel as he constantly obsesses about Ava-Rose and compromises his principals to be with her.

I'm not sure if my summary does a good job framing the book but the summary that was is on the actual book page isn't that great either. Spoilers ahead. Also just throwing it out there there is coerced sex/rape in the book for people who want to avoid that.

I really really enjoyed this book and I was surprised to see that other people didn't as much. I really enjoyed another one of Joyce Carol Oates books I read as well and I think it's something about her writing style. It feels really immersive, and it doesn't always work. I know one of the other books was hard to get through because it felt tedious to read all the small details but here it just worked for me for some reason. I also wasn't sure how to expect the book to end and once I had finished it I just felt strange. I think my favorite part of reading is when afterwards I just feel changed as a person and like for days I can't stop feeling the aftereffects of reading the book.

Even though all the foreshadowing made it pretty clear how the story would play out I still felt the visceral reactions that Terence did as he finds out more about Ava-Rose. Just the way he seems to hesitate but can't stop himself from getting drawn into her and the way he becomes increasingly detached from the world around him into his own head and this obsession with her. Also at the god damn end when she grabs his hand, I honestly thought they'd leave him to die. It was also kind of ambiguous about what he was going to do to them and I'm just left like god damn I really want to know how it ends but also I'd probably be disappointed at whichever outcome would have been chosen, it's better left like that because wow I can't let it go.

I'm sorry for the incoherent review, the book really got to me for some reason and maybe I'm still feeling a little spacey and muddled from reading things from Terence's POV and his deteriorating grasp of things outside of his love of Ava-Rose.
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<![CDATA[Banana Cultures: Agriculture, Consumption, and Environmental Change in Honduras and the United States]]> 8626224 Bananas, the most frequently consumed fresh fruit in the United States, have been linked to Miss Chiquita and Carmen Miranda, "banana republics," and Banana Republic clothing stores—everything from exotic kitsch, to Third World dictatorships, to middle-class fashion. But how did the rise in banana consumption in the United States affect the banana-growing regions of Central America? In this lively, interdisciplinary study, John Soluri integrates agroecology, anthropology, political economy, and history to trace the symbiotic growth of the export banana industry in Honduras and the consumer mass market in the United States.

Beginning in the 1870s when bananas first appeared in the U.S. marketplace, Soluri examines the tensions between the small-scale growers, who dominated the trade in the early years, and the shippers. He then shows how rising demand led to changes in production that resulted in the formation of major agribusinesses, spawned international migrations, and transformed great swaths of the Honduran environment into monocultures susceptible to plant disease epidemics that in turn changed Central American livelihoods. Soluri also looks at labor practices and workers' lives, changing gender roles on the banana plantations, the effects of pesticides on the Honduran environment and people, and the mass marketing of bananas to consumers in the United States. His multifaceted account of a century of banana production and consumption adds an important chapter to the history of Honduras, as well as to the larger history of globalization and its effects on rural peoples, local economies, and biodiversity.

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4.00 2006 Banana Cultures: Agriculture, Consumption, and Environmental Change in Honduras and the United States
author: John Soluri
name: Always
average rating: 4.00
book published: 2006
rating: 4
read at: 2017/04/27
date added: 2024/09/28
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Soluri uses Honduras' history of banana production and export to explore the usual narratives and ideals associated with the banana republic. Honduras was one of the first to start exporting bananas and the time line of events happening in the industry tend to foreshadow or exemplify what was happening in other countries that were also exporting bananas. The argument is made for a more dynamic understanding of the situation where each side changed in response to the other rather than any one part of the story being unchanging and passive. The book also covers a lot on the environmental effects of the banana trade, especially the pathogens that became much more wide spread due to the large singular growing of bananas which all happen to be very uniform in genetics because banana's don't cross pollinate they clone basically. I really liked the book, I do prefer academic books that look at the more complex dynamics underlying a situation rather than those trying to impose theoretical frame works that neglect a lot of the situational and variable events that are actually happening. I think Soluri tried to cover too much in the book and that maybe he could've left out the cultural associations of the banana because it didn't necessarily tie in back together with the environmental, cultural or political narrative. The different aspects of the banana industry and their affect on one another wasn't integrated into the book which was a missed opportunity.



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A Winter's Love 34939431 A lonely woman is torn between the bonds of family and the potential of new love in this moving novel from the author of A Wrinkle in Time.

Caught somewhere between love, hate, and indifference, Emily Bowen’s marriage is hanging on by a thread. After being let go from his job, her husband pulled away from her, and the distance continues to grow during their family’s sabbatical in Switzerland.
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With their relationship as cold as the wind baying outside, Emily finds unexpected warmth in a man from her past. As she contemplates seizing the connection she’s been craving, Emily must decide if she’s willing to sacrifice the life she’s built for an unseen future.
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Poignant and powerful, this is a timeless tale of the turmoil that comes with falling in—and out—of love, and “a convincing story of mixed loyalties and divided affections� (Kirkus Reviews).
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This ebook features an illustrated biography of Madeleine L’Engle including rare images from the author’s estate.
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260 Madeleine L'Engle 1504041577 Always 3 3.88 1957 A Winter's Love
author: Madeleine L'Engle
name: Always
average rating: 3.88
book published: 1957
rating: 3
read at: 2017/04/29
date added: 2024/09/24
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After Courtney resigns from his job in New York the family moves to Switzerland, where they were originally planning to go during Courtney's sabbatical anyways. While there Emily and her husbands relationship starts to become strained because Courtney pulls into himself, upset about the events leading up to him having to resign. Emily gets closer to their friend Abe and becomes torn about staying in her marriage or leaving to go with Abe. The writing was excellent but I don't think the plot line did much for me. I honestly didn't feel sympathetic towards any of the characters, mostly because they were all behaving so melodramatically. It's really well written though and I almost rounded up to four just for the writing. I think if you like well written stories about people in the middle of transitory periods in their life, having to make big decisions about where to go then you may enjoy this one. Probably more so if you're looking for something about midlife crisis and marriages becoming so ingrained in ones life after so many years that it becomes hard to think outside of it.
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Jane Two: A Novel 29777992 A coming of age debut novel from accomplished actor, director, and writer Sean Patrick Flanery explores that powerful first taste of love that sets the bar for something that we'll chase, usually unsuccessfully, for the rest of our lives. A young Mickey navigates through the dense Texas humidity of the 70's and out onto the porch every single time his Granddaddy calls him, where he's presented with the heirloom recipe for life, love, and manhood. But all the logic and insight in the world cannot prepare him to operate correctly in the presence of a wonderfully beautiful little girl who moves in just behind his rear fence. How will this magical moment divide Mickey's life into a "before and after" and permanently change his motion and direct it down the unpaved road to which only a lucky few are granted access?]]> 305 Sean Patrick Flanery 1455539422 Always 4

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4.23 2016 Jane Two: A Novel
author: Sean Patrick Flanery
name: Always
average rating: 4.23
book published: 2016
rating: 4
read at: 2017/01/16
date added: 2024/09/24
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I'm still really really angry about this book even though it's been months because I really got into it. Like the writing was so good and I loved the narrative and the voice. I was enjoying the characters and I didn't want to put it down at all. Then I got to the end and it was just such a predictable cliched way to end it, like for once I would've totally understood the author having a happy ending to the book because all the build up would have led to it nicely and it would've worked so well. But no we had to have a plot twist that has been done so many times I wanted to gouge my eyes out. The writing was so good though and I'm in love with Mickey.



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Dead Calm 33920703 448 Inge Löhnig 1786580225 Always 4
I actually really enjoyed this book, a solid 4.5 stars definitely. I liked the mystery and the build up, and though it wasn't that hard to guess who had been behind the murder the story line unfolded pretty well and kept me engaged. Usually I have a lot to complain about when I read but this was good and I don't have anything else to opine about. I would recommend it to anyone who likes mysteries. ]]>
4.02 Dead Calm
author: Inge Löhnig
name: Always
average rating: 4.02
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rating: 4
read at: 2018/07/31
date added: 2024/09/21
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Wolfram Heckeroth, a retired pediatrician, is found dead in his country cabin. Wolfram had been tied to the radiator and left to die. Inspector DĂĽhnfort is tasked with investigating the death and looks to Heckeroth's three children to understand the circumstances of Heckeroth's life. As Inspector DĂĽhnfort investigates the murder he is confronted with untangling the complex dynamics of the family and the toxic relationship between Hackeroth and his children.

I actually really enjoyed this book, a solid 4.5 stars definitely. I liked the mystery and the build up, and though it wasn't that hard to guess who had been behind the murder the story line unfolded pretty well and kept me engaged. Usually I have a lot to complain about when I read but this was good and I don't have anything else to opine about. I would recommend it to anyone who likes mysteries.
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<![CDATA[Narcocapitalism: Life in the Age of Anaesthesia (Theory Redux)]]> 37490893
In this era, being a subject doesn't simply mean being subjected to powers that decide our lives: it means that our very emotions have been outsourced to chemical stimulation. Yet we don't understand why the drugs that we take are unable to free us from fatigue and depression, and from the absence of desire that now characterizes our psychopolitical condition. We have forgotten what it means to be excited because our only excitement has become drug-induced. We have to abandon the narcotic stimulation that we've come to rely on and find a way back to the collective excitement that is narcocapitalism's greatest fear.]]>
130 Laurent de Sutter 150950687X Always 2
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Another netgalley one. I honestly felt really confused, the title made me think it was going to be a history of sorts on drugs/capitalism/pharma but that wasn't what this was at all. This was a philosophy book that was basically trying to make some point about mental illness, the formation of medication, the framing of excitement as a negative thing, the framing of politics and the crowd as something needing control, and something about being and how madness and excitability make a person not be. It's basically incoherent as philosophy books tend to be in my opinion. Honestly mostly just annoyed I once again ended up reading about mental illness and had to see the word ontology so many times. There were a lot of interesting ideas brushed upon in here though, and some of them I want to look into, especially around positivism criminology. I just think this book suffers from being a philosophy book where interesting ideas are presented but there's also tons of assertions made or nonsense in between the interesting ideas that makes it almost pointless to even bother to trudge ones way through it all.]]>
3.40 Narcocapitalism: Life in the Age of Anaesthesia (Theory Redux)
author: Laurent de Sutter
name: Always
average rating: 3.40
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rating: 2
read at: 2019/12/16
date added: 2024/09/17
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Another netgalley one. I honestly felt really confused, the title made me think it was going to be a history of sorts on drugs/capitalism/pharma but that wasn't what this was at all. This was a philosophy book that was basically trying to make some point about mental illness, the formation of medication, the framing of excitement as a negative thing, the framing of politics and the crowd as something needing control, and something about being and how madness and excitability make a person not be. It's basically incoherent as philosophy books tend to be in my opinion. Honestly mostly just annoyed I once again ended up reading about mental illness and had to see the word ontology so many times. There were a lot of interesting ideas brushed upon in here though, and some of them I want to look into, especially around positivism criminology. I just think this book suffers from being a philosophy book where interesting ideas are presented but there's also tons of assertions made or nonsense in between the interesting ideas that makes it almost pointless to even bother to trudge ones way through it all.

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Another netgalley one. I honestly felt really confused, the title made me think it was going to be a history of sorts on drugs/capitalism/pharma but that wasn't what this was at all. This was a philosophy book that was basically trying to make some point about mental illness, the formation of medication, the framing of excitement as a negative thing, the framing of politics and the crowd as something needing control, and something about being and how madness and excitability make a person not be. It's basically incoherent as philosophy books tend to be in my opinion. Honestly mostly just annoyed I once again ended up reading about mental illness and had to see the word ontology so many times. There were a lot of interesting ideas brushed upon in here though, and some of them I want to look into, especially around positivism criminology. I just think this book suffers from being a philosophy book where interesting ideas are presented but there's also tons of assertions made or nonsense in between the interesting ideas that makes it almost pointless to even bother to trudge ones way through it all.
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Nemesis 39937198 This “mesmerizing� novel about a crime at an elite music school �calls to mind a David Lynch film� (TheNew York Times).
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Shy piano teacher Maggie Blackburn has selflessly devoted her life and career to her students at the Forest Park Conservatory of Music in an affluent Connecticut suburb. Then a rape shakes the school’s refined grounds. The violated young student, Brendan Bauer, is a timid ex-seminarian. The perpetrator, Rolfe Christensen, is the newly appointed and celebrated composer-in-residence who has dazzled the faculty in ways Maggie could never have dreamed of. But when the conservatory’s conspiracy to conceal the crime results in Christensen’s murder, Bauer is suspected—and Maggie vows to find the real killer.
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What Maggie soon discovers is that Christensen’s reputation—as genius, manipulator, and sexual predator—had preceded him, giving many people a reason to want him dead. But when the murder of another colleague casts additional doubt on Bauer’s innocence, Maggie’s labyrinthine hunt for a killer turns into more than an investigation. Now it’s a liberating obsession with secrets—hers included—as dark and twisted as the crimes themselves.
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One of today’s most prolific and acclaimed literary talents, Joyce Carol Oates is a National Book Award winner, a four-time Pulitzer Prize finalist, and a #1 New York Times–bestselling author. As Elmore Leonard said, with her psychological suspense novels written under the name Rosamond Smith, “[she] could become the world’s Number One mystery writer easily.�
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314 Rosamond Smith 1504045165 Always 4
I really enjoyed this one too, it's the second to last ARC I got for Joyce Carol Oates, and it was one of the one's I've enjoyed reading more. I didn't like it as much as Double Delight or Starr Bright Will Be with You Soon but it was no where near as terrible as Snake Eyes. I really enjoy her writing style and definitely am going to get more of her books, probably ones she hasn't written under the alias Rosamond Smith. All the one's I've read so far have been written under that alias so. There is rape involved in the book in case that's something anyone wants to avoid. Spoilers ahead.

Like the other books there was a reoccurring theme of twins and black outs/hazy memory, which can probably get annoying if you keep encountering it again and again, so maybe I'll wait a while before picking up another one of her books. I do think the twist towards the end for this one was much more obvious and I felt a lot less connected to Mary's feelings for Calvin, so when he spares her at the end it didn't really get to me. I couldn't quite grasp why she was even in love with him honestly, she really did not know him, which he even tells her at the end there.

Also Brendan trying to deal with the rape and the whole time when he kept insisting he wasn't gay but what women would want him now, that was pretty hard to read, in a good way. And everything he had to go through, even before the murders, and how Rolfe even had a history of sexual assault that had been covered up before. It might just be because we've been seeing a lot of that unfolding in public lately so it just felt more intense and real when reading the book. I just loved Mary so much the whole time because she kept trying to help Brendan out, even when it looked like he had committed the murders. So a lot of my enjoyment came from watching Mary digging into the investigation and clearing Brendan, probably because most of the times when we've seen these things happening we don't get someone like Mary coming along.

The only thing I thought was ridiculous was the Calvin thing, with his wife being his secret twin. That felt unnecessary honestly, and it was kind of obvious after reading some of the other books written by Oates. It just felt like an implausible soap opera twist and cutting it out wouldn't have really made that much of a difference to the book. Calvin still could've been victim to Rolfe's blackmail.

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Maggie Blackburn is a quite pianist and music teacher at the renowned Forest Park Conservatory. Maggie's acquiescent manner means that she is usually left in charge of extracurricular work, including being in charge of the graduate students, and having the party the night that alters Maggie's life. The day after the party, when one of her new graduate students shows up alleging he has been assaulted by Rolfe Christensen, a Pulitzer prize winning composer who teaches at the conservatory, Maggie helps encourage the student, Brendan, to report it to the school. As things about Rolfe's past start to come to light and the situation becomes more complex, Maggie finds herself embroiled in a tense situation.

I really enjoyed this one too, it's the second to last ARC I got for Joyce Carol Oates, and it was one of the one's I've enjoyed reading more. I didn't like it as much as Double Delight or Starr Bright Will Be with You Soon but it was no where near as terrible as Snake Eyes. I really enjoy her writing style and definitely am going to get more of her books, probably ones she hasn't written under the alias Rosamond Smith. All the one's I've read so far have been written under that alias so. There is rape involved in the book in case that's something anyone wants to avoid. Spoilers ahead.

Like the other books there was a reoccurring theme of twins and black outs/hazy memory, which can probably get annoying if you keep encountering it again and again, so maybe I'll wait a while before picking up another one of her books. I do think the twist towards the end for this one was much more obvious and I felt a lot less connected to Mary's feelings for Calvin, so when he spares her at the end it didn't really get to me. I couldn't quite grasp why she was even in love with him honestly, she really did not know him, which he even tells her at the end there.

Also Brendan trying to deal with the rape and the whole time when he kept insisting he wasn't gay but what women would want him now, that was pretty hard to read, in a good way. And everything he had to go through, even before the murders, and how Rolfe even had a history of sexual assault that had been covered up before. It might just be because we've been seeing a lot of that unfolding in public lately so it just felt more intense and real when reading the book. I just loved Mary so much the whole time because she kept trying to help Brendan out, even when it looked like he had committed the murders. So a lot of my enjoyment came from watching Mary digging into the investigation and clearing Brendan, probably because most of the times when we've seen these things happening we don't get someone like Mary coming along.

The only thing I thought was ridiculous was the Calvin thing, with his wife being his secret twin. That felt unnecessary honestly, and it was kind of obvious after reading some of the other books written by Oates. It just felt like an implausible soap opera twist and cutting it out wouldn't have really made that much of a difference to the book. Calvin still could've been victim to Rolfe's blackmail.]]>
3.96 1990 Nemesis
author: Rosamond Smith
name: Always
average rating: 3.96
book published: 1990
rating: 4
read at: 2018/04/28
date added: 2024/09/13
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Maggie Blackburn is a quite pianist and music teacher at the renowned Forest Park Conservatory. Maggie's acquiescent manner means that she is usually left in charge of extracurricular work, including being in charge of the graduate students, and having the party the night that alters Maggie's life. The day after the party, when one of her new graduate students shows up alleging he has been assaulted by Rolfe Christensen, a Pulitzer prize winning composer who teaches at the conservatory, Maggie helps encourage the student, Brendan, to report it to the school. As things about Rolfe's past start to come to light and the situation becomes more complex, Maggie finds herself embroiled in a tense situation.

I really enjoyed this one too, it's the second to last ARC I got for Joyce Carol Oates, and it was one of the one's I've enjoyed reading more. I didn't like it as much as Double Delight or Starr Bright Will Be with You Soon but it was no where near as terrible as Snake Eyes. I really enjoy her writing style and definitely am going to get more of her books, probably ones she hasn't written under the alias Rosamond Smith. All the one's I've read so far have been written under that alias so. There is rape involved in the book in case that's something anyone wants to avoid. Spoilers ahead.

Like the other books there was a reoccurring theme of twins and black outs/hazy memory, which can probably get annoying if you keep encountering it again and again, so maybe I'll wait a while before picking up another one of her books. I do think the twist towards the end for this one was much more obvious and I felt a lot less connected to Mary's feelings for Calvin, so when he spares her at the end it didn't really get to me. I couldn't quite grasp why she was even in love with him honestly, she really did not know him, which he even tells her at the end there.

Also Brendan trying to deal with the rape and the whole time when he kept insisting he wasn't gay but what women would want him now, that was pretty hard to read, in a good way. And everything he had to go through, even before the murders, and how Rolfe even had a history of sexual assault that had been covered up before. It might just be because we've been seeing a lot of that unfolding in public lately so it just felt more intense and real when reading the book. I just loved Mary so much the whole time because she kept trying to help Brendan out, even when it looked like he had committed the murders. So a lot of my enjoyment came from watching Mary digging into the investigation and clearing Brendan, probably because most of the times when we've seen these things happening we don't get someone like Mary coming along.

The only thing I thought was ridiculous was the Calvin thing, with his wife being his secret twin. That felt unnecessary honestly, and it was kind of obvious after reading some of the other books written by Oates. It just felt like an implausible soap opera twist and cutting it out wouldn't have really made that much of a difference to the book. Calvin still could've been victim to Rolfe's blackmail.

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Maggie Blackburn is a quite pianist and music teacher at the renowned Forest Park Conservatory. Maggie's acquiescent manner means that she is usually left in charge of extracurricular work, including being in charge of the graduate students, and having the party the night that alters Maggie's life. The day after the party, when one of her new graduate students shows up alleging he has been assaulted by Rolfe Christensen, a Pulitzer prize winning composer who teaches at the conservatory, Maggie helps encourage the student, Brendan, to report it to the school. As things about Rolfe's past start to come to light and the situation becomes more complex, Maggie finds herself embroiled in a tense situation.

I really enjoyed this one too, it's the second to last ARC I got for Joyce Carol Oates, and it was one of the one's I've enjoyed reading more. I didn't like it as much as Double Delight or Starr Bright Will Be with You Soon but it was no where near as terrible as Snake Eyes. I really enjoy her writing style and definitely am going to get more of her books, probably ones she hasn't written under the alias Rosamond Smith. All the one's I've read so far have been written under that alias so. There is rape involved in the book in case that's something anyone wants to avoid. Spoilers ahead.

Like the other books there was a reoccurring theme of twins and black outs/hazy memory, which can probably get annoying if you keep encountering it again and again, so maybe I'll wait a while before picking up another one of her books. I do think the twist towards the end for this one was much more obvious and I felt a lot less connected to Mary's feelings for Calvin, so when he spares her at the end it didn't really get to me. I couldn't quite grasp why she was even in love with him honestly, she really did not know him, which he even tells her at the end there.

Also Brendan trying to deal with the rape and the whole time when he kept insisting he wasn't gay but what women would want him now, that was pretty hard to read, in a good way. And everything he had to go through, even before the murders, and how Rolfe even had a history of sexual assault that had been covered up before. It might just be because we've been seeing a lot of that unfolding in public lately so it just felt more intense and real when reading the book. I just loved Mary so much the whole time because she kept trying to help Brendan out, even when it looked like he had committed the murders. So a lot of my enjoyment came from watching Mary digging into the investigation and clearing Brendan, probably because most of the times when we've seen these things happening we don't get someone like Mary coming along.

The only thing I thought was ridiculous was the Calvin thing, with his wife being his secret twin. That felt unnecessary honestly, and it was kind of obvious after reading some of the other books written by Oates. It just felt like an implausible soap opera twist and cutting it out wouldn't have really made that much of a difference to the book. Calvin still could've been victim to Rolfe's blackmail.
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<![CDATA[The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath]]> 6619410 1088 Sylvia Plath Always 3 4.37 2000 The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
author: Sylvia Plath
name: Always
average rating: 4.37
book published: 2000
rating: 3
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Confessions 25690487 Winner of the International Prize for Arabic Fiction
Finalist for the PEN Translation Prize
Finalist for the USA Translation Award During the violence and chaos of the Lebanese Civil War, a car pulls up to a roadblock on a narrow side street in Beirut. After a brief and confused exchange, several rounds of bullets are fired into the car, killing everyone inside except for a small boy of four or five. The boy is taken to the hospital, adopted by one of the assassins, and raised in a new family. “My father used to kidnap and kill people …� begins this haunting tale of a child who was raised by the murderer of his real family. The narrator of Confessions doesn’t shy away from the horrible truth of his murderous father―instead he confronts his troubled upbringing and seeks to understand the distortions and complexities of his memories, his war-torn country, and the quiet war that rages inside of him.]]>
128 ربيع جابر Rabee Jaber 0811220672 Always 3 3.74 2008 Confessions
author: ربيع جابر Rabee Jaber
name: Always
average rating: 3.74
book published: 2008
rating: 3
read at: 2017/07/08
date added: 2024/08/08
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A boy talks about his father who is actually not his real father, set against the back drop of the Lebanese Civil War. The summary they give for the book kind of gives away the whole plot but I'm not sure my own summation does any better. It's not really about much else though, the whole book is literally about that though so. I understand that the book is trying to show the horrors of the war and deal with the complexity of family and grief and I can appreciate that but I didn't really get much out of it. I just read it and felt like so? Not sure just couldn't connect with it and not particularly impressed.
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<![CDATA[Capital: A Critique of Political Economy Volume 1]]> 325785 Capital, one of Marx's major and most influential works, was the product of thirty years close study of the capitalist mode of production in England, the most advanced industrial society of his day. This new translation of Volume One, the only volume to be completed and edited by Marx himself, avoids some of the mistakes that have marred earlier versions and seeks to do justice to the literary qualities of the work. The introduction is by Ernest Mandel, author of Late Capitalism, one of the only comprehensive attempts to develop the theoretical legacy of Capital.]]> 1152 Karl Marx 0140445684 Always 3
This was really really annoying to read I'm going to be honest. I personally feel like a lot of my own politics align with the left and I think a lot of the ideas Marx brings up are important and good, especially surplus value. But like there's probably a reason people hate reading theory.

I think that if I have been reading this in the 1860s I would've liked it a lot more because all of the things being discussed would be contemporaneous but now I know all this stuff about industrial UK in the late 1800s and I don't know what I would do with that information?

I think the foreword was really useful and good once again though, and it did suggest not necessarily reading everything in order. It also gave some context that made things easier to understand. I do think some of the chapters were better than others and are much more useful for the context of understanding capitalism today. I also get why it was organized and structured the way it was originally to build up to the ideas Marx thought were important and wanted to juxtapose with the ideas of the economists of the day.

I think I could've gotten more out of this if I knew more about economics honestly, like the whole thing about monetary theory probably went straight over my head.

Honestly just glad I made it through it and I would just once again like to say that I still think reading source material is overrated and boring, I think we can usually get the best main ideas from older writing in better contemporary formats. ]]>
4.28 1867 Capital: A Critique of Political Economy Volume 1
author: Karl Marx
name: Always
average rating: 4.28
book published: 1867
rating: 3
read at: 2020/01/19
date added: 2024/08/07
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I remember seeing a review on here for this book from a guy who said he bought two copies of this book, one for himself and one for his girlfriend and that he didn't have a girlfriend anymore. I'm bringing this up because actually my boyfriend got me this book, as one of my birthday gifts none the less, and I have to say for the first three hundred pages it felt like I could really empathize with the other man's girlfriend.

