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Wenn sich das Leben ändert, tut es dies meist radikal. Deborah Levy und ihr Mann gehen getrennte Wege, ihre Mutter wird bald sterben. Doch die entstehende Lücke bedeutet auch Raum für Neues. In präziser und suggestiver Prosa erschreibt Levy sich aus den Bruchstücken ihres alten Selbst ein neues und fragt: Was heißt es, frei zu sein - als Künstlerin, als Frau, als Mutter oder Tochter? Und was ist der Preis dieser Freiheit?]]> 160 Deborah Levy 3455008925 Ben 4 3.99 2018
author: Deborah Levy
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average rating: 3.99
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]]> 42268742 The Dry Heart begins and ends with the matter-of-fact pronouncement: “I shot him between the eyes.�� As the tale—a plunge into the chilly waters of loneliness, desperation, and bitterness—proceeds, the narrator’s murder of her flighty husband takes on a certain logical inevitability. Stripped of any preciousness or sentimentality, Natalia Ginzburg’s writing here is white-hot, tempered by rage. She transforms the unhappy tale of an ordinary dull marriage into a rich psychological thriller that seems to beg the question: why don’t more wives kill their husbands?]]> 88 Natalia Ginzburg 0811228789 Ben 3 3.98 1947
author: Natalia Ginzburg
name: Ben
average rating: 3.98
book published: 1947
rating: 3
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]]> 213069372 363 Benedict Wells Ben 5 4.32
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average rating: 4.32
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]]> 406235 178 James Baldwin Ben 3 4.40 1956
author: James Baldwin
name: Ben
average rating: 4.40
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]]> 1040123 Inhalt: Schauplatz ist Lissabon im Sommer 1938 zur Zeit der Salazar-Diktatur. Pereira, verantwortlich für die neue Kulturseite der katholischen Abendzeitung Lisboa, sucht einen freien Mitarbeiter, der Nachrufe auf bedeutende Schriftsteller schreiben soll. Er stellt den begabten, jungen Monteiro Rossi an, der gerade seine Dissertation in Philosophie publiziert hat und dringend Geld benötigt. Sein erster Nachruf auf den spanischen Schriftsteller Federico Garía Lorca (1898��1936), der von seinen politischen Gegnern ermordet wurde, ist wegen seiner antifaschistischen Ansichten »nicht zur Veröffentlichung geeignet« und würde niemals die Zensur passieren. Obwohl Pereira auch alle weiteren Nachrufe Monterios wegen ihres revolutionären Inhalts für unbrauchbar hält, bewahrt er sie auf und bezahlt Monteiro für seine Arbeit.
Das bisher ruhig verlaufene Leben des unpolitischen Pereira, der in der Vergangenheit lebt, wird durch die Nachrufe seines Mitarbeiters und durch weitere Begegnungen mit regimekritischen Menschen in seinen Grundfesten erschüttert. Die Freiheitsideale Monteiros erwecken das Interesse des alternden Journalisten am Leben und an den gegenwärtigen politischen Ereignissen. Monteiro gelingt es, ihn zu überreden, einem spanischen Widerstandskämpfer ein sicheres Versteck zu besorgen. Schließlich ist es der völlig erschöpfte Monteiro, der Zuflucht in Pereiras Wohnung sucht. Doch die Salazar-Polizei entdeckt ihn dort und bringt ihn im Beisein des machtlosen Pereira auf brutale Weise um. Mit Hilfe des befreundeten Arztes Cardoso, der vorgibt, Funktionär der Zensurbehörde zu sein, kann Pereira in der Lisboa einen mutigen Nachruf auf Monteiro veröffentlichen und so die Verbrechen des Regimes publik machen. Danach verlässt er mit einem gefälschten Pass das Land.
Wirkung: Der antifaschistische Roman, der Tabucchi international bekannt machte, wurde u. a. mit dem Premio Viareggio ausgezeichnet und 1995 mit Marcello Mastroianni in der Titelrolle verfilmt. Der Amtsantritt des Medienzaren Silvio Berlusconi (* 1936), der 1994 unter Beteiligung der Neofaschisten an die Macht kam, verlieh dem Buch größte Aktualität.
Copyright: Aus Das Buch der 1000 Bücher (Harenberg Verlag)]]> 213 Antonio Tabucchi 3423124245 Ben 5 4.21 1994
author: Antonio Tabucchi
name: Ben
average rating: 4.21
book published: 1994
rating: 5
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]]> 87247 Der Steppenwolf ist die Geschichte von Harry Haller, der sich im Zustand völliger Entfremdung von seiner bürgerlichen Welt „eine geniale, eine unbegrenzte furchtbare Leidensfähigkeit herangebildet�� hat. Die innere Zerrissenheit Hallers spiegelt die Erscheinungen der modernen Massen- und Industriegesellschaft wider und reflektiert kultur- und zivilisationskritische Strömungen des 20. Jahrhunderts.]]> 278 Hermann Hesse 3518366750 Ben 4 3.99 1927
author: Hermann Hesse
name: Ben
average rating: 3.99
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]]> 6186505 Gut gegen Nordwind gelesen, jene ungewöhnliche Liebesgeschichte, in der sich zwei Menschen, die einander nie gesehen haben, per E-Mail rettungslos verlieben.

2.) Für Sie ist die Geschichte von Emmi und Leo abgeschlossen. Mag sein. Aber nicht für Emmi und Leo!

3.) Sie sind der Ansicht, dass die Liebenden zumindest eine einzige wirkliche Begegnung verdient hätten, und der Roman eine zweite Chance auf ein anderes Ende? Bitte, hier haben Sie's!

4.) Sie haben keine Ahnung, wovon hier die Rede ist? Sie steigen ohne Nordwind-Kenntnisse in Alle sieben Wellen ein? Kein Problem. Sie erfahren alles:
Leo Leike kehrt nach knapp einem Jahr aus Boston zurück. Daheim erwarten ihn Nachrichten von Emmi Rothner. Beide bemerken, dass sie die Gefühle füreinander nicht los geworden sind. Vielleicht sollten sie sich wirklich einmal treffen. Allerdings ist Leo mittlerweile liiert und Emmi noch immer verheiratet. Doch wenn einmal sechs Wellen ans Ufer geschwappt sind, das lernen wir in Daniel Glattauers neuem Roman, dann kommt die siebente, und die ist immer für Überraschungen gut.

]]> 222 Daniel Glattauer 3552060936 Ben 4 3.87 2009
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name: Ben
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]]> 1820716
Bei Leo Leike landen irrtümlich E-Mails einer ihm unbekannten Emmi Rothner. Aus Höflichkeit antwortet er ihr. Und weil sich Emmi von ihm angezogen fühlt, schreibt sie zurück.

Bald gibt Leo zu: »Ich interessiere mich wahnsinnig für Sie, liebe Emmi! Ich weiß aber auch, wie absurd dieses Interesse ist.« Und wenig später gesteht Emmi: »Es sind Ihre Zeilen und meine Reime darauf: die ergeben so in etwa einen Mann, wie ich mir plötzlich vorstelle, dass es sein kann, dass es so jemanden wirklich gibt.«

Es scheint nur noch eine Frage der Zeit zu sein, wann es zum ersten persönlichen Treffen kommt, aber diese Frage wühlt beide so sehr auf, dass sie die Antwort lieber noch eine Weile hinauszögern. Außerdem ist Emmi glücklich verheiratet. Und Leo verdaut gerade eine gescheiterte Beziehung.

Und überhaupt: Werden die gesendeten, empfangenen und gespeicherten Liebesgefühle einer Begegnung standhalten? Und was, wenn ja?

]]> 223 Daniel Glattauer 3552060413 Ben 5 3.94 2006
author: Daniel Glattauer
name: Ben
average rating: 3.94
book published: 2006
rating: 5
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]]> 39880835 240 Benedict Wells Ben 5 4.01 2019
author: Benedict Wells
name: Ben
average rating: 4.01
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rating: 5
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]]> 66463840 0 Paulo Coelho 3942656485 Ben 5 3.76 2003
author: Paulo Coelho
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average rating: 3.76
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]]> 32981685 336 Benedict Wells Ben 5 After I took Hard Land with me to France and she came to Nice with my family last week, she brought it back for me.
Kind of a bummer, I would have liked to have enjoyed reading it a little longer, but unfortunately it was just too good.
I devoured this book in 7 hours and must have lingered on the last page for 30 minutes before I realised, here.... comes...nothing...more.
(Do you think he won?)

I still wonder how Benedict gets so many ideas out of his head, and then so many GOOD ideas.
I liked the book very much, and now I see a certain similarity to his other works. The sequences, the roles, the ending and the incredibly good writing.
You could feel sorry for Francis, nothing fits together, simply nothing.

(Two weeks later)

(Three weeks later)
The book was a constant up and down, do they get there, do they find the right person (we don't want to spoil), is the money gone after the Las Vegas stop... I was kind of constantly afraid the mother would do something to herself in his presence, no idea why.
Maybe because she just made the wrong decision once, wrong, against the system, and in favour of the information about Francis' father.
I think it was the worst thing for him to know that all this happened because of his birth, even if it's not true, of course, but somehow it is true, but he can't help it.

