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Hallie wrote: "Here I am trying to figure why anyone would want to look after little kids xD"

Because children's laughter is like music to my ears. I'm not up for babies crying, though. When they do I'm usually torn between coddling them, banging my head, or simply crying along :')

I woke up feeling happy this is so rare and great

Pick yourself up.

But I really need a break from this website

Stress stress stress

Why do I expect people to fully understand stuff all the time

The rain today was beautiful but it would've been better if I weren't in such a hurry and far away from home

I think this world is a beautiful place, sort of

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Good night, world

�Ѳ���͛�� wrote: "But I really need a break from this website"

Take one if you need it. Don't feel bad. I am doing the same, have needed to, and will need to.

Today, my mission was to accomplish my game plan of how to get new members of our group involved instead of being overly confused. I'm testing it on six new people right now XD So please, don't feel bad if you can't RP. I'm trying to make sure that the group will be active, because I might not be able to myself.

Alia [semi-hiatus until 9/1] wrote: "�Ѳ���͛�� wrote: "But I really need a break from this website"

Take one if you need it. Don't feel bad. I am doing the same, have needed to, and will need to.

Today, my mission was to accomplish my ..."

I know, but you know how addictive ŷ������ is, and there are plenty of reasons I find it hard to leave, some even stupid. Well I still have ongoing rps; I know I can pause them anytime but boy does it feel embarrassing when you ask for a break. Plus I don't want to affect others. Also it feels weird when you come back and realize what you've missed. I took a break last year and when I came back the old Hogwarts group was closing down :') This place has also become where I write and brainstorm stuff, which is 70% of what I do everyday, and I don't want to imagine what I'd do without it.

That's so nice, you're a great mod, Alia :) I hope it works out, and I have a feeling it would. It'll be nice to see new faces, plus I think it'll help with the plots greatly if they get involved (although I ain't keeping up with any plots at all but still).

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Best thing ever

Feeling nostalgic

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Guys, it would be awesome if you would sign this! :) and spread the message!




Sorry for posting!

Ahana~ wrote: "Guys, it would be awesome if you would sign this! :) and spread the message!

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Thanks! I'll read it when my vpn works :)

Stop crying

Stop crying

Stop crying

I hope you're alright, Maya. :(

(P.S. I cried last night too. Don't force yourself to stop.)

Alia [semi-hiatus until 9/1] wrote: "I hope you're alright, Maya. :(

(P.S. I cried last night too. Don't force yourself to stop.)"

I'm not feeling ok (yet) but I hope you're doing better than yesterday.

Basically I don't know if I did the right thing. I was on my way home; you know how some people pass around flyers and posters for a job on the street? And how most people ignore them? Well, that's what I usually do because I'm often in a hurry, but today these 2 people stopped me and I thought it wouldn't hurt. I mean, they usually ask for phone numbers and I'd give them a fake one with a fake name because I don't want to receive ads. They work for this massage therapy thing, and I'm telling you I don't need those.

Anyway, I felt like being nice and gave them a fake name and all that, and they gave me this card for the massage thing. Most of the time, people just leave me be, but this pair asked for money for that card. I was like hell no and gave it back, but they refused to take it back and WOULDN'T LET ME LEAVE. As in legit blocked my way on the street and grabbed me. I told them I was in a hurry because I was supposed to be back home and cook dinner for my younger sisters, but they pleaded like there was no tomorrow. I hate it when my heart softens to strangers, but I swear to you this is the first time. I kept on saying no, that I refused to pay and I didn't want the card, and they tried to reason with me (while cornering?)

One woman pleaded like there was no tomorrow, and she literally started CRYING in front of me, which made me want to cry too, because I know how she feels like. The other girl looked the same age as me. Of course I thought they could be faking it, I mean I'm not stupid but I know how hard it is to earn money, and I cry almost everyday because I could've gone to university last year but instead I have to try again this year due to like 10 reasons. So yeah, I know how she feels like. Anyway, in the end I gave the money for the card. It was 10 Yuan, which is approximately 1.5 Dollars. I don't think it's very much at all, but it felt really weird giving it to them. I just knew I would get in huge trouble when I arrived home.

Honestly, I don't really care, because I would definitely cry if I felt hopeless. But I wanted to get home asap, because my younger sisters were home alone and they weren't answering my texts, and I was super worried and all that. Also I was worried they were starving. So I told them the reason why I was idk detained for 20 extra minutes and told them about the money thing, and one of them (the middle child) got super mad, and she was video calling her friend, so she yelled at me in front of everyone, plus 10 different swear words. And I could tell her friend agreed with her and was trying not to laugh. It sounds really stupid, but I was already feeling guilty and irritated because I do everything for my sisters and one of them never appreciates it, and has no trouble leaving bruises on my skin, if you know what I mean.

My dad hasn't come home yet, but I don't want him to get mad just because I gave away 10 Yuan. I'm torn between feeling good or bad, because I probably made those 2 girls feel slightly happier, but my family wouldn't appreciate it. I haven't been feeling well for days, so I guess this just added up and I had a breakdown. Maybe I shouldn't tell him at all. I don't think I'm stopping for these people again.

I'm the dumbest person I know.