This was really really annoying to read I'm going to be honest. I personally feel like a lot of my own politics align with the left and I think a lot of the ideas Marx brings up are important and good, especially surplus value. But like there's probably a reason people hate reading theory.

I think that if I have been reading this in the 1860s I would've liked it a lot more because all of the things being discussed would be contemporaneous but now I know all this stuff about industrial UK in the late 1800s and I don't know what I would do with that information?

I think the foreword was really useful and good once again though, and it did suggest not necessarily reading everything in order. It also gave some context that made things easier to understand. I do think some of the chapters were better than others and are much more useful for the context of understanding capitalism today. I also get why it was organized and structured the way it was originally to build up to the ideas Marx thought were important and wanted to juxtapose with the ideas of the economists of the day.

I think I could've gotten more out of this if I knew more about economics honestly, like the whole thing about monetary theory probably went straight over my head.

Honestly just glad I made it through it and I would just once again like to say that I still think reading source material is overrated and boring, I think we can usually get the best main ideas from older writing in better contemporary formats.
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<![CDATA[Millennium Approaches (Angels in America, #1)]]> 92250
The play is a complex, often metaphorical, and at times symbolic examination of AIDS and homosexuality in America in the 1980s. Certain major and minor characters are supernatural beings (angels) or deceased persons (ghosts). The play contains multiple roles for several of the actors. Initially and primarily focusing on a gay couple in Manhattan, the play also has several other storylines, some of which occasionally intersect.]]>
119 Tony Kushner 1559360615 Always 5 4.27 1993 Millennium Approaches (Angels in America, #1)
author: Tony Kushner
name: Always
average rating: 4.27
book published: 1993
rating: 5
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I Know This Much Is True 1138728 An alternate cover edition for this book can be found here.

Dominick Birdsey, a forty-year-old housepainter living in Three Rivers, Connecticut, finds his subdued life greatly disturbed when his identical twin brother Thomas, a paranoid schizophrenic, commits a shocking act of self-mutilation. Dominick is forced to care for his brother as well as confront dark secrets and pain he has buried deep within himself—a journey of the soul that takes him beyond his blue-collar New England town to Sicily’s Mount Etna, the birthplace of his grandfather and namesake. Coming to terms with his life and lineage, Dominick struggles to find forgiveness and
finally rebuild himself beyond the haunted shadow of his troubled twin.]]>
928 Wally Lamb Always 5 favorites 4.18 1998 I Know This Much Is True
author: Wally Lamb
name: Always
average rating: 4.18
book published: 1998
rating: 5
read at: 2017/02/23
date added: 2024/03/19
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I'm glad I finally finished because it was one of those books I kept thinking about when I was in the middle of it and I had trouble getting things done until I knew what would happen. I really enjoyed it, I think it's hard to write a book with such a complex story line which all ends up coming together neatly in the end. Like some how even the mysticism and twists weren't over done and felt like they flowed nicely. I think this is one of my favorites now honestly.
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<![CDATA[I Am Not a Serial Killer (John Cleaver, #1)]]> 35120549

John Wayne Cleaver is dangerous, and he knows it.

He's spent his life doing his best not to live up to his potential.

He's obsessed with serial killers, but really doesn't want to become one. So for his own sake, and the safety of those around him, he lives by rigid rules he's written for himself, practicing normal life as if it were a private religion that could save him from damnation.

Dead bodies are normal to John. He likes them, actually. They don't demand or expect the empathy he's unable to offer. Perhaps that's what gives him the objectivity to recognize that there's something different about the body the police have just found behind the Wash-n-Dry Laundromat---and to appreciate what that difference means.

Now, for the first time, John has to confront a danger outside himself, a threat he can't control, a menace to everything and everyone he would love, if only he could.

Dan Wells' debut novel is the first volume of a trilogy that will keep you awake and then haunt your dreams.

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272 Dan Wells Always 3 3.84 2009 I Am Not a Serial Killer (John Cleaver, #1)
author: Dan Wells
name: Always
average rating: 3.84
book published: 2009
rating: 3
read at: 2023/09/30
date added: 2023/11/30
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I didn't realize this was YA (stupid I know) so I'm going to refrain from saying anything critical. All the things I didn't like were probably due to it being a thriller written for teenagers. It was fun to read at least and I liked the premise and the supernatural aspects.
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<![CDATA[Programmed to Kill: The Politics of Serial Murder]]> 919537 404 David McGowan 0595326404 Always 4 3.94 2004 Programmed to Kill: The Politics of Serial Murder
author: David McGowan
name: Always
average rating: 3.94
book published: 2004
rating: 4
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<![CDATA[Crooked Kingdom (Six of Crows, #2)]]> 22299763
Kaz Brekker and his crew of deadly outcasts have just pulled off a heist so daring even they didn't think they'd survive. But instead of divvying up a fat reward, they're right back to fighting for their lives.

Double-crossed and badly weakened, the crew is low on resources, allies, and hope. As powerful forces from around the world descend on Ketterdam to root out the secrets of the dangerous drug known as jurda parem, old rivals and new enemies emerge to challenge Kaz's cunning and test the team's fragile loyalties.

A war will be waged on the city's dark and twisting streets - a battle for revenge and redemption that will decide the fate of the Grisha world.]]>
561 Leigh Bardugo Always 4 4.58 2016 Crooked Kingdom (Six of Crows, #2)
author: Leigh Bardugo
name: Always
average rating: 4.58
book published: 2016
rating: 4
read at: 2023/11/08
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<![CDATA[Six of Crows (Six of Crows, #1)]]> 23437156 Alternate cover of ISBN 9781627792127

Ketterdam: a bustling hub of international trade where anything can be had for the right price—and no one knows that better than criminal prodigy Kaz Brekker. Kaz is offered a chance at a deadly heist that could make him rich beyond his wildest dreams. But he can’t pull it off alone...

A convict with a thirst for revenge

A sharpshooter who can’t walk away from a wager

A runaway with a privileged past

A spy known as the Wraith

A Heartrender using her magic to survive the slums

A thief with a gift for unlikely escapes

Six dangerous outcasts. One impossible heist. Kaz’s crew is the only thing that might stand between the world and destruction—if they don’t kill each other first.]]>
480 Leigh Bardugo 1627792120 Always 4 4.47 2015 Six of Crows (Six of Crows, #1)
author: Leigh Bardugo
name: Always
average rating: 4.47
book published: 2015
rating: 4
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One Hundred Years of Solitude 62685154 One Hundred Years of Solitude is a widely beloved and acclaimed novel known throughout the world and the ultimate achievement in a Nobel Prize–winning career.

The novel tells the story of the rise and fall of the mythical town of Macondo through the history of the BuendĂ­a family. Rich and brilliant, it is a chronicle of life, death, and the tragicomedy of humankind. In the beautiful, ridiculous, and tawdry story of the BuendĂ­a family, one sees all of humanity, just as in the history, myths, growth, and decay of Macondo, one sees all of Latin America.

Love and lust, war and revolution, riches and poverty, youth and senility, the variety of life, the endlessness of death, the search for peace and truth—these universal themes dominate the novel. Alternately reverential and comical, One Hundred Years of Solitude weaves the political, personal, and spiritual to bring a new consciousness to storytelling. Translated into dozens of languages, this stunning work is no less than an account of the history of the human race.]]>
468 Gabriel García Márquez Always 4 3.98 1967 One Hundred Years of Solitude
author: Gabriel García Márquez
name: Always
average rating: 3.98
book published: 1967
rating: 4
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Disgrace 6192 220 J.M. Coetzee 0143036378 Always 5 favorites 3.86 1999 Disgrace
author: J.M. Coetzee
name: Always
average rating: 3.86
book published: 1999
rating: 5
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<![CDATA[Drugs, Society, and Human Behavior]]> 573717 Oakley Ray 0072557435 Always 4


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3.40 1978 Drugs, Society, and Human Behavior
author: Oakley Ray
name: Always
average rating: 3.40
book published: 1978
rating: 4
read at: 2017/04/02
date added: 2023/11/17
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Someone gave me this book and the version was older so the information in it was mostly what they knew up to 1987 but it was still informative. It was written clearly and you don't need any chemistry or psychology knowledge to read this one. I really enjoyed how clearly he outlined everything we know about drugs based on research, going from rehabilitation to their structures and the reason people do drugs. I also thought the conclusion was accurate because personally I don't think there's a good way to stop people from doing drugs, the best you can do is teach them to use it safely and try to do something about the social problems that lead to problematic drug use.




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<![CDATA[The Unbearable Lightness of Being]]> 9717 The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Milan Kundera tells the story of a young woman in love with a man torn between his love for her and his incorrigible womanizing and one of his mistresses and her humbly faithful lover. This magnificent novel juxtaposes geographically distant places, brilliant and playful reflections, and a variety of styles, to take its place as perhaps the major achievement of one of the world’s truly great writers.]]> 314 Milan Kundera 0571224385 Always 4 favorites 4.12 1984 The Unbearable Lightness of Being
author: Milan Kundera
name: Always
average rating: 4.12
book published: 1984
rating: 4
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<![CDATA[The Damnation of Theron Ware: Or Illumination (Penguin Classics)]]> 821176 The Damnation of Theron Ware (published in England as Illumination) is an 1896 novel by American author Harold Frederic. It is widely considered a classic of American literature by scholars and critics though the common reader often has not heard of it. The novel reveals a great deal about early 20th century provincial America, religious life, and the depressed state of intellectual and artistic culture in small towns. It is similar to Samuel Butler's The Way of All Flesh and Sinclair Lewis's Elmer Gantry. It is written in a realistic style.

The novel centers on the life of a Methodist pastor named Theron Ware who has recently moved to a fictional small town in the Adirondack Mountains of upstate New York, which Frederic modeled after Utica, New York. A promising young pastor recently married, Theron has a number of experiences that cause him to begin to question the Methodist religion, his role as a minister and even the very existence of God. His moral decline (or illumination) is heightened through his dealings with Father Forbes, the town's Catholic priest; Dr. Ledsmar, a local atheist, philosopher, and man of science; and Celia Madden, a local Irish Catholic girl, with whom Theron becomes hopelessly infatuated.]]>
384 Harold Frederic 0140390251 Always 4 favorites 3.79 1894 The Damnation of Theron Ware: Or Illumination (Penguin Classics)
author: Harold Frederic
name: Always
average rating: 3.79
book published: 1894
rating: 4
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Flowers for Algernon 54872718 Winner of both the Hugo and Nebula Awards, the powerful, classic story about a man who receives an operation that turns him into a genius...and introduces him to heartache.

Charlie Gordon is about to embark upon an unprecedented journey. Born with an unusually low IQ, he has been chosen as the perfect subject for an experimental surgery that researchers hope will increase his intelligence-a procedure that has already been highly successful when tested on a lab mouse named Algernon.

As the treatment takes effect, Charlie's intelligence expands until it surpasses that of the doctors who engineered his metamorphosis. The experiment appears to be a scientific breakthrough of paramount importance, until Algernon suddenly deteriorates. Will the same happen to Charlie?]]>
311 Daniel Keyes Always 4 4.27 1966 Flowers for Algernon
author: Daniel Keyes
name: Always
average rating: 4.27
book published: 1966
rating: 4
read at: 2017/02/26
date added: 2023/08/18
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Wow I'm so glad I finally read it. I had only read passages of it before but it was totally with sitting and reading the whole thing through. I don't even know what to say I can't stop crying because of how things are for Charlie and I guess I just wish that they way he was treated wasnt so close to reality. Also it's kind of painful to have to question things like intimacy vs intelligence and self actualization which are brought up so poignantly in the book. I don't even know if anything I'm saying is making any sense but the book really got to me and now I need to be alone to cry and consolidate myself with it and the new ideas it has made me consider.
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<![CDATA[The Rose & the Dagger (The Wrath and the Dawn, #2)]]> 23308084 The darker the sky, the brighter the stars.

In a land on the brink of war, Shahrzad is forced from the arms of her beloved husband, the Caliph of Khorasan. She once thought Khalid a monster—a merciless killer of wives, responsible for immeasurable heartache and pain—but as she unraveled his secrets, she found instead an extraordinary man and a love she could not deny. Still, a curse threatens to keep Shazi and Khalid apart forever.

Now she’s reunited with her family, who have found refuge in the desert, where a deadly force is gathering against Khalid—a force set on destroying his empire and commanded by Shazi’s spurned childhood sweetheart. Trapped between loyalties to those she loves, the only thing Shazi can do is act. Using the burgeoning magic within her as a guide, she strikes out on her own to end both this terrible curse and the brewing war once and for all. But to do it, she must evade enemies of her own to stay alive.

The saga that began with The Wrath and the Dawn takes its final turn as Shahrzad risks everything to find her way back to her one true love again.]]>
416 Renée Ahdieh 0399171622 Always 2 4.03 2016 The Rose & the Dagger (The Wrath and the Dawn, #2)
author: Renée Ahdieh
name: Always
average rating: 4.03
book published: 2016
rating: 2
read at: 2023/07/04
date added: 2023/08/01
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I thought this was weaker than the first book in the duology and I think it's mostly due to how corny Shahrzad and Khalid are. I just found it hard to enjoy the book because of how facile most of the characters seemed to me. I think I've just read enough YA/romance that it's ceased to be enjoyable.
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<![CDATA[The Wrath & the Dawn (The Wrath and the Dawn, #1)]]> 23654535 There are alternate cover editions for this ASIN here and here.

A sumptuous and epically told love story inspired by A Thousand and One Nights

Every dawn brings horror to a different family in a land ruled by a killer. Khalid, the eighteen-year-old Caliph of Khorasan, takes a new bride each night only to have her executed at sunrise. So it is a suspicious surprise when sixteen-year-old Shahrzad volunteers to marry Khalid. But she does so with a clever plan to stay alive and exact revenge on the Caliph for the murder of her best friend and countless other girls. Shazi’s wit and will, indeed, get her through to the dawn that no others have seen, but with a catch . . . she’s falling in love with the very boy who killed her dearest friend.

She discovers that the murderous boy-king is not all that he seems and neither are the deaths of so many girls. Shazi is determined to uncover the reason for the murders and to break the cycle once and for all.]]>
416 Renée Ahdieh Always 3 4.10 2015 The Wrath & the Dawn (The Wrath and the Dawn, #1)
author: Renée Ahdieh
name: Always
average rating: 4.10
book published: 2015
rating: 3
read at: 2023/06/30
date added: 2023/08/01
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I don't really have strong feelings about this one. It felt easy to read and the pacing was good. I kept wanting to read to find out what would happen next. It was way too saccharine at times though and there was nothing really memorable about it. It felt like it hit all the expected notes for a YA novel but it didn't really provide anything unique in a way that would make me think about it after putting it down.
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A Place for Us 49003654 A Place for Us unfolds the lives of an Indian-American Muslim family, gathered together in their Californian hometown to celebrate the eldest daughter, Hadia’s, wedding â€� a match of love rather than tradition. It is here, on this momentous day, that Amar, the youngest of the siblings, reunites with his family for the first time in three years. Rafiq and Layla must now contend with the choices and betrayals that lead to their son’s estrangement â€� the reckoning of parents who strove to pass on their cultures and traditions to their children; and of children who in turn struggle to balance authenticity in themselves with loyalty to the home they came from.Ěý
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In a narrative that spans decades and sees family life through the eyes of each member, A Place For Us charts the crucial moments in the family's past, from the bonds that bring them together to the differences that pull them apart. And as siblings Hadia, Huda, and Amar attempt to carve out a life for themselves, they must reconcile their present culture with their parent's faith, to tread a path between the old world and the new, and learn how the smallest decisions can lead to the deepest of betrayals.]]>
377 Fatima Farheen Mirza 1524763578 Always 5 4.18 2018 A Place for Us
author: Fatima Farheen Mirza
name: Always
average rating: 4.18
book published: 2018
rating: 5
read at: 2023/06/07
date added: 2023/06/28
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Usually after finishing a book I feel annoyed and disappointed by the ending. I think endings are really hard to nail but feel like Mirza did a great job. The ending wasn't satisfying but it has stayed with me and I still feel sort of like the breath has been knocked out of me when I think about it. I did find the book really easy to read in general and it felt like every plot point was thought through and deliberate because it all fits together really well. I do have to say though the dad (Rafiq) was really testing my ability to be empathetic.
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Eligible 37654601
Youngest sisters Kitty and Lydia are too busy with their CrossFit workouts and Paleo diets to get jobs. Mary, the middle sister, is earning her third online master's degree and barely leaves her room, except for those mysterious Tuesday-night outings she won't discuss. And Mrs. Bennet has one thing on her mind: how to marry off her daughters, especially as Jane's fortieth birthday fast approaches.

Enter Chip Bingley, a handsome new-in-town doctor who recently appeared on the juggernaut reality TV dating show Eligible. At a Fourth of July barbecue, Chip takes an immediate interest in Jane, but Chip's friend, neurosurgeon Fitzwilliam Darcy, reveals himself to Liz to be much less charming. . . . And yet, first impressions can be deceiving.]]>
513 Curtis Sittenfeld Always 3 3.75 2016 Eligible
author: Curtis Sittenfeld
name: Always
average rating: 3.75
book published: 2016
rating: 3
read at: 2023/06/23
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I don't really have any strong opinions or feelings about this one. I didn't love or hate it. Felt like kind of a mindless chick lit read.
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Mischling 30290550 An Amazon Best Book of the Year
A Barnes & Noble Discover Pick
An Indie Next Pick
A Publishers Weekly Best Book of the Year
A Flavorwire Best Book of the Year
An Elle Best Book of the Year

"One of the most harrowing, powerful, and imaginative books of the year" (Anthony Doerr) about twin sisters fighting to survive the evils of World War II.

Pearl is in charge of: the sad, the good, the past.

Stasha must care for: the funny, the future, the bad.

It's 1944 when the twin sisters arrive at Auschwitz with their mother and grandfather. In their benighted new world, Pearl and Stasha Zagorski take refuge in their identical natures, comforting themselves with the private language and shared games of their childhood.

As part of the experimental population of twins known as Mengele's Zoo, the girls experience privileges and horrors unknown to others, and they find themselves changed, stripped of the personalities they once shared, their identities altered by the burdens of guilt and pain.

That winter, at a concert orchestrated by Mengele, Pearl disappears. Stasha grieves for her twin, but clings to the possibility that Pearl remains alive. When the camp is liberated by the Red Army, she and her companion Feliks--a boy bent on vengeance for his own lost twin--travel through Poland's devastation. Undeterred by injury, starvation, or the chaos around them, motivated by equal parts danger and hope, they encounter hostile villagers, Jewish resistance fighters, and fellow refugees, their quest enabled by the notion that Mengele may be captured and brought to justice within the ruins of the Warsaw Zoo. As the young survivors discover what has become of the world, they must try to imagine a future within it.

A superbly crafted story, told in a voice as exquisite as it is boundlessly original, MISCHLING defies every expectation, traversing one of the darkest moments in human history to show us the way toward ethereal beauty, moral reckoning, and soaring hope.]]>
353 Affinity Konar 0316308080 Always 2
I did try to give the book a chance but it was painful for me to read. I guess I just don't see what purpose this book serves or what I'm supposed to get out of it. Even if I was just looking at it as a piece of art or exercise in creativity, I didn't find it compelling. The writing style didn't work for me, often times when things would happen in the book they felt really abrupt and the tone/characterization felt really inconsistent. I kind of understand what the author may have been trying to do but I don't think they pulled it off successfully. ]]>
4.10 2016 Mischling
author: Affinity Konar
name: Always
average rating: 4.10
book published: 2016
rating: 2
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I made the classic mistake of picking a book up without any idea what it was about and I was caught really off guard when I found out it was about the Holocaust. I felt really conflicted because I usually avoid fictional accounts of the Holocaust, because I personally find it to be in bad taste at this point in my life, but I also feel the compulsive need to finish any book I start. I ended up forcing myself to tough it out and read the whole thing.

I did try to give the book a chance but it was painful for me to read. I guess I just don't see what purpose this book serves or what I'm supposed to get out of it. Even if I was just looking at it as a piece of art or exercise in creativity, I didn't find it compelling. The writing style didn't work for me, often times when things would happen in the book they felt really abrupt and the tone/characterization felt really inconsistent. I kind of understand what the author may have been trying to do but I don't think they pulled it off successfully.
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Pretty Girls 40017404 Librarian’s note: This is an updated cover image for Kindle.
See previously published cover here.


#1 internationally bestselling author Karin Slaughter returns with a sophisticated and chilling psychological thriller of dangerous secrets, cold vengeance, and unexpected absolution, in which two estranged sisters must come together to find truth about two harrowing tragedies, twenty years apart, that devastate their lives.

Sisters. Strangers. Survivors.

More than twenty years ago, Claire and Lydia's teenaged sister Julia vanished without a trace. The two women have not spoken since, and now their lives could not be more different. Claire is the glamorous trophy wife of an Atlanta millionaire. Lydia, a single mother, dates an ex-con and struggles to make ends meet. But neither has recovered from the horror and heartbreak of their shared loss—a devastating wound that's cruelly ripped open when Claire's husband is killed.

The disappearance of a teenage girl and the murder of a middle-aged man, almost a quarter-century apart: what could connect them? Forming a wary truce, the surviving sisters look to the past to find the truth, unearthing the secrets that destroyed their family all those years ago . . . and uncovering the possibility of redemption, and revenge, where they least expect it.

Powerful, poignant, and utterly gripping, packed with indelible characters and unforgettable twists, Pretty Girls is a masterful thriller from one of the finest suspense writers working today.]]>
432 Karin Slaughter Always 3 4.13 2015 Pretty Girls
author: Karin Slaughter
name: Always
average rating: 4.13
book published: 2015
rating: 3
read at: 2023/05/27
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I think this book has really good pacing and storytelling, I definitely stayed up all night to finish it. I generally have this problem with thrillers where I can't do anything else because I can't bear not knowing whats going to happen. I have to rate it three stars though because I just couldn't sit through the descriptions of torture without feeling ill. I ended up skimming them as I got further into the book. I'm sure other people with stronger stomachs might not have had that problem but I kind of felt icky for days after and I'm not sure it needed that level of gratuitous detail.
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<![CDATA[The Joy Of X: A Guided Tour of Math, from One to Infinity]]> 18652674 333 Steven H. Strogatz 0547517661 Always 4 4.06 2012 The Joy Of X: A Guided Tour of Math, from One to Infinity
author: Steven H. Strogatz
name: Always
average rating: 4.06
book published: 2012
rating: 4
read at: 2023/05/26
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This was an enjoyable pop math book and I think it does a great job of explaining why math is interesting and engaging. I don't really have any strong opinions about this one, I was mostly reading it to remind myself why I enjoyed math to keep myself motivated while studying.
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Dark Age (Red Rising Saga #5) 37562956 The #1 New York Times bestselling author of Morning Star returns to the Red Rising universe with the thrilling sequel to Iron Gold.

He broke the chains. Then he broke the world�.

A decade ago Darrow led a revolution, and laid the foundations for a new world. Now he’s an outlaw.

Cast out of the very Republic he founded, with half his fleet destroyed, he wages a rogue war on Mercury, in hopes that he can still salvage the dream of Eo. But as he leaves death and destruction in his wake, is he still the hero who broke the chains? Or will he become the very evil he fought to destroy? Will another legend rise to take his place?

In his darkening shadow, a new hero rises.

Lysander au Lune, the heir to the old empire in exile, has returned to bridge the divide between the Golds of the Rim and Core. Determined to bring peace back to mankind at the edge of his sword, he must overcome or unite the treacherous Gold families of the Core and face down Darrow over the skies of war-torn Mercury. If united, their combined might may prove fatal to the fledgling Republic.

But theirs are not the only fates hanging in the balance.

On Luna, Mustang, the embattled Sovereign of the Republic, Virginia au Augustus campaigns to unite the Republic behind her husband, fights to preserve her precious demokracy and her exiled husband. Beset by political and criminal enemies, can she outwit her opponents in time to save him? But one may cost her the other, and her son is not yet returned.

Abducted by a new threat to the Republic, Pax and Electra, the children of Darrow and Sevro, must trust in Ephraim, a Gray thief, for their salvation—and Ephraim must look to them for his chance at redemption.

Far across the void, young Lyria, Once a Red refugee, now stands accused of treason, and her only hope is a desperate bid for freedom with the help of two unlikely new allies.

Fear dims the hopes of the Rising as alliances shift, break, and re-form—and power is seized, lost, and reclaimed—every player is at risk in a game of conquest and the worlds spin on and on toward a new Dark Age.

Don’t miss any of Pierce Brown’s Red Rising Saga:
RED RISING � GOLDEN SON � MORNING STAR � IRON GOLD � DARK AGE
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784 Pierce Brown Always 3 Iron Gold), but this one wasn't as good. The pacing felt off, the plot felt slow and it was too long. I had trouble paying attention at multiple points because honestly it's kind of boring to read about violence and battle in so much detail. Not sure if I'm going to read #6. ]]> 4.53 2019 Dark Age (Red Rising Saga #5)
author: Pierce Brown
name: Always
average rating: 4.53
book published: 2019
rating: 3
read at: 2022/12/21
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I really liked the book before this (Iron Gold), but this one wasn't as good. The pacing felt off, the plot felt slow and it was too long. I had trouble paying attention at multiple points because honestly it's kind of boring to read about violence and battle in so much detail. Not sure if I'm going to read #6.
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The Virgin Suicides 54230865 Adapted into a critically acclaimed film by Sofia Coppola, The Virgin Suicides is a modern classic, a lyrical and timeless tale of sex and suicide that transforms and mythologizes suburban middle-American life.