A bit of a different Benedict Wells book somehow, the story could be set in the Five Friends (And the hunt for the truth or something haha), but then you add the Benedict Wells style and it makes the book a fabulous novel.

There is so much knowledge in this book, so much cleverness and yes, maybe not everyone will see everything I see in this book, and I will never be able to see everything others see, but basically, that's what makes this book so special.

I think any more information would influence the reading behaviour of people who haven't managed to read it yet.
So, make up your own mind, and yes, maybe you'll understand why I haven't found the right words yet.

"She really was too smart for him" (223)

A great recommendation for this summer :)
5/5 ⭐️ ]]> 3.76 2011
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name: Ben
average rating: 3.76
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rating: 5
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Funny, I've been sitting here for 2 hours and can't find the words, I think that's an outstandingly good sign.
My sister read this book last year and then tucked it away in her bookshelf.
After I took Hard Land with me to France and she came to Nice with my family last week, she brought it back for me.
Kind of a bummer, I would have liked to have enjoyed reading it a little longer, but unfortunately it was just too good.
I devoured this book in 7 hours and must have lingered on the last page for 30 minutes before I realised, here.... comes...nothing...more.
(Do you think he won?)

I still wonder how Benedict gets so many ideas out of his head, and then so many GOOD ideas.
I liked the book very much, and now I see a certain similarity to his other works. The sequences, the roles, the ending and the incredibly good writing.
You could feel sorry for Francis, nothing fits together, simply nothing.

(Two weeks later)

(Three weeks later)
The book was a constant up and down, do they get there, do they find the right person (we don't want to spoil), is the money gone after the Las Vegas stop... I was kind of constantly afraid the mother would do something to herself in his presence, no idea why.
Maybe because she just made the wrong decision once, wrong, against the system, and in favour of the information about Francis' father.
I think it was the worst thing for him to know that all this happened because of his birth, even if it's not true, of course, but somehow it is true, but he can't help it.

A bit of a different Benedict Wells book somehow, the story could be set in the Five Friends (And the hunt for the truth or something haha), but then you add the Benedict Wells style and it makes the book a fabulous novel.

There is so much knowledge in this book, so much cleverness and yes, maybe not everyone will see everything I see in this book, and I will never be able to see everything others see, but basically, that's what makes this book so special.

I think any more information would influence the reading behaviour of people who haven't managed to read it yet.
So, make up your own mind, and yes, maybe you'll understand why I haven't found the right words yet.

"She really was too smart for him" (223)

A great recommendation for this summer :)
5/5 ⭐️
]]> 78311985 48 Jon Fosse 1804270636 Ben 0 to-read 3.47 2023
author: Jon Fosse
name: Ben
average rating: 3.47
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]]> 75369851
Dr. Stotz, einst Politiker, ranghoher Milizoffizier, erfolgreicher Geschäftsmann und graue Eminenz, weiß, dass er nicht mehr lange zu leben hat. Gegen Kost, Logis und »faire Bezahlung« soll nun der Student Tom Elmer seinen Nachlass ordnen, vielleicht auch etwas beschönigen. Bei gemeinsamen Kamingesprächen und alten Armagnacs erzählt Dr. Stotz Tom Elmer von seiner großen Liebe Melody, wie er um die bezaubernde Buchhändlerin geworben und sie �� nach ihrem rätselhaften Verschwinden �� ein Leben lang gesucht hat. Tom Elmer setzt die Nachforschungen fort und stößt auf Widersprüche, Geheimnisse und Überraschungen.]]> 336 Martin Suter 3257613512 Ben 0 to-read 4.07 2023
author: Martin Suter
name: Ben
average rating: 4.07
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]]> 32187419 A sharply intelligent novel about two college students and the strange, unexpected connection they forge with a married couple.

Frances is twenty-one years old, cool-headed, and darkly observant. A college student and aspiring writer, she devotes herself to a life of the mind--and to the beautiful and endlessly self-possessed Bobbi, her best friend and comrade-in-arms. Lovers at school, the two young women now perform spoken-word poetry together in Dublin, where a journalist named Melissa spots their potential. Drawn into Melissa's orbit, Frances is reluctantly impressed by the older woman's sophisticated home and tall, handsome husband. Private property, Frances believes, is a cultural evil--and Nick, a bored actor who never quite lived up to his potential, looks like patriarchy made flesh. But however amusing their flirtation seems at first, it gives way to a strange intimacy neither of them expect. As Frances tries to keep her life in check, her relationships increasingly resist her control: with Nick, with her difficult and unhappy father, and finally even with Bobbi. Desperate to reconcile herself to the desires and vulnerabilities of her body, Frances's intellectual certainties begin to yield to something new: a painful and disorienting way of living from moment to moment.

Written with gem-like precision and probing intelligence, Conversations With Friends is wonderfully alive to the pleasures and dangers of youth."]]> 304 Sally Rooney 0451499077 Ben 4 3.74 2017
author: Sally Rooney
name: Ben
average rating: 3.74
book published: 2017
rating: 4
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]]> 61084014
Charlie’s skin was stinging. Not with heat or sweat, but with that intense, body-defining self-consciousness—that sense of being watched. She lowered her eyes from Eleanor’s loving gaze. Her throat taut with tears, she swallowed. ‘You’re a good sister, Eleanor.��

‘Don’t say that.��

After two years of lockdowns, there’s change in the air. Eleanor has just broken up with her boyfriend, Charlie’s career as an actress is starting up again. They’re finally ready to pursue their dreams—relationships, career, family—if only they can work out what it is they really want.

When principles and desires clash, Eleanor and Charlie are forced to ask: where is the line between self-love and selfishness? In all their confusion, mistakes will be made and lies will be told as they reckon with the limits of their own self-awareness.

