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This is not a horror but me and addy are reading it now (I will start on Monday) if anyone wants to join you are welcome to.

I'm about 13%. This is pretty intense! What a crappy mother they have. She's lucky the kids have turned out okay, but they definitely had to grow up fast.

Yea, situations like this where the kids have to grow up fast always reminds me of a song lyric I always loved that says

"Feel the pain, feel the joy, of the man who was never a boy"

I think that line fits luchan (did I spell that right?) Hopefully there is much more pain and joy on the way.

I think its lochan...lol. Yes, that line fits him very well.

I will probably hit 25% in the next couple hours. Å·±¦ÓéÀÖ recommended the book Flawed because I was reading this one, I might check it out at some point also.

The one I've been wanting to read is called Hurt. I'll have to check if its at the kindle store.

Who is it by?

Its by Tabitha but its not an eBook:(

Ok, I am at 25%. (view spoiler)[The lines between sibling love and something else have not yet started to get fuzzy but there are some subtle hints at what is going to happen, so far the story is seting up how much they need and rely on each other. That combined with lochan's phobia and the way they are raising their younger siblings as though the two of them are the parents is enough to make the feelings that I know are about to start developing into something else very believable. I can see things getting really really bad for the family as the mother gets more and more distant. Eventually she will probably stop buying food and paying rent, and abandon them completely. (hide spoiler)]

Wow. That whole part where Lochie broke down was very sad. Such responsibility put on his shoulder. I totally agree with everything you said. I am scared for them. Add in emotional feelings with something so taboo, I don't know if things will end well.

Right now no lines have really been crossed into the taboo subject matter so even though I know it is coming, it is not yet effecting how I feel about the characters. I don't know how I am going to feel when it does happen but for now I am just glad they have each other to lean on and share the responsibility that neither of them should have at all, lochans breakdown was bad but it would have been so much worse if it wasn't for maya.

Why do you think Lochie is so alone and doesn't want to integrate himself at school? You think its because he's so mature and busy being a parent?

I don't think he'll leave for college. Most cases I've seen feel guilty and end up taking care of the parent or younger siblings.

Addy wrote: "Why do you think Lochie is so alone and doesn't want to integrate himself at school? You think its because he's so mature and busy being a parent?"

No not at all, it had nothing to do with being mature our busy. It is a phobia, he wants to talk to people but he can't. Even thinking about it makes him break out in a sweat and start shaking and choke on his words before he can get them out. His biggest fear seems to be that his family will be ashamed of him the way he is of his mother, even when he left the pizza place he was worried because he thought he embarrassed his sister and everyone thinks he is weird. He has self esteem issues that are buried in more stress than anyone should have in a life time, that's buried in fear of losing his family and guilt for not being able to fix things. That's a lot to overcome and I think it all plays a role in why he feels the way he does.

Ah I see. That makes sense. I must have missed that somewhere.

35%. Don't wanna stop but have to. Really getting good now!

Yes it is, I am at 37%

Wow. I can't believe it! I mean, what do you do when you like your sister....guess we'll find out!

where are you? I'm almost to 50% I won't check this again until I am there so go ahead and post your thought up to that point whenever you get there.

I'm almost to 40, but I'll have to stop there for today....maybe;)

If you are at 40% Don't stop now! Seriously, just read to 43% it will only take a minute.

I know..lol. I don't know when you posted this but I gotta hit the hay, otherwise I would have, but was reading the fascinating world of Candy ppl. Will get to it tomorrow. Promise!

You stopped right before a very good part. It's ok you did though because when you pick it back up you won't want to put it down. I shut the line down at work tonight because I couldn't put it down long enough to deliver my parts. I'm at 56% and am only stopping because I just feel asleep and dropped my kindle on my face. It kind of woke me up a little but I'm just checking goodreads and my email and I'm going to bed. I'm glad you liked cannibals of candyland, I am going to have to read another of his soon if you want to do another buddy read. Maybe one of his and hurt after these two? Shit I just realized I forgot to send that to you, but I'm about to fall asleep and drop my phone on my face so hopefully I will remember tomorrow. Sorry. Goodnight.