First published in 1993, The Virgin Suicides announced the arrival of a major new American novelist. In a quiet suburb of Detroit, the five Lisbon sisters—beautiful, eccentric, and obsessively watched by the neighborhood boys—commit suicide one by one over the course of a single year. As the boys observe them from afar, transfixed, they piece together the mystery of the family's fatal melancholy, in this hypnotic and unforgettable novel of adolescent love, disquiet, and death.

Jeffrey Eugenides evokes the emotions of youth with haunting sensitivity and dark humor and creates a coming-of-age story unlike any of our time.]]>
260 Jeffrey Eugenides Always 4 3.74 1993 The Virgin Suicides
author: Jeffrey Eugenides
name: Always
average rating: 3.74
book published: 1993
rating: 4
read at: 2022/12/16
date added: 2022/12/20
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I did like the writing and narrative style of the book but I didn't love it as much as I had thought I would. The premise of the book seemed promising (I love depressing books) but it didn't resonate with me. It felt strange watching an experience similar to your own through the perspective of someone who is witnessing what's happening, especially when it's told in a way romanticizing something that's quite ugly in reality. Also the explanations they come up with the end seemed ridiculous, they didn't even consider the most obvious one: [spoilers removed].
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<![CDATA[Iron Gold (Red Rising Saga, #4)]]> 33361943 They call him father, liberator, warlord, Reaper. But he feels a boy as he falls toward the pale blue planet, his armor red, his army vast, his heart heavy. It is the tenth year of war and the thirty-second of his life.

A decade ago, Darrow was the hero of the revolution he believed would break the chains of the Society. But the Rising has shattered everything: Instead of peace and freedom, it has brought endless war. Now he must risk everything he has fought for on one last desperate mission. Darrow still believes he can save everyone, but can he save himself?

And throughout the worlds, other destinies entwine with Darrow’s to change his fate forever:

A young Red girl flees tragedy in her refugee camp and achieves for herself a new life she could never have imagined.

An ex-soldier broken by grief is forced to steal the most valuable thing in the galaxy—or pay with his life.

And Lysander au Lune, the heir in exile to the sovereign, wanders the stars with his mentor, Cassius, haunted by the loss of the world that Darrow transformed, and dreaming of what will rise from its ashes.

Red Rising was the story of the end of one universe, and Iron Gold is the story of the creation of a new one. Witness the beginning of a stunning new saga of tragedy and triumph from masterly New York Times bestselling author Pierce Brown.]]>
605 Pierce Brown Always 4 4.33 2018 Iron Gold (Red Rising Saga, #4)
author: Pierce Brown
name: Always
average rating: 4.33
book published: 2018
rating: 4
read at: 2022/12/07
date added: 2022/12/20
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Liked this one better than Morning Star but not as much as the original book. The build up was good and I felt relieved to be following characters other than Darrow. Honestly the Darrow parts were the most boring and I kept wanting to skim.
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Morning Star (Red Rising, #3) 24685115
Finally, the time has come.

But devotion to honor and hunger for vengeance run deep on both sides. Darrow and his comrades-in-arms face powerful enemies without scruple or mercy. Among them are some Darrow once considered friends. To win, Darrow will need to inspire those shackled in darkness to break their chains, unmake the world their cruel masters have built, and claim a destiny too long denied—and too glorious to surrender.]]>
526 Pierce Brown 0345539850 Always 3 4.57 2016 Morning Star (Red Rising, #3)
author: Pierce Brown
name: Always
average rating: 4.57
book published: 2016
rating: 3
read at: 2022/11/26
date added: 2022/11/27
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After I read the second one I immediately had to read this one because the ending to the second one made me feel sick to my stomach and I can not stand waiting. I didn't feel like this one was as good as the two before it. All three books have good pacing and I felt completely engrossed while reading. I think what put me off is Darrow, I was already beginning to tire of him during the second book but this one just made him unbearable. It's a shame because I remember I really enjoyed the first book.
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<![CDATA[Golden Son (Red Rising Saga, #2)]]> 21425079 Golden Son continues the stunning saga of Darrow, a rebel forged by tragedy, battling to lead his oppressed people to freedom.

As a Red, Darrow grew up working the mines deep beneath the surface of Mars, enduring backbreaking labor while dreaming of the better future he was building for his descendants. But the Society he faithfully served was built on lies. Darrow’s kind have been betrayed and denied by their elitist masters, the Golds—and their only path to liberation is revolution. And so Darrow sacrifices himself in the name of the greater good for which Eo, his true love and inspiration, laid down her own life. He becomes a Gold, infiltrating their privileged realm so that he can destroy it from within.

A lamb among wolves in a cruel world, Darrow finds friendship, respect, and even love—but also the wrath of powerful rivals. To wage and win the war that will change humankind’s destiny, Darrow must confront the treachery arrayed against him, overcome his all-too-human desire for retribution—and strive not for violent revolt but a hopeful rebirth. Though the road ahead is fraught with danger and deceit, Darrow must choose to follow Eo’s principles of love and justice to free his people.

He must live for more.]]>
465 Pierce Brown Always 4 4.56 2015 Golden Son (Red Rising Saga, #2)
author: Pierce Brown
name: Always
average rating: 4.56
book published: 2015
rating: 4
read at: 2022/11/25
date added: 2022/11/27
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I enjoyed it but not nearly as much as the first book. Also Darrow started to get on my nerves honestly, probably because I have some ideological differences in how I think about justice.
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Fight Club 4906716 Then they go back to those jobs with blackened eyes and loosened teeth and the sense that they can handle anything. Fight club is the invention of Tyler Durden, projectionist, waiter, and dark, anarchic genius, and it's only the beginning of his plans for violent revenge on an empty consumer-culture world.]]> 221 Chuck Palahniuk Always 3 4.27 1996 Fight Club
author: Chuck Palahniuk
name: Always
average rating: 4.27
book published: 1996
rating: 3
read at: 2022/11/22
date added: 2022/11/27
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I don't really have any strong feelings about this book. I didn't hate or love it. I can relate to the feelings of nihilism expressed through out but there was something dissatisfactory about the way the plot unfolds. I was just kind of felt left feeling like "is this it?" at the end. Also [spoilers removed].
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<![CDATA[Born to Run: A Hidden Tribe, Superathletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen]]> 6565082 NATIONAL BESTSELLER â€� The astonishing and hugely entertaining story that completely changed the way we run.ĚýAn epic adventure that began with one simple Why does my foot hurt?“Equal parts quest, physiology treatise, and running history.... The climactic race reads like a sprint.... It simply makes you want to run.â€� —Outside MagazineIsolated by Mexico's deadly Copper Canyons, the blissful Tarahumara Indians have honed the ability to run hundreds of miles without rest or injury. In a riveting narrative, award-winning journalist and often-injured runner Christopher McDougall sets out to discover their secrets. In the process, he takes his readers from science labs at Harvard to the sun-baked valleys and freezing peaks across North America, where ever-growing numbers of ultra-runners are pushing their bodies to the limit, and, finally, to a climactic race in the Copper Canyons that pits America’s best ultra-runners against the tribe. McDougall’s incredible story will not only engage your mind but inspire your body when you realize that you, indeed all of us, were born to run.Look for Born to Run 2, out now!]]> 306 Christopher McDougall 0307271919 Always 3
I did find the way running is framed as some sort of panacea for the worlds ills to be a bit much though. Also the style of writing is something that I've kind of grown tired of but it's unfortunately the way a lot of contemporary non fiction is written. ]]>
4.45 2009 Born to Run: A Hidden Tribe, Superathletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen
author: Christopher McDougall
name: Always
average rating: 4.45
book published: 2009
rating: 3
read at: 2022/11/21
date added: 2022/11/27
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I have been trying to get better at running (trying being the operative word) and someone recommended this book when I was talking to them. The book definitely made me want to stick with running and made me think about how it can actually be kind of fun. I also keep straining my calf so I might try out minimalistic running shoes and see if that helps.

I did find the way running is framed as some sort of panacea for the worlds ills to be a bit much though. Also the style of writing is something that I've kind of grown tired of but it's unfortunately the way a lot of contemporary non fiction is written.
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The Club 60902925 From the author of People Like Her comes a smart and sinister murder mystery set in the secretive world of exclusive celebrity clubs.

Everyone's Dying to Join . . .

The Home Group is a glamorous collection of celebrity members' clubs dotted across the globe, where the rich and famous can party hard and then crash out in its five-star suites, far from the prying eyes of fans and the media.

The most spectacular of all is Island Home--a closely-guarded, ultraluxurious resort, just off the English coast--and its three-day launch party is easily the most coveted A-list invite of the decade.

But behind the scenes, tensions are at breaking point: the ambitious and expensive project has pushed the Home Group's CEO and his long-suffering team to their absolute limits. All of them have something to hide--and that's before the beautiful people with their own ugly secrets even set foot on the island.

As tempers fray and behavior worsens, as things get more sinister by the hour and the body count piles up, some of Island Home's members will begin to wish they'd never made the guest list.

Because at this club, if your name's on the list, you're not getting out.]]>
303 Ellery Lloyd Always 4 3.55 2022 The Club
author: Ellery Lloyd
name: Always
average rating: 3.55
book published: 2022
rating: 4
read at: 2022/11/09
date added: 2022/11/11
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I don't really have much to say about this one. It was a decent read, I was entertained while reading it. It wasn't that unique in terms of plot line, a lot of what happens felt cliched, but it was executed well enough that it didn't bother me. I'm not sure I would classify it as a mystery though.
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<![CDATA[My Year of Rest and Relaxation]]> 55468002
My Year of Rest and Relaxation is a powerful answer to that question. Through the story of a year spent under the influence of a truly mad combination of drugs designed to heal our heroine from her alienation from this world, Moshfegh shows us how reasonable, even necessary, alienation can be. Both tender and blackly funny, merciless and compassionate, it is a showcase for the gifts of one of our major writers working at the height of her powers.]]>
301 Ottessa Moshfegh Always 3 3.59 2018 My Year of Rest and Relaxation
author: Ottessa Moshfegh
name: Always
average rating: 3.59
book published: 2018
rating: 3
read at: 2022/11/01
date added: 2022/11/11
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I actually was mostly enjoying this book but then [spoilers removed] If it weren't for the way it ended I probably would have rated it higher.
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Prodigal Summer 6528648 National Bestseller"A blend of breathtaking artistry, encyclopedic knowledge of the natural world. . . and ardent commitment to the supremacy of nature."Ěý—ĚýSan Francisco ChronicleIn this beautiful novel, Barbara Kingsolver, New York Times bestselling author of Demon Copperhead and The Poisonwood Bible, weaves together three stories of human love within a larger tapestry of lives inhabiting the forested mountains and struggling small farms of southern Appalachia.Over the course of one humid summer, as the urge to procreate overtakes the lush countryside, this novel's intriguing protagonists—a reclusive wildlife biologist, a young farmer's wife marooned far from home, and a pair of elderly, feuding neighbors—face disparate predicaments but find connections to one another and to the flora and fauna with whom they necessarily share a place. Their discoveries are embedded inside countless intimate lessons of biology, the realities of small farming, and the final, urgent truth that humans are only one piece of life on earth.]]> 644 Barbara Kingsolver 0061839922 Always 5 4.25 2000 Prodigal Summer
author: Barbara Kingsolver
name: Always
average rating: 4.25
book published: 2000
rating: 5
read at: 2022/09/02
date added: 2022/11/11
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It's always harder to review books I enjoyed because I never know what to say about them. It's so much easier when I have a lot I want to complain about. I loved this book honestly and it really resonated with me. Much of the environmentalism in the book was in line with a lot of my own beliefs. I really liked the characters and it felt really easy to lose track of time while I was reading.
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Truly Madly Guilty 27831371 The electrifying new novel from the international bestselling author, Liane Moriarty

Despite their differences, Erika and Clementine have been best friends since they were children. So when Erika needs help, Clementine should be the obvious person to turn to. Or so you'd think.

For Clementine, as a mother of a two desperately trying to practise for the audition of a lifetime, the last thing she needs is Erika asking for something, again.

But the barbecue should be the perfect way to forget their problems for a while. Especially when their hosts, Vid and Tiffany, are only too happy to distract them.

Which is how it all spirals out of control...

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517 Liane Moriarty 1250069815 Always 3 3.59 2016 Truly Madly Guilty
author: Liane Moriarty
name: Always
average rating: 3.59
book published: 2016
rating: 3
read at: 2022/09/28
date added: 2022/11/11
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I don't really have much to say. The book was fine. I didn't hate it but I didn't love it either. It feels kind of forgettable to be honest. Also maybe I'm just insensitive but after all that build up when we do find out what happens at the BBQ I was like is that it? Definitely felt like Sam was reacting in a disproportionate manner.
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<![CDATA[The Wedding (The Notebook, #2)]]> 43369424
After thirty years, Wilson Lewis is forced to face a painful truth: the romance has gone out of his marriage. His wife, Jane, has fallen out of love with him, and it is entirely his fault. Despite the shining example of his in-laws, Noah and Allie Calhoun, and their fifty-year love affair, Wilson himself is a man unable to express his true feelings. He has spent too little time at home and too much at the office, leaving the responsibility of raising their children to Jane. Now his daughter is about to marry, and his wife is thinking about leaving him. But if Wilson is sure of anything, it is this: His love for Jane has only grown over the years, and he will do everything he can to save their marriage. With the memories of Noah and Allie's inspiring life together as his guide, he vows to find a way to make his wife fall in love with him...all over again.

In this powerfully moving tale of love lost, rediscovered, and renewed, Nicholas Sparks once again brings readers his unique insight into the only emotion that ultimately really matters.]]>
304 Nicholas Sparks Always 2 4.44 2003 The Wedding (The Notebook, #2)
author: Nicholas Sparks
name: Always
average rating: 4.44
book published: 2003
rating: 2
read at: 2022/10/04
date added: 2022/11/11
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I haven't read any Nicholas Sparks before and for some reason I had this one on my Kindle (must have bought it at some point) so I decided to give it a shot. Are his other books like this as well, because if they are I definitely will not be reading anything else by him. This kind of saccharine book really isn't in line with my taste.
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The Goldfinch 18902634
Aged thirteen, Theo Decker, son of a devoted mother and a reckless, largely absent father, survives an accident that otherwise tears his life apart. Alone and rudderless in New York, he is taken in by the family of a wealthy friend. He is tormented by an unbearable longing for his mother, and down the years clings to the thing that most reminds him of her: a small, strangely captivating painting that ultimately draws him into the criminal underworld. As he grows up, Theo learns to glide between the drawing rooms of the rich and the dusty antiques store where he works. He is alienated and in love - and his talisman, the painting, places him at the centre of a narrowing, ever more dangerous circle.

The Goldfinch is a haunted odyssey through present-day America and a drama of enthralling power. Combining unforgettably vivid characters and thrilling suspense, it is a beautiful, addictive triumph - a sweeping story of loss and obsession, of survival and self-invention, of the deepest mysteries of love, identity and fate.]]>
774 Donna Tartt Always 5 4.03 2013 The Goldfinch
author: Donna Tartt
name: Always
average rating: 4.03
book published: 2013
rating: 5
read at: 2022/10/13
date added: 2022/11/11
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Anytime a book can keep me entertained and immersed I'm going to enjoy it. I think there's nothing worse than when a book doesn't let me forget myself. This is definitely a long book but I didn't find myself wondering when it would end, I lost track of time while reading. I like Donna Tartt's writing style and I loved the characters. Definitely one of my favorite books I've read so far this year.
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We Were Liars 39673241 A private island.
A brilliant, damaged girl; a passionate, political boy.
A group of four friends—the Liars—whose friendship turns destructive.
A revolution. An accident. A secret.
Lies upon lies.
True love.
The truth.

We Were Liars is a modern, sophisticated suspense novel from New York Times bestselling author, National Book Award finalist, and Printz Award honoree E. Lockhart.

Read it.

And if anyone asks you how it ends, just LIE.

Librarian Note: An older cover for this edition can be found here: 13-May-2014.]]>
242 E. Lockhart Always 2 3.70 2014 We Were Liars
author: E. Lockhart
name: Always
average rating: 3.70
book published: 2014
rating: 2
read at: 2022/10/18
date added: 2022/11/11
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I have wanted to read this since it first came out and I was a teenager, but it was always checked out when I went to the library, and I just never got around to it. I wish I hadn't waited until now to read it. I would have definitely liked this if I read it when I was a teen but I don't think I enjoy this kind of book anymore. The twist ending felt predictable and the writing style didn't feel like it was executed well. I honestly feel disappointed.
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Exhalation 55710304 An alternate cover edition for this book can be found here.

ONE OF THE NEW YORK TIMES 10 BEST BOOKS OF THE YEAR

A NATIONAL BESTSELLER

ONE OF THE BEST BOOKS OF THE YEAR:
THE WASHINGTON POST � TIME MAGAZINE � NPR � ESQUIRE � VOX � THE A.V. CLUB � THE GUARDIAN � FINANCIAL TIMES � THE DALLAS MORNING NEWS

"THE UNIVERSE BEGAN AS AN ENORMOUS BREATH BEING HELD."


In these nine stunningly original, provocative, and poignant stories, Ted Chiang tackles some of humanity’s oldest questions along with new quandaries only he could imagine.

In "The Merchant and the Alchemist's Gate," a portal through time forces a fabric seller in ancient Baghdad to grapple with past mistakes and second chances. In "Exhalation," an alien scientist makes a shocking discovery with ramifications that are literally universal. In "Anxiety Is the Dizziness of Freedom," the ability to glimpse into alternate universes necessitates a radically new examination of the concepts of choice and free will.

Including stories being published for the first time as well as some of his rare and classic uncollected work, Exhalation is Ted Chiang at his best: profound, sympathetic—revelatory.]]>
362 Ted Chiang Always 3 The Lifecycle of Software Objects and Anxiety Is the Dizziness of Freedom. The other stories just didn't resonate with me, I found them to be boring. Reading this kind of felt like when your friend who's really into philosophy wants to have a conversation about free will, or even worse, about epistemology.]]> 4.37 2019 Exhalation
author: Ted Chiang
name: Always
average rating: 4.37
book published: 2019
rating: 3
read at: 2022/09/19
date added: 2022/09/21
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I only liked the two longer stories in this collection, The Lifecycle of Software Objects and Anxiety Is the Dizziness of Freedom. The other stories just didn't resonate with me, I found them to be boring. Reading this kind of felt like when your friend who's really into philosophy wants to have a conversation about free will, or even worse, about epistemology.
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<![CDATA[The Demon Tide (The Black Witch Chronicles, #4)]]> 55743831
Newly exposed as the Black Witch of Prophecy, Elloren Gardner Grey is on the run, not knowing if she'll find friends or foes. With her fastmate, Lukas Grey, either dead or in the hands of High Mage Marcus Vogel, Elloren knows the only chance of turning the tide of the coming war is to seek allies who will listen long enough not to kill her on sight.

In the Eastern Realm, Water Fae Tierney Calix and Elloren's brother Trystan have joined the Wyvernguard to prepare for Vogel's attack. But Trystan is fighting on two fronts, as the most despised and least trusted member of the guard. And Tierney's bond with Erthia's most powerful river has exposed a danger even more terrifying than the looming war.

The Black Witch is back, and the Prophecy is at hand. It's time to fight. But Vogel has one more earth-shattering revelation for them all.

Books in The Black Witch Chronicles:

The Black Witch

The Iron Flower

The Shadow Wand

The Demon Tide

Wandfasted (novella)*

Light Mage (novella)*

*Also available in The Rebel Mages anthology]]>
672 Laurie Forest 1335402497 Always 2 3.77 2022 The Demon Tide (The Black Witch Chronicles, #4)
author: Laurie Forest
name: Always
average rating: 3.77
book published: 2022
rating: 2
read at: 2022/09/13
date added: 2022/09/21
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I'm over it with this series, I really loved the first book but every other book in the series has felt like it falls short. A lot of the side characters got much more time in this and it would have been fine if everyone's plot line didn't seem to revolve around their romantic entanglements. I feel like it did a real disservice to those characters because they don't feel well developed. It also came at the expense of the plot/storyline which didn't seem to move forward significantly until the end. My patience was also already running thin with the central love triangle and I feel like the way it played out was cheesy. It's also just so repetitive, it just keep reiterating the same points over and over again, including plot points. I don't think I'll be reading the next one.
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Dune (Dune, #1) 43419431 Frank Herbert’s classic masterpiece—a triumph of the imagination and one of the bestselling science fiction novels of all time.

Set on the desert planet Arrakis, Dune is the story of the boy Paul Atreides, heir to a noble family tasked with ruling an inhospitable world where the only thing of value is the “spice� melange, a drug capable of extending life and enhancing consciousness. Coveted across the known universe, melange is a prize worth killing for....

When House Atreides is betrayed, the destruction of Paul’s family will set the boy on a journey toward a destiny greater than he could ever have imagined. And as he evolves into the mysterious man known as Muad’Dib, he will bring to fruition humankind’s most ancient and unattainable dream.

A stunning blend of adventure and mysticism, environmentalism and politics, Dune won the first Nebula Award, shared the Hugo Award, and formed the basis of what is undoubtedly the grandest epic in science fiction.]]>
883 Frank Herbert Always 3 4.44 1965 Dune (Dune, #1)
author: Frank Herbert
name: Always
average rating: 4.44
book published: 1965
rating: 3
read at: 2022/08/23
date added: 2022/09/21
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I know a lot of people love this book and I can understand why especially after reading the reviews. I personally didn't enjoy it very much though. It felt like it took me at least 300 pages to really get into the story. The book felt very long and I felt like I had to keep redirecting my attention back to reading because I wasn't feeling engaged. Part of it might be because it took me a while to get used to the new words being thrown around and at first I had trouble keep track of the characters. Also the way the Fremen were clearly inspired by Bedouins and Islam just kept distracting me. I did start enjoying it much more once I got halfway through it, probably because the action felt like it picked up. I don't think I'll be reading the other books in the series though.
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<![CDATA[One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest]]> 6567759 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest was one of the defining works of the 1960s. A mordant, wickedly subversive parable set in a mental ward, the novel chronicles the head-on collision between its hell-raising, life-affirming hero Randle Patrick McMurphy and the totalitarian rule of Big Nurse. McMurphy swaggers into the mental ward like a blast of fresh air and turns the place upside down, starting a gambling operation, smuggling in wine and women, and egging on the other patients to join him in open rebellion. But McMurphy's revolution against Big Nurse and everything she stands for quickly turns from sport to a fierce power struggle with shattering results. With One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Kesey created a work without precedent in American literature, a novel at once comic and tragic that probes the nature of madness and sanity, authority and vitality. Greeted by unanimous acclaim when it was first published, the book has become and enduring favorite of readers. SketchesPsychedelic sixties. God knows whatever that means it certainly meant far more than drugs, though drugs still work as a pretty good handle to the phenomena.I grabbed at that handle. Legally, too, I might add. Almost patriotically, in fact. Early psychedelic sixties...Eight o'clock every Tuesday morning I showed up at the vet's hospital in Menlo Park, ready to roll. The doctor deposited me in a little room on his ward, dealt me a couple of pills or a shot or a little glass of bitter juice, then locked the door. He checked back every forty minutes to see if I was still alive, took some tests, asked some questions, left again. The rest of the time I spent studying the inside of my forehead, or looking out the little window in the door. It was six inches wide and eight inches high, and it had heavy chicken wire inside the glass. You get your visions through whatever gate you're granted.Patients straggled by in the hall outside, their faces all ghastly confessions. Sometimes I looked at them and sometimes they looked at me. but rarely did we look at one another. It was too naked and painful. More was revealed in a human face than a human being can bear, face-to-face.Sometimes the nurse came by and checked on me. Her face was different. It was painful business, but not naked. This was not a person you could allow yourself to be naked in front of.Six months or so later I had finished the drug experiments and applied for a job. I was taken on as a nurse's aide, in the same ward, with the same doctor, under the same nurse-and you must understand we're talking about a huge hospital here! It was weird.But, as I said, it was the sixties. Those faces were still there, still painfully naked. To ward them off my case I very prudently took to carrying around a little notebook, to scribble notes. I got a lot of compliments from nurses: "Good for you, Mr. Kesey. That's the spirit. Get to know these men."I also scribbled faces. No, that's not correct. As I prowl through this stack of sketches I can see that these faces bored their way behind my forehead and scribbled themselves. I just held the pen and waited for the magic to happen. This was, after all, the sixties. Ken Kesey Sketches by Ken Kesey viiIntroduction by Robert Faggen ixPart One 1Part Two 127Part Three 173Part Four 223 "A glittering parable of good and evil." -- The New York Times Book Review "A roar of protest against middlebrow society's Rules and the Rulers who enforce them." -- Time"]]> 336 Ken Kesey Always 3
I did like the narrator (Chief Bromden) and McMurphy is obviously a fun character. The book is really eventful and it was amusing to see the back and forth between McMurphy and Nurse Ratched. I appreciate the metaphorical themes about resisting authority, what constitutes insanity, and autonomy and dignity.

There were times though that the writing style made me feel bored and made me want to start skimming. And like other people mentioned the weird way women are written about was kind of off putting. Like what is the obsession with Nurse Ratched's breast. The constant running element of emasculation is just something I can't relate to.

Also outside of the points the book was trying to make about authority, I don't understand why we're supposed to see Nurse Ratched as malevolent. She's clearly controlling and often tries to shame the men but I don't think that makes her evil the way the men insist she is through out the book. Like what was the appropriate reaction expected from her when men on the ward were behaving violently. Also I think having structure is usual a prominent part of being in inpatient therapy so what is so strange about having rules that the patients are supposed to abide by.

Anyways I'm still not completely sure where I stand on this one. I was amused by it but I found a lot of it to be ridiculous and there was a lot I couldn't relate to. ]]>
4.21 1962 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
author: Ken Kesey
name: Always
average rating: 4.21
book published: 1962
rating: 3
read at: 2022/08/29
date added: 2022/09/21
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I'm having trouble reviewing this because I feel ambivalent about the book. Also a lot of people love this book and some of the things that didn't appeal to me about it are going to bring out the usual hysterical mobs of people screaming about PC culture.