Seeing Other People is the darkly funny story of two very different sisters, and the summer that stretches their relationship almost to breaking point.]]> 295 Diana Reid 176115012X Ben 2 3.38 2022
author: Diana Reid
name: Ben
average rating: 3.38
book published: 2022
rating: 2
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]]> 55886863 345 Benedict Wells 3257071485 Ben 4 Sam is a fabulous character (I feel like I'm in German poetry analysis), he has so much empathy and yet is a little mystery that continues to unravel as the film progresses.
��
��
I generally liked all the characters, especially Sam's mum, she reminded me a bit of my mum, maybe that's why her death in the book got to me so much because I could literally feel what a great person she was. Sam's dad is a real asset to the story, I think like many dads of today's generation, a bit lost when it comes to mental health and emotions. Just opening up and showing the affection he wants to show doesn't work, he's trapped within himself, but in the end he manages it, maybe because the death of Sam's mum forces him to, but again I think it's better than never. The way Sam's mum talked about him probably shows the real size of himself, because he never got to see her for himself.
Kirstie is exciting, a bit the too cool girl for everyone, almost a cliche, almost, if the squad wasn't finally complete with Sam. I liked this combo so much, really sooo good.
Unfortunately you could tell as you read that the act with Sam's mum was about to tip over, and so I often almost couldn't bear to continue, I wanted to stop him doing a few things, transport him home, but unfortunately a visible first person narrator can't do that, not even when the film happens only 5cm from the tip of your nose between the pages. I was totally upset when the death was written in the book, I got so sad, I was literally the character Sam coming home and seeing this great gift, missing the meal together, and at the same time, not being able to give his mum a big hug, even now it makes me so sad.
��
The ending was cool, a little too cool for our friend Benedict. To be marvellous, I didn't quite realise what story the book story was actually set in until page 240, just clever. So I thought Mr Wells also ended the number with a clever sentence, a piece of wisdom from Sam, such as
��
‘And so I met Kristie again, we went pedal boating on Virgin Lake, maybe the secret number 99 was right there. I thought about the last few days with Mum, she was always aware that she was going to die soon. It was a secret, only she and Dad knew. Maybe there were really only 98 secrets and everyone had their own, the ninety-ninth. Mine was that I was in love with Kristen, hers was that she always liked me after all, Dad's was that he liked me after all and Mum's, Mum's wasn't her death, it was that she knew everything would be all right afterwards. She knew it, it was her secret...��
Or something like that, don't get me stuck on it haha.
��
��
I've marked so much, it wouldn't be fair to include it in front of you, as well as showing everything that's been marked hihi, deal?
I really liked the book, I hope you like it just as much
��
9/10 ⭐️ (when do you give a 10/10? Because that's the best you know haha)
��
All the best
Ben ]]> 4.30 2021
author: Benedict Wells
name: Ben
average rating: 4.30
book published: 2021
rating: 4
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What a great book, I think it's of course also because I'm alone in France and therefore a little more emotional than usual, but this book really took me away. Benedict writes incredibly beautifully, it's really fun and somehow I realised I'd brought the wrong range of books with me hehe. His words are so imaginative, he tells a story that feels to me more like I'm inside it, reading the first person narrative as the film plays out in front of me, it takes very strong talent to achieve this.
Sam is a fabulous character (I feel like I'm in German poetry analysis), he has so much empathy and yet is a little mystery that continues to unravel as the film progresses.
��
��
I generally liked all the characters, especially Sam's mum, she reminded me a bit of my mum, maybe that's why her death in the book got to me so much because I could literally feel what a great person she was. Sam's dad is a real asset to the story, I think like many dads of today's generation, a bit lost when it comes to mental health and emotions. Just opening up and showing the affection he wants to show doesn't work, he's trapped within himself, but in the end he manages it, maybe because the death of Sam's mum forces him to, but again I think it's better than never. The way Sam's mum talked about him probably shows the real size of himself, because he never got to see her for himself.
Kirstie is exciting, a bit the too cool girl for everyone, almost a cliche, almost, if the squad wasn't finally complete with Sam. I liked this combo so much, really sooo good.
Unfortunately you could tell as you read that the act with Sam's mum was about to tip over, and so I often almost couldn't bear to continue, I wanted to stop him doing a few things, transport him home, but unfortunately a visible first person narrator can't do that, not even when the film happens only 5cm from the tip of your nose between the pages. I was totally upset when the death was written in the book, I got so sad, I was literally the character Sam coming home and seeing this great gift, missing the meal together, and at the same time, not being able to give his mum a big hug, even now it makes me so sad.
��
The ending was cool, a little too cool for our friend Benedict. To be marvellous, I didn't quite realise what story the book story was actually set in until page 240, just clever. So I thought Mr Wells also ended the number with a clever sentence, a piece of wisdom from Sam, such as
��
‘And so I met Kristie again, we went pedal boating on Virgin Lake, maybe the secret number 99 was right there. I thought about the last few days with Mum, she was always aware that she was going to die soon. It was a secret, only she and Dad knew. Maybe there were really only 98 secrets and everyone had their own, the ninety-ninth. Mine was that I was in love with Kristen, hers was that she always liked me after all, Dad's was that he liked me after all and Mum's, Mum's wasn't her death, it was that she knew everything would be all right afterwards. She knew it, it was her secret...��
Or something like that, don't get me stuck on it haha.
��
��
I've marked so much, it wouldn't be fair to include it in front of you, as well as showing everything that's been marked hihi, deal?
I really liked the book, I hope you like it just as much
��
9/10 ⭐️ (when do you give a 10/10? Because that's the best you know haha)
��
All the best
Ben
]]> 1780947 128 John P. Strelecky 3423209690 Ben 3 3.49 2003
author: John P. Strelecky
name: Ben
average rating: 3.49
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]]> 820118 Nobelpreisträgerin Toni Morrison hat in ihrem Romandebüt mit eindringlicher Schlichtheit beschrieben, was es heißt, als Schwarze in einer schwarz-weißen Welt aufzuwachsen, einer Welt mit Ein- und Ausgrenzung, Wundern und Schrecken ...]]> 233 Toni Morrison 3499228548 Ben 3 4.12 1970
author: Toni Morrison
name: Ben
average rating: 4.12
book published: 1970
rating: 3
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]]> 42201431
Olive braces herself to get through 24 hours of wedding hell before she can return to her comfortable, unlucky life. But when the entire wedding party gets food poisoning from eating bad shellfish, the only people who aren’t affected are Olive and Ethan. And now there’s an all-expenses-paid honeymoon in Hawaii up for grabs.

Putting their mutual hatred aside for the sake of a free vacation, Olive and Ethan head for paradise, determined to avoid each other at all costs. But when Olive runs into her future boss, the little white lie she tells him is suddenly at risk to become a whole lot bigger. She and Ethan now have to pretend to be loving newlyweds, and her luck seems worse than ever. But the weird thing is that she doesn’t mind playing pretend. In fact, she feels kind of... lucky.

Alternate cover edition of ISBN 9781501128035.]]> 432 Christina Lauren 1501128035 Ben 5 I really enjoyed the book, a story that isn't obvious from page 4, even if you think it is, no spoilers ;). I think a big factor in my love for the book was also that I was on holiday myself and read the scenes where they were both lying on the beach when I had my feet in the sand and could hear the sound of the sea.
An absolute recommendation for your summer holiday!
Very peaceful, funny and well written, with a nice plot twist at the end hihi.
9/10, my summer favourite book at the time.
Ben <33

I only marked one thing in the entire book and that was....
"You mean thinking positively brings positivity?" (243)

A very true sentence, because you should never forget that if you think tomorrow will be stupid, you've already said it will be stupid, so it will be stupid because you don't expect anything else ;).]]> 3.88 2019
author: Christina Lauren
name: Ben
average rating: 3.88
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Funnily enough, this book was sent to me by Piper Verlag the day before we went on our ABI trip to Italy, what could be more fitting haha.
I really enjoyed the book, a story that isn't obvious from page 4, even if you think it is, no spoilers ;). I think a big factor in my love for the book was also that I was on holiday myself and read the scenes where they were both lying on the beach when I had my feet in the sand and could hear the sound of the sea.
An absolute recommendation for your summer holiday!
Very peaceful, funny and well written, with a nice plot twist at the end hihi.
9/10, my summer favourite book at the time.
Ben <33

I only marked one thing in the entire book and that was....
"You mean thinking positively brings positivity?" (243)

A very true sentence, because you should never forget that if you think tomorrow will be stupid, you've already said it will be stupid, so it will be stupid because you don't expect anything else ;).
]]> 28051948 355 Benedict Wells 3257069588 Ben 5 As a good friend of mine said recently, "Ben you don't read books like someone normal, you make the story yours, you don't mark every second best quote, you mark good sentences and things that very few other people notice"
Maybe that's why it takes me so much longer to read some books.
Benedict Wells has such great trains of thought, I found it very interesting that the story takes place in Munich and Berlin, both places where I live.
Wels tells the story of a family, which strangely enough doesn't seem extraordinarily curious, as many people struggle with the early loss of loved ones and family members.
It is an ongoing battle for the children, a battle that at some point also prevails between them. One very clear characteristic stands out.
All children want to stay young all their lives. The reason for this is that they have never really been taught how to live an adult life due to the early loss of their parents. It was a small car that forced the children, who were still so young at the time, to grow up without any premonition and without ever having earned it. 
Marty, who had everything in the end and yet felt alone.
Liz, who did everything in her power to escape fate but was ultimately caught up.
Jules, who was left behind.
But in the end, all the children come together again, they realise that they are the only thing they have left, that life is worth nothing without each other.
life is worth nothing without each other.

I really liked the part where Alva says "Better 2 years with you than 50 years without you".
The two of them never managed to talk to each other, to reveal their feelings to each other, a sad fate. I still wonder today why she invited him to her place and then exposed him like that.
To summarise, I can say that this book really touched me. I thought a lot about his story, about life, love and death.
If anyone would like to borrow the book, I have written out all the quotes on the last page that I found good and unique.
A remarkable book that I highly recommend to all of you.
Ben <3


Quotes I really liked (in German but
u can see the pages)

„Was sorgt dafür, dass ein Leben wird, wie es wird?�� (11)
„Hätte mein Vater einen Ratgeber geschrieben, wäre der Titel vermutlich „Lass es lieber�� gewesen�� (32)
„Am wichtigsten ist, dass du einen richtigen Freund findest Jules�� (33)
„Unsere Mutter war für uns immer der Mittelpunkt der Familie��
-> „woll(ten) alle so sein wie sie�� (35)
„Besser als die neuen Kameras
-> „sie hat eine Seele) (44)
„Während ich es liebte, das Erlebte noch lange zu betrachten und zu überlegen, wo ich es einordnen könnte�� (70)
„Es war wie früher, nur das nicht mehr wie früher war�� (72)
„Hinten bei der Dartscheibe, standen zwei Spielautomaten, die eine geheimnisvolle Anziehungskraft auf alle gescheiterten Existenzen im Landkreis ausübten�� (82)
„Da Alva in der dieser Szene , nicht die Regie übernehmen wollte�� (92)
„Es ist egal, ob ich früh sterbe, denn ich kann trotzdem sagen, ich habe gelebt�� (120)
„Ich wollte garnicht erwachen werden, auf jeden Fall nicht so schnell. Und dann war alles weg. Von einer auf die anderen Sekunde�� (126)
„Auf einmal war ich jemand, der ich nie sein wollte�� (127)
„Ich fragte mich, wann die Dinge anfingen falsch zu laufen, oder ob sie nie richtig liefen, von Anfang an nicht�� (112)
„Aber es gibt etwas, was ihn von allen Menschen unterscheidet, er ist immer da�� (144)
„Der Abgrund blickte mich an��
-> „und ich blickte zurück�� (147)
„Offenbar starb gerade eine geliebte Person zwischen ihren Fingern�� (157)
„Mit dieser stoischen Ruhe, die er wie ein Wasserzeichen in sich zu tragen schien�� (159)
„Ich meine, wenn man sein ganzes Leben lang in die falsche Richtung läut, kann dann trotzdem das richtige sein?�� (190)
„Vielleicht schreibst du nicht auf Papier, aber in deinem Kopf tust du es�� (197)
„Ich hab(e) (da)s Gefühl, dass du nichts vergisst�� (335)
„Ich selbst der Architekt meiner Existenz bin�� (337)
„Es ist ein schönes Lächeln , hintergründig und fast schon weise�� (347)
„Die Einsamkeit in uns können wir nur gemeinsam überwinden�� (351)]]> 4.49 2016
author: Benedict Wells
name: Ben
average rating: 4.49
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rating: 5
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I was fascinated by the book.
As a good friend of mine said recently, "Ben you don't read books like someone normal, you make the story yours, you don't mark every second best quote, you mark good sentences and things that very few other people notice"
Maybe that's why it takes me so much longer to read some books.
Benedict Wells has such great trains of thought, I found it very interesting that the story takes place in Munich and Berlin, both places where I live.
Wels tells the story of a family, which strangely enough doesn't seem extraordinarily curious, as many people struggle with the early loss of loved ones and family members.
It is an ongoing battle for the children, a battle that at some point also prevails between them. One very clear characteristic stands out.
All children want to stay young all their lives. The reason for this is that they have never really been taught how to live an adult life due to the early loss of their parents. It was a small car that forced the children, who were still so young at the time, to grow up without any premonition and without ever having earned it. 
Marty, who had everything in the end and yet felt alone.
Liz, who did everything in her power to escape fate but was ultimately caught up.
Jules, who was left behind.
But in the end, all the children come together again, they realise that they are the only thing they have left, that life is worth nothing without each other.
life is worth nothing without each other.