Maya I'm sorry for intruding but I just wanted to say I'm really sorry about what happened :( I get what you mean about feeling bad for people selling stuff and my brother isn't exactly the greatest at times either. But I just want to say you're a great sister for taking care of them, even if they don't reciprocate. Even if your dad gets mad or those girls were faking it, I choose to believe what comes goes and it is your goodwill that matters. When you helped, you were being kind and you had the best intentions. If they weren't cheating you, you just helped someone likely to be having a hard time and I think you should be proud of that. And if they were cheating you, they are the ones that lost their integrity, while you cultivated kindness. If your sister is actually being abusive though, is there anyone you can tell? I straight up would have let her starve if I were you tbh :/

(PS Maya is not dumb)

Jingle, perhaps I shouldn't tell my dad at all. But then my sister would, and I was stupid enough to choose to be honest. Also, the 2 girls wouldn't let me leave by grabbing me when I tried to push past, and I'm not sure if 'cornering' is the right word but I'll go with it. (I kind of freaked out) I'm trying to believe I did the right thing, though. As for my sister, would it be weird if I told you my dad knows? My parents never do/did anything about it, because they think it's 'sibling fight'. I think not. My youngest sister is literally so scared of her, she refuses to leave the room sometimes. Or maybe it's because the other sister pulls her back in when she bolts and tries to tell my dad (when I'm not home). That's what she tells me when we're alone, which is almost never. I don't know why my younger sister does it, but she has a bad temper. It's strange how I never hit back, because I'm sure I'll win the fight, but injure her in the process. But thank you :)

Honestly speaking, the girls grabbing you on the street counts as harassment right there. I really don't want to know how bad the situation could have gotten and it's seriously not your fault for have panicked or given them the 10 yuan. I was trying to be positive by saying either way you were being kind, but in the future if you even think this might happen I suggest legitimately running. As for your middle sister, I'm really sorry Maya :( Have you tried directly telling your parents she is hurting the both of you and that it's not just a squabble? I don't know enough about the situation, but this sounds like abuse and she needs to know that it's not tolerated, for both you or your younger sister. You don't necessarily have to hit her back, but I think you should stand up to her.

I'm sorry you have to hear me rant :( I just know I won't make that mistake again, or I'll try not to. There were so many things I could've done but I just didn't say no. Well the sibling situation has gotten slightly better for the past month, and I'm telling you I've tried telling my parents. I stand up to her too, and I defend myself, but whenever I try to make her see what is right and wrong (I've been doing this for years), she either ignores me or tells me how pathetic I sound. It doesn't make any sense. Do you know how tiring it is when you raise your voice at someone only for them to scream bloody murder =____=

I hereby declare that Hallie's no sorry rule is in effect even on other threads. XP But really, it's no trouble and I seriously feel you. Every time I get into what could be an inkling of a disagreement with my brother he riles up and out the swear words come (and he wonders why I ignore him). And when you want to raise your voice to retaliation you start to cry instead. I think it's good you're standing up to her though, I'm sorry your parents aren't stepping in :( Have you tried the silent treatment? (view spoiler)[I'm sorry you had to go through it too Mays :( Exactly though like why do people put up with it (hide spoiler)]

(PS Alice in Wonderland and Peter Pan!!!)

Okay okay :P Exactly, I swear the tears come from nowhere. Also, they don't make sense because technically we aren't wrong but we still cry anyway. I kind of just talked to my dad about her, but it's no use. I also told him about the money thing, and he's not mad *dabs forehead* and told me to either run or tell them I'm calling the police. I think I'd run. The silent treatment works half of the time, but I can't be silent if she's targeting my other sister, that's the thing. (view spoiler)[Well it's over now, thank goodness. I just wonder why people enjoy making others feels so small, what kind of twisted satisfaction does that give? (hide spoiler)]

(Yesss!! I felt nostalgic yesterday and the Disney vibe was also back. Plus I love both so much xD)

My rules are being implemented xP Maybe I could take over the world now.

*Melanie Martinez's Cry Baby playing in the background* But it's great that your Dad's not mad :) Also dang it I see :( (view spoiler)[Exactly, I'm glad it's over. I think these people are mostly ignorant and insecure, sometimes I even feel sorry for them. (hide spoiler)]

(Peter Pan has made me cry multiple times I feel like I'm truly appreciating these things only when I realise I've "grown up". Like I want to go back please :( ))

Hallie wrote: "My rules are being implemented xP Maybe I could take over the world now."

I expect to wake up and see a "Hallie rules the world" banner outside my window xD

Jingle ❀�� wrote: "Hallie wrote: "My rules are being implemented xP Maybe I could take over the world now."

I expect to wake up and see a "Hallie rules the world" banner outside my window xD"

That isn't a good thing, though.

Hallie wrote: "Jingle ❀�� wrote: "Hallie wrote: "My rules are being implemented xP Maybe I could take over the world now."

I expect to wake up and see a "Hallie rules the world" banner outside my window xD"

That..."

I don't think there's going to be any harm :) but I vote free books as a new law

Jingle ❀�� wrote: "*Melanie Martinez's Cry Baby playing in the background* But it's great that your Dad's not mad :) Also dang it I see :( [spoilers removed]

(Peter Pan has made me cry multiple times I feel like I'm..."

Melanie Martinez! (view spoiler)[It's just sad how people sometimes make things more complicated than what they are, instead of supporting each other when feeling insecure. Ignorance isn't always a bliss :/ (hide spoiler)]

Is it just me or is Peter Pan an actual tearjerker. It touches a nerve every time xD Honestly I can't imagine myself not ever behaving like a kid in the future