I did like the narrator (Chief Bromden) and McMurphy is obviously a fun character. The book is really eventful and it was amusing to see the back and forth between McMurphy and Nurse Ratched. I appreciate the metaphorical themes about resisting authority, what constitutes insanity, and autonomy and dignity.

There were times though that the writing style made me feel bored and made me want to start skimming. And like other people mentioned the weird way women are written about was kind of off putting. Like what is the obsession with Nurse Ratched's breast. The constant running element of emasculation is just something I can't relate to.

Also outside of the points the book was trying to make about authority, I don't understand why we're supposed to see Nurse Ratched as malevolent. She's clearly controlling and often tries to shame the men but I don't think that makes her evil the way the men insist she is through out the book. Like what was the appropriate reaction expected from her when men on the ward were behaving violently. Also I think having structure is usual a prominent part of being in inpatient therapy so what is so strange about having rules that the patients are supposed to abide by.

Anyways I'm still not completely sure where I stand on this one. I was amused by it but I found a lot of it to be ridiculous and there was a lot I couldn't relate to.
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The Nightingale 51851348 The Nightingale tells the stories of two sisters, separated by years and experience, by ideals, passion and circumstance, each embarking on her own dangerous path toward survival, love, and freedom in German-occupied, war-torn France—a heartbreakingly beautiful novel that celebrates the resilience of the human spirit and the durability of women. It is a novel for everyone, a novel for a lifetime.]]> 593 Kristin Hannah Always 3
I found Isabelle to be unbearable for a lot of the book and it didn't feel like she was a well written character. All of the parts where we're brought back to the modern day didn't do it for me at all. I kept getting annoyed at the interruption when it would switch back. I felt like the ending especially was too maudlin.

That said I thought the pacing was good and I was engaged throughout. I think it's an okay read especially if you're looking for a readable chick lit type book. ]]>
4.78 2015 The Nightingale
author: Kristin Hannah
name: Always
average rating: 4.78
book published: 2015
rating: 3
read at: 2022/09/07
date added: 2022/09/21
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So I didn't realize this was a historical fiction about WW2 and if I had known I probably wouldn't have read it. The sheer number of fiction books written about WW2 feels off-putting to me. I wish I had a substantial critique but I can't put my finger on why I feel this way.

I found Isabelle to be unbearable for a lot of the book and it didn't feel like she was a well written character. All of the parts where we're brought back to the modern day didn't do it for me at all. I kept getting annoyed at the interruption when it would switch back. I felt like the ending especially was too maudlin.

That said I thought the pacing was good and I was engaged throughout. I think it's an okay read especially if you're looking for a readable chick lit type book.
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The Joy Luck Club 10381144 Four mothers, four daughters, four families whose histories shift with the four winds depending on who's "saying" the stories. In 1949 four Chinese women, recent immigrants to San Francisco, begin meeting to eat dim sum, play mahjong, and talk. United in shared unspeakable loss and hope, they call themselves the Joy Luck Club. Rather than sink into tragedy, they choose to gather to raise their spirits and money. "To despair was to wish back for something already lost. Or to prolong what was already unbearable." Forty years later the stories and history continue.

With wit and sensitivity, Amy Tan examines the sometimes painful, often tender, and always deep connection between mothers and daughters. As each woman reveals her secrets, trying to unravel the truth about her life, the strings become more tangled, more entwined. Mothers boast or despair over daughters, and daughters roll their eyes even as they feel the inextricable tightening of their matriarchal ties. Tan is an astute storyteller, enticing readers to immerse themselves into these lives of complexity and mystery.]]>
354 Amy Tan Always 4 4.19 1989 The Joy Luck Club
author: Amy Tan
name: Always
average rating: 4.19
book published: 1989
rating: 4
read at: 2022/06/19
date added: 2022/08/31
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I really enjoyed The Valley of Amazement and I was looking forward to reading this. I really like Amy Tan's writing style and I felt really invested in all the character's stories. I was honestly disappointed when the book ended. I do wish we could have spent more time with the characters. It felt like we spent more time on some of the mother's back stories versus the others. I also feel like I related to the mothers more than the daughters, which seems contrary to a lot of people's experience with the book. It might just be because lately I've been considering what it means to be known by another person etc etc and so that just stood out to me while reading. Anyways definitely enjoyed this one.
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<![CDATA[Light Mage (The Black Witch Chronicles, #1.5)]]> 36631066
Before Elloren Gardner came to possess the Wand of Myth, the Wand was drawn to another bearer: Sagellyn Gaffney.

Sage’s affinity for light magery, a rare skill among Gardnerians, makes her the perfect protector for the one tool that can combat the shadows spreading across Erthia. But in order to keep the Wand safe from the demonic forces hunting for it, Sage must abandon everything she once knew and forge a new path for herself…a dangerous course that could lead to either triumph or utter ruin.]]>
304 Laurie Forest 1488099383 Always 4 4.19 2018 Light Mage (The Black Witch Chronicles, #1.5)
author: Laurie Forest
name: Always
average rating: 4.19
book published: 2018
rating: 4
read at: 2022/07/26
date added: 2022/08/23
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I just wanted a palate cleanser and something that felt like more of a light read. This definitely served that purpose. The problem with reading fantasy of this type though is that is so readable I kind of lose track of time when reading and end up reading it in one or two sittings and then I ended up not doing anything else I was supposed to. The only thing is I've already forgotten everything from the other two books in the series even though I just read one earlier this year. I decided to just borrow the next book in the series now so I can read it before I forget everything again. This did stand well alone though for what that's worth.
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<![CDATA[The Iron Flower (The Black Witch Chronicles, #2)]]> 36651885
While the Resistance struggles to fight back against the harsh rulings of the Mage Council, more and more Gardnerian soldiers descend upon the University…led by none other than Lukas Grey, now commander of the nearby military base. Though Elloren tries to keep him at arm’s length, Lukas is determined to tie himself to her, still convinced that she is the next Black Witch, the destined vessel for a magic that will decide the future of all Erthia. As his own magic calls out to her, seeking to awaken a dark force within, Elloren finds it more and more difficult to believe that she’s truly powerless, as her uncle always claimed.

Caught between her growing feelings for the rebellious Yvan Guriel and the seductive power offered by Lukas, Elloren must find a way to stay true to what she knows is right and protect everyone she loves…even if that means protecting them from herself.]]>
608 Laurie Forest 1488030502 Always 3 The Black Witch but I wasn't terribly impressed by this. I'm not sure if part of that was due to the fact that I forgot a lot what happened in the first book so I was missing context while reading. The pacing felt sporadic, at times it felt like the plot were dragging. I also found reading about Elloren and Yvan to be tedious. Maybe its because I've read a lot of YA so the dynamic between them just felt very tired. It wouldn't have been so bad if the majority of the book didn't revolved around it. There was also something repetitive about the plot, it just felt like the author kept trying to reiterate how bad oppression and subjugation are but in what felt like a pretty superficial way. I already borrowed the next book in the series so here's to hoping that one is better. ]]> 4.41 2018 The Iron Flower (The Black Witch Chronicles, #2)
author: Laurie Forest
name: Always
average rating: 4.41
book published: 2018
rating: 3
read at: 2022/07/31
date added: 2022/08/23
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I remembering really enjoying The Black Witch but I wasn't terribly impressed by this. I'm not sure if part of that was due to the fact that I forgot a lot what happened in the first book so I was missing context while reading. The pacing felt sporadic, at times it felt like the plot were dragging. I also found reading about Elloren and Yvan to be tedious. Maybe its because I've read a lot of YA so the dynamic between them just felt very tired. It wouldn't have been so bad if the majority of the book didn't revolved around it. There was also something repetitive about the plot, it just felt like the author kept trying to reiterate how bad oppression and subjugation are but in what felt like a pretty superficial way. I already borrowed the next book in the series so here's to hoping that one is better.
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<![CDATA[Manufacturing Consent: The Political Economy of the Mass Media]]> 12183728
Based on a series of case studies-including the media's dichotomous treatment of "worthy" versus "unworthy" victims, "legitimizing" and "meaningless" Third World elections, and devastating critiques of media coverage of the U.S. wars against Indochina-Herman and Chomsky draw on decades of criticism and research to propose a Propaganda Model to explain the media's behavior and performance. Their new introduction updates the Propaganda Model and the earlier case studies, and it discusses several other applications. These include the manner in which the media covered the passage of the North American Free Trade Agreement and subsequent Mexican financial meltdown of 1994-1995, the media's handling of the protests against the World Trade Organization, World Bank, and International Monetary Fund in 1999 and 2000, and the media's treatment of the chemical industry and its regulation. What emerges from this work is a powerful assessment of how propagandistic the U.S. mass media are, how they systematically fail to live up to their self-image as providers of the kind of information that people need to make sense of the world, and how we can understand their function in a radically new way.]]>
677 Edward S. Herman 0307801624 Always 4 4.20 1988 Manufacturing Consent: The Political Economy of the Mass Media
author: Edward S. Herman
name: Always
average rating: 4.20
book published: 1988
rating: 4
read at: 2022/08/19
date added: 2022/08/23
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Everyone is always mentioning this as the Chomsky book to read, the one that really changed their perception so definitely felt like I had to read it. It was what I was expecting, I think if you have heard media critiques from the left then this is well trodden territory. The specifics mentioned in the case studies presented were new to me though and I did learn things I hadn't known. It did feel repetitive at times because they often would reiterate what they had already said but I think thats mostly a function of an argumentative academic writing style. Mostly though when I read books like this now it just makes me wonder about the things happening currently that I'm not aware of and makes me feel sort of exhausted at the idea of trying to stay abreast of current events.
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Brave New World 55084329 Brave New World is a searching vision of an unequal, technologically-advanced future where humans are genetically bred, socially indoctrinated, and pharmaceutically anesthetized to passively uphold an authoritarian ruling order–all at the cost of our freedom, full humanity, and perhaps also our souls. “A genius [who] who spent his life decrying the onward march of the Machine� (The New Yorker), Huxley was a man of incomparable talents: equally an artist, a spiritual seeker, and one of history’s keenest observers of human nature and civilization. Brave New World, his masterpiece, has enthralled and terrified millions of readers, and retains its urgent relevance to this day as both a warning to be heeded as we head into tomorrow and as thought-provoking, satisfying work of literature. Written in the shadow of the rise of fascism during the 1930s, Brave New Worldd likewise speaks to a 21st-century world dominated by mass-entertainment, technology, medicine and pharmaceuticals, the arts of persuasion, and the hidden influence of elites.

"Aldous Huxley is the greatest 20th century writer in English." —Chicago Tribune]]>
239 Aldous Huxley Always 3 3.98 1932 Brave New World
author: Aldous Huxley
name: Always
average rating: 3.98
book published: 1932
rating: 3
read at: 2022/06/23
date added: 2022/08/23
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I'm not sure what to write for my review for this one. I read it because everyone is always talking about how its a classic or referencing it. I thought it was fine. I didn't hate it but I didn't particularly love it either. I feel like this is the kind of book where I'm going to forget everything that happened in like a few weeks time. I think the problem is that I wasn't in a place where something like this would feel meaningful. I'm more of in a I wish someone would just take care of everything for me because I'm tired place right now.
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She's Come Undone 59063950
"Mine is a story of an unreliable account of lusts and troubles that began, somehow, in 1956 on the day our free television was delivered...."

Meet Dolores Price. She's thirteen, wise-mouthed but wounded, having bid her childhood goodbye. Beached like a whale in front of her bedroom TV, she spends the next few years nourishing herself with the Mallomars, potato chips, and Pepsi her anxious mother supplies. When she finally rolls into young womanhood at 257 pounds, Dolores is no stronger and life is no kinder. But this time she's determined to rise to the occasion and give herself one more chance before really going belly up.

In this extraordinary coming-of-age odyssey, Wally Lamb invites us to hitch a wild ride on a journey of love, pain, and renewal with the most heartbreakingly comical heroine to come along in years. At once a fragile girl and a hard-edged cynic, so tough to love yet so inimitably lovable, Dolores is as poignantly real as our own imperfections. She's Come Undone includes a you will never forget Dolores Price.]]>
484 Wally Lamb Always 3 I Know This Much Is True (even though if you ask me what the plot is I couldn't tell you) so kind of felt let down after reading this. I didn't hate the book but I can see why other people did. I think it's a hard book to read if you can't stomach flawed characters. For a lot of the book Dolores' actions made her unlikable even if the way she behaves is pretty human and understandable.

I know for other people the part of the plot revolving around her weight and the depiction of the lesbian character are what made this book off putting but I felt like the way people were treating Dolores because of her weight was pretty realistic especially for the time period its supposed to be happening in. I also didn't find Dottie to be some kind of predatory caricature, it felt like she was lonely and Dolores is the one who called her the night they have dinner at Dottie's place. I think that was a pretty nuanced depiction of how people who have been sexually assaulted before may end up in situations where they are likely to be coerced.

I personally found the whole therapy thing to be more off-putting especially the reparenting using the pool. I also felt like the whale metaphor/theme wasn't that well done, it wasn't poignant and I feel like the novel would have been unchanged without it. It also feels like the book dragged on like did we really need to follow Dolores for all of her life like that. The other wild thing to me was Dante's reaction, I feel like he should have been more freaked out when Dolores confesses to him.

I did find the book hard to put down though so clearly it's got that going for it. I don't regret reading it but I wouldn't say it was a pleasant experience. ]]>
4.29 1992 She's Come Undone
author: Wally Lamb
name: Always
average rating: 4.29
book published: 1992
rating: 3
read at: 2022/08/05
date added: 2022/08/23
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I honestly don't know how I feel about this book. I remember loving I Know This Much Is True (even though if you ask me what the plot is I couldn't tell you) so kind of felt let down after reading this. I didn't hate the book but I can see why other people did. I think it's a hard book to read if you can't stomach flawed characters. For a lot of the book Dolores' actions made her unlikable even if the way she behaves is pretty human and understandable.

I know for other people the part of the plot revolving around her weight and the depiction of the lesbian character are what made this book off putting but I felt like the way people were treating Dolores because of her weight was pretty realistic especially for the time period its supposed to be happening in. I also didn't find Dottie to be some kind of predatory caricature, it felt like she was lonely and Dolores is the one who called her the night they have dinner at Dottie's place. I think that was a pretty nuanced depiction of how people who have been sexually assaulted before may end up in situations where they are likely to be coerced.

I personally found the whole therapy thing to be more off-putting especially the reparenting using the pool. I also felt like the whale metaphor/theme wasn't that well done, it wasn't poignant and I feel like the novel would have been unchanged without it. It also feels like the book dragged on like did we really need to follow Dolores for all of her life like that. The other wild thing to me was Dante's reaction, I feel like he should have been more freaked out when Dolores confesses to him.

I did find the book hard to put down though so clearly it's got that going for it. I don't regret reading it but I wouldn't say it was a pleasant experience.
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The Vanishing Half 52195151 From The New York Times-bestselling author of The Mothers, a stunning new novel about twin sisters, inseparable as children, who ultimately choose to live in two very different worlds, one black and one white.

The Vignes twin sisters will always be identical. But after growing up together in a small, southern black community and running away at age sixteen, it's not just the shape of their daily lives that is different as adults, it's everything: their families, their communities, their racial identities. Many years later, one sister lives with her black daughter in the same southern town she once tried to escape. The other secretly passes for white, and her white husband knows nothing of her past. Still, even separated by so many miles and just as many lies, the fates of the twins remain intertwined. What will happen to the next generation, when their own daughters' storylines intersect?

Weaving together multiple strands and generations of this family, from the Deep South to California, from the 1950s to the 1990s, Brit Bennett produces a story that is at once a riveting, emotional family story and a brilliant exploration of the American history of passing. Looking well beyond issues of race, The Vanishing Half considers the lasting influence of the past as it shapes a person's decisions, desires, and expectations, and explores some of the multiple reasons and realms in which people sometimes feel pulled to live as something other than their origins.

As with her New York Times-bestselling debut The Mothers, Brit Bennett offers an engrossing page-turner about family and relationships that is immersive and provocative, compassionate and wise.]]>
350 Brit Bennett Always 4 ]]> 4.25 2020 The Vanishing Half
author: Brit Bennett
name: Always
average rating: 4.25
book published: 2020
rating: 4
read at: 2022/08/07
date added: 2022/08/23
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I feel so out of the loop because I hadn't even realized this was a popular or highly recommended read. Maybe that's for the best though because it might have influenced how I felt about the book. I really enjoyed it for sure, I found the storyline to be engrossing and I read it in one sitting. I do think that [spoilers removed]

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<![CDATA[The Shadow Wand (The Black Witch Chronicles, #3)]]> 52200873 Elloren Gardner verbirgt das mächtigste Geheimnis in ganz Aerda - sie ist die Schwarze Hexe der Prophezeiung und dazu bestimmt, zu triumphieren ... oder als ultimative Waffe der Zerstörung eingesetzt zu werden.

Getrennt von allen, die sie liebt, isoliert und gejagt, muss Elloren sich an die letzte Person wenden, der sie vertrauen kann - Kommandant Lukas Grey. Da die Magiakräfte von Gardnerien kurz davorstehen, die Reiche des Westens zu erobern, hat Elloren keine andere Wahl, als sich mit Lukas zu verbünden und ihre Kräfte zu vereinen, um sich selbst vor den Fängen des gardnerischen Anführers Marcus Vogel zu schützen ... dem Besitzer des alles verzehrenden Schattenstabs.

Mit nur wenigen Wochen Zeit, um sich zur Kriegerin ausbilden zu lassen, und ohne Kontrolle über ihre Magie, findet Elloren unerwartete Verbündete unter denen, die den Befehl haben, sie zu töten.

Es ist an der Zeit, aufzustehen. Zurückzuschlagen. Und sich trotz des bisher verheerendsten Verlusts voranzukämpfen.

Band 3 der New York Times und USA Today Bestsellerreihe]]>
554 Laurie Forest 1488056900 Always 4 4.29 2020 The Shadow Wand (The Black Witch Chronicles, #3)
author: Laurie Forest
name: Always
average rating: 4.29
book published: 2020
rating: 4
read at: 2022/08/08
date added: 2022/08/23
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This was definitely better than the last one in my opinion. I think in part because we didn't have to spend the majority of the book on a love triangle or reading about star crossed love. I enjoyed that it seemed like the action was starting to pick up as well. The pacing felt a bit off though, as it did with the second book, it felt too fast at times and sluggish at other times. I also wish more time was spent on character development and fleshing out the storylines for the side characters. Looking forward to reading the next one though, I already put a hold on it with the library.
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The Rum Diary 12857075 Alternate Cover Edition can be found here.


Begun in 1959 by a twenty-two-year-old Hunter S. Thompson, The Rum Diary is a brilliantly tangled love story of jealousy, treachery, and violent alcoholic lust in the Caribbean boomtown that was San Juan, Puerto Rico, in the late 1950s. The narrator, freelance journalist Paul Kemp, irresistibly drawn to a sexy, mysterious woman, is soon thrust into a world where corruption and get-rich-quick schemes rule and anything (including murder) is permissible. Exuberant and mad, youthful and energetic, this dazzling comedic romp provides a fictional excursion as riveting and outrageous as Thompson’s Fear and Loathing books.]]>
233 Hunter S. Thompson Always 4
I do think it can be kind of tiring when you read multiple books with a male protagonist and you can just tell the character doesn't really see women as multifaceted human beings. I would avoid this if that's going to bother you. I didn't care except when [spoilers removed] because that felt like a little much. I was more incredulous than anything else though.

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3.84 1998 The Rum Diary
author: Hunter S. Thompson
name: Always
average rating: 3.84
book published: 1998
rating: 4
read at: 2022/07/22
date added: 2022/08/15
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I actually really enjoyed reading this. It was well written and engaging. I can see why people might have disliked it, but the things people disliked about it worked for me here for some reason. It's funny because the things I liked about this book didn't seem to appeal to me when I read On The Road right before this. Here I kind of liked the directionless plot line and self centered characters. I think the difference here is it felt like those things played into the overall ruminations in the book about aging and wasted time.

I do think it can be kind of tiring when you read multiple books with a male protagonist and you can just tell the character doesn't really see women as multifaceted human beings. I would avoid this if that's going to bother you. I didn't care except when [spoilers removed] because that felt like a little much. I was more incredulous than anything else though.

I really want to read Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas now.
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On the Road 6658889 The classic novel of freedom and the search for authenticity that defined a generationSeptember 5th, 2017 marks the 60th anniversary of the publication ofĚýOn the RoadInspired by Jack Kerouac's adventures with Neal Cassady,ĚýOn the RoadĚýtells the story of two friends whose cross-country road trips are a quest for meaning and true experience. Written with a mixture of sad-eyed naivetĂ© and wild ambition and imbued with Kerouac's love of America, his compassion for humanity, and his sense of language as jazz,ĚýOn the RoadĚýis the quintessential American vision of freedom and hope, a book that changed American literature and changed anyone who has ever picked it up. Ěý]]> 307 Jack Kerouac 1101127570 Always 3 3.58 1957 On the Road
author: Jack Kerouac
name: Always
average rating: 3.58
book published: 1957
rating: 3
read at: 2022/07/15
date added: 2022/08/15
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I honestly had trouble finishing this. Not because I hated it but I just didn't feel very into it. While I was reading it I was somewhat engaged but I never felt like I needed to know what happened next. I think the stream of conscious style of writing in this book actually made it harder to forget I was reading. The book isn't that old but it still felt like it was speaking an older dialect that I could recognize but not easily understand. The way it ended also felt unsatisfactory but I can't really put my finger on why. I thought I would enjoy this a lot more but maybe I've outgrown the phase in which a book like this feels impactful.
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No One Is Talking About This 55000246
As this urgent, genre-defying book opens, a woman who has recently been elevated to prominence for her social media posts travels around the world to meet her adoring fans. She is overwhelmed by navigating the new language and etiquette of what she terms "the portal," where she grapples with an unshakable conviction that a vast chorus of voices is now dictating her thoughts. When existential threats—from climate change and economic precariousness to the rise of an unnamed dictator and an epidemic of loneliness—begin to loom, she posts her way deeper into the portal's void. An avalanche of images, details, and references accumulate to form a landscape that is post-sense, post-irony, post-everything. "Are we in hell?" the people of the portal ask themselves. "Are we all just going to keep doing this until we die?"

Suddenly, two texts from her mother pierce the fray: "Something has gone wrong," and "How soon can you get here?" As real life and its stakes collide with the increasingly absurd antics of the portal, the woman confronts a world that seems to contain both an abundance of proof that there is goodness, empathy, and justice in the universe, and a deluge of evidence to the contrary.

Fragmentary and omniscient, incisive and sincere, No One Is Talking About This is at once a love letter to the endless scroll and a profound, modern meditation on love, language, and human connection from a singular voice in American literature.]]>
224 Patricia Lockwood 0593189604 Always 1 3.77 2021 No One Is Talking About This
author: Patricia Lockwood
name: Always
average rating: 3.77
book published: 2021
rating: 1
read at: 2022/06/18
date added: 2022/08/07
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Personally I don't use any social media really and at most I browse websites. This book kind of reminded me why, reading it felt like the same nauseating experience that comes with being chronically online. I really did not enjoy this at all. I had to force myself to finish it. I didn't get much out of and I didn't find it insightful at all to be honest. I think I just wasn't the intended audience for this book. It just felt like even when the book was trying to have depth it fell flat. It felt like those posts you'll see where people say "my therapist point out/said to x to me today" if that makes sense.
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The Stepford Wives 10931746

With an Introduction by Peter Straub

For Joanna, her husband, Walter, and their children, the move to beautiful Stepford seems almost too good to be true. It is. For behind the town's idyllic facade lies a terrible secret -- a secret so shattering that no one who encounters it will ever be the same.

At once a masterpiece of psychological suspense and a savage commentary on a media-driven society that values the pursuit of youth and beauty at all costs, The Stepford Wives is a novel so frightening in its final implications that the title itself has earned a place in the American lexicon.

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148 Ira Levin 0062037609 Always 4 4.05 1972 The Stepford Wives
author: Ira Levin
name: Always
average rating: 4.05
book published: 1972
rating: 4
read at: 2022/05/27
date added: 2022/07/21
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I haven't seen the movie but I did really enjoy this. It's a short and engaging read. I almost wish it was longer. I really want to watch the movie now as well.
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The Vegetarian 34845512
“Ferocious.”—The New York Times Book Review (Ten Best Books of the Year)
“Both terrifying and terrific.”—Lauren Groff
“Provocative [and] shocking.”—The Washington Post

Before the nightmares began, Yeong-hye and her husband lived an ordinary, controlled life. But the dreams—invasive images of blood and brutality—torture her, driving Yeong-hye to purge her mind and renounce eating meat altogether. It’s a small act of independence, but it interrupts her marriage and sets into motion an increasingly grotesque chain of events at home. As her husband, her brother-in-law and sister each fight to reassert their control, Yeong-hye obsessively defends the choice that’s become sacred to her. Soon their attempts turn desperate, subjecting first her mind, and then her body, to ever more intrusive and perverse violations, sending Yeong-hye spiraling into a dangerous, bizarre estrangement, not only from those closest to her, but also from herself.

Celebrated by critics around the world, The Vegetarian is a darkly allegorical, Kafka-esque tale of power, obsession, and one woman’s struggle to break free from the violence both without and within her.