I really liked the part where Alva says "Better 2 years with you than 50 years without you".
The two of them never managed to talk to each other, to reveal their feelings to each other, a sad fate. I still wonder today why she invited him to her place and then exposed him like that.
To summarise, I can say that this book really touched me. I thought a lot about his story, about life, love and death.
If anyone would like to borrow the book, I have written out all the quotes on the last page that I found good and unique.
A remarkable book that I highly recommend to all of you.
Ben <3


Quotes I really liked (in German but
u can see the pages)

„Was sorgt dafür, dass ein Leben wird, wie es wird?�� (11)
„Hätte mein Vater einen Ratgeber geschrieben, wäre der Titel vermutlich „Lass es lieber�� gewesen�� (32)
„Am wichtigsten ist, dass du einen richtigen Freund findest Jules�� (33)
„Unsere Mutter war für uns immer der Mittelpunkt der Familie��
-> „woll(ten) alle so sein wie sie�� (35)
„Besser als die neuen Kameras
-> „sie hat eine Seele) (44)
„Während ich es liebte, das Erlebte noch lange zu betrachten und zu überlegen, wo ich es einordnen könnte�� (70)
„Es war wie früher, nur das nicht mehr wie früher war�� (72)
„Hinten bei der Dartscheibe, standen zwei Spielautomaten, die eine geheimnisvolle Anziehungskraft auf alle gescheiterten Existenzen im Landkreis ausübten�� (82)
„Da Alva in der dieser Szene , nicht die Regie übernehmen wollte�� (92)
„Es ist egal, ob ich früh sterbe, denn ich kann trotzdem sagen, ich habe gelebt�� (120)
„Ich wollte garnicht erwachen werden, auf jeden Fall nicht so schnell. Und dann war alles weg. Von einer auf die anderen Sekunde�� (126)
„Auf einmal war ich jemand, der ich nie sein wollte�� (127)
„Ich fragte mich, wann die Dinge anfingen falsch zu laufen, oder ob sie nie richtig liefen, von Anfang an nicht�� (112)
„Aber es gibt etwas, was ihn von allen Menschen unterscheidet, er ist immer da�� (144)
„Der Abgrund blickte mich an��
-> „und ich blickte zurück�� (147)
„Offenbar starb gerade eine geliebte Person zwischen ihren Fingern�� (157)
„Mit dieser stoischen Ruhe, die er wie ein Wasserzeichen in sich zu tragen schien�� (159)
„Ich meine, wenn man sein ganzes Leben lang in die falsche Richtung läut, kann dann trotzdem das richtige sein?�� (190)
„Vielleicht schreibst du nicht auf Papier, aber in deinem Kopf tust du es�� (197)
„Ich hab(e) (da)s Gefühl, dass du nichts vergisst�� (335)
„Ich selbst der Architekt meiner Existenz bin�� (337)
„Es ist ein schönes Lächeln , hintergründig und fast schon weise�� (347)
„Die Einsamkeit in uns können wir nur gemeinsam überwinden�� (351)
]]> 4543693 464 Benedict Wells 3257066767 Ben 3 3.71 2008
author: Benedict Wells
name: Ben
average rating: 3.71
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rating: 3
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]]> 43306206
The Courage to Be Disliked shows you how to unlock the power within yourself to become your best and truest self, change your future and find lasting happiness. Using the theories of Alfred Adler, one of the three giants of 19th-century psychology alongside Freud and Jung, the authors explain how we are all free to determine our own future free of the shackles of past experiences, doubts and the expectations of others. It’s a philosophy that’s profoundly liberating, allowing us to develop the courage to change, and to ignore the limitations that we and those around us can place on ourselves.

The result is a book that is both highly accessible and profound in its importance. Millions have already read and benefited from its wisdom. Now that The Courage to Be Disliked has been published for the first time in English, so can you.]]> 288 Ichiro Kishimi Ben 0 currently-reading 3.89 2013
author: Ichiro Kishimi
name: Ben
average rating: 3.89
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rating: 0
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]]> 49864151
Delia Owens erzählt intensiv und atmosphärisch davon, dass wir für immer die Kinder bleiben, die wir einmal waren. Und den Geheimnissen und der Gewalt der Natur nichts entgegensetzen können.]]> 464 Delia Owens 3446265139 Ben 5 es erinnert mich ein wenig an mich selbst. Ich wollte immer von Zuhause abhauen und im Wald leben. Doch nicht weil ich es zuhause nicht mochte, sondern weil ich so ein Leben so toll finde und den Wald liebe. Keine Buchart mag ich mehr als so eine, auch wenn es hierbei immer ums allein sein oder verlassen werden geht. Schlussendlich hat mich die Thematik rund um Kya total bewegt und ich bin grade total Emotional. Was ein tolles Buch und was für eine Kraft es auf mich hat ist unbeschreiblich.

Meine Gedanken zu „Der Gesang der Flusskrebse��

Ben <33]]> 4.43 2018
author: Delia Owens
name: Ben
average rating: 4.43
book published: 2018
rating: 5
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Das Buch macht mich traurig,
es erinnert mich ein wenig an mich selbst. Ich wollte immer von Zuhause abhauen und im Wald leben. Doch nicht weil ich es zuhause nicht mochte, sondern weil ich so ein Leben so toll finde und den Wald liebe. Keine Buchart mag ich mehr als so eine, auch wenn es hierbei immer ums allein sein oder verlassen werden geht. Schlussendlich hat mich die Thematik rund um Kya total bewegt und ich bin grade total Emotional. Was ein tolles Buch und was für eine Kraft es auf mich hat ist unbeschreiblich.

Meine Gedanken zu „Der Gesang der Flusskrebse��

Ben <33
]]> 125060794 Published for the first time in a beautiful collectible edition, the essential lecture delivered by the 2022 recipient of the Nobel Prize in Literature, Annie Ernaux.

«J’écrirai por venger ma race»

It was as a young woman that Annie Ernaux first wrote these words in her diary, giving a name to her purpose in life as a writer. She returns to them in her stirring defense of literature and of political writing in her Nobel Lecture, delivered in Stockholm on December 7, 2022.

To write of her own life, she asserts, is to “shatter the loneliness of experiences endured and repressed;�� to mine individual experience is to find collective emancipation. Ernaux’s speech is a bold assertion of the capacity of writing to give people a sense of their own worth, and of one writer’s commitment to bearing witness to life, its joys and its injustices.

Includes Annie Ernaux's Nobel lecture, her Nobel banquet speech, a congratulatory speech by Professor��Anders Olsson, Chair of the Nobel Committee for Literature, and the Nobel opening address by Professor Carl-Henrik Heldin, Chairman of the board of the Nobel Foundation.]]> 26 Annie Ernaux 1644213621 Ben 0 to-read 4.17
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]]> 34607044
Patti Smith, a National Book Award-winning author, first presents an original and beautifully crafted tale of obsession—a young skater who lives for her art, a possessive collector who ruthlessly seeks his prize, a relationship forged of need both craven and exalted. She then takes us on a second journey, exploring the sources of her story. We travel through the South of France to Camus’s house, and visit the garden of the great publisher Gallimard where the ghosts of Mishima, Nabokov, and Genet mingle. Smith tracks down Simone Weil’s grave in a lonely cemetery, hours from London, and winds through the nameless Paris streets of Patrick Modiano’s novels. Whether writing in a café or a train, Smith generously opens her notebooks and lets us glimpse the alchemy of her art and craft in this arresting and original book on writing.

