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Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Not finished!!!!
Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Kavy who stole it from Jay

I'm in a terrible mood ..."

I was on my phone too when I did it XD also I was in class XD

Hallie wrote: "I hate myself. I just hate myself!

I'm so stupid! I'm so dumb! I'm so ugly - on the inside as well.

I wish someone would just kill me! I wish I was dead!

I hate me!"

Hallie you are NOT stupid you are NOT dumb and you are NOT ugly, I love you so much

❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Not finished!!!!
Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Kavy who stole it from Jay

I'm in a..."

How did you manage???? You're great!!!

❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I hate myself. I just hate myself!

I'm so stupid! I'm so dumb! I'm so ugly - on the inside as well.

I wish someone would just kill me! I wish I was dead!

I hate me!"

Hallie you ..."

Yes, I am! I am! I am!

Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Not finis..."

I just tapped my chin again the keys on my phone, I have an iPhone XD

Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I hate myself. I just hate myself!

I'm so stupid! I'm so dumb! I'm so ugly - on the inside as well.

I..."

No you're not! You're not You're not!!! You're not!! You're not!!!!

❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wr..."

Moto E here! I'll have to try it someday xD

❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I hate myself. I just hate myself!

I'm so stupid! I'm so dumb! I'm so ugly - on the ins..."

Yes, I am! I am! I am!

Killing Hallie

If anyone from here is planning to attend my funeral which won't be very far from today, well, Hallie used to love roses when she was still alive. That is if anyone cares.

I don't see one legitimate reason why I have to live anymore. My parents hate me, my brother hates me, my teachers hate me, my friends despise me, I hate me.

Sometime in the future, if I'm still alive, I'll wonder why I even starting cutting myself. And just so that I don't have to be puzzled then, I'll write down the name of the main person: my mother. Yes, the woman who "underwent tremendous pain to have me". All she knows is break me! I'm trying to eat, and she comes and start talking about how to study, what to study, when to study and everything about study study and study. She doesn't care at all! I've been an emotional wreck since December - three whole months, and she's now killing me. She doesn't listen when I'm talking to her and then says that I don't listen to her. Why would I listen to her preposterous words?! I know my school and my textbooks a lot better than she does. And she actually dares to say that she struggled to teach me. Rubbish!

Okay, so she doesn't want to listen to me, fine. She won't let me talk to my brother either. My brother can be a jerk at times, and doesn't listen to anything that anyone says after he changes his clothes. I usually tell him what happened at school when he is changing his clothes so that he would listen, and now she butts in and tells me to go study. I swear I'm going to throw all my books at her. Next time she comes and asks my help for the dishes or laundry or anything, she'll have it. Wait, she'll have it when I grow up and get a job. When she's old, she'll have to come to either me or my brother, and if he wants to take care of her, then good. If not, don't expect me to invite her to my home and give her cookies. Off you go elsewhere, Mum!

Call me ungrateful, call me heartless or whatever you want - I'm not going to do a thing for someone who says that I'm a worthless nincompoop, and wishes that my best friend was her daughter instead of me.

Let my best friend take care of her because I certainly am not going to do that!

Oh, and before finishing this off, I'm killing any one of these - the life in me or my past self. That cheerful girl who once wanted to mention her parents' names while she collected the Nobel Prize is going to turn into a monster beyond recognition. Or I'm going to spray insect repellent in my mouth.

I'm not going to wear a mask. I'm just going to break the mask that presented myself as a relatively soft person.

Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princes..."

XD

Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I hate my..."

No you are not

❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wr..."

Yes, I am!

No you are not!!!

The Unpracticed Song

So tomorrow I have a party at school, and we might be allowed to sing or do some performance there. I was thinking of singing from Victorious.

However, the problem is that I have a very bad voice, nor do have any control over tuning it right. Besides, I don't have any practice of this song, and have to learn the lyrics overnight. The latter is possible, but I don't know if I'll be able it sing well :/

GO FOR IT HALLIE!! YOU CAN DO THIS!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!

❄️Princess Kavy of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "GO FOR IT HALLIE!! YOU CAN DO THIS!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!"

Well, I didn't sing on stage.

Shine, firstly *hugs*. Secondly, I'm actually furious that you have to deal with that as well :/ What I hate more than me getting hurt is that my friends getting hurt. Both of us know just how painful it is to be misunderstood, and I hate the fact that you know it, too. I'd rather if you were oblivious to it. I'm so sorry you have to deal with it as well :(

*hugs both sis and Hallie* We're all in this together

*hugs Kavy and Shine, and begins to cry*

*keeps hugging Hallie*

*SQUISH HUGS MY ASGARDIAN SISTERS*

Why I think I should drop dead right now

Sometime in February, I made my mum go back home from school in the morning to fetch me some white sheet. So while I was waiting for her (she took an awfully long time!), my classmates figured that I had forgotten something. When they came to know what it was, they said, "You could have asked someone here! We'd give you! Your mother wouldn't have to run around then!" And I replied, "Let me run." Well, I actually snarled. Here's the reason why I like doing things like that to me mother: she drives me insane! She is one of the reasons why I want to kill myself! As much as I hate being malevolent about her, this is me we're talking about, and I'm sick of people taking advantage of me.