I'm about to start it. Yay! Yes, Hurt and one of Carl's books would be great. Don't worry bout sendin me the book. Whenever you have time is fine.

Im at chapter 17 which is still 56% sorry about going over. Just post your thought when you get there though.

Just got to 43%. Wow! I don't even know what to say...lol. Its funny, how they feel about each other. I mean, now if they continue its going to effect everyone. Its sad too. Idk. They are stuck and its almost like being gay, I guess, in some ways. I gotta continue and find out what happens next.

I'm at 52% and don't really want to stop...lol. I'm enjoying this immensely. Its really starting to get into the meat of it now that they've agreed to pursue this unusual relationship. I can almost feel the frustration at not being able to show your affection in front of everybody, like normal. So what are your thoughts? I might go ahead and reach 60%. Then do u want to work on every day? I figure id work on that and the group read.

I am almost to 75% in every day now but can't wait to get back to this.

Ok. Just let me know when u stop. I'll see if I can continue later.

I am loving this book, I expected to have mixed feelings about it especially when it got intimate but I don't. I just want them to be together and have a happy ending. I like the sneaking around stuff, you mentioned earlier that it is almost like a gay romance and I agree. Part of the reason I love the ya lesbian romance novels I have been reading lately is exactly what I am getting in this book. For me it isn't the thought and worries of what others will think that I enjoy so much as it is just that they have a secret and it is only between them and just feels that much more intimate because no one knows. It takes me back to when I was little and first starting to like girls but didn't want anyone to tease me so I talked about how gross girls where but then snuck off for a kiss when we could. It is the whole "nobody knows but us and that's ok because no one else matters" thing that I enjoy. I wish lochan would stop worrying about what others thing so they could have that.

The bad thing about that kind of relationship is that it can never be anything more than a secret. If anyone finds out they will probably lose there siblings and family is everything to them. I can image ways this can have a happy ending but none of them are realistic.

They can always run off together when the siblings have grown, well, its a dream anyway. But what if they wanted to marry? I don't think they could or even have kids. Its really messed up, but if they were content with just being together in secrecy, I guess that could happen, but not without sacrifices. In the end, I just want them to love each other and be happy. I really hope they can find a way.

I am at 76%. When I get a minute I will post my thoughts on a spoiler tag.

(view spoiler)[ I was disappointed that the book skipped the details of their night together, it made it clear they didn't have sex but did just about everything else. I have been expecting kit to catch them for awhile now and I still think that it will happen, I loved the game they where playing and how happy all of them where together including kit. Maybe that is what will Change his mind back to being happy and wanting to do stuff like that and a result of him being more social with them will lead him to walk in on them on accident or something. I don't think it is over with the social services lady either. There is a possible happy ending here with lochan turning 18 in a month, if he can adopt his siblings the worry of social services will be gone. That is of course as long as no one catches him having sex with maya who will be both his blood sister and legal child, if that happened he would lose them all. His best hope it's to not start staying in maya's room like he just agreed to and keep the relationship quite and slow for another year. He can adopt them when he is 18 and when she turns 18 a year later it won't matter what happens as much. They will still be living with the kids though and the older they get the harder it will be to hide a relationship from them, even if they are both adults and don't get in to much trouble the kids finding out would still be devastating to them, especially lochan who worry's so much about his siblings being ashamed of him and thinking about him the way they do their mom. I hope it ends well but I am going to guess that it don't. What do you think? (hide spoiler)]

Would you want to buddy read Drowning Instinct sometime? It is a different kind of taboo romance that goodreads recommended because I'm reading this one. (Teacher/student)

Oh let me check it out. Sounds good. I have one for you as well. Brb.

Today I'm working on our buddy reads, so I should be able to catch up to you, in fact, I could prob finish these this weekend. I bet you finished them already. I checked out Drowning Instinct and I would love to read it. Let me know what you think about Kingdom of Childhood. Its similar to Drowning Instinct. Its been on my TBR for a while.