The Why I Write series is based on the Windham-Campbell Lectures, delivered annually to commemorate the awarding of the Donald Windham-Sandy M. Campbell Literature Prizes at Yale University.]]> 95 Patti Smith 0300218621 Ben 0 to-read 3.86 2017
author: Patti Smith
name: Ben
average rating: 3.86
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]]> 343614 205 Esther Hicks 1401917593 Ben 0 to-read 4.13 2006
author: Esther Hicks
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]]> 59828197
]]> 393 Christian Pokerbeats Huber 3423289988 Ben 0 to-read 4.02 2022
author: Christian Pokerbeats Huber
name: Ben
average rating: 4.02
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]]> 18693763
Lydia is the favourite child of Marilyn and James Lee; a girl who inherited her mother's bright blue eyes and her father's jet-black hair. Her parents are determined that Lydia will fulfill the dreams they were unable to pursue - in Marilyn's case that her daughter become a doctor rather than a homemaker, in James's case that Lydia be popular at school, a girl with a busy social life and the centre of every party. But Lydia is under pressures that have nothing to do with growing up in 1970s small town Ohio. Her father is an American born of first-generation Chinese immigrants, and his ethnicity, and hers, make them conspicuous in any setting.

When Lydia's body is found in the local lake, James is consumed by guilt and sets out on a reckless path that may destroy his marriage. Marilyn, devastated and vengeful, is determined to make someone accountable, no matter what the cost. Lydia's older brother, Nathan, is convinced that local bad boy Jack is somehow involved. But it's the youngest in the family - Hannah - who observes far more than anyone realises and who may be the only one who knows what really happened.

Everything I Never Told You is a gripping page-turner, about secrets, love, longing, lies and race.

Librarian's note: There is an Alternate Cover Edition for this edition of this book here.]]> 297 Celeste Ng 159420571X Ben 0 to-read 3.81 2014
author: Celeste Ng
name: Ben
average rating: 3.81
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]]> 34066798 The mega-bestseller with more than 2 million readers—Now a Paramount+ with Showtime series starring Ewan McGregor as Count Alexander Rostov

From the #1 New York Times-bestselling author of The Lincoln Highway and Rules of Civility, a beautifully transporting novel about a man who is ordered to spend the rest of his life inside a luxury hotel

In 1922, Count Alexander Rostov is deemed an unrepentant aristocrat by a Bolshevik tribunal, and is sentenced to house arrest in the Metropol, a grand hotel across the street from the Kremlin. Rostov, an indomitable man of erudition and wit, has never worked a day in his life, and must now live in an attic room while some of the most tumultuous decades in Russian history are unfolding outside the hotel’s doors. Unexpectedly, his reduced circumstances provide him entry into a much larger world of emotional discovery.

Brimming with humor, a glittering cast of characters, and one beautifully rendered scene after another, this singular novel casts a spell as it relates the count’s endeavor to gain a deeper understanding of what it means to be a man of purpose.]]> 462 Amor Towles Ben 0 to-read 4.28 2016
author: Amor Towles
name: Ben
average rating: 4.28
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]]> 5211
The time is 1975. The place is an unnamed city by the sea. The government has just declared a State of Emergency, in whose upheavals four strangers--a spirited widow, a young student uprooted from his idyllic hill station, and two tailors who have fled the caste violence of their native village--will be thrust together, forced to share one cramped apartment and an uncertain future.

As the characters move from distrust to friendship and from friendship to love, A Fine Balance creates an enduring panorama of the human spirit in an inhuman state.]]> 603 Rohinton Mistry 140003065X Ben 0 to-read 4.38 1995
author: Rohinton Mistry
name: Ben
average rating: 4.38
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]]> 6280118
So where will they be on this one day next year? And the year after that?

And every year that follows?
--back cover]]> 435 David Nicholls 0340896965 Ben 0 to-read 3.86 2009
author: David Nicholls
name: Ben
average rating: 3.86
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]]> 32981720 328 Benedict Wells 3257243847 Ben 0 to-read 3.83 2009
author: Benedict Wells
name: Ben
average rating: 3.83
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]]> 70740 176 Paulo Coelho 3257061269 Ben 5 3.89 1988
author: Paulo Coelho
name: Ben
average rating: 3.89
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rating: 5
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]]> 17875486 331 Jorge Bucay 3596510384 Ben 5 4.24 1994
author: Jorge Bucay
name: Ben
average rating: 4.24
book published: 1994
rating: 5
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]]> 6584188 The Summer I Turned Pretty from the New York Times bestselling author of To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before (soon to be a major motion picture!), Jenny Han.

Can summer be truly summer without Cousins Beach?

It used to be that Belly counted the days until summer, until she was back at Cousins Beach with Conrad and Jeremiah. But not this year. Not after Susannah got sick again and Conrad stopped caring. Everything that was right and good has fallen apart, leaving Belly wishing summer would never come.

But when Jeremiah calls saying Conrad has disappeared, Belly knows what she must do to make things right again. And it can only happen back at the beach house, the three of them together, the way things used to be. If this summer really and truly is the last summer, it should end the way it started—at Cousins Beach.]]> 275 Jenny Han 1416995552 Ben 3
The last part of the 'Summer I turned pretty' series.
Unfortunately, I could find less and less pleasure in reading from the second part onwards and so I only read this book
to finish the series.
The story of this book was really a bit too far-fetched for me, getting married at 19 to the boy she didn't want?
The conversations between each other were very well written and Jenny Han always finds very good words for the different situations, maybe I'm just not the romance type anymore and a predictable ending makes it too boring for me hihi.
That's why I would still recommend the book, because the writing style and the feelings of Bells and the boys were written in a really approachable way. The wedding scene still made me a bit upset because I was always Team Conrad and even though I knew how it would end, the build-up of tension worked really well.
The ending was also very well written and Bells reflected on all her thoughts and decisions and she realised how long she had had the dream with Conrad and how this ending finally hurt, what a critical but still good love story :).
The book gets a 5/10 from me, I look forward to your thoughts on it.
Ben <33]]> 3.78 2010
author: Jenny Han
name: Ben
average rating: 3.78
book published: 2010
rating: 3
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(I read the book in 2022, shortly after the first season was published)

The last part of the 'Summer I turned pretty' series.
Unfortunately, I could find less and less pleasure in reading from the second part onwards and so I only read this book
to finish the series.
The story of this book was really a bit too far-fetched for me, getting married at 19 to the boy she didn't want?
The conversations between each other were very well written and Jenny Han always finds very good words for the different situations, maybe I'm just not the romance type anymore and a predictable ending makes it too boring for me hihi.
That's why I would still recommend the book, because the writing style and the feelings of Bells and the boys were written in a really approachable way. The wedding scene still made me a bit upset because I was always Team Conrad and even though I knew how it would end, the build-up of tension worked really well.
The ending was also very well written and Bells reflected on all her thoughts and decisions and she realised how long she had had the dream with Conrad and how this ending finally hurt, what a critical but still good love story :).
The book gets a 5/10 from me, I look forward to your thoughts on it.
Ben <33
]]> 22628 offers a unique perspective. But there comes a time to see
what it looks like from the dance floor.

This haunting novel about the dilemma of passivity vs. passion marks the stunning debut of a provocative new voice in contemporary fiction: The Perks of Being A WALLFLOWER

This is the story of what it's like to grow up in high school. More intimate than a diary, Charlie's letters are singular and unique, hilarious and devastating. We may not know where he lives. We may not know to whom he is writing. All we know is the world he shares. Caught between trying to live his life and trying to run from it puts him on a strange course through uncharted territory. The world of first dates and mixed tapes, family dramas and new friends. The world of sex, drugs, and The Rocky Horror Picture Show, when all one requires is that the perfect song on that perfect drive to feel infinite.

Through Charlie, Stephen Chbosky has created a deeply affecting coming-of-age story, a powerful novel that will spirit you back to those wild and poignant roller coaster days known as growing up.

(back cover)]]> 213 Stephen Chbosky Ben 5 I never actually read anything about the books before I read them and go into them blind, so I wasn't really prepared for this kind of book.
I think there is a little bit of Charlie in all of us and everyone knows the situation they are in.
The author describes the form of depression in the various life situations of a boy who has just started high school. Someone who can't find a connection, a connection to his classmates. Fortunately, Charlie finds someone else, his teacher Bill. He believes in Charlie and gives him more assignments to pursue his secret strength of writing. Reading is also like a kind of escape world for Charlie, which opens up as soon as he opens the current book and immerses his thoughts in it.
The book reflects the themes of depression, disconnection and loneliness in the family very well. In the end, Charlie finds his two true friends, two people he can always rely on. And so Charlie manages to get out of his depression and sees life as a gift.
Perhaps a few more parents should read this book to understand what actually goes on in the heads of many young people and what problems they have to struggle with.
I cried at the end of this book.

„Whatever happened to Charlie?�� And I can tell you what happened to Charlie in three words..
„He made it��
„And so will you��

Quotes I really liked.