One of the Best Books of the Year—BuzzFeed, Entertainment Weekly, Wall Street Journal, Time, Elle, The Economist, HuffPost, Slate, Bustle, The St. Louis Dispatch, Electric Literature, Publishers Weekly]]>
185 Han Kang Always 4 I can understand why people may have not enjoyed this book. I agree with others that the first two thirds were kind of insufferable and the men were selfish but it also felt familiar in a way. I've known men like Yeong-hye's husband and brother in law, maybe not exactly like them but definitely embodying the same sort of energy. The second third was pretty wild though, I still don't know what to make of it.
Personally, I like a book where someone loses their mind. I also just really resonated with the sister at the end because sometimes it does feel like why am I even bothering to hold it together and conform to all these expectations. ]]>
3.58 2007 The Vegetarian
author: Han Kang
name: Always
average rating: 3.58
book published: 2007
rating: 4
read at: 2022/06/02
date added: 2022/07/21
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I want to write a coherent and well thought out review but it feels kind of late now. I forgot to review it when I finished and the way I felt about it isn't as fresh in my mind. Oh well.
I can understand why people may have not enjoyed this book. I agree with others that the first two thirds were kind of insufferable and the men were selfish but it also felt familiar in a way. I've known men like Yeong-hye's husband and brother in law, maybe not exactly like them but definitely embodying the same sort of energy. The second third was pretty wild though, I still don't know what to make of it.
Personally, I like a book where someone loses their mind. I also just really resonated with the sister at the end because sometimes it does feel like why am I even bothering to hold it together and conform to all these expectations.
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<![CDATA[The Big Short: Inside the Doomsday Machine]]> 8213519


Michael Lewis creates a fresh, character-driven narrative brimming with indignation and dark humor, a fitting sequel to his #1 bestseller Liar's Poker. Out of a handful of unlikely-really unlikely-heroes, Lewis fashions a story as compelling and unusual as any of his earlier bestsellers, proving yet again that he is the finest and funniest chronicler of our time.]]>
287 Michael Lewis 0393078191 Always 3 4.44 2010 The Big Short: Inside the Doomsday Machine
author: Michael Lewis
name: Always
average rating: 4.44
book published: 2010
rating: 3
read at: 2022/04/12
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I feel a little late to the club reading this now. I did want to understand more fully understand what happened the last time we had a recession, especially now that we keep hearing about how there might be another one impending. I found the book informative but it did feel kind of dry and boring at points. I also kind of wish more time had been spent on the people who created the situation versus those who where able to realize what was going on and capitalize off of the crash.
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The Library at Mount Char 24579792 A missing God.
A library with the secrets to the universe.
A woman too busy to notice her heart slipping away.
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Carolyn's not so different from the other people around her. She likes guacamole and cigarettes and steak. She knows how to use a phone. Clothes are a bit tricky, but everyone says nice things about her outfit with the Christmas sweater over the gold bicycle shorts.Ěý

After all, she was a normal American herself once.ĚýĚý

That was a long time ago, of course. Before her parents died. Before she and the others were taken in by the man they called Father.

In the years since then, Carolyn hasn't had a chance to get out much. Instead, she and her adopted siblings have been raised according to Father's ancient customs. They've studied the books in his Library and learned some of the secrets of his power. And sometimes, they've wondered if their cruel tutor might secretly be God.Ěý

Now, Father is missing—perhaps even dead—and the Library that holds his secrets stands unguarded. And with it, control over all of creation.

As Carolyn gathers the tools she needs for the battle to come, fierce competitors for this prize align against her, all of them with powers that far exceed her own.

But Carolyn has accounted for this.

And Carolyn has a plan.

The only trouble is that in the war to make a new God, she's forgotten to protect the things that make her human.]]>
390 Scott Hawkins 0553418610 Always 4 4.19 2015 The Library at Mount Char
author: Scott Hawkins
name: Always
average rating: 4.19
book published: 2015
rating: 4
read at: 2022/04/18
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This felt somewhat different and unique from the other fantasy I've read which obviously made me like it. I wish I had reviewed it right after finishing it because I've started to forget how I felt about it. I did think [spoilers removed]. Also Steve was really annoying towards the end. The book kept me in suspense and I did really enjoy all the twists etc.
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If I'm Found (If I Run #2) 38205753 Is Dylan hunting Casey to prosecute her or protect her?


Casey Cox is still on the run, fleeing prosecution for a murder she didn’t commit. Dylan Roberts—her most relentless pursuer—is still on her trail, but his secret emails insist that he knows the truth and wants to help her. He’s let her escape before when he had her in his grasp, but trust doesn’t come easily.


As Casey works to collect evidence about the real murderers, she stumbles on another unbearable injustice: an abused child and a suicidal man who’s also been falsely accused. Casey risks her own safety to right this wrong and protect the little girl from her tormenters. But doing so is risky and just may result in her capture—and if she’s captured, she has no doubt she’ll be murdered before she ever steps foot in a jail.


In this riveting sequel to the USA Today bestseller If I Run, evil lurks, drawing Casey out of the shadows . . . but there is light shining in the darkness. Is Dylan a provision from the God who loves her, or another heartache yet to happen?]]>
384 Terri Blackstock Always 3 4.52 2016 If I'm Found (If I Run #2)
author: Terri Blackstock
name: Always
average rating: 4.52
book published: 2016
rating: 3
read at: 2022/04/21
date added: 2022/06/26
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I honestly don't remember anything from the first book but I still enjoyed this one. I think it does a good job of standing on its own. I was kind of confused by all the religion in this one and I don't remember it being in the first, but maybe I'm mistaken. I don't think it's necessarily wrong to have religion be something mentioned or explored in your book but I'm not sure it really added anything to the plot and it's just not my cup of tea to begin with. I did enjoy the pacing and the book is really easy to read. Casey is kind of annoying for inserting herself into situations she didn't need to though.
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<![CDATA[An Elegant Defense: The Extraordinary New Science of the Immune System: A Tale in Four Lives]]> 56896526 A magnificently reported and soulfully crafted exploration of the human immune system�the key to health and wellness, life and death. An epic, first-of-its-kind book, entwining leading-edge scientific discovery with the intimate stories of four individual lives, by the Pulitzer Prize–winning New York Times journalist.

A terminal cancer patient rises from the grave. A medical marvel defies HIV. Two women with autoimmunity discover their own bodies have turned against them. Matt Richtel's An Elegant Defense uniquely entwines these intimate stories with science’s centuries-long quest to unlock the mysteries of sickness and health, and illuminates the immune system as never before.

The immune system is our body’s essential defense network, a guardian vigilantly fighting illness, healing wounds, maintaining order and balance, and keeping us alive. Its legion of microscopic foot soldiers—from T cells to “natural killers”—patrols our body, linked by a nearly instantaneous communications grid. It has been honed by evolution over millennia to face an almost infinite array of threats.

For all its astonishing complexity, however, the immune system can be easily compromised by fatigue, stress, toxins, advanced age, and poor nutrition—hallmarks of modern life—and even by excessive hygiene. Paradoxically, it is a fragile wonder weapon that can turn on our own bodies with startling results, leading today to epidemic levels of autoimmune disorders.

Richtel effortlessly guides readers on a scientific detective tale winding from the Black Plague to twentieth-century breakthroughs in vaccination and antibiotics, to the cutting-edge laboratories that are revolutionizing immunology—perhaps the most extraordinary and consequential medical story of our time. The foundation that Richtel builds makes accessible revelations about cancer immunotherapy, the microbiome, and autoimmune treatments that are changing millions of lives. An Elegant Defense also captures in vivid detail how these powerful therapies, along with our behavior and environment, interact with the immune system, often for the good but always on a razor’s edge that can throw this remarkable system out of balance.

Drawing on his groundbreaking reporting for the New York Times and based on extensive new interviews with dozens of world-renowned scientists, Matt Richtel has produced a landmark book, equally an investigation into the deepest riddles of survival and a profoundly human tale that is movingly brought to life through the eyes of his four main characters, each of whom illuminates an essential facet of our “elegant defense.”]]>
324 Matt Richtel Always 3 4.30 2019 An Elegant Defense: The Extraordinary New Science of the Immune System: A Tale in Four Lives
author: Matt Richtel
name: Always
average rating: 4.30
book published: 2019
rating: 3
read at: 2022/05/22
date added: 2022/06/26
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I actually think this is a good book for anyone who might not know much about biology and wants to learn more about the immune system and the history of the science of it. I did learn a few things especially about the scientists involved in doing the research about the things I learnt about in undergrad which was cool. I'm not sure why but I had trouble staying engaged when reading this however. I think the framing of things in metaphor and simile didn't work for me in this situation (every time I saw the phrase festival of life I just wanted to role my eyes). I also did not feel invested in the narrative aspect. Whenever it switched to discussing the four people whose immunological issues are covered I just wanted to start skimming. It also felt like the book jumped around a lot but maybe its because I was mainly reading before bed. Overall a good book but it just didn't do it for me personally.
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<![CDATA[It Ends with Us (It Ends with Us, #1)]]> 27362503
Lily hasn’t always had it easy, but that’s never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She’s come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up � she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true.

Ryle is assertive, stubborn, maybe even a little arrogant. He’s also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily. And the way he looks in scrubs certainly doesn’t hurt. Lily can’t get him out of her head. But Ryle’s complete aversion to relationships is disturbing. Even as Lily finds herself becoming the exception to his “no dating� rule, she can’t help but wonder what made him that way in the first place.

As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan � her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened.]]>
386 Colleen Hoover 1668021048 Always 3 Verity and I think just like that one, even though the book was very readable, it had that same fanfiction/wattpad vibe to it. There isn't anything wrong with that style of writing; I think something about it just feels unsatisfactory at this point in time for me personally. I do appreciate the attempt at trying to make readers empathize with people who are in abusive relationship and end up staying. I also think the pacing was really good. There's just something about Hoover's writing though that makes characters feel really two dimensional and that feels idealistic/superficial in a way that makes it hard for me to forget that I'm reading a piece of fiction. ]]> 4.11 2016 It Ends with Us (It Ends with Us, #1)
author: Colleen Hoover
name: Always
average rating: 4.11
book published: 2016
rating: 3
read at: 2022/04/07
date added: 2022/06/19
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I'm not sure why I didn't love this book. I just finished Verity and I think just like that one, even though the book was very readable, it had that same fanfiction/wattpad vibe to it. There isn't anything wrong with that style of writing; I think something about it just feels unsatisfactory at this point in time for me personally. I do appreciate the attempt at trying to make readers empathize with people who are in abusive relationship and end up staying. I also think the pacing was really good. There's just something about Hoover's writing though that makes characters feel really two dimensional and that feels idealistic/superficial in a way that makes it hard for me to forget that I'm reading a piece of fiction.
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<![CDATA[Breakfast at Tiffany's and Three Stories: House of Flowers, A Diamond Guitar, and A Christmas Memory]]> 15785457 Holly Golightly knows that nothing bad can ever happen to you at Tiffany's. In this seductive, wistful masterpiece, Capote created a woman whose name has entered the American idiom and whose style is a part of the literary landscape—her poignancy, wit, and naïveté continue to charm.

This volume also includes three of Capote's best-known stories, “House of Flowers,� “A Diamond Guitar,� and “A Christmas Memory,� which the Saturday Review called “one of the most moving stories in our language.� It is a tale of two innocents—a small boy and the old woman who is his best friend—whose sweetness contains a hard, sharp kernel of truth.]]>
141 Truman Capote Always 4 A Christmas Memory, or maybe it just made me cry so I'm feeling very tender about it. I didn't really like House of Flowers but I did like A Diamond Guitar as well. Overall a good read, hoping to read In Cold Blood sometime soon too since I really enjoyed Capote's writing style.]]> 3.82 1958 Breakfast at Tiffany's and Three Stories: House of Flowers, A Diamond Guitar, and A Christmas Memory
author: Truman Capote
name: Always
average rating: 3.82
book published: 1958
rating: 4
read at: 2022/01/24
date added: 2022/06/06
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I spent today in bed because I wasn't feeling well and spent part of that time just reading this from front to end and I have to say it was a nice set of short stories to read while feeling sick and sorry for myself. I feel like writing was comforting and all the stories had that undertone of loneliness or grief that tends to resonate with me. Of course I loved Holly Golightly, I tend to really like flawed/ridiculous/over the top characters. I really liked the last story as well, A Christmas Memory, or maybe it just made me cry so I'm feeling very tender about it. I didn't really like House of Flowers but I did like A Diamond Guitar as well. Overall a good read, hoping to read In Cold Blood sometime soon too since I really enjoyed Capote's writing style.
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Verity 59218704 Whose truth is the lie?ĚýStay up all night readingĚýthe sensational psychological thriller that has readers obsessed, from the #1ĚýNew York TimesĚýbestselling author of Too Late andĚýIt Ends With Us.#1 New York TimesĚýBestsellerĚý·ĚýUSA TodayĚýBestsellerĚý·ĚýGlobe and MailĚýBestsellerĚý·ĚýPublishers WeeklyĚýBestsellerĚýLowen Ashleigh is a struggling writer on the brink of financial ruin when she accepts the job offer of a lifetime. Jeremy Crawford, husband of bestselling author Verity Crawford, has hired Lowen to complete the remaining books in a successful series his injured wife is unable to finish.ĚýLowen arrives at the Crawford home, ready to sort through years of Verity's notes and outlines, hoping to find enough material to get her started. What Lowen doesn't expect to uncover in the chaotic office is an unfinished autobiography Verity never intended for anyone to read. Page after page of bone-chilling admissions, including Verity's recollection of the night her family was forever altered.ĚýLowen decides to keep the manuscript hidden from Jeremy, knowing its contents could devastate the already grieving father. But as Lowen's feelings for Jeremy begin to intensify, she recognizes all the ways she could benefit if he were to read his wife's words. After all, no matter how devoted Jeremy is to his injured wife, a truth this horrifying would make it impossible for him to continue loving her.]]> 333 Colleen Hoover Always 3 I need to read more of the autobiography and then it would cut back to the autobiography. I'm not sure if what I'm trying to articulate even makes sense. I could also definitely have done without all the sex scenes. The romantic plot lines also gave it that wattpad/fanfiction vibe.

It did hold my attention and I really didn't want to stop reading until finding out how it ended. I'm not sure how I feel about the ending either. I didn't find it surprising but I have been catching myself questioning it all day today so it definitely made an impression.]]>
4.38 2018 Verity
author: Colleen Hoover
name: Always
average rating: 4.38
book published: 2018
rating: 3
read at: 2022/04/05
date added: 2022/04/26
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I read most of this last night over the course of a few hours, it's very readable, but I'm not sure why the writing kind of reminded me of fanficton or something on wattpad. I think it's mainly because of things like the transitions between chapters where Lowen would say something along the lines of I need to read more of the autobiography and then it would cut back to the autobiography. I'm not sure if what I'm trying to articulate even makes sense. I could also definitely have done without all the sex scenes. The romantic plot lines also gave it that wattpad/fanfiction vibe.

It did hold my attention and I really didn't want to stop reading until finding out how it ended. I'm not sure how I feel about the ending either. I didn't find it surprising but I have been catching myself questioning it all day today so it definitely made an impression.
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<![CDATA[Wandfasted (The Black Witch Chronicles, #0.5)]]> 33225153
Twenty years before Elloren Gardner enrolled at the illustrious Verpax University, Erthia was rent asunder during the devastating Realm War. When Tessla Harrow is driven from her home by the fighting, she discovers a depth of power she never knew she had...and an irresistible draw towards Vale Gardner, the son of the most powerful mage her people have ever known � the Black Witch.]]>
235 Laurie Forest Always 4 4.21 2017 Wandfasted (The Black Witch Chronicles, #0.5)
author: Laurie Forest
name: Always
average rating: 4.21
book published: 2017
rating: 4
read at: 2022/03/21
date added: 2022/03/24
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I had fun reading this and I ended up staying up all night to finish it. I have a nostalgic soft spot for a certain type of YA fantasy book. I do think there were a lot of things about this that might feel cliched and that it employs certain tropes I've heard people complain about many times. I wouldn't pick it up if you're looking for something new or unique but I think it serves as a decent light read and can be good enough entertainment wise.
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<![CDATA[Code: The Hidden Language of Computer Hardware and Software]]> 21948821 What do flashlights, the British invasion, black cats, and seesaws have to do with computers? In CODE, they show us the ingenious ways we manipulate language and invent new means of communicating with each other. And through CODE, we see how this ingenuity and our very human compulsion to communicate have driven the technological innovations of the past two centuries.
Using everyday objects and familiar language systems such as Braille and Morse code, author Charles Petzold weaves an illuminating narrative for anyone who’s ever wondered about the secret inner life of computers and other smart machines.
It’s a cleverly illustrated and eminently comprehensible story—and along the way, you’ll discover you’ve gained a real context for understanding today’s world of PCs, digital media, and the Internet. No matter what your level of technical savvy, CODE will charm you—and perhaps even awaken the technophile within.

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400 Petzold Charles Always 4 4.38 1999 Code: The Hidden Language of Computer Hardware and Software
author: Petzold Charles
name: Always
average rating: 4.38
book published: 1999
rating: 4
read at: 2022/02/18
date added: 2022/03/24
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I got this book because a friend was doing a book club but then I forgot about the book club. I decided to read it now so I could at least pretend like I was being productive while reading during work. I actually learnt a lot and now have context for a lot of things that I didn't understand before. I feel like knowing the history/development of any subject just helps make it more interesting and explains why things might be a certain way. I would say I don't know if this is good casual reading. I did fall asleep quite a few times but that might be because I like reading in bed under the covers. I kind of want to read something similar but for the period since this book was published, if anyone has any recommendations.
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<![CDATA[A People's History of the United States]]> 37761175 Historian Howard Zinn’s A People’s History of the United States chronicles American history from the bottom up, throwing out the official narrative taught in schools—with its emphasis on great men in high places—to focus on the street, the home, and the workplace.

Known for its lively, clear prose as well as its scholarly research, it is the only volume to tell America's story from the point of view of—and in the words of—America's women, factory workers, African-Americans, Native Americans, the working poor, and immigrant laborers. As Zinn shows, many of our country's greatest battles—the fights for a fair wage, an eight-hour workday, child-labor laws, health and safety standards, universal suffrage, women's rights, racial equality—were carried out at the grassroots level, against bloody resistance.

Covering Christopher Columbus's arrival through President Clinton's first term, A People's History of the United States features insightful analysis of the most important events in our history.ĚýThis edition also includes an introduction by Anthony Arnove, who wrote, directed, and produced The People Speak with Zinn and who coauthored, with Zinn, Voices of a People’s History of the United States.

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764 Howard Zinn Always 4
At this point I've heard most of what's covered in this book before. I think if it had been my first time reading about these things I would've been moved more deeply and I would be one of those people who tells others how great this book is and how they have to read it.

I personally think it's important for us to contend with the history of this country, to even allow ourselves to feel angry or bad about the things that have happened while also not feeling like it's some sort of attack on us personally. I think it's also okay to just acknowledge that our government does a lot of shitty things that we may sometimes benefit from and that we can be somewhat culpable for. I also am not that sensitive to being critiqued or told I'm a piece of shit so maybe that's why I think its an overreaction when people get so viscerally angry at books like this for painting the country in a bad light. It's also kind of weird in my opinion to tie your identity so closely to your country but to each his own.

Anyways I enjoyed the book, probably because it has politics similar to mine.]]>
4.15 1980 A People's History of the United States
author: Howard Zinn
name: Always
average rating: 4.15
book published: 1980
rating: 4
read at: 2022/02/15
date added: 2022/03/24
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I had wanted to read this for quite a while and I was finally able to borrow it from the library only to realize its 700+ pages. I felt really anxious about finishing it before I had to return it so I spent the past few days reading and not doing any of my work. I need to come up with a plausible lie to tell my boss tomorrow about what I've been working on. I also still have 15 days left before I have to return the book so I kind of feel dumb now.

At this point I've heard most of what's covered in this book before. I think if it had been my first time reading about these things I would've been moved more deeply and I would be one of those people who tells others how great this book is and how they have to read it.

I personally think it's important for us to contend with the history of this country, to even allow ourselves to feel angry or bad about the things that have happened while also not feeling like it's some sort of attack on us personally. I think it's also okay to just acknowledge that our government does a lot of shitty things that we may sometimes benefit from and that we can be somewhat culpable for. I also am not that sensitive to being critiqued or told I'm a piece of shit so maybe that's why I think its an overreaction when people get so viscerally angry at books like this for painting the country in a bad light. It's also kind of weird in my opinion to tie your identity so closely to your country but to each his own.

Anyways I enjoyed the book, probably because it has politics similar to mine.
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Spaceman of Bohemia 33411248 An intergalactic odyssey of love, ambition, and self-discovery

Orphaned as a boy, raised in the Czech countryside by his doting grandparents, Jakub Procházka has risen from small-time scientist to become the country's first astronaut. When a dangerous solo mission to Venus offers him both the chance at heroism he's dreamt of, and a way to atone for his father's sins as a Communist informer, he ventures boldly into the vast unknown. But in so doing, he leaves behind his devoted wife, Lenka, whose love, he realizes too late, he has sacrificed on the altar of his ambitions.

Alone in Deep Space, Jakub discovers a possibly imaginary giant alien spider, who becomes his unlikely companion. Over philosophical conversations about the nature of love, life and death, and the deliciousness of bacon, the pair form an intense and emotional bond. Will it be enough to see Jakub through a clash with secret Russian rivals and return him safely to Earth for a second chance with Lenka?

Rich with warmth and suspense and surprise, Spaceman of Bohemia is an exuberant delight from start to finish. Very seldom has a novel this profound taken readers on a journey of such boundless entertainment and sheer fun.]]>
288 Jaroslav Kalfar 0316273406 Always 4 3.94 2017 Spaceman of Bohemia
author: Jaroslav Kalfar
name: Always
average rating: 3.94
book published: 2017
rating: 4
read at: 2022/02/03
date added: 2022/03/24
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At first I had a hard time getting into the book, I'm not sure why, I just wanted to stop reading. I always finish books I start though so I kept going and then I got really into it. The more I read, the weirder it got, and after finishing I feel like I've had some kind of fever dream. I'm really not sure how I feel about it, I'm still kind of ruminating over it. Parts of the book dragged, it felt like it had a tendency to go off on tangents. There were points being made but I still felt like my eyes were going to glaze over. I also disliked how corporeal some of the descriptions were. The plot itself started to make it hard to suspend disbelief after a certain point. That ending has been eating at me too, I feel dissatisfied, but not necessarily in a bad way. I gave the book four stars because it felt unique, was an interesting/engaging read, and it feels like its going to stay with me for a few days.
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Beloved (Beloved Trilogy, #1) 5025780 Exodus and as intimate as a lullaby.

Sethe, its protagonist, was born a slave and escaped to Ohio, but eighteen years later she is still not free. She has too many memories of Sweet Home, the beautiful farm where so many hideous things happened. And Sethe’s new home is haunted by the ghost of her baby, who died nameless and whose tombstone is engraved with a single Beloved. Filled with bitter poetry and suspense as taut as a rope, Beloved is a towering achievement.]]>
291 Toni Morrison 030738862X Always 4 4.12 1987 Beloved (Beloved Trilogy, #1)
author: Toni Morrison
name: Always
average rating: 4.12
book published: 1987
rating: 4
read at: 2022/02/23
date added: 2022/03/24
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The reasons that other people hated this book are reasons I liked it to be honest. I like this kind of writing and I understood what Morrison was trying to go for. I obviously haven't experienced anything as traumatic as the characters but I think the book does a good job capturing the sensation of certain types of guilt, isolation, dissociation, and intrusive thoughts/memories. I get why people may have had trouble following along, I did too at first but I feel like if you read the book through it isn't so bad. I think that are a lot of points at which there's clarification about things that were vaguely mentioned or alluded to before. I personally liked the book and am looking forward to reading more of Toni Morrison.
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East of Eden 55378851 A masterpiece of Biblical scope, and the magnum opus of one of America’s most enduring authors, in a commemorative hardcover edition
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In his journal, Nobel Prize winner John Steinbeck called East of Eden "the first book," and indeed it has the primordial power and simplicity of myth. Set in the rich farmland of California's Salinas Valley, this sprawling and often brutal novel follows the intertwined destinies of two families—the Trasks and the Hamiltons—whose generations helplessly reenact the fall of Adam and Eve and the poisonous rivalry of Cain and Abel.

The masterpiece of Steinbeck’s later years, East of Eden is a work in which Steinbeck created his most mesmerizing characters and explored his most enduring themes: the mystery of identity, the inexplicability of love, and the murderous consequences of love's absence. Adapted for the 1955 film directed by Elia Kazan introducing James Dean, and read by thousands as the book that brought Oprah’s Book Club back, East of Eden has remained vitally present in American culture for over half a century.]]>
620 John Steinbeck Always 5 favorites 4.59 1952 East of Eden
author: John Steinbeck
name: Always
average rating: 4.59
book published: 1952
rating: 5
read at: 2022/03/15
date added: 2022/03/24
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I really loved this book. I was kind of savoring it as I was reading it and I have that sad empty feeling you get when you finish a book that you really got into. I think there were a lot of sentences/thoughts that were just mentioned in passing that themselves felt really relatable. Obviously Cathy was one of the best parts of this book. Also can we all agree that [spoilers removed] I just feel like it was a very intimate experience, reading this book. Definitely one of my favorites now.
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The Hours 40212256 The Pulitzer Prize-winning novel that became a motion picture starring Meryl Streep, Julianne Moore, and Nicole Kidman, directed by Stephen Daldry from a screenplay by David Hare.

In The Hours, Michael Cunningham, widely praised as one of the most gifted writers of his generation, draws inventively on the life and work of Virginia Woolf to tell the story of a group of contemporary characters struggling with the conflicting claims of love and inheritance, hope and despair. The narrative of Woolf's last days before her suicide early in World War II counterpoints the fictional stories of Samuel, a famous poet whose life has been shadowed by his talented and troubled mother, and his lifelong friend Clarissa, who strives to forge a balanced and rewarding life in spite of the demands of friends, lovers, and family.