Kingdom of childhood looks great. even Better than drowning instinct, so yea I will read both with you. I have 10% left in this one and I am about to finish it, I have been going first with saying what I think of each section just because I am reading faster than you so I will let you go first on the last section which should be the best part to discuss. I am still at 75% in one day.

I am a fan of romance and erotic romance author Selena Kitt. I know she has a few taboo novels but I have mostly ignored them, other than a short story about step siblings called In the Barn which I enjoyed. Reading this novel got me thinking about maybe giving one of her others a shot but Im still not really sure about it since her novels usually focus more on sex than romance and I don't think I would have liked this one as much if it was more about taboo sex than a taboo romance. Anyway though I just got a price drop notification that her taboo box set is on sale for .99 and it includes all her taboo novels as well as some from other authors from her publishing company. I am considering it.

Hmm. I will check it out. The only books I've read that ficus more on sex were the Shades of Gray books....i know everybody hates them, but I actually enjoyed the first 2. The 3rd one I still need to read. Have you ever read The Sleeping Beauty trilogy by Anne Rice? Heard those were good. The Story of O I do have...lol. Pretty racy but it looks interesting. I guess there is also The Story of X and Y too.

Nope I haven't read the shades of grey or sleeping beauty books. I don't know what the Anne rice books are about but I have no interest in the shades of grey series, whips and chains do nothing for me. I don't even like most romances that have a clearly dominant character and a submissive character. My favorite is the Baumgartner series by selena kitt.

Yeah. I think I'm more into personal struggle and romance taboo over sexual taboo myself.

ok I am done, don't read this (view spoiler)[ what the hell was that? That was the stupidest ending ever and I'm not just saying that because it was unhappy, I expected an unhappy ending. If it is a good ending I enjoy unhappy endings sometimes, there is nothing wrong with a good tragedy and that's not why I don't like it. For one thing how did kitt get the mother to come home when they have all been trying that the entire book? Whatever though, I expected them to get caught and they did even if it was under unbelievable circumstances. Next issue is when the hell did they decide to have sex? Don't get me wrong I am glad they did, I loved that part and was happy for them but it was unbelievable. I know all the reasons they decided not to have sex and those where believable but then all of a sudden she asks him if he got the condom and he says yes. What made them change their minds and why was it not written about. I honestly don't believe that they would have changed their minds about it with the fear of the consequences. I do believe that in the heat of the moment they both may have decided to go all the way but I don't believe they would have planned it for one second. Now on to my real problem with the ending, why the fuck would they say he raped her? Because they would both go to jail if it was consensual? Bullshitt!!!!!!! Even if consensual incest does carry jail time there is no way in hell that maya would serve any. She is 16 and not a legal adult! Worst case scenario is that lochan gets charged with statutory rape and incest, but there is no way they would both be arrested. And that's if they said it was consensual, why not get dressed and watch tv and act surprised when the police busted in? Obviously the police would believe that she hadn't just been raped due to the fact she is not curled up in a fetal position somewhere rocking back and forth bawling her eyes out. Tell them that their mother is an alcoholic, so what? They won't be taken away just for that. If they told the police she had abandoned them then yea probably but I doubt they would be taken away over one report of her being an alcoholic. And even if they did get taken away, lochan is 18 now and can be their legal guardian. I said earlier that I could imagine happy ending but they where not believable, well this crap ending was a billion times less believable than any happy ending that I had imagined. (hide spoiler)] until after you post your thoughts.

I'm 80%. I'm glad that they both have found some peace about their relationship, but Lochan seems to have a little doubt in his mind. Now that he's in university, he may change and gain confidence about himself. He's already researching their situation. I guess I'm wondering what this means. My phone's dying...gotta charge it then maybe read a little more.

And everything ends...i had a feeling they would get caught, and by their own mother! How embarassing!!

Are you done then?

No, not yet. Just posting as I go. I will let you know.

Ok. I finished. This is possibly the saddest book I've ever read. I gotta go to some errands. If you want yo go first you can. I'm still in disbelief and reviving because this last part made me cry:( But that's good. I don't think a book has accomplished that in a long time.

See look at all the spelling mistakes I made...lol.