„Do you always think this much, Charlie?��
-> “Its just that sometimes people use thought to not participate in life�� (26)
„Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve�� (27)
„Then, I turned around and walked to my room and closed may door and pit my head under the pillow and let the
quite put things where they are supposed to be�� (28)
„Not everyone has a sob story, Charlie, and even if they do, its no excuse�� (30
„And you won’t believe it. Bob hugged me!�� (36)
„He’s something, isn’t he?“��-> “He’s a wallflower�� (40)
„Sam stood up, and she wind turned her dress into ocean waves��
-> „And in that moment, I swear we were infinite�� (42)
„I just look at her sometimes, and I think she is the prettiest and nicest person in the whole world�� (51)
„If you listen to the song „Asleep�� and you think about those pretty weather days that make you remember things, and you think about the prettiest eyes you’ve known, and you cry, and the person holds you back, then I think you will see the photograph�� (51)
„The kind of crying that only I noticed�� (63)
„I really think, that everyone should have watercolors, magnetic poetry, and harmonics�� 8689
„And I know that my Aunt Helen would still be alive today if she just bought me one present like everybody else�� (98)
-> „I have to stop writing now because I am too sad��
„And Mark said that the amazing white stars were really only holes in the black glass of the dome, and when you went to heaven, the glass broke away, and there was nothing but a whole sheet of star white, which is brighter than anything but doesn’t hurt ur eyes�� (101)
„And all you want is to always feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you’re happy, too.�� (102)
„So I laid down and made a snow angel�� (105)
„I have to remember this for the next time I’m having a terrible week. Have you ever done that? You feel really bad, and then it goes away, and you don’t know why. I try to remind myself when I feel great like this that there will be another terrible wee coming someday, so I should store up as many great details as I can, so during the next terrible week, I can remember those details and believe that I’ll feel great again��
-> „its very important�� (110)
„And I was so happy because it made my mom smile. And she rarely smiled�� (110)
„I don’t know. I just had a great day. I hope you did, too�� (113)
„After I finished, I just laid around in my bed, looking at ceiling, and I smiled because it was a nice kind of quite�� (119)
„I wish I could stop being in love with Sam. I really do�� (121)
„No really. What’s wrong?�� -> „You wouldn’t understand.�� -> „I could try�� (124)
„And the cigarette is only halfway lit that means someone is thinking about you�� (157)
„Bill said that it’s „very easy to read but very hard to ´read well´�� (160)
„I just want you to know that you’re very special…and the only reason I’m telling you is that I don’t know of anyone else ever has�� (195)
„I was very grateful to have heard it again. Because I guess we all forget sometimes.
And I think everyone is special in their own way. I really do�� (196)
„But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them�� (228)
„Because it’s okay to feel things. And be who you are about them�� (229)
„That things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough�� (231)
„Whatever happened to Charlie?�� And I can tell you what happened to Charlie in three words..��
-> „He made it.��
-> „And so will you.“]]> 4.24 1999
author: Stephen Chbosky
name: Ben
average rating: 4.24
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rating: 5
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To be honest, I find it hard to find the right words for this masterpiece.
I never actually read anything about the books before I read them and go into them blind, so I wasn't really prepared for this kind of book.
I think there is a little bit of Charlie in all of us and everyone knows the situation they are in.
The author describes the form of depression in the various life situations of a boy who has just started high school. Someone who can't find a connection, a connection to his classmates. Fortunately, Charlie finds someone else, his teacher Bill. He believes in Charlie and gives him more assignments to pursue his secret strength of writing. Reading is also like a kind of escape world for Charlie, which opens up as soon as he opens the current book and immerses his thoughts in it.
The book reflects the themes of depression, disconnection and loneliness in the family very well. In the end, Charlie finds his two true friends, two people he can always rely on. And so Charlie manages to get out of his depression and sees life as a gift.
Perhaps a few more parents should read this book to understand what actually goes on in the heads of many young people and what problems they have to struggle with.
I cried at the end of this book.

„Whatever happened to Charlie?�� And I can tell you what happened to Charlie in three words..
„He made it��
„And so will you��

Quotes I really liked.

„Do you always think this much, Charlie?��
-> “Its just that sometimes people use thought to not participate in life�� (26)
„Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve�� (27)
„Then, I turned around and walked to my room and closed may door and pit my head under the pillow and let the
quite put things where they are supposed to be�� (28)
„Not everyone has a sob story, Charlie, and even if they do, its no excuse�� (30
„And you won’t believe it. Bob hugged me!�� (36)
„He’s something, isn’t he?“��-> “He’s a wallflower�� (40)
„Sam stood up, and she wind turned her dress into ocean waves��
-> „And in that moment, I swear we were infinite�� (42)
„I just look at her sometimes, and I think she is the prettiest and nicest person in the whole world�� (51)
„If you listen to the song „Asleep�� and you think about those pretty weather days that make you remember things, and you think about the prettiest eyes you’ve known, and you cry, and the person holds you back, then I think you will see the photograph�� (51)
„The kind of crying that only I noticed�� (63)
„I really think, that everyone should have watercolors, magnetic poetry, and harmonics�� 8689
„And I know that my Aunt Helen would still be alive today if she just bought me one present like everybody else�� (98)
-> „I have to stop writing now because I am too sad��
„And Mark said that the amazing white stars were really only holes in the black glass of the dome, and when you went to heaven, the glass broke away, and there was nothing but a whole sheet of star white, which is brighter than anything but doesn’t hurt ur eyes�� (101)
„And all you want is to always feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you’re happy, too.�� (102)
„So I laid down and made a snow angel�� (105)
„I have to remember this for the next time I’m having a terrible week. Have you ever done that? You feel really bad, and then it goes away, and you don’t know why. I try to remind myself when I feel great like this that there will be another terrible wee coming someday, so I should store up as many great details as I can, so during the next terrible week, I can remember those details and believe that I’ll feel great again��
-> „its very important�� (110)
„And I was so happy because it made my mom smile. And she rarely smiled�� (110)
„I don’t know. I just had a great day. I hope you did, too�� (113)
„After I finished, I just laid around in my bed, looking at ceiling, and I smiled because it was a nice kind of quite�� (119)
„I wish I could stop being in love with Sam. I really do�� (121)
„No really. What’s wrong?�� -> „You wouldn’t understand.�� -> „I could try�� (124)
„And the cigarette is only halfway lit that means someone is thinking about you�� (157)
„Bill said that it’s „very easy to read but very hard to ´read well´�� (160)
„I just want you to know that you’re very special…and the only reason I’m telling you is that I don’t know of anyone else ever has�� (195)
„I was very grateful to have heard it again. Because I guess we all forget sometimes.
And I think everyone is special in their own way. I really do�� (196)
„But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them�� (228)
„Because it’s okay to feel things. And be who you are about them�� (229)
„That things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough�� (231)
„Whatever happened to Charlie?�� And I can tell you what happened to Charlie in three words..��
-> „He made it.��
-> „And so will you.��
]]> 33656884 208 Kent Haruf 3257069863 Ben 5 Eine wirklich sehr nette und herzerwärmende Geschichte von zwei alten Menschen, die einfach nur nach Nähe und Liebe suchen.
Der Zahl von Altersdepressiven Menschen wird in unserer Gesellschaft fast nie Aufmerksamkeit geschenkt, leider.
Vielleicht hast du im Laufe der letzen Jahre alle deine Freunde verloren, dein Partner ist vor einziger Zeit verstorben und auch deine Kinder sind total beschäftig mit den Sorgen von morgen. Ich finde, die Geschichte von Louis und Addie sollte ein Anreiz sein, sich im hohen Alter nochmal erneut zu verlieben hihi.
Alleine sein macht einsam und nur auf das Ende seines Lebens
zu warten bestimmt genauso.
Das Buch erzählte diese Thematik unterbewusst, während es sich herbei um eine unfassbar süßes Liebesgeschichte von zwei Fremden alten Nachbarn handelt.
Wenn ihr etwas richtig entspanntes und ruhiges Lesen wollt, kann ich euch dieses Buch echt sehr empfehlen.
Lasst euch von Kent Haruf verzaubern und lasst ein bisschen Frieden zu, nach all den Horror und Thriller Romanen :).
Ben <3
]]> 3.80 2015
author: Kent Haruf
name: Ben
average rating: 3.80
book published: 2015
rating: 5
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Mein letztes der vier Sommerbücher aus Frankreich.
Eine wirklich sehr nette und herzerwärmende Geschichte von zwei alten Menschen, die einfach nur nach Nähe und Liebe suchen.
Der Zahl von Altersdepressiven Menschen wird in unserer Gesellschaft fast nie Aufmerksamkeit geschenkt, leider.
Vielleicht hast du im Laufe der letzen Jahre alle deine Freunde verloren, dein Partner ist vor einziger Zeit verstorben und auch deine Kinder sind total beschäftig mit den Sorgen von morgen. Ich finde, die Geschichte von Louis und Addie sollte ein Anreiz sein, sich im hohen Alter nochmal erneut zu verlieben hihi.
Alleine sein macht einsam und nur auf das Ende seines Lebens
zu warten bestimmt genauso.
Das Buch erzählte diese Thematik unterbewusst, während es sich herbei um eine unfassbar süßes Liebesgeschichte von zwei Fremden alten Nachbarn handelt.
Wenn ihr etwas richtig entspanntes und ruhiges Lesen wollt, kann ich euch dieses Buch echt sehr empfehlen.
Lasst euch von Kent Haruf verzaubern und lasst ein bisschen Frieden zu, nach all den Horror und Thriller Romanen :).
Ben <3

]]> 52578297
When Nora Seed finds herself in the Midnight Library, she has a chance to make things right. Up until now, her life has been full of misery and regret. She feels she has let everyone down, including herself. But things are about to change.