Passionate, profound, and deeply moving, this is Cunningham's most remarkable achievement to date.]]>
239 Michael Cunningham Always 5 4.13 1998 The Hours
author: Michael Cunningham
name: Always
average rating: 4.13
book published: 1998
rating: 5
read at: 2022/03/04
date added: 2022/03/24
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I've actually never read any Virginia Woolf. I remember I tried to one time when I was like 15 but I gave up after two pages for some reason. I feel like I should try again after reading this book though. I really enjoyed it. I loved the writing and I loved the pacing and I love the vibe and tone and themes. This is just the kind of book that happens to appeal to me the most and I'm really glad I picked it up.
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<![CDATA[The Invasion of the Tearling (The Queen of the Tearling #2)]]> 35394127
However, power is a double-edged sword, and small actions can have grave consequences. In trying to do what is right - stopping a vile trade in humankind - Kelsea has crossed the Red Queen, a ruthless monarch whose rule is bound with dark magic and the spilling of blood. The Red Queen's armies are poised to invade the Tearling, and it seems nothing can stop them.

Yet there was a time before the Crossing, and there Kelsea finds a strange and possibly dangerous ally, someone who might hold the key to the fate of the Tearling, and indeed to Kelsea's own soul. But time is running out...

Erika Johansen's fierce and unforgettable young heroine returns in this dazzling new novel of magic and adventure, set in the beguiling world of the Tearling.]]>
547 Erika Johansen Always 4
I enjoyed this one and I found it held my attention, so much so that I kept looking forward to when I would get to read again. A lot of people were saying they didn't really enjoy Lily but I found that part of the book to be stronger for some reason. I actually kept getting annoyed when it wouldn't get back to what happened to her. I think mostly I was just anxious about her situation and how it would get resolved.

I did however find the whole premise of how the Tearling came to be weird honestly, not sure why but I felt like the contrast between Lily's time and then Kelsea's didn't work well enough for me personally. I wish I could articulate it better but I don't even know what specifically about it didn't work for me.

Maybe I'll try to get around to reading the last book this year before I forget this one.]]>
4.12 2015 The Invasion of the Tearling (The Queen of the Tearling #2)
author: Erika Johansen
name: Always
average rating: 4.12
book published: 2015
rating: 4
read at: 2022/03/01
date added: 2022/03/24
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The problem with reading series is that unless I read them back to back I literally forget everything. I don't remember anything that happened in the first book bu that didn't take anything away from this one. I really like when I can just pick up a book that is part of a series and it can be read mostly as a stand alone.

I enjoyed this one and I found it held my attention, so much so that I kept looking forward to when I would get to read again. A lot of people were saying they didn't really enjoy Lily but I found that part of the book to be stronger for some reason. I actually kept getting annoyed when it wouldn't get back to what happened to her. I think mostly I was just anxious about her situation and how it would get resolved.

I did however find the whole premise of how the Tearling came to be weird honestly, not sure why but I felt like the contrast between Lily's time and then Kelsea's didn't work well enough for me personally. I wish I could articulate it better but I don't even know what specifically about it didn't work for me.

Maybe I'll try to get around to reading the last book this year before I forget this one.
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My Dark Vanessa 45865963 Exploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naĂŻve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher, a brilliant, all-consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer.

2000. Bright, ambitious, and yearning for adulthood, fifteen-year-old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane, her magnetic and guileful forty-two-year-old English teacher.

2017. Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men, a reckoning is coming due. Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former student, who reaches out to Vanessa, and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible remain silent, firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship, or redefine herself and the events of her past. But how can Vanessa reject her first love, the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life? Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager—and who professed to worship only her—may be far different from what she has always believed?

Alternating between Vanessa’s present and her past, My Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield. Thought-provoking and impossible to put down, this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital questions about agency, consent, complicity, and victimhood. Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of Room, My Dark Vanessa is an era-defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural mores transforming our relationships and society itself.

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395 Kate Elizabeth Russell 0062941526 Always 4 4.04 2020 My Dark Vanessa
author: Kate Elizabeth Russell
name: Always
average rating: 4.04
book published: 2020
rating: 4
read at: 2022/02/28
date added: 2022/03/24
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I did like this book and I thought it did a good job of exploring the complexities of sexual abuse. There was something about the book though that I found put me off it. I had to think about what it was for a while and I think it's because even though it was only published two years ago it feels dated already. I keep seeing that the book is well written but that also feels like the wrong way to describe it. The book is very readable but it reads like a lot of fiction books do now in general where its easy reading that doesn't require much persistence or attention if that makes sense. I don't even think its the authors fault, I think publishers now just don't want to publish books unless they fit a certain way of writing and they capitalize on current events that can then in turn be used to market the book. I honestly felt like that the #MeToo part of the story was unnecessary and that a lot of what the book was trying to do could have been done better without trying to shoehorn that in. Regardless I did like the book overall and I think Vanessa as a character especially was well constructed and realistic.
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Picture Perfect 10912 New York Times bestselling author of Leaving Time, The Storyteller, and Nineteen Minutes...

To the outside world, they seem to have it all. Cassie Barrett, a renowned anthropologist, and Alex Rivers, one of Hollywood's hottest actors, met on the set of a motion picture in Africa. They shared childhood tales, toasted the future, and declared their love in a fairy-tale wedding. But when they return to California, something alters the picture of their perfect marriage. A frightening pattern is taking shape—a cycle of hurt, denial, and promises, thinly veiled by glamour. Torn between fear and something that resembles love, Cassie wrestles with questions she never dreamed she would face: How can she leave? Then again, how can she stay?]]>
369 Jodi Picoult 0425185508 Always 3 3.53 1995 Picture Perfect
author: Jodi Picoult
name: Always
average rating: 3.53
book published: 1995
rating: 3
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<![CDATA[My Fairy Godmother is a Drag Queen]]> 31213068
With the help of a new friend, Coco Chanel Jones, Chris learns to be comfortable in his own skin, let himself fall in love and be loved, and discovers that maybe he was wrong about his step-family all along. All it takes is one fairy godmother dressed as Diana Ross to change the course of his life.

My Fairy Godmother is a Drag Queen is a Cinderella retelling for the modern reader. The novel expertly balances issues like sexuality, family and financial troubles, and self-discovery with more lighthearted moments like how one rogue shoe can launch a secret, whirlwind romance and a chance meeting with a drag queen can spark magic and light in a once dark reality.
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336 David Clawson 1510714111 Always 3
I actually think the book was surprisingly good, and that the author has a lot of potential as a story teller. I really liked Chris and I was rooting for him through out the story. The problem for me personally was the author's reliance on stereotypes through out the story. Maybe the whole point was that it's supposed to be humorous when he does that but it fell a little flat for me. Especially the whole thing with Coco Chanel Jones being a black drag queen and all her dialogue, both in and out of drag, came out to be a little caricatured. Again I'm sure there are people like that who exist and there's nothing wrong with it, but the way it was in the book just made me feel uncomfortable and it felt like it was being played up for humor. I just couldn't enjoy those parts of the book personally but again I do think the author's writing shows promise and that he's a good story teller. Maybe less reliance on stereotypes used as jokes, even though it would be the easy thing to do, would help. Also I still am confused about the whole party scene where the heck did Coco show up from while Chris is watching his family leave. It was a little discombobulating.]]>
3.53 2017 My Fairy Godmother is a Drag Queen
author: David Clawson
name: Always
average rating: 3.53
book published: 2017
rating: 3
read at: 2017/05/23
date added: 2022/03/02
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A modern retelling of Cinderella but with Cinderella actually being Christopher which is pretty cool I guess for people who want more diversity. Christopher's father commits suicide after the 2008 stock market crash, because all his money disappears, and leaves Christopher with his step family the Fontaine's. The Fontaine family has serious financial issues, which were supposed to be taken care of thanks to Chris's dad, and now his step sister Kimberly must find a way to trap the most eligible bachelor in America, J. J. Kennerly. The trouble is that J.J. is gay and he and Chris like one another. J.J. uses Kimberly as his beard and he and Chris sneak around together but Chris isn't sure how long he can keep pretending.

I actually think the book was surprisingly good, and that the author has a lot of potential as a story teller. I really liked Chris and I was rooting for him through out the story. The problem for me personally was the author's reliance on stereotypes through out the story. Maybe the whole point was that it's supposed to be humorous when he does that but it fell a little flat for me. Especially the whole thing with Coco Chanel Jones being a black drag queen and all her dialogue, both in and out of drag, came out to be a little caricatured. Again I'm sure there are people like that who exist and there's nothing wrong with it, but the way it was in the book just made me feel uncomfortable and it felt like it was being played up for humor. I just couldn't enjoy those parts of the book personally but again I do think the author's writing shows promise and that he's a good story teller. Maybe less reliance on stereotypes used as jokes, even though it would be the easy thing to do, would help. Also I still am confused about the whole party scene where the heck did Coco show up from while Chris is watching his family leave. It was a little discombobulating.
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<![CDATA[Infinite Powers: How Calculus Reveals the Secrets of the Universe]]> 41962724
Infinite Powers recounts how calculus tantalized and thrilled its inventors, starting with its first glimmers in ancient Greece and bringing us right up to the discovery of gravitational waves (a phenomenon predicted by calculus). Strogatz reveals how this form of math rose to the challenges of each how to determine the area of a circle with only sand and a stick; how to explain why Mars goes “backwards� sometimes; how to make electricity with magnets; how to ensure your rocket doesn’t miss the moon; how to turn the tide in the fight against AIDS.

As Strogatz proves, calculus is truly the language of the universe. By unveiling the principles of that language, Infinite Powers makes us marvel at the world anew.Ěý]]>
389 Steven H. Strogatz 132888001X Always 5 4.42 2019 Infinite Powers: How Calculus Reveals the Secrets of the Universe
author: Steven H. Strogatz
name: Always
average rating: 4.42
book published: 2019
rating: 5
read at: 2022/01/07
date added: 2022/03/01
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Personally I really enjoyed this book. I think it did a good job of making something most people find inscrutable seem more accessible. With abstract concepts I think its always helpful to try to use analogies or demonstrate their practical application. I actually am currently about to take a higher level calculus course so I read this in hopes of hyping myself up and I think I feel sufficiently motivated now. I do understand some of the reviews complaining about his overzealousness assertions about calculus being the language of nature but it worked for me personally. I think it feels much more interesting to say that calculus will reveal the secrets of the universe than to tell me I could figure out the rate of change for something.
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The Poisonwood Bible 6277770 The Poisonwood Bible is a story told by the wife and four daughters of Nathan Price, a fierce, evangelical Baptist who takes his family and mission to the Belgian Congo in 1959. They carry with them everything they believe they will need from home, but soon find that all of it—from garden seeds to Scripture—is calamitously transformed on African soil. What follows is a suspenseful epic of one family's tragic undoing and remarkable reconstruction over the course of three decades in postcolonial Africa.

The novel is set against one of the most dramatic political chronicles of the twentieth century: the Congo's fight for independence from Belgium, the murder of its first elected prime minister, the CIA coup to install his replacement, and the insidious progress of a world economic order that robs the fledgling African nation of its autonomy. Against this backdrop, Orleanna Price reconstructs the story of her evangelist husband's part in the Western assault on Africa, a tale indelibly darkened by her own losses and unanswerable questions about her own culpability. Also narrating the story, by turns, are her four daughters—the self-centered, teenaged Rachel; shrewd adolescent twins Leah and Adah; and Ruth May, a prescient five-year-old. These sharply observant girls, who arrive in the Congo with racial preconceptions forged in 1950s Georgia, will be marked in surprisingly different ways by their father's intractable mission, and by Africa itself. Ultimately each must strike her own separate path to salvation. Their passionately intertwined stories become a compelling exploration of moral risk and personal responsibility.

Dancing between the dark comedy of human failings and the breathtaking possibilities of human hope, The Poisonwood Bible possesses all that has distinguished Barbara Kingsolver's previous work, and extends this beloved writer's vision to an entirely new level. Taking its place alongside the classic works of postcolonial literature, this ambitious novel establishes Kingsolver as one of the most thoughtful and daring of modern writers.

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570 Barbara Kingsolver Always 4 4.26 1998 The Poisonwood Bible
author: Barbara Kingsolver
name: Always
average rating: 4.26
book published: 1998
rating: 4
read at: 2022/01/14
date added: 2022/03/01
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When I first started reading this I was honestly confused as to what was happening. And the plot wasn't what I was expecting, I wasn't sure exactly what I was expecting but it wasn't a story about a missionary to the Congo. I was pleasantly surprised though and eventually ended up getting really into the book when I got about a third of the way through, so much so that I was reading it while I was supposed to be working, hopefully my supervisor didn't notice I was MIA. I did think that the book was slow at times and dragged on, especially towards the end. And it was kind of funny that the ending felt [spoilers removed]. It was kind of hard at times to sit through the book because I kept wanting their dad to just die or fuck off honestly, but I think that indicates that the book did a pretty good job getting me emotionally invested.
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Principles: Life and Work 34941133 Ray Dalio, one of the world’s most successful investors and entrepreneurs, shares the unconventional principles that he’s developed, refined, and used over the past forty years to create unique results in both life and business—and which any person or organization can adopt to help achieve their goals.

In 1975, Ray Dalio founded an investment firm, Bridgewater Associates, out of his two-bedroom apartment in New York City. Forty years later, Bridgewater has made more money for its clients than any other hedge fund in history and grown into the fifth most important private company in the United States, according to Fortune magazine. Dalio himself has been named to Time magazine’s list of the 100 most influential people in the world. Along the way, Dalio discovered a set of unique principles that have led to Bridgewater’s exceptionally effective culture, which he describes as “an idea meritocracy that strives to achieve meaningful work and meaningful relationships through radical transparency.� It is these principles, and not anything special about Dalio—who grew up an ordinary kid in a middle-class Long Island neighborhood—that he believes are the reason behind his success.

In Principles, Dalio shares what he’s learned over the course of his remarkable career. He argues that life, management, economics, and investing can all be systemized into rules and understood like machines. The book’s hundreds of practical lessons, which are built around his cornerstones of “radical truth� and “radical transparency,� include Dalio laying out the most effective ways for individuals and organizations to make decisions, approach challenges, and build strong teams. He also describes the innovative tools the firm uses to bring an idea meritocracy to life, such as creating “baseball cards� for all employees that distill their strengths and weaknesses, and employing computerized decision-making systems to make believability-weighted decisions. While the book brims with novel ideas for organizations and institutions, Principles also offers a clear, straightforward approach to decision-making that Dalio believes anyone can apply, no matter what they’re seeking to achieve.

Here is a rare opportunity to gain proven advice unlike anything you’ll find in the conventional business press.]]>
592 Ray Dalio Always 3
I actually did enjoy the first third of the book when he was talking about himself and his life, probably because I'm nosy and I do like hearing about how people think/how they perceive the world. After that it kind of got repetitive and boring when he started going into his principals. I think part of it is because like he said the business principals aren't meant to be read but used as a reference. I feel also there was an amount of abstraction to what he was saying that just made everything sound like something you would read in any business books. Like keep an open mind and try to fail well and learn from my failures, groundbreaking ideas.

I kind of wish I had read a book about investing instead honestly, I feel like that would've been more relevant. I'm not a manager so most of the advice is useless for me at this point anyways. As always maybe I should just be better about figuring out what something is about before I actually pick it up to read it. ]]>
4.20 2017 Principles: Life and Work
author: Ray Dalio
name: Always
average rating: 4.20
book published: 2017
rating: 3
read at: 2022/01/23
date added: 2022/03/01
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I was looking through the books I had on my kindle and for some reason at some point I had bought this. I'm not sure why and I honestly had no idea who the author was even though I actually know about Bridgewater. Usually I have a tendency to just be a derisive piece of shit but when I was reading this book, Ray kept repeating that one should keep an open mind and so I thought you know what, I will keep an open mind Ray.

I actually did enjoy the first third of the book when he was talking about himself and his life, probably because I'm nosy and I do like hearing about how people think/how they perceive the world. After that it kind of got repetitive and boring when he started going into his principals. I think part of it is because like he said the business principals aren't meant to be read but used as a reference. I feel also there was an amount of abstraction to what he was saying that just made everything sound like something you would read in any business books. Like keep an open mind and try to fail well and learn from my failures, groundbreaking ideas.

I kind of wish I had read a book about investing instead honestly, I feel like that would've been more relevant. I'm not a manager so most of the advice is useless for me at this point anyways. As always maybe I should just be better about figuring out what something is about before I actually pick it up to read it.
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<![CDATA[The Black Witch (The Black Witch Chronicles, #1)]]> 25740412 A new Black Witch will rise…her powers vast beyond imagining.

Elloren Gardner is the granddaughter of the last prophesied Black Witch, Carnissa Gardner, who drove back the enemy forces and saved the Gardnerian people during the Realm War. But while she is the absolute spitting image of her famous grandmother, Elloren is utterly devoid of power in a society that prizes magical ability above all else.

When she is granted the opportunity to pursue her lifelong dream of becoming an apothecary, Elloren joins her brothers at the prestigious Verpax University to embrace a destiny of her own, free from the shadow of her grandmother’s legacy. But she soon realizes that the university, which admits all manner of people—including the fire-wielding, winged Icarals, the sworn enemies of all Gardnerians—is a treacherous place for the granddaughter of the Black Witch.

As evil looms on the horizon and the pressure to live up to her heritage builds, everything Elloren thought she knew will be challenged and torn away. Her best hope of survival may be among the most unlikely band of rebels…if only she can find the courage to trust those she’s been taught to fear.]]>
601 Laurie Forest 0373212313 Always 4 favorites
For anyone who doesn't know the book follows Elloren Gardner who lives with her uncle after her parents died in war. She is a direct descendant from the Black Witch, her grandmother, who is reveared by her people, the Gardnerians. Yet despite looking like her grandmother Elloren lacks the same powerful magic her grandmother possessed, or at least it would appear so. There is something about her magic that her uncle is hiding and he's kept her and her brothers away from the larger Gardnerians society, raising them as he feels is right. Elloren is turning eigthteen soon though and her aunt starts putting more pressure on her brother to let Elloren join her and learn more about the Gardnerian society. Elloren's uncle comes up with a plan as a compromise to let Elloren attend university with her brothers and Elloren is excited to finally have that dream come true.

So through out the book we have Elloren who is sheltered and doesn't really have any of her own opinions of other people from other places, I don't want to use the word race because it doesn't really apply so I'm going to say ethnicity because I think it fits much better with what's portrayed in the book. Then she goes off to spend time with her aunt, who has a lot of prejudice and is a devout nationalist to the Gardnerian state. Before this she hasn't dealt with people as widely and so I think it's not surprising that she looks to others for cues on how to behave. I think people keep blaming her for picking up these ideas but she has been kept isolated and I don't think it's fair to expect her to come out of no where and have these ideas of justice and equality with no learning or interaction with people outside of her family and a small village.

The way she behaves at first with the people at university might seem horrible and unfair when you're seeing it as a third party coming in with your own ideas about how to behave and morals but if you put yourself in her shoes and realize that she is still growing and learning and trying to make sense of things I don't think it seems horrible at all. I think the problem most people expressed is that Elloren is supposed to be some symbolic representation of white privileged people in america but I don't think that's true at all. I think many of you are projecting because through out the book it's made clear that the hatred and stereotyping runs deeply on all sides of this. Everyone hates everyone and everyone has tried to kill and oppress one another. Elloren's people didn't just go round up people from somewhere else and bring them to a country they stumbled upon where other people were already living who they slaughtered.

By going into this book and expecting it to be a certain way I feel that a lot of people let their own experiences and feelings cloud how they felt about the book, which I understand because these are really sensitive subjects being addressed. It just isn't consistent with the plot how ever and I don't think it's fair to expect a character to project a certain mind set just because that's what you want to see. This book is about Elloren and so of course she's going to mostly think about herself, and it's going to focus on her own growth as a person and no one just wakes up one day and suddenly realizes everything is wrong or has some innate knowledge that what they're being taught or picking up from their culture is hurting others until theyre exposed to the consequences.

This is also my own personal problem with people who get angry at others when they just try to help. I understand where the anger is coming from but being angry at singular people for something they really didn't put into place only alienates those people and makes them feel justified for being part of the system that is oppressing you. It's unrealistic to expect others to behave a certain way because you can't control it, you can only control how you behave and so there are better ways to change people, like actually making other people like you and want to help you and taking the time to explain to them and if they don't understand then at least you did your part.

Anyways I don't think at all that the author handled the transition badly, it seemed pretty realistic to me and the message seems solid, more education and exposure to those different than us builds tolerance and acceptance. I do how ever understand that some of us have had experiences that the book may remind us of and that can be hurtful and I'm not trying to take away from that or the fact that these things do impact us, I think if these are things you're dealing with and sensitive then the book may make you feel bad so maybe don't pick it up. I just personally don't see anything in the book on its own outside of the context of personal experiences or insecurities that is harmful.

Also stop comparing it to Harry Potter, why do people always need to say the book is like x other book like it probably isn't you're just going to make people's reactions to the book worse let it stand on it's own.

I do wish there was more time spent on the magic aspect of things and that story line but I really enjoyed this book and couldn't put it down even though it was really long and it's one of my favorites and I really want to read the next one. Hopefully the next one spends a little less time on the prejudice thing or only in the context of politics because I do really want more of larger lens and how the conflicts in the region are going to work out, I'm like invested in it now.

I'm going to crawl away now because I think I'm pretty much done saying what I wanted and I hope it made sense because I basically just babble when I write reviews.]]>
4.06 2017 The Black Witch (The Black Witch Chronicles, #1)
author: Laurie Forest
name: Always
average rating: 4.06
book published: 2017
rating: 4
read at: 2017/06/19
date added: 2022/03/01
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There's been a lot of discussion around this book and I wanted to indulge my self importance and read it and add my opinion which is what this is so if you disagree that's cool totally tell me but I just want to say that if you are just going to tell me that I don't know something or I'm ignorant I'm just going to get defensive and mean and I don't want to be mean I really do try to be nice and reasonable but I get riled up if I feel like I'm being attacked so lets just try to keep this pleasant and please try to actually explain what you think instead of just telling me I'm shit because I already I'm shit so thanks. Also I can't promise there won't be spoilers so just don't read if you're trying to stay spoiler free.

For anyone who doesn't know the book follows Elloren Gardner who lives with her uncle after her parents died in war. She is a direct descendant from the Black Witch, her grandmother, who is reveared by her people, the Gardnerians. Yet despite looking like her grandmother Elloren lacks the same powerful magic her grandmother possessed, or at least it would appear so. There is something about her magic that her uncle is hiding and he's kept her and her brothers away from the larger Gardnerians society, raising them as he feels is right. Elloren is turning eigthteen soon though and her aunt starts putting more pressure on her brother to let Elloren join her and learn more about the Gardnerian society. Elloren's uncle comes up with a plan as a compromise to let Elloren attend university with her brothers and Elloren is excited to finally have that dream come true.

So through out the book we have Elloren who is sheltered and doesn't really have any of her own opinions of other people from other places, I don't want to use the word race because it doesn't really apply so I'm going to say ethnicity because I think it fits much better with what's portrayed in the book. Then she goes off to spend time with her aunt, who has a lot of prejudice and is a devout nationalist to the Gardnerian state. Before this she hasn't dealt with people as widely and so I think it's not surprising that she looks to others for cues on how to behave. I think people keep blaming her for picking up these ideas but she has been kept isolated and I don't think it's fair to expect her to come out of no where and have these ideas of justice and equality with no learning or interaction with people outside of her family and a small village.

The way she behaves at first with the people at university might seem horrible and unfair when you're seeing it as a third party coming in with your own ideas about how to behave and morals but if you put yourself in her shoes and realize that she is still growing and learning and trying to make sense of things I don't think it seems horrible at all. I think the problem most people expressed is that Elloren is supposed to be some symbolic representation of white privileged people in america but I don't think that's true at all. I think many of you are projecting because through out the book it's made clear that the hatred and stereotyping runs deeply on all sides of this. Everyone hates everyone and everyone has tried to kill and oppress one another. Elloren's people didn't just go round up people from somewhere else and bring them to a country they stumbled upon where other people were already living who they slaughtered.

By going into this book and expecting it to be a certain way I feel that a lot of people let their own experiences and feelings cloud how they felt about the book, which I understand because these are really sensitive subjects being addressed. It just isn't consistent with the plot how ever and I don't think it's fair to expect a character to project a certain mind set just because that's what you want to see. This book is about Elloren and so of course she's going to mostly think about herself, and it's going to focus on her own growth as a person and no one just wakes up one day and suddenly realizes everything is wrong or has some innate knowledge that what they're being taught or picking up from their culture is hurting others until theyre exposed to the consequences.

This is also my own personal problem with people who get angry at others when they just try to help. I understand where the anger is coming from but being angry at singular people for something they really didn't put into place only alienates those people and makes them feel justified for being part of the system that is oppressing you. It's unrealistic to expect others to behave a certain way because you can't control it, you can only control how you behave and so there are better ways to change people, like actually making other people like you and want to help you and taking the time to explain to them and if they don't understand then at least you did your part.

Anyways I don't think at all that the author handled the transition badly, it seemed pretty realistic to me and the message seems solid, more education and exposure to those different than us builds tolerance and acceptance. I do how ever understand that some of us have had experiences that the book may remind us of and that can be hurtful and I'm not trying to take away from that or the fact that these things do impact us, I think if these are things you're dealing with and sensitive then the book may make you feel bad so maybe don't pick it up. I just personally don't see anything in the book on its own outside of the context of personal experiences or insecurities that is harmful.

Also stop comparing it to Harry Potter, why do people always need to say the book is like x other book like it probably isn't you're just going to make people's reactions to the book worse let it stand on it's own.

I do wish there was more time spent on the magic aspect of things and that story line but I really enjoyed this book and couldn't put it down even though it was really long and it's one of my favorites and I really want to read the next one. Hopefully the next one spends a little less time on the prejudice thing or only in the context of politics because I do really want more of larger lens and how the conflicts in the region are going to work out, I'm like invested in it now.