I have this huge pimple developing in the tip of my nose. It's gross and annoying, but hey, I didn't all for it. So I suggested that I could try putting some honey on it when I go to bed, and that woman mocked me! She said, "And then ants will come and eat your nose away seeing something sweet!" I got so mad at her. And then she kept teasing me saying that I have a red bulb on my nose! Even now, every time she looks at me she starts laughing.

Some mother.......

I'm just adding all of this up so that when I grow older, I can say: "Mother? What's that?"

Yep, that's how disgusted I am with her. She might be kind and friendly and much soft than other mothers, but thanks to her and the rest of the people in my life, I've often wished that I was an orphan. I know I shouldn't be saying this, but that's how much I have to digest everyday.

Shine and Kavy, want some chocolate? It helps keep the Dementors away ;D

CHOCOLATE!

Please don't die. You would end up at SHEILD hospital.

Hallie wrote: "Why I think I should drop dead right now

Sometime in February, I made my mum go back home from school in the morning to fetch me some white sheet. So while I was waiting for her (she took an awful..."

*hugs*

Hallie wrote: "Shine and Kavy, want some chocolate? It helps keep the Dementors away ;D"

CHOCOLATE btw guys remember this, anytime you are sad, that means the dementors are near by *grabs wand*

Here's the chocolate :) I don't like chocolate, and it never works for me, so you can have all of them

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "CHOCOLATE!

Please don't die. You would end up at SHEILD hospital."

*blinks and wonders what SHEILD hospital is but if it's bad, Hallie doesn't mind going*

SHIELD Hospital is where the Avengers would help their people. Dr. Hulk and Thor are very good at reviving their patients.

Oh, then I don't want to go! I want to go for good!

I feel so lonely :(

49 views, and I've got about 5 people commenting on my journal

Wish That Will Never Come True

I saw a couple of other people do this, and it seemed like tons of fun. Apparently I'm not entitled to have any fun, so I'm pretty sure I can never do this.

I've always wanted to have a group journal: where more then one person records events in their lives. Sometimes they add questions that each of them answer, too. It'd be lovely to do that!

I'd love to do it here, but here's the problem: I have too little close friends. I barely even know the people here. I know Kavy, Shine, Sara, Jingle and Evelyn to a small extent. And they have better and closer friends than me, so well, I doubt they'd want to do it. I'm saying this openly without even asking them about it while they're still in the group ;P

*sighs*

HI HALLIE!

Hallie wrote: "Wish That Will Never Come True

I saw a couple of other people do this, and it seemed like tons of fun. Apparently I'm not entitled to have any fun, so I'm pretty sure I can never do this.

I've al..."

I want to do this Hallie!!

I freaked when I saw three people comment here at a time!

Hi Skye (you're here too????) and Shine! :) Welcome back to my mundane journal.

Kavy, really??? Oh, and I showed one of your pictures to my best friends, and they said that you look pretty. They also told that your graphics were awesome! :)

I do wish I could it. It'd be fun!

I just realised that now I have 54 views. Strange.... Maybe they accidentally clicked this topic.

"These shallow waters, never met
What I needed
I'm letting go
A deeper dive
Eternal silence of the sea
I'm breathing
Alive

~ Faded, Alan Walker

Word of the day

Insouciant: (Adjective)
Showing a casual lack of concern.

Hallie wrote: "I freaked when I saw three people comment here at a time!

Hi Skye (you're here too????) and Shine! :) Welcome back to my mundane journal.

Kavy, really??? Oh, and I showed one of your pictures to ..."

Yep!!! it would be fun!! and *blushes* tell your friends I said thank you. whenever someone compliments me, I kind of get embarrassed XD but I say thanks XD

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I freaked when I saw three people comment here at a time!

Hi Skye (you're here too????) and Shine! :) Welcome back to my mundane journal.

Kavy, really??? Oh, and I showed one of yo..."

Oh!!! Could we do it then????

Haha sure, Kavy! xD I get embarrassed rather fast, too, but you know me - I'll say that I'm not actually as good as they think.

XD I get embarrassed easily!! XD

xD That isn't a bad thing, though! :)

My Attempt With Pictures

I love graphic designing; I love computers. I love fooling around with pictures, how pretty templates other people make. I sort of envy them because I absolutely suck at that. Not only am I incapable of doing awesome stuff like that, but also I can't do anything because I don't have my own laptop, and I can't download any softwares on the house computer or my brother's laptop. And mostly, I have to do it on my phone, and this phone is too, let's say, not good enough to install new apps.

However, today, I gave it another shot just for fun. I don't know about the spacing and all since I'm on the phone, but this is what my introduction post has in it:





Crappy, isn't it? Gosh, why am I so terrible at it?!

Word of the day

Besmirch: (Verb)
To cause harm or damage to

"I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter"

~ In The End, Linkin Park

Hallie wrote: "
"I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter"

~ In The End, Linkin Park
"

I LOVE THAT SONG

❄️Princess K (Kavy) of Books and music ❄️~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "
"I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter"

~ In The End, Linkin Park
"

I LOVE THAT ..."

I LOVE IT TOO!!! LINKIN PARK IS REALLY GOOD!!!

IKR!! LINKIN PARK IS AWESOME

EXACTLY!!! YAY!!! Finally someone who likes Linkin Park! My friends in real life are hopeless :/ They "don't know Linkin Park" even though I told them to listen to 'Numb' at least 1000000000000000 times!