The books in the Midnight Library enable Nora to live as if she had done things differently. With the help of an old friend, she can now undo every one of her regrets as she tries to work out her perfect life. But things aren't always what she imagined they'd be, and soon her choices place the library and herself in extreme danger.

Before time runs out, she must answer the ultimate question: what is the best way to live?]]> 288 Matt Haig 0525559477 Ben 4 This book had been recommended to me many times before and so I could already imagine that the story would not disappoint me.
It's a book that lets the actual message fade into the background, but you still understand and absorb it.
Hasn't everyone ever wanted to travel back in time and do one thing differently?
After all, life can't be planned, basically it was all wrong decisions that brought us to this point, because who knew if they were right. Nora realised in the end that even if she changed one thing, she wouldn't be happy and had to change something in her current life. Using the librarian as a kind of guru was so clever and her words helped me a lot too.
One thing that bothered me a bit was that Nora logically never knew anyone's name in the new life she's in and who her friends are. That makes sense, but it's already clear in advance that she can never live in this life if she doesn't even know the name of her fiancé in the pub ;).
But all in all, a very good and cleverly thought-out story, with a lot of depth and great passages.
One thing that bothered me a bit was that Nora logically never knew anyone's name in the new life she's in and who her friends are. That makes sense, but it's already clear in advance that she can never live in this life if she doesn't even know the name of her fiancé in the pub ;).
But all in all, a very good and cleverly thought-out story, with a lot of depth and great passages.
A great book for cosy bedtime reading or in a cosy coffee, with (logically) a great happy ending.
I rate the book an 8.5/10 and can only warmly recommend it to you.
Ben <33

"Between life and death there is a library", she said. "And within that library, the shelves go on for ever.
Every book provided a chance to try another life you could have lived. To see how things would be if you had made other choices... .
Would you have done anything different, if you had the chance to undo our regrets?"]]> 3.96 2020
author: Matt Haig
name: Ben
average rating: 3.96
book published: 2020
rating: 4
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An absolute autumn book, with lots of tea and dim light, really the perfect escape from the cold autumn wind outside.
This book had been recommended to me many times before and so I could already imagine that the story would not disappoint me.
It's a book that lets the actual message fade into the background, but you still understand and absorb it.
Hasn't everyone ever wanted to travel back in time and do one thing differently?
After all, life can't be planned, basically it was all wrong decisions that brought us to this point, because who knew if they were right. Nora realised in the end that even if she changed one thing, she wouldn't be happy and had to change something in her current life. Using the librarian as a kind of guru was so clever and her words helped me a lot too.
One thing that bothered me a bit was that Nora logically never knew anyone's name in the new life she's in and who her friends are. That makes sense, but it's already clear in advance that she can never live in this life if she doesn't even know the name of her fiancé in the pub ;).
But all in all, a very good and cleverly thought-out story, with a lot of depth and great passages.
One thing that bothered me a bit was that Nora logically never knew anyone's name in the new life she's in and who her friends are. That makes sense, but it's already clear in advance that she can never live in this life if she doesn't even know the name of her fiancé in the pub ;).
But all in all, a very good and cleverly thought-out story, with a lot of depth and great passages.
A great book for cosy bedtime reading or in a cosy coffee, with (logically) a great happy ending.
I rate the book an 8.5/10 and can only warmly recommend it to you.
Ben <33

"Between life and death there is a library", she said. "And within that library, the shelves go on for ever.
Every book provided a chance to try another life you could have lived. To see how things would be if you had made other choices... .
Would you have done anything different, if you had the chance to undo our regrets?"
]]> 41057294
A year later, they’re both studying at Trinity College in Dublin. Marianne has found her feet in a new social world while Connell hangs at the sidelines, shy and uncertain. Throughout their years in college, Marianne and Connell circle one another, straying toward other people and possibilities but always magnetically, irresistibly drawn back together. Then, as she veers into self-destruction and he begins to search for meaning elsewhere, each must confront how far they are willing to go to save the other.

Sally Rooney brings her brilliant psychological acuity and perfectly spare prose to a story that explores the subtleties of class, the electricity of first love, and the complex entanglements of family and friendship.]]> 273 Sally Rooney 1984822179 Ben 5 Unfortunately, I think the circumstances of reading it affected my review a little and I was reluctant to share my thoughts on it.
It was my summer book, a summer in which I hardly got round to reading and had to start again and again from the beginning. A very emotional book, two people who really only want to love each other, who find it very difficult to dedicate a love of this kind to someone else.
For me it was a constant up and down, they meet and allow their love, they separate and try with all their might to suppress their love for the other. It's a constant battle that just got too boring for me in the end, somehow.
I wish I had someone like that in my life, someone who was like Cornell and Marianne for me.
Isn't that the connection you want when you talk about real love?
Not dependence, but rather a strong connection with the same interests. 
A feeling of knowing each other inside out, liking the same things and never being afraid to say something that would make the other person uncomfortable.
After watching the series, I could feel this emotional bond between the two even better and I wish I could have fully focussed on reading the book at that time.
The combination of both (series and book) is a masterpiece that often made me think and even cry.
The themes of everyday bullying at school and being different and showing feelings as a young man are addressed very well.
Cornell is the popular pupil who would much rather have just one person to talk to about literature and general topics that really interest him. He doesn't care whether he is liked or disliked, but unfortunately there is no in-between for Cornell, he has to choose Marianne completely, and he finds that difficult during his time at school. I still don't understand why he didn't choose her for the Deputy's Ball, and even though he said he never thought about wearing Marianne, he was probably just afraid of the reaction of his classmates and friends.
Marianne has a very tricky family situation, her mother is severely depressed and suffers from an alcohol addiction, which Marianne later accepts through her desperately rich circle of friends during her studies. Her brother is the loser of the family and cannot cope with his sister's sudden change from outsider to popular student. Marianne is rich, has a big house, has a full bank account which pays her tuition fees and yet she would want to swap places with Cornell's family in order to feel really secure. 
She has that feeling with Cornell alone, but not with her own family.
An extraordinarily brilliant series and a phenomenal, profound and remarkable book.
10/10, my second 'u have to read this' book alongside "The Song of the Crayfish".
Ben <33]]> 3.81 2018
author: Sally Rooney
name: Ben
average rating: 3.81
book published: 2018
rating: 5
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Funnily enough, I had never written down my thoughts on Normal People, the book.
Unfortunately, I think the circumstances of reading it affected my review a little and I was reluctant to share my thoughts on it.
It was my summer book, a summer in which I hardly got round to reading and had to start again and again from the beginning. A very emotional book, two people who really only want to love each other, who find it very difficult to dedicate a love of this kind to someone else.
For me it was a constant up and down, they meet and allow their love, they separate and try with all their might to suppress their love for the other. It's a constant battle that just got too boring for me in the end, somehow.
I wish I had someone like that in my life, someone who was like Cornell and Marianne for me.
Isn't that the connection you want when you talk about real love?
Not dependence, but rather a strong connection with the same interests. 
A feeling of knowing each other inside out, liking the same things and never being afraid to say something that would make the other person uncomfortable.
After watching the series, I could feel this emotional bond between the two even better and I wish I could have fully focussed on reading the book at that time.
The combination of both (series and book) is a masterpiece that often made me think and even cry.
The themes of everyday bullying at school and being different and showing feelings as a young man are addressed very well.
Cornell is the popular pupil who would much rather have just one person to talk to about literature and general topics that really interest him. He doesn't care whether he is liked or disliked, but unfortunately there is no in-between for Cornell, he has to choose Marianne completely, and he finds that difficult during his time at school. I still don't understand why he didn't choose her for the Deputy's Ball, and even though he said he never thought about wearing Marianne, he was probably just afraid of the reaction of his classmates and friends.
Marianne has a very tricky family situation, her mother is severely depressed and suffers from an alcohol addiction, which Marianne later accepts through her desperately rich circle of friends during her studies. Her brother is the loser of the family and cannot cope with his sister's sudden change from outsider to popular student. Marianne is rich, has a big house, has a full bank account which pays her tuition fees and yet she would want to swap places with Cornell's family in order to feel really secure. 
She has that feeling with Cornell alone, but not with her own family.
An extraordinarily brilliant series and a phenomenal, profound and remarkable book.
10/10, my second 'u have to read this' book alongside "The Song of the Crayfish".
Ben <33
]]> 55852985 Mit »Der Buchspazierer« präsentiert der renommierte Autor Carsten Henn eine gefühlvolle Geschichte darüber, was Menschen verbindet und Bücher so wunderbar macht. Liebevoll und wertig ausgestattet, ist dieser zauberhafte Roman ein ideales Geschenk für alle Buchliebhaber.

