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Hey its Music :D
So ive been Bullied for a while now.... probably a few years.
Yesterday 1/30/12 was the first snap on record of me. Where I cursed and was really mad.
I am mostly called names
Most of my bully's say
"Oh get over it. It was a Joke."

Suicide Ran through my head over and over durring the snap

I thought of cutting....

Chat with the Bully LAWL...

Me: ______(bully) your still a bully in my eyes -.-

Bully: Shut up you wernt present for all the sh*t i was given by other people

ME: you still made fun of me

Bully: Well you know its
Practicly the one thing thats sets me off is wjen your own friends say "you date wh**es" or "your gf is a ***"!!! Do you know how much i was critisized because of me liking _____ [girl he likes]?!? I bet not and now _____ [Girl he likes BF] gives me shot because hes dating her and practicly hangs it over my head that he is!!


Me: O___O then find an outlet that isnt insulting me
for me its simply cranking my music... and being alone.. Music for me is a remedy, to everything

I will stand up for anyone if they believe in things I believe in
I've thought of it never have

O_o I've need thought as suicide as selfishness...
I won't, I still want to meet you :P

Hmm that's an interesting point, I'll have to think about my opinion
Well I've finally found out why people do it
We should face book with my alias since you can message it with out being friends ^-^

The big one, people are trying to escape the bully
I'm the runner of the page for here
I'm going to be on YouTube, I made a fake account so I could get feedback from fans
My mom won't let me realse my name

Alex [Dreaming Electric Dreams] wrote: "...do you mean you run the Facebook page for this group?
Give me a link to your youtube account and your facebook account. I'll check you out. :)"

xD ok, the yourube starts soon
ill friend you

If you want on fb look up
Neal REaper
If a blonde kid come up that's me

Has anyone heard of 'sing it for Skye' its about this girl who got beat up I death because she likes My Chemical Romance.
It's so sad what bullying does to people.

Alex [Dreaming Electric Dreams] wrote: "Beyond Birthday *Music* wrote: "If you want on fb look up
Neal REaper
If a blonde kid come up that's me"

Hey, I found you and I would add you but my mom doesn't really like it when I add people fr..."

Its okay :D

Home work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD::::::::::::

for me just monday d:

same with monday
well i had a date... not anymore, she has a bad schudule so we are doing a call

she likes me, so i get points :D
Yes

We've done a lot of texting, do at times I had red flags going
" I'd this real or a prank" it was a number I've alwas had for her but it worked out

Because we rarely talk. I just don't really talk

Beyond Birthday *Music* wrote: "same with monday
well i had a date... not anymore, she has a bad schudule so we are doing a call"

(Not to interupt or anything) Aw, you guys going to set another date?

probely


Okay so one of the BVB fan pages posted this. At the end of this i could feel my heart pounding because I almost was driven to the point. My snapping point is when im so mad it turns into depression bassicly, and I have considered this. It scares me that people have followed through with it. I havent cried in forever, well atleast not physically. Instead i feel my heart pounding within my chest.

Beyond Birthday *Music* wrote: "probely


Okay so one of the BVB fan pages posted this. At the end of this i could feel my heart pounding because I almost was driven to the point. My snapping point is when im so mad it turns into..."

You okay?

yeah, i just had to say that

Okay.

but i have been to the breaking point

What counts is you are here and you didn't do anything.

Almost did

But you DIDN'T

I know

That's what counts :)

I know, but i did get into major despression. I got into it pretty deep again on Friday i think

Well you need to come back out. (Yes I know it isn't as simple as that, been there done that)

I'm lossing feelings as a potential couple for Adriana. I think I should just tell her that I would rather help her with her family. I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way now

Okay.

D: i feel bad for her

Why?

because i broke her heart

How did that happen?

She liked me... and i liked her, i just lost the feeling and her day was bad appearntly

Oops, you two okay?

i broke up with her, never went up on a date
she knows im still there for her

Okay......

I feel bad now

Don't, you had to choose between breaking a girls heart and leading her on.

I know, i already made a promise to a friend telling her i wouldnt play with hearts

Good, girls like guys who won't lead them on.

i tell iy to them straight

That's a good way to be, just be careful because you might get smacked for being truthful oneday.

xD I know

Does anyone have any good escapes I could use? I just need to vanish from my life and just get everything off my mind.... i cant just start over, I know i should drop the past and things that happened yesterday... But its hard to forget when you go through **** and then the next day the pain is worse because you have the feeeling out being scared due to **** and then the pain of today. My friend igrored ME and no one else because she was in a bad mood.

I have 4 maybe 5 friends who actually care about me.. The rest I've grown away from
The rest tease/bully me as a joke
It seems like the 4or5 five will leve soon
2 at a min are going to a different hs
..... I don't like this senario...