I'm going to crawl away now because I think I'm pretty much done saying what I wanted and I hope it made sense because I basically just babble when I write reviews.
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Station Eleven 20170404 An audacious, darkly glittering novel set in the eerie days of civilization’s collapse—the spellbinding story of a Hollywood star, his would-be savior, and a nomadic group of actors roaming the scattered outposts of the Great Lakes region, risking everything for art and humanity.

Kirsten Raymonde will never forget the night Arthur Leander, the famous Hollywood actor, had a heart attack on stage during a production of King Lear. That was the night when a devastating flu pandemic arrived in the city, and within weeks, civilization as we know it came to an end.

Twenty years later, Kirsten moves between the settlements of the altered world with a small troupe of actors and musicians. They call themselves The Traveling Symphony, and they have dedicated themselves to keeping the remnants of art and humanity alive. But when they arrive in St. Deborah by the Water, they encounter a violent prophet who will threaten the tiny band’s existence. And as the story takes off, moving back and forth in time, and vividly depicting life before and after the pandemic, the strange twist of fate that connects them all will be revealed.]]>
333 Emily St. John Mandel 0385353308 Always 4

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4.05 2014 Station Eleven
author: Emily St. John Mandel
name: Always
average rating: 4.05
book published: 2014
rating: 4
read at: 2019/06/05
date added: 2022/03/01
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This was so good, I started reading it at like 11 pm the other night because I just wanted to read a little before going to sleep and ended up staying up until 6 am to finish it. I really like the way the story unfolds and the way everything is connected, I'm a sucker for threads coming together in a story and like following characters who come into contact with on another and how their different story lines end up. Not sure about that ending though, but I guess I also tend to not find most endings to be very compelling. I think there's just something about ending things and having to reveal what happened that comes into tension with the process of building anticipation through out the book and how hard it can be to live up to that anticipation. Also side note I too am on the tail end of my Venlafaxine withdrawal right now so that part made me feel very seen. It does indeed suck and I did feel like I was dying. It wasn't as bad this time because I had been taking with another drug to mitigate side effects but just taking it alone is garbage. Not sure if this is TMI but that's what was on my mind while reading. Also someone should recreate the comic from the book because I would love to read that it sounded pretty cool.



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Beartown (Beartown, #1) 31675787
People say Beartown is finished. A tiny community nestled deep in the forest, it is slowly losing ground to the ever encroaching trees. But down by the lake stands an old ice rink, built generations ago by the working men who founded this town. And in that ice rink is the reason people in Beartown believe tomorrow will be better than today. Their junior ice hockey team is about to compete in the national semi-finals, and they actually have a shot at winning. All the hopes and dreams of this place now rest on the shoulders of a handful of teenage boys.

Being responsible for the hopes of an entire town is a heavy burden, and the semi-final match is the catalyst for a violent act that will leave a young girl traumatized and a town in turmoil. Accusations are made and, like ripples on a pond, they travel through all of Beartown, leaving no resident unaffected.

Beartown explores the hopes that bring a small community together, the secrets that tear it apart, and the courage it takes for an individual to go against the grain. In this story of a small forest town, Fredrik Backman has found the entire world.]]>
432 Fredrik Backman Always 3
Spoilers ahead. This one was 3.5 stars for me.

I think everyone else enjoyed it much more than I did. I did enjoy it, but I just felt that the story line could have been much tighter. Like there was a lot put into the book that felt unnecessary to the story line and it detracted from it. I might have also enjoyed it less than others because I couldn't help but compare it to A Man Called Ove which completely wrecked me. The story there also unfolds in a much neater manner and everything in the book only seems to add to the story which doesn't necessarily apply to this book.

I especially feel that way about the ending, like that seen with Maya or the four year old girl that eventually grows up to become a star apparently. Neither of those things felt like they had to be put in their. Also adding Zacharias' suicidal ideation was clearly there just to distract us from figuring out who shoots the shots from the beginning of the book but it felt manipulative like it was put in their just to up the tension or suspense. Also the whole things with the shots didn't feel like it had to be a thread running through the book, the books feels like it's supposed to work up to revealing what happens there but it makes such a mess of doing so that it felt pointless to start the book off with that scene. It would've been just as powerful a scene there at the end without opening with it. If anything opening with it just made it distracting through out the book because I just kept wondering about it and it took me away from really getting into the book.

That said I did however enjoy this book a lot and I loved the depth of the characters and the way it went into the themes of a rural town struggling to sustain itself and the way people are treated when they report rape. It was all very timely in this political climate and I think it was handled with nuance and painted a complex picture of all the characters. I really enjoy it when books humanize characters whose actions we may find abhorrent because I think its one of those things we tend to lose sight of in day to day life. I would totally read more of Backman's work in the future, just hope next time the editor tells him to cut out the frivolous details.]]>
4.36 2016 Beartown (Beartown, #1)
author: Fredrik Backman
name: Always
average rating: 4.36
book published: 2016
rating: 3
read at: 2018/05/28
date added: 2022/03/01
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Beartown is a small town in the forest with a dwindling population and ever decreasing resources. Beartown is also a hockey town where the sport's importance only increases when it begins to become tied into the financial future of the town. When the junior team is actually poised to win the finals this year the whole town starts to become hopeful about the future. Things become tense in this environment when a violent act is perpetrated by one of the boys on the team the night of the semi-finals, leaving the whole town feeling that their future is in jeopardy.

Spoilers ahead. This one was 3.5 stars for me.

I think everyone else enjoyed it much more than I did. I did enjoy it, but I just felt that the story line could have been much tighter. Like there was a lot put into the book that felt unnecessary to the story line and it detracted from it. I might have also enjoyed it less than others because I couldn't help but compare it to A Man Called Ove which completely wrecked me. The story there also unfolds in a much neater manner and everything in the book only seems to add to the story which doesn't necessarily apply to this book.

I especially feel that way about the ending, like that seen with Maya or the four year old girl that eventually grows up to become a star apparently. Neither of those things felt like they had to be put in their. Also adding Zacharias' suicidal ideation was clearly there just to distract us from figuring out who shoots the shots from the beginning of the book but it felt manipulative like it was put in their just to up the tension or suspense. Also the whole things with the shots didn't feel like it had to be a thread running through the book, the books feels like it's supposed to work up to revealing what happens there but it makes such a mess of doing so that it felt pointless to start the book off with that scene. It would've been just as powerful a scene there at the end without opening with it. If anything opening with it just made it distracting through out the book because I just kept wondering about it and it took me away from really getting into the book.

That said I did however enjoy this book a lot and I loved the depth of the characters and the way it went into the themes of a rural town struggling to sustain itself and the way people are treated when they report rape. It was all very timely in this political climate and I think it was handled with nuance and painted a complex picture of all the characters. I really enjoy it when books humanize characters whose actions we may find abhorrent because I think its one of those things we tend to lose sight of in day to day life. I would totally read more of Backman's work in the future, just hope next time the editor tells him to cut out the frivolous details.
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They were seven teenagers when they first stumbled upon the horror. Now they are grown-up men and women who have gone out into the big world to gain success and happiness. But the promise they made twenty-eight years ago calls them reunite in the same place where, as teenagers, they battled an evil creature that preyed on the city’s children. Now, children are being murdered again and their repressed memories of that terrifying summer return as they prepare to once again battle the monster lurking in Derry’s sewers.]]>
1169 Stephen King Always 2
I finally finished this god damn tome of a book, and I really wish I weren't so compulsive and obsessive about finishing every book I start because wow that was 1400 pages and I couldn't get into the story at all. Also I have a few questions and I feel like I may have missed something so if someone could answer these questions I would appreciate it and maybe then I might feel better about the book. First off it's mentioned that none of gang have children and it's alluded to as being part of what happened the first time with It but I didn't understand what that had to do with anything? Was there an actual explanation to this or was it just supposed to be there to be ~creepy~. Second why did they have to go out of their way to find It and get rid of it that first time, if It has cycles of 27 years wouldn't It eventually just have stopped on its own anyways because there's no way someone banished it every time it appeared because they're supposedly the only ones to have done so. Lastly what was the point of them having sex in the sewer, I'm not a prude but having 12 year olds do it in the sewer should have a better explanation than to bring them all together and bond them. I don't see how they had to do at all did he just put that in there to be outrageous because good job it worked.

At times I did enjoy the book but it was just really long with so many characters and details and a lot of the time I felt myself getting bored like I didn't need such exact descriptions of the boat flowing down the sewer and the way it kept cutting back and forth especially towards the end between past and present just felt choppy and maybe that was the point but it just made me not get really into the book. When I read horror I have to lose some self awareness and get pulled in so I can be creeped out but the whole time I was too aware that I was reading a book and I just kept feeling like it wasn't scary at all. Especially with It morphing constantly like werewolves don't freak me out so I was just like wow a werewolf thats cool I guess.

I do like Stephen King and he writes very well but this one just did not work for me and I guess I just missed something because everyone else seems to have really enjoyed this book.]]>
4.34 1986 It
author: Stephen King
name: Always
average rating: 4.34
book published: 1986
rating: 2
read at: 2017/07/04
date added: 2022/03/01
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Derry, Maine seems like any other small town in the US except for its dark history. Death and disappearances are the norm and every 27 years they peak as more and more children are killed. When Bill's brother Georgie is killed by It, the mysterious thing behind Derry's darkness, Bill sets out to find it. Bill becomes part of a group of other children, all who have had run ins with It and together they get rid of It. They swear an oath to return to Derry if It ever comes back and starts killing and 27 years later they all return to face down It and try to get rid of It once and for all. Don't read past this point because I can't promise anything about no spoilers.

I finally finished this god damn tome of a book, and I really wish I weren't so compulsive and obsessive about finishing every book I start because wow that was 1400 pages and I couldn't get into the story at all. Also I have a few questions and I feel like I may have missed something so if someone could answer these questions I would appreciate it and maybe then I might feel better about the book. First off it's mentioned that none of gang have children and it's alluded to as being part of what happened the first time with It but I didn't understand what that had to do with anything? Was there an actual explanation to this or was it just supposed to be there to be ~creepy~. Second why did they have to go out of their way to find It and get rid of it that first time, if It has cycles of 27 years wouldn't It eventually just have stopped on its own anyways because there's no way someone banished it every time it appeared because they're supposedly the only ones to have done so. Lastly what was the point of them having sex in the sewer, I'm not a prude but having 12 year olds do it in the sewer should have a better explanation than to bring them all together and bond them. I don't see how they had to do at all did he just put that in there to be outrageous because good job it worked.

At times I did enjoy the book but it was just really long with so many characters and details and a lot of the time I felt myself getting bored like I didn't need such exact descriptions of the boat flowing down the sewer and the way it kept cutting back and forth especially towards the end between past and present just felt choppy and maybe that was the point but it just made me not get really into the book. When I read horror I have to lose some self awareness and get pulled in so I can be creeped out but the whole time I was too aware that I was reading a book and I just kept feeling like it wasn't scary at all. Especially with It morphing constantly like werewolves don't freak me out so I was just like wow a werewolf thats cool I guess.

I do like Stephen King and he writes very well but this one just did not work for me and I guess I just missed something because everyone else seems to have really enjoyed this book.
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<![CDATA[The Golem and the Jinni (The Golem and the Jinni, #1)]]> 17406654 The Golem and the Jinni, a chance meeting between mythical beings takes readers on a dazzling journey through cultures in turn-of-the-century New York.

Chava is a golem, a creature made of clay, brought to life by a disgraced rabbi who dabbles in dark Kabbalistic magic and dies at sea on the voyage from Poland. Chava is unmoored and adrift as the ship arrives in New York harbor in 1899.

Ahmad is a jinni, a being of fire born in the ancient Syrian desert, trapped in an old copper flask, and released in New York City, though still not entirely free.

Ahmad and Chava become unlikely friends and soul mates with a mystical connection. Marvelous and compulsively readable, Helene Wecker's debut novel The Golem and the Jinni weaves strands of Yiddish and Middle Eastern literature, historical fiction and magical fable, into a wondrously inventive and unforgettable tale.]]>
819 Helene Wecker Always 5 favorites 4.26 2013 The Golem and the Jinni (The Golem and the Jinni, #1)
author: Helene Wecker
name: Always
average rating: 4.26
book published: 2013
rating: 5
read at: 2017/03/11
date added: 2022/03/01
shelves: favorites
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Oh man, the book was a little long but it was so worth it. The pacing was excellent and I really enjoyed the unique story line and the way everything comes together in the end. There is nothing better to me than a well executed story line where everything seems to have a purpose and ties into the larger arc of what's happening. Also I really enjoyed the way that Chava and Ahmed's relationship is developed because it never felt like the rest of what was going on every becomes secondary to it which happens in a lot of books. I do appreciate romance novels but it gets tiring to see relationships portrayed in such an idealized way all the time. The idea of their individual identities was so interesting too and the whole dynamic of them trying to figure out to fit in with everyone around them just really appealed to me. I don't think my reviews ever make any sense to anyone because my head is always cluttered right after reading books but if I wait to write reviews I'll never get to doing them honestly. This book is definitely one of my new favorites and I would totally recommend it to anyone that enjoys mystical plots.
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<![CDATA[The Twelve Lives of Samuel Hawley]]> 30556459 A father protects his daughter from the legacy of his past and the truth about her mother's death in this thrilling new novel from the prize-winning author of The Good Thief.

After years spent living on the run, Samuel Hawley moves with his teenage daughter, Loo, to Olympus, Massachusetts. There, in his late wife's hometown, Hawley finds work as a fisherman, while Loo struggles to fit in at school and grows curious about her mother's mysterious death. Haunting them both are twelve scars Hawley carries on his body, from twelve bullets in his criminal past; a past that eventually spills over into his daughter's present, until together they must face a reckoning yet to come. This father-daughter epic weaves back and forth through time and across America, from Alaska to the Adirondacks.

Both a coming-of-age novel and a literary thriller, The Twelve Lives of Samuel Hawley explores what it means to be a hero, and the cost we pay to protect the people we love most.]]>
376 Hannah Tinti 0812989880 Always 5 favorites


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3.85 2017 The Twelve Lives of Samuel Hawley
author: Hannah Tinti
name: Always
average rating: 3.85
book published: 2017
rating: 5
read at: 2017/03/14
date added: 2022/03/01
shelves: favorites
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Why is it always so much easier to talk about things you don't like? I literally do not have the words to explain why I loved this books so much. It just felt so perfect. I love Loo and Sam and Lily and I'm so heartbroken that the book is over and I want to curl up and cry. I felt so taken in by the book I could barely breathe until I finished reading it. I loved the plot line and the structure and the characters and the writing. I wish I was more eloquent so I could say something more meaningful but I'm not so I can't. I just really love this book so I'm going to add it to my favorites and then I'm going to go and curl up and cry for a while because I don't feel so good and that's the best thing about reading honestly.




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Women, Race, & Class 19404631 258 Angela Y. Davis Always 4 4.59 1981 Women, Race, & Class
author: Angela Y. Davis
name: Always
average rating: 4.59
book published: 1981
rating: 4
read at: 2020/03/08
date added: 2022/03/01
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I really am glad I finally got around to reading this. The book examines the history of the feminist movement in the United States with an eye towards the ways in which the movement fell short on meeting the needs of women who had other marginalized identities. I personally knew some of this history but not all and as Davis mentions it's crucial to grapple with the historic actions of movements when trying to address why certain people choose not to engage in those movements. I also think most people don't have a good understanding of what intersectionality means necessarily and have a tendency to reduce it down to being about who is "more oppressed". I think the book could do a good job of helping one develop a more nuanced understanding of intersectionality as the ways in which different identities intersect to create differing needs and experiences, which need to be addressed individually. This was 4.5 stars for me and I would totally recommend it to others who want to learn more about feminism or those trying to cultivate a better political analysis around women's liberation and the way it intersects with other movements.
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<![CDATA[Bad Blood: Secrets and Lies in a Silicon Valley Startup]]> 38799469 The full inside story of the breathtaking rise and shocking collapse of a multibillion-dollar startup, by the prize-winning journalist who first broke the story and pursued it to the end in the face of pressure and threats from the CEO and her lawyers. In 2014, Theranos founder and CEO Elizabeth Holmes was widely seen as the female Steve Jobs: a brilliant Stanford dropout whose startup "unicorn" promised to revolutionize the medical industry with a machine that would make blood tests significantly faster and easier. Backed by investors such as Larry Ellison and Tim Draper, Theranos sold shares in a fundraising round that valued the company at $9 billion, putting Holmes's worth at an estimated $4.7 billion. There was just one problem: The technology didn't work. For years, Holmes had been misleading investors, FDA officials, and her own employees. When Carreyrou, working at The Wall Street Journal, got a tip from a former Theranos employee and started asking questions, both Carreyrou and the Journal were threatened with lawsuits. Undaunted, the newspaper ran the first of dozens of Theranos articles in late 2015. By early 2017, the company's value was zero and Holmes faced potential legal action from the government and her investors. Here is the riveting story of the biggest corporate fraud since Enron, a disturbing cautionary tale set amid the bold promises and gold-rush frenzy of Silicon Valley.]]> 353 John Carreyrou Always 5 4.55 2018 Bad Blood: Secrets and Lies in a Silicon Valley Startup
author: John Carreyrou
name: Always
average rating: 4.55
book published: 2018
rating: 5
read at: 2020/01/08
date added: 2022/03/01
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Last night when I finished this I just wanted to write a review that was haha repeated like four hundred times. I've gotten some sleep since then and calmed down though. This was really good, like I stayed up until 3 am reading because I didn't want to put it down good. Most I'm just befuddled that this happened at all and at the fact that most of the people implicated in this are just probably never going to face any repercussions. I don't even necessarily mean legal repercussions but like just there seems like there's zero contrition or embarrassment on the part of people like George Shultz, Henry Kissinger, James N. Mattis, or Channing Robertson. Like just their instance until even recently that Theranos has proprietary technology that was novel and that there wasn't merit to anything being said, or the way Mattis was even confirmed as Secretary of Defense not too long ago. I'm just baffled and I think the book shouldn't have said Holmes was solely responsible for the mess that was Theranos when so many people who we're supposed to think as credible couldn't be bothered to do any due diligence. When Schultz's own grandson came to him to tell him that things weren't right at Theranos and he just disregarded him. I honestly couldn't even comprehend how someone could be like that, but I guess what else can you expect from someone involved in something like the Iran-Contra affair. Really good book, would totally recommend, personally could not look away from this god damn train wreck of a situation that was entirely preventable.
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The Overstory 36075657 An Air Force loadmaster in the Vietnam War is shot out of the sky, then saved by falling into a banyan. An artist inherits a hundred years of photographic portraits, all of the same doomed American chestnut. A hard-partying undergraduate in the late 1980s electrocutes herself, dies, and is sent back into life by creatures of air and light. A hearing- and speech-impaired scientist discovers that trees are communicating with one another. These four, and five other strangers—each summoned in different ways by trees—are brought together in a last and violent stand to save the continent’s few remaining acres of virgin forest.


In his twelfth novel, National Book Award winner Richard Powers delivers a sweeping, impassioned novel of activism and resistance that is also a stunning evocation of—and paean to—the natural world. From the roots to the crown and back to the seeds, The Overstory unfolds in concentric rings of interlocking fables that range from antebellum New York to the late twentieth-century Timber Wars of the Pacific Northwest and beyond, exploring the essential conflict on this planet: the one taking place between humans and nonhumans. There is a world alongside ours—vast, slow, interconnected, resourceful, magnificently inventive, and almost invisible to us. This is the story of a handful of people who learn how to see that world and who are drawn up into its unfolding catastrophe.


The Overstory is a book for all readers who despair of humanity’s self-imposed separation from the rest of creation and who hope for the transformative, regenerating possibility of a homecoming. If the trees of this earth could speak, what would they tell us? "Listen. There’s something you need to hear."

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513 Richard Powers 0393635538 Always 4
The book starts out by telling what are seemingly separate stories about a variety of characters, so at first I thought it was just going to be a collection of short stories. That felt sort of confusing though because we met about 9 or 10 characters in like the first 100-150 pages and the book itself is 500 pages; I just thought to myself is this a collection of 50 short stories. Eventually though the stories seem to converge together.

When the stories come together though there are still a few characters who don't directly interact, or when they do it's in a very brief way. There's also a lot of ambiguity through out the book on a few things. For one thing it's implied that Olivia is Ray and Dorothy's daughter but they are supposedly childless. Eventually it's also implied that the chestnut tree in their backyard is their daughter so perhaps Olivia is a human avatar for the tree itself. There was also this implication that Patricia commits suicide when she's speaking at the conference but there's never any kind of confirmation of the fact. There's also a convergence of three characters at that point in the story with Neelay and Mimi both attending the conference. It made that whole plot point sort of confusing because both seem to anticipate that Patricia is about to commit suicide.

I think the book alternates between being clear and easy to follow and then lapsing into ambiguity and it can make it hard to tell what is happening at times. I think the descriptive language just makes it even harder sometimes to follow along. I think it also covers a lot of themes that made it feel like the book itself was all over the place. I felt like we could have done without Neelay's storyline for sure at the very least even if I understand what Power's was trying to do with it.

I did really enjoy the writing and the structure of the story. I thought it was really cool how things unfolded and came together. It felt very in line with the idea of branching that was brought up again and again through out the book. Sometimes the book felt really obvious though and I feel like it could have been stronger if it alluded to things sometimes instead of spelling it out every time. I think it might also be a little hard to read passage upon passage describing trees endlessly.

Overall I enjoyed the book, especially the writing and the novelty of the structure and storyline. I liked the way there was repetition on certain themes and we saw a reoccurrence of sentences/passages through out. I did think it could've been stronger if it was edited down to take out Neelay's part of the story though because that felt like the weakest part of the storyline to me personally.]]>
4.23 2018 The Overstory
author: Richard Powers
name: Always
average rating: 4.23
book published: 2018
rating: 4
read at: 2020/03/14
date added: 2022/03/01
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I'm actually not quite sure how I felt about this one but also spoilers are going to follow before anyone gets angry at me.

The book starts out by telling what are seemingly separate stories about a variety of characters, so at first I thought it was just going to be a collection of short stories. That felt sort of confusing though because we met about 9 or 10 characters in like the first 100-150 pages and the book itself is 500 pages; I just thought to myself is this a collection of 50 short stories. Eventually though the stories seem to converge together.

When the stories come together though there are still a few characters who don't directly interact, or when they do it's in a very brief way. There's also a lot of ambiguity through out the book on a few things. For one thing it's implied that Olivia is Ray and Dorothy's daughter but they are supposedly childless. Eventually it's also implied that the chestnut tree in their backyard is their daughter so perhaps Olivia is a human avatar for the tree itself. There was also this implication that Patricia commits suicide when she's speaking at the conference but there's never any kind of confirmation of the fact. There's also a convergence of three characters at that point in the story with Neelay and Mimi both attending the conference. It made that whole plot point sort of confusing because both seem to anticipate that Patricia is about to commit suicide.

I think the book alternates between being clear and easy to follow and then lapsing into ambiguity and it can make it hard to tell what is happening at times. I think the descriptive language just makes it even harder sometimes to follow along. I think it also covers a lot of themes that made it feel like the book itself was all over the place. I felt like we could have done without Neelay's storyline for sure at the very least even if I understand what Power's was trying to do with it.

I did really enjoy the writing and the structure of the story. I thought it was really cool how things unfolded and came together. It felt very in line with the idea of branching that was brought up again and again through out the book. Sometimes the book felt really obvious though and I feel like it could have been stronger if it alluded to things sometimes instead of spelling it out every time. I think it might also be a little hard to read passage upon passage describing trees endlessly.

Overall I enjoyed the book, especially the writing and the novelty of the structure and storyline. I liked the way there was repetition on certain themes and we saw a reoccurrence of sentences/passages through out. I did think it could've been stronger if it was edited down to take out Neelay's part of the story though because that felt like the weakest part of the storyline to me personally.
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Man's Search for Meaning 17204679 188 Viktor E. Frankl Always 4

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4.46 1946 Man's Search for Meaning
author: Viktor E. Frankl
name: Always
average rating: 4.46
book published: 1946
rating: 4
read at: 2017/03/03
date added: 2022/03/01
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The original part one was the strongest I think because the rest started to go into the typical psychobabble inherent to books trying to contribute to the academic side of psychology or psychiatry but the first part really grounded the idea of giving meaning to one existence into personal experience and I found it very poignant about the mental state of people in very stressful and hopeless situations. It's a very empowering and important idea that no matter the situation a person can control their behavior and influence their own feelings of the situation. This idea of a person having so much control over their own selves and survival is one I whole heartedly agree with. Anyone having trouble figuring out life or what the point is could benefit from reading this I think.



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<![CDATA[The Tea Girl of Hummingbird Lane]]> 25150798
Slowly, Li-yan, one of the few educated girls on her mountain, begins to reject the customs that shaped her early life. When she has a baby out of wedlock she rejects the tradition that would compel her to give the child over to be killed, and instead leaves her, wrapped in a blanket with a tea cake tucked in its folds, near an orphanage in a nearby city.

As Li-yan comes into herself, leaving her village for an education, a business, and city life, her daughter, Haley, is raised in California by loving adoptive parents. Despite her privileged childhood, Haley wonders about her origins. Across the ocean Li-yan longs for her lost daughter. Over the course of years, each searches for meaning in the study of Pu’er, the tea that has shaped their family’s destiny for centuries.]]>
384 Lisa See Always 4
I did enjoy the characters and the immersive writing that let me experience the culture and values vividly. The topic is such a relevant one of changing cultures and commodification through globalization and trade. The story circled back around in the end which was great and unexpected because I didn't think they'd end up meeting. I mean until like the last chapter by then you know it's obvious.