Es sind besondere Kunden, denen der Buchhändler Carl Christian Kollhoff ihre bestellten Bücher nach Hause bringt, abends nach Geschäftsschluss, auf seinem Spaziergang durch die pittoresken Gassen der Stadt. Denn diese Menschen sind für ihn fast wie Freunde, und er ist ihre wichtigste Verbindung zur Welt. Als Kollhoff überraschend seine Anstellung verliert, bedarf es der Macht der Bücher und eines neunjährigen Mädchens, damit sie alle, auch Kollhoff selbst, den Mut finden, aufeinander zuzugehen ��

»Auf dem Rücken trug er einen abgescheuerten alten Lederrucksack, prall gefüllt mit Büchern, jedes davon in Packpapier gehüllt, damit es keinen Schaden nahm. Alle nannten ihn nur den Buchspazierer.«]]> 222 Carsten Henn 3866124775 Ben 5 Mein erstes Buch nach dem Sommer. Ich habe das Buch, besser gesagt die ganze Reihe vom Piper Verlag zugeschickt bekommen und Carsten Henn sogar auf der Buchmesse persönlich treffen, vielen Dank dafür <3.
Ich weiß ich beschriebe viele Geschichten als super süß, aber diese war wirklich mit ganz oben dabei.
So eine barmherzige Story mit tollen Protagonisten. 
Ich bin ein sehr großer Fan von Büchern mit einer tieferen Message, in diesem Buch war es das aussterben von dem Beruf des Buchhändlers.
Vielen Menschen sind Kindes und Hörbücher einfach praktischer, deine Lektüren bekommst du auf Amazone und die meisten Rezensionen
stehen ja eh schon online mit dabei.
Das Buch zeigt, verfasst in eine tolle Geschichte, wie wichtig Menschen wie Carl Kollhoff sind und wie fantastisch es ist, wenn dein Buchhändler dir Bücher empfehlen kann, von denen er weiß, dass sie dir gefallen.
Wie ihr wisst wage ich mich fast nie an andere Genres, daher ist das auch wieder ein soooo unfassbar nettes und schönes Buch, was ich jedem von euch Empfehlen kann.
Ich habe es so schnell verschlungen und bin froh, dass es neben diesem Werk noch zwei weitere gibt, die ich bald mal beginnen werde.
9/10, einfach ein herzliches Buch.
Ben <3]]> 4.22 2020
author: Carsten Henn
name: Ben
average rating: 4.22
book published: 2020
rating: 5
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Der Buchspazierer, Carsten Henn
Mein erstes Buch nach dem Sommer. Ich habe das Buch, besser gesagt die ganze Reihe vom Piper Verlag zugeschickt bekommen und Carsten Henn sogar auf der Buchmesse persönlich treffen, vielen Dank dafür <3.
Ich weiß ich beschriebe viele Geschichten als super süß, aber diese war wirklich mit ganz oben dabei.
So eine barmherzige Story mit tollen Protagonisten. 
Ich bin ein sehr großer Fan von Büchern mit einer tieferen Message, in diesem Buch war es das aussterben von dem Beruf des Buchhändlers.
Vielen Menschen sind Kindes und Hörbücher einfach praktischer, deine Lektüren bekommst du auf Amazone und die meisten Rezensionen
stehen ja eh schon online mit dabei.
Das Buch zeigt, verfasst in eine tolle Geschichte, wie wichtig Menschen wie Carl Kollhoff sind und wie fantastisch es ist, wenn dein Buchhändler dir Bücher empfehlen kann, von denen er weiß, dass sie dir gefallen.
Wie ihr wisst wage ich mich fast nie an andere Genres, daher ist das auch wieder ein soooo unfassbar nettes und schönes Buch, was ich jedem von euch Empfehlen kann.
Ich habe es so schnell verschlungen und bin froh, dass es neben diesem Werk noch zwei weitere gibt, die ich bald mal beginnen werde.
9/10, einfach ein herzliches Buch.
Ben <3
]]> 27362503
Lily hasn’t always had it easy, but that’s never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She’s come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up �� she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true.

Ryle is assertive, stubborn, maybe even a little arrogant. He’s also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily. And the way he looks in scrubs certainly doesn’t hurt. Lily can’t get him out of her head. But Ryle’s complete aversion to relationships is disturbing. Even as Lily finds herself becoming the exception to his “no dating�� rule, she can’t help but wonder what made him that way in the first place.

As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan �� her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened.]]> 386 Colleen Hoover 1668021048 Ben 4 (Even as a boy you can read this book without having to remove the cover)

I didn't know what I was in for, I thought it was going to be another lovely novel that just needed to be finished quickly...but I was pleasantly surprised.
Surprising or how we all would have decided to just go back to Ryle for the sake of the child.
It was at that moment that I realised how important this book and the message it carries is for us.
Millions of women suffer domestic violence and are threatened by their partners every day and 'It ends with us' shows us exactly how difficult it is to get out of this situation.
Financial dependency, "only the best for the child", other people's opinions and many other reasons are responsible for women deciding to seek help.
With this book, Colleen has definitely made a statement against domestic violence in everyday life and shown that these cases happen quite often and unknowingly to other couples.
I especially liked the inclusion of the character Atlas in the story and I think every girl is now raving about a guy like him haha.
9/10, a very good and nice book, with a lot of thought and romance, I'm very excited for part two hihi.
Ben <3

(I have now also signed up for cookery training and become the new Atlas)]]> 4.11 2016
author: Colleen Hoover
name: Ben
average rating: 4.11
book published: 2016
rating: 4
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It ends with us, Colleen Hoover
(Even as a boy you can read this book without having to remove the cover)

I didn't know what I was in for, I thought it was going to be another lovely novel that just needed to be finished quickly...but I was pleasantly surprised.
Surprising or how we all would have decided to just go back to Ryle for the sake of the child.
It was at that moment that I realised how important this book and the message it carries is for us.
Millions of women suffer domestic violence and are threatened by their partners every day and 'It ends with us' shows us exactly how difficult it is to get out of this situation.
Financial dependency, "only the best for the child", other people's opinions and many other reasons are responsible for women deciding to seek help.
With this book, Colleen has definitely made a statement against domestic violence in everyday life and shown that these cases happen quite often and unknowingly to other couples.
I especially liked the inclusion of the character Atlas in the story and I think every girl is now raving about a guy like him haha.
9/10, a very good and nice book, with a lot of thought and romance, I'm very excited for part two hihi.
Ben <3

(I have now also signed up for cookery training and become the new Atlas)
]]> 56732449
That man is none other than Adam Carlsen, a young hotshot professor--and well-known ass. Which is why Olive is positively floored when Stanford's reigning lab tyrant agrees to keep her charade a secret and be her fake boyfriend. But when a big science conference goes haywire, putting Olive's career on the Bunsen burner, Adam surprises her again with his unyielding support and even more unyielding... six-pack abs.

Suddenly their little experiment feels dangerously close to combustion. And Olive discovers that the only thing more complicated than a hypothesis on love is putting her own heart under the microscope.]]> 356 Ali Hazelwood 0593336828 Ben 4 The main factor was probably the writing style and structure, I often really checked who was talking and so on haha oops, maybe it was because I read it in English.
Otherwise a very sweet and sophisticated love story that points out the unfair conditions in the science sector very well.
I already thought that Malcom was a bit weird and was only doing the two of them bad, I should probably keep that in mind. I also found that over the course of the book I had totally forgotten the opening scene due to the many conversations and new storylines, so it was really nice to be reminded at the end that the two of them already "knew" each other back then, and that the boy in the bathroom was Carlsen.
After the book I needed a little love story break haha and somehow I'm not made for these spicy parts and end up slightly "cringed", oops.
An 8.5/10, highly recommended if you want to read a nice romance with added value in the area of "discrimination against women in the science sector".
Ben <33
]]> 4.10 2021
author: Ali Hazelwood
name: Ben
average rating: 4.10
book published: 2021
rating: 4
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I read the book last summer and it really took me some time to get into it.
The main factor was probably the writing style and structure, I often really checked who was talking and so on haha oops, maybe it was because I read it in English.
Otherwise a very sweet and sophisticated love story that points out the unfair conditions in the science sector very well.
I already thought that Malcom was a bit weird and was only doing the two of them bad, I should probably keep that in mind. I also found that over the course of the book I had totally forgotten the opening scene due to the many conversations and new storylines, so it was really nice to be reminded at the end that the two of them already "knew" each other back then, and that the boy in the bathroom was Carlsen.
After the book I needed a little love story break haha and somehow I'm not made for these spicy parts and end up slightly "cringed", oops.
An 8.5/10, highly recommended if you want to read a nice romance with added value in the area of "discrimination against women in the science sector".
Ben <33

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