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At times I feel as though

There is this beast inside me

I can feel his claws ripping through my throat

I want to scream, but I'm choking on my own blood

I can't breathe due to this weight on my chest

Depression at first carrying him on my back

When he asked a friend could join

I could not refuse

So along came anxiety

Quiet and small

I almost forgot it was there

Until when I got tired of carrying depression

My knees weak and my limbs heavy

Then it struck

Out of nowhere little anxiety was a beast

A monster set to devour me whole

It grew to a point where I could take no more

Two had joined our party

Now five strong

Depression and anxiety brought along two

Anger and suicidal turning me into a ticking time bomb

I am afraid of love

But I need to be embraced

And along came another

I had trust issues to spare

That's how this story goes from cover to end

So go on call me those names real quick

They'll just add to the list

I keep in my head

I do not write in rhyme

For I, not a reason

Unless of course, it rhymes with treason

Some nights I cant sleep at all

And the shadows come to play

No matter how many times I tell them to go away

"I'm terrified of the dark! Please play another day!"

As my thin body shakes and spasms from lack of sleep

Everyone is worried

Perhaps it's all a facade

The fact that they want me to stay

Maybe all I really want is a night of eternal sleep

To wake never more

And deal with this beast

That's tearing me apart in two with such a great force

You always tell me my hands are as cold as the dead

Maybe because inside

I've finally got to rest.