I would read it if you enjoy fiction relevant to the cultural and societal changes in the present. Narratives have a way of making us understand things more empathetically than we would otherwise.]]>
4.29 2017 The Tea Girl of Hummingbird Lane
author: Lisa See
name: Always
average rating: 4.29
book published: 2017
rating: 4
read at: 2017/03/17
date added: 2022/03/01
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The book was good but it got slow there in the middle, like at some points I was totally into it and then it would just get tedious. There were just parts of it that felt superfluous and they didn't add much to the story. Also I thought that maybe the growth in the characters could have been more subtle and developed over the course of the book and it would have added more depth. And just what was the thing with her ending up married to some rich guy and then life is perfect, the ending was a little too much for me with everyone being great but it's fiction I guess.

I did enjoy the characters and the immersive writing that let me experience the culture and values vividly. The topic is such a relevant one of changing cultures and commodification through globalization and trade. The story circled back around in the end which was great and unexpected because I didn't think they'd end up meeting. I mean until like the last chapter by then you know it's obvious.

I would read it if you enjoy fiction relevant to the cultural and societal changes in the present. Narratives have a way of making us understand things more empathetically than we would otherwise.
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<![CDATA[Catch and Kill: Lies, Spies, and a Conspiracy to Protect Predators]]> 51112101 In this instant New York Times bestselling account of violence and espionage, Pulitzer Prize-winning investigative reporter Ronan Farrow exposes serial abusers and a cabal of powerful interests hell-bent on covering up the truth, at any cost.
In 2017, a routine network television investigation led Ronan Farrow to a story only whispered about: one of Hollywood's most powerful producers was a predator, protected by fear, wealth, and a conspiracy of silence. As Farrow drew closer to the truth, shadowy operatives, from high-priced lawyers to elite war-hardened spies, mounted a secret campaign of intimidation, threatening his career, following his every move, and weaponizing an account of abuse in his own family.
All the while, Farrow and his producer faced a degree of resistance they could not explain -- until now. And a trail of clues revealed corruption and cover-ups from Hollywood to Washington and beyond.
This is the untold story of the exotic tactics of surveillance and intimidation deployed by wealthy and connected men to threaten journalists, evade accountability, and silence victims of abuse. And it's the story of the women who risked everything to expose the truth and spark a global movement.

Both a spy thriller and a meticulous work of investigative journalism, Catch and Kill breaks devastating new stories about the rampant abuse of power and sheds far-reaching light on investigations that shook our culture.
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465 Ronan Farrow Always 5 Bad Blood I feel like I'm really getting into books about investigative reporting. Like a lot of times it feels pretty overwhelming trying to keep up with the news and read reporting regularly but this really allows for a more accessible way to know find out about those same stories. I also really enjoy getting more detail and break down about the process of covering these stories, and I think that was especially important here because of the implications of NBC trying to sit on the story and its broader tie back into the constant concealing of these stories. Also Ronan Farrow is just really likable and I really enjoyed the transparency about his own experiences with his sister and they way he had initially asked her to stop speaking about it and how it eventually played into his own reporting on the issue. Totally enjoyed this and would recommend it to anyone. Also if anyone has recommendations for other investigative reporting books, I would love to get them. ]]> 4.43 2019 Catch and Kill: Lies, Spies, and a Conspiracy to Protect Predators
author: Ronan Farrow
name: Always
average rating: 4.43
book published: 2019
rating: 5
read at: 2020/02/22
date added: 2022/03/01
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This was so good, between this and Bad Blood I feel like I'm really getting into books about investigative reporting. Like a lot of times it feels pretty overwhelming trying to keep up with the news and read reporting regularly but this really allows for a more accessible way to know find out about those same stories. I also really enjoy getting more detail and break down about the process of covering these stories, and I think that was especially important here because of the implications of NBC trying to sit on the story and its broader tie back into the constant concealing of these stories. Also Ronan Farrow is just really likable and I really enjoyed the transparency about his own experiences with his sister and they way he had initially asked her to stop speaking about it and how it eventually played into his own reporting on the issue. Totally enjoyed this and would recommend it to anyone. Also if anyone has recommendations for other investigative reporting books, I would love to get them.
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Beneath a Scarlet Sky 32487617 Based on the true story of a forgotten hero, Beneath a Scarlet Sky is the triumphant, epic tale of one young man’s incredible courage and resilience during one of history’s darkest hours.

Pino Lella wants nothing to do with the war or the Nazis. He’s a normal Italian teenager—obsessed with music, food, and girls—but his days of innocence are numbered. When his family home in Milan is destroyed by Allied bombs, Pino joins an underground railroad helping Jews escape over the Alps, and falls for Anna, a beautiful widow six years his senior.

In an attempt to protect him, Pino’s parents force him to enlist as a German soldier—a move they think will keep him out of combat. But after Pino is injured, he is recruited at the tender age of eighteen to become the personal driver for Adolf Hitler’s left hand in Italy, General Hans Leyers, one of the Third Reich’s most mysterious and powerful commanders.

Now, with the opportunity to spy for the Allies inside the German High Command, Pino endures the horrors of the war and the Nazi occupation by fighting in secret, his courage bolstered by his love for Anna and for the life he dreams they will one day share.

Fans of All the Light We Cannot See, The Nightingale, and Unbroken will enjoy this riveting saga of history, suspense, and love.

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509 Mark T. Sullivan 1503943372 Always 2
A semi biographical story about an Italian teenager Pino Lella who is sent to a convent after Allied forces airstrike destroys his home in Milan. At the convent he helps the priest smuggle out Jews to Switzerland who have come there for help. He meets and falls in love with Anna, an older widow. Eventually he is called home and made to join the army for protection. Eventually he uses his position in the army as a driver to one of the most powerful German generals to spy for the Allies.

There are so many positive reviews for this book but I honestly hated it. It was difficult for me to finish this book. I have been busy and not had as much time to read but at the same time this book was part of the reason I haven't read anything in weeks because it was just so boring that I didn't even feel like reading really, it felt like torture reading it. I don't think it was the story itself that was the problem but the execution. It was painfully boring and the author just kept telling and not showing us anything or illustrating things for us. There was no suspense built up and I felt zero attachment to any of the characters, even though they're real people. This has to be one of the hardest books I've forced myself to finish reading just because it felt like there was so much unnecessary detail included and because everything was just told out without really a narrative or story line to help build up my interest. Thank god I'm done with it.]]>
4.33 2017 Beneath a Scarlet Sky
author: Mark T. Sullivan
name: Always
average rating: 4.33
book published: 2017
rating: 2
read at: 2017/09/06
date added: 2022/03/01
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I know I've been gone, but I'm back now so don't worry I'll be clogging your feeds with my garbage reviews again now. I already started reading my next book.

A semi biographical story about an Italian teenager Pino Lella who is sent to a convent after Allied forces airstrike destroys his home in Milan. At the convent he helps the priest smuggle out Jews to Switzerland who have come there for help. He meets and falls in love with Anna, an older widow. Eventually he is called home and made to join the army for protection. Eventually he uses his position in the army as a driver to one of the most powerful German generals to spy for the Allies.

There are so many positive reviews for this book but I honestly hated it. It was difficult for me to finish this book. I have been busy and not had as much time to read but at the same time this book was part of the reason I haven't read anything in weeks because it was just so boring that I didn't even feel like reading really, it felt like torture reading it. I don't think it was the story itself that was the problem but the execution. It was painfully boring and the author just kept telling and not showing us anything or illustrating things for us. There was no suspense built up and I felt zero attachment to any of the characters, even though they're real people. This has to be one of the hardest books I've forced myself to finish reading just because it felt like there was so much unnecessary detail included and because everything was just told out without really a narrative or story line to help build up my interest. Thank god I'm done with it.
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The Handmaid's Tale 45864574
The story is told through the eyes of Offred, one of the unfortunate Handmaids under the new social order. In condensed but eloquent prose, by turns cool-eyed, tender, despairing, passionate, and wry, she reveals to us the dark corners behind the establishment’s calm facade, as certain tendencies now in existence are carried to their logical conclusions. The Handmaid’s Tale is funny, unexpected, horrifying, and altogether convincing. It is at once scathing satire, dire warning, and a tour de force. It is Margaret Atwood at her best.
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311 Margaret Atwood Always 4
The premise of the book was also really unique and the book did a really good job keep me engaged. [spoilers removed] All in all I really enjoyed this one, this was 4.5 stars for me.]]>
4.11 1985 The Handmaid's Tale
author: Margaret Atwood
name: Always
average rating: 4.11
book published: 1985
rating: 4
read at: 2020/01/24
date added: 2022/03/01
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I felt kind of slow last night so I didn't want to keep reading my nonfiction book and I started this instead. I think though that was a slight mistake because I did feel like I missed things when reading this and went back a few times to reread sentences. I'm mentioning that to say I really liked how well written it felt and the writing style itself was really appealing to me. I like when writing is a little vague and disconnected, I really enjoy the stream of consciousness type of narration when its done well a lot.

The premise of the book was also really unique and the book did a really good job keep me engaged. [spoilers removed] All in all I really enjoyed this one, this was 4.5 stars for me.
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<![CDATA[Lifespan: Why We Age—and Why We Don't Have To]]> 43827144 A NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER “Brilliant and enthralling.”� —The Wall Street Journal A paradigm-shifting book from an acclaimed Harvard Medical School scientist and one of Time’s most influential people.It’s a seemingly undeniable truth that aging is inevitable. But what if everything we’ve been taught to believe about aging is wrong? What if we could choose our lifespan? In this groundbreaking book, Dr. David Sinclair, leading world authority on genetics and longevity, reveals a bold new theory for why we age. As he “Aging is a disease, and that disease is treatable.� This eye-opening and provocative work takes us to the frontlines of research that is pushing the boundaries on our perceived scientific limitations, revealing incredible breakthroughs—many from Dr. David Sinclair’s own lab at Harvard—that demonstrate how we can slow down, or even reverse, aging. The key is activating newly discovered vitality genes, the descendants of an ancient genetic survival circuit that is both the cause of aging and the key to reversing it. Recent experiments in genetic reprogramming suggest that in the near future we may not just be able to feel younger, but actually become younger. Through a page-turning narrative, Dr. Sinclair invites you into the process of scientific discovery and reveals the emerging technologies and simple lifestyle changes—such as intermittent fasting, cold exposure, exercising with the right intensity, and eating less meat—that have been shown to help us live younger and healthier for longer. At once a roadmap for taking charge of our own health destiny and a bold new vision for the future of humankind, Lifespan will forever change the way we think about why we age and what we can do about it.]]> 538 David A. Sinclair 1501191993 Always 2
I feel like the whole purpose of this book is for Sinclair to expand on his on feelings and experiences around the issue of aging. It serves the purpose of persuasion to push for viewing aging in the framework he thinks it should be viewed in and to thus allow for more attention/funding towards the issue. None of that is wrong per se but it could have been done much better and concisely if he didn't jump around trying to predict the future and cover technologies that he's clearly not working on first hand and thus creating weaker sections in the book. I probably would've given it a higher rating regardless of my own expectations for a book heavier, being heavier on the science side and work being done in his lab, if it hadn't felt so grating to have it jump around so much, have him pushing himself as some predictor of the future, and having him only superficially address concerns with what he wants to do. I also would probably have given this a better rating if it weren't filled with so many anecdotes and name dropping so many people who I also don't care about. I think its great that people are accomplished and they're very impressive people etc but just giving me names and one sentence descriptions of what people are working on is useless for my own purposes.

Anyway this is 2.5 stars from me, this might be a good read for someone else but as someone with more of a science background who wants to read books on research that are rigorous and more heavily focused on the research itself, which actually goes over things like limitations of said research in a more thorough fashion, this didn't appeal to me at all. I don't enjoy people predicting the future either, regardless of how much merit those predictions have and how often that person is right, because the future isn't set and is shaped by decisions we make today and I'd much rather here how people themselves are working to shape it and why they think we should work to shape it that way. Just people espousing what is and isn't possible isn't really appealing to me because I already am open to trying things out and I would much rather they saving their persuasion for others. Also I wanted Sinclair to talk about the science, if I wanted to political theory I would go to other sources, nothing is worse than high profile people, especially thought leaders, worrying about things like the far right and left and polarization. Like everyone's entitled to their opinions on it but write a separate book or something. You don't see me begrudging Pinker for being annoying about it and I simply choose not to pick up his book because I know it'll annoy me with its framing.

I know I should just stop but also this isn't the reason I rated it 2.5 stars because halfway through when he was talking about research I was probably at 3.5-4 stars rating wise but man as someone with a fundamentally surly temperament there's nothing more annoying than people who insist we need to be optimistic. Like yeah things are getting better but who cares, how is it useful to focus on that instead of problems and addressing them. Like maybe I just don't care enough about feeling good about things and so this just wouldn't appeal to me anyway.

Also Sinclair said he isn't afraid to die at the end of the book but insists through out the book that death is painful and horrible. Sinclair needs to read about Montaigne's experience with death and how it changed his fears of death by showing him actually its not bad. I also have almost died and can also attest that when it's happening it isn't painful at all, it just happens and in fact at points you feel euphoric even. I'm going to leave it at that because my own feelings of death weren't really relevant to how I felt about the book in general.

Anyways TL;DR: this was 2.5 stars because I was expecting a book that was heavier on covering the science in this area and because the last 100 pages pissed me off. Others may enjoy it if they go in knowing what to expect and have less curmudgeonly personalities.]]>
4.29 2019 Lifespan: Why We Age—and Why We Don't Have To
author: David A. Sinclair
name: Always
average rating: 4.29
book published: 2019
rating: 2
read at: 2020/01/03
date added: 2022/03/01
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Oh boy, I just finished this and I'm incredibly annoyed. I want to start off by saying that I didn't pay for this and I'm glad I didn't. I had credits on Amazon to get a kindle book so this was one of the ones I bought because I had heard Sinclair on Peter Attia's podcast and I had thought that this book would be more research and science heavy. The last almost hundred pages of this book of 300-ish pages is what put me in such a bad mood. Personally I have zero patience for self styled thought leaders of any kind and people who want to spend all my time telling me about some inevitable future. The last third of this book is about the future and supposedly is grappling with the ethics of extending human life, which it doesnt do convincingly. There was no mention of research really and Sinclair uses random studies to try to justify his idea that living forever will actually be good for us. What was the point of using that study on people who stopped to help other people to try and say that people living longer might feel less rushed and imply it would make us kinder and then to proceed to acknowledge what an idiotic thing that was to say because of the leap being made. Like just leave it out man. Also I don't care about his politics, even if a lot of it aligns with my own, like why are you telling me this. It just felt annoying and self important for him to tell me these things I dont care about. I dont want to know about Sinclair's hopes and dreams and positions on high profile issues. The best part of this book was just the middle part where he actually discussed the research and science and interesting ideas of what may be happening. I wish it had been more of that and less of this exposition of himself and his life. Also this is going to be hypocritical but it was so annoying how it didn't have as much of a cohesive structure or flow through out the book and how he jumped from thing to thing without building on it and going into depth and detail about it. I know my reviews are chaotic but I'm not charging money or styling myself as some expert in something who can enlighten you on the subject.

I feel like the whole purpose of this book is for Sinclair to expand on his on feelings and experiences around the issue of aging. It serves the purpose of persuasion to push for viewing aging in the framework he thinks it should be viewed in and to thus allow for more attention/funding towards the issue. None of that is wrong per se but it could have been done much better and concisely if he didn't jump around trying to predict the future and cover technologies that he's clearly not working on first hand and thus creating weaker sections in the book. I probably would've given it a higher rating regardless of my own expectations for a book heavier, being heavier on the science side and work being done in his lab, if it hadn't felt so grating to have it jump around so much, have him pushing himself as some predictor of the future, and having him only superficially address concerns with what he wants to do. I also would probably have given this a better rating if it weren't filled with so many anecdotes and name dropping so many people who I also don't care about. I think its great that people are accomplished and they're very impressive people etc but just giving me names and one sentence descriptions of what people are working on is useless for my own purposes.

Anyway this is 2.5 stars from me, this might be a good read for someone else but as someone with more of a science background who wants to read books on research that are rigorous and more heavily focused on the research itself, which actually goes over things like limitations of said research in a more thorough fashion, this didn't appeal to me at all. I don't enjoy people predicting the future either, regardless of how much merit those predictions have and how often that person is right, because the future isn't set and is shaped by decisions we make today and I'd much rather here how people themselves are working to shape it and why they think we should work to shape it that way. Just people espousing what is and isn't possible isn't really appealing to me because I already am open to trying things out and I would much rather they saving their persuasion for others. Also I wanted Sinclair to talk about the science, if I wanted to political theory I would go to other sources, nothing is worse than high profile people, especially thought leaders, worrying about things like the far right and left and polarization. Like everyone's entitled to their opinions on it but write a separate book or something. You don't see me begrudging Pinker for being annoying about it and I simply choose not to pick up his book because I know it'll annoy me with its framing.

I know I should just stop but also this isn't the reason I rated it 2.5 stars because halfway through when he was talking about research I was probably at 3.5-4 stars rating wise but man as someone with a fundamentally surly temperament there's nothing more annoying than people who insist we need to be optimistic. Like yeah things are getting better but who cares, how is it useful to focus on that instead of problems and addressing them. Like maybe I just don't care enough about feeling good about things and so this just wouldn't appeal to me anyway.

Also Sinclair said he isn't afraid to die at the end of the book but insists through out the book that death is painful and horrible. Sinclair needs to read about Montaigne's experience with death and how it changed his fears of death by showing him actually its not bad. I also have almost died and can also attest that when it's happening it isn't painful at all, it just happens and in fact at points you feel euphoric even. I'm going to leave it at that because my own feelings of death weren't really relevant to how I felt about the book in general.

Anyways TL;DR: this was 2.5 stars because I was expecting a book that was heavier on covering the science in this area and because the last 100 pages pissed me off. Others may enjoy it if they go in knowing what to expect and have less curmudgeonly personalities.
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<![CDATA[The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks]]> 8114303 Amazon Best Books of the Month, February 2010: From a single, abbreviated life grew a seemingly immortal line of cells that made some of the most crucial innovations in modern science possible. And from that same life, and those cells, Rebecca Skloot has fashioned in The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks a fascinating and moving story of medicine and family, of how life is sustained in laboratories and in memory. Henrietta Lacks was a mother of five in Baltimore, a poor African American migrant from the tobacco farms of Virginia, who died from a cruelly aggressive cancer at the age of 30 in 1951. A sample of her cancerous tissue, taken without her knowledge or consent, as was the custom then, turned out to provide one of the holy grails of mid-century biology: human cells that could survive--even thrive--in the lab. Known as HeLa cells, their stunning potency gave scientists a building block for countless breakthroughs, beginning with the cure for polio. Meanwhile, Henrietta's family continued to live in poverty and frequently poor health, and their discovery decades later of her unknowing contribution--and her cells' strange survival--left them full of pride, anger, and suspicion. For a decade, Skloot doggedly but compassionately gathered the threads of these stories, slowly gaining the trust of the family while helping them learn the truth about Henrietta, and with their aid she tells a rich and haunting story that asks the questions, Who owns our bodies? And who carries our memories? --Tom Nissley

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310 Rebecca Skloot Always 4 4.24 2010 The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks
author: Rebecca Skloot
name: Always
average rating: 4.24
book published: 2010
rating: 4
read at: 2020/01/09
date added: 2022/03/01
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This was a really good book that leaves one with more questions than it answers, especially at this moment with the explosion in investment and growth in health/biotech. A lot of those questions are ones I wouldn't know how to answer myself either. I think it's really important though that we all start grappling with and instituting better processes around things like informed consent. Also really horrible to think about this in larger societal terms, in the context of institutional racism, and the ways in which the Lacks family still is so socioeconomically disadvantaged while private biotechnology companies sell their mother's cells for so much money. I just feel so extremely uncomfortable with that. I think I wouldn't care so much if the cells were just part of the commons, available for free, or extremely cheaply, but to know people are profiting off of it, it really is quite disgusting. I try not to bring my politics to bear here quite too often but this really really makes me feel strongly that commercialization of things in biological research, especially people's biological matter and tissue shouldn't be happening. This whole situation just feels quite perverse honestly and the book left me feeling disheartened. The dual dehumanization of the Lacks family through science and commercialization is horrifying. And I think if we wants things to be better moving forward both need to be addressed, not just one.
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Daisy Jones & The Six 40520251 A gripping novel about the whirlwind rise of an iconic 1970s rock group and their beautiful lead singer, revealing the mystery behind their infamous break up.

Everyone knows Daisy Jones & The Six, but nobody knows the real reason why they split at the absolute height of their popularity...until now.

Daisy is a girl coming of age in L.A. in the late sixties, sneaking into clubs on the Sunset Strip, sleeping with rock stars, and dreaming of singing at the Whisky a Go-Go. The sex and drugs are thrilling, but it's the rock and roll she loves most. By the time she's twenty, her voice is getting noticed, and she has the kind of heedless beauty that makes people do crazy things.

Another band getting noticed is The Six, led by the brooding Billy Dunne. On the eve of their first tour, his girlfriend Camila finds out she's pregnant, and with the pressure of impending fatherhood and fame, Billy goes a little wild on the road.

Daisy and Billy cross paths when a producer realizes the key to supercharged success is to put the two together. What happens next will become the stuff of legend.

The making of that legend is chronicled in this riveting and unforgettable novel, written as an oral history of one of the biggest bands of the seventies. Taylor Jenkins Reid is a talented writer who takes her work to a new level with Daisy Jones & The Six, brilliantly capturing a place and time in an utterly distinctive voice.]]>
404 Taylor Jenkins Reid Always 5 favorites
** Update now that I'm not on meds and everything isn't making me super emotional: I want to stand by what I wrote yesterday. I really enjoyed the book. I think the complexity of the characters, the relationship dynamics and the portrayal of love is what really appealed to me. Just wanted to say that now that I have a renewed ability to be articulate. I also thought the transcript/interview format worked really well for the book and I think that can be hard to pull off. But yeah still good, totally would recommend.]]>
4.21 2019 Daisy Jones & The Six
author: Taylor Jenkins Reid
name: Always
average rating: 4.21
book published: 2019
rating: 5
read at: 2020/01/19
date added: 2022/03/01
shelves: favorites
review:
What does one say when one loves a book except that they loved it? I just read this in one sitting and spent all day reading it. I couldn't put it down. Actually though it was funny because at first I had thought this was fiction, but then I was reading it and I'm like no this is non fiction. I ask my boyfriend if he had heard of the band and he's like no what are you talking about and then later I was looking it up and I found out that no the book is actually just fiction and then I felt like an idiot and I don't know why I was feel emotional today so I just started crying that the book tricked me and my boyfriend was just like what. That's really all I have to share about this. I really enjoyed reading this, would totally recommend it. The pacing and build up was really good honestly and it kept me engaged the whole time. Definitely one of the best things I've read this year, but it's also only January, and like I said I'm also really emotional today, probably because I have a cold and took tons of cold meds, so not sure how reliable an opinion this is.

** Update now that I'm not on meds and everything isn't making me super emotional: I want to stand by what I wrote yesterday. I really enjoyed the book. I think the complexity of the characters, the relationship dynamics and the portrayal of love is what really appealed to me. Just wanted to say that now that I have a renewed ability to be articulate. I also thought the transcript/interview format worked really well for the book and I think that can be hard to pull off. But yeah still good, totally would recommend.
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<![CDATA[Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine]]> 32503381 No one’s ever told Eleanor that life should be better than fine.

Meet Eleanor Oliphant: She struggles with appropriate social skills and tends to say exactly what she’s thinking. Nothing is missing in her carefully timetabled life of avoiding social interactions, where weekends are punctuated by frozen pizza, vodka, and phone chats with Mummy.

But everything changes when Eleanor meets Raymond, the bumbling and deeply unhygienic IT guy from her office. When she and Raymond together save Sammy, an elderly gentleman who has fallen on the sidewalk, the three become the kinds of friends who rescue one another from the lives of isolation they have each been living. And it is Raymond’s big heart that will ultimately help Eleanor find the way to repair her own profoundly damaged one.

Soon to be a major motion picture produced by Reese Witherspoon, Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine is the smart, warm, and uplifting story of an out-of-the-ordinary heroine whose deadpan weirdness and unconscious wit make for an irresistible journey as she realizes. . .

The only way to survive is to open your heart. ]]>
336 Gail Honeyman Always 4
I really enjoyed this, oh man Eleanor is so quirky and endearing. Her inner monologue was excellent and I could really relate to her. I had an especially visceral reaction when [spoilers removed] because come on who hasn't had a moment like that. I've had my fair share of moments when I try really hard and then just feel embarrassed and stupid about everything I've done. Eleanor just felt so real and human. The only thing that annoyed me was the ending when [spoilers removed] because it felt unnecessary and I didn't think we needed a plot twist like it kind of ruined all her conversations with her mom for me a little bit. Everything else was really great though, definitely 4.5 stars.]]>
4.40 2017 Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine
author: Gail Honeyman
name: Always
average rating: 4.40
book published: 2017
rating: 4
read at: 2017/06/04
date added: 2022/03/01
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Eleanor Oliphant lives a fairly secluded life due to her lack of social graces and crippling self esteem and anxiety issues. She works at a graphic design firm in the finance department and spends the rest of her time at home, usually drinking. Her social life consists of a phone call with her mummy every week. Then one day she goes to a concert, for which she won tickets in a raffle, and falls in love at first sight with a musician. Eleanor decides to make some changes to herself as part of a plan to get her dream man. Meanwhile a new hire in the IT department of her company, Raymond, strikes up a friendship with Eleanor. As things change for Eleanor she is forced to confront the past and confront the real reason for her recent desire for more.

I really enjoyed this, oh man Eleanor is so quirky and endearing. Her inner monologue was excellent and I could really relate to her. I had an especially visceral reaction when [spoilers removed] because come on who hasn't had a moment like that. I've had my fair share of moments when I try really hard and then just feel embarrassed and stupid about everything I've done. Eleanor just felt so real and human. The only thing that annoyed me was the ending when [spoilers removed] because it felt unnecessary and I didn't think we needed a plot twist like it kind of ruined all her conversations with her mom for me a little bit. Everything else was really great though, definitely 4.5 stars.
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