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“I try to hide my sappiness, but Gray sees all, like a business-casual Eye of Sauron.”
― Riley Nash, And All Their Stars

“Maybe none of us can be saved. Or maybe, like Werner said, I’ve been handed the key to saving everyone. Because Victor was right. Trying to fix lost causes has always been my thing. All of them except myself.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“He drinks up the lie like a plant in the desert, nodding as if a few extra years of life gives me some kind of power to make the world a safe place.”
― Riley Nash, Make Me Fall

“That’s what this is. He orchestrated a job offer and lost his case and somehow sprained my wrist all in an elaborate plot to get out of his promise to wear jeans. I wouldn’t put it past him.”
― Riley Nash, Make Me Fall

“Maybe fate is recursive—the mention of fate can, itself, be fate, signposting the steps our unlikely journeys take through the universe. Or maybe fate is a word people invoke to manipulate those who are desperate for meaning.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I was put on this earth to ruin your life,â€� he breathes in my ear. “Fucking right.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“If this is it, what’s your biggest regret?â€� He barely thinks about it at all. “Being born.â€� My grip on him tightens. “That’s awful.â€� “Do you want me to lie to you?”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“I wish, as I disappear into the darkness, that I didn’t live in a world where the only way not to hurt was to shut everything out and live among your dreams.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“As we walk back toward Ethan and Victor, a melancholy part of me wonders whether Gray is in my dream right now or if I’m in his. Which one of us is going to wake up and realize none of this was ever real. I hope it’s me, because sometimes I think I’m a little bit stronger than him.”
― Riley Nash, Make Me Fall

“All this is mine to keep alive, so that his girl can have her dragon cake. It’s a heavy weight.”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“I missed you so fucking much,â€� he whispers. Then we’re kissing so hard it’s not about lips anymore, just tongues and moans and the fracturing of our breath as Ollie and Jax do this for the first time and Oliver and Jackson do it for the last.”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“I’m gone, dangerously gone. I can’t come back from this. Even if we break up, even if I never see him again, some part of me will forever be stuck on the moment where Gray Freeman remembered my hand.”
― Riley Nash, Make Me Fall

“Sometimes, when you open the door of a cage after so many years, the wild thing inside is more afraid to be free than it was to be caged. All I can do is sit next to the door and wait.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Everything’s good.â€� It’s always been a lie, but sometimes the truth does more harm.”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“On paper, none of this works—a boy and a man, the sun and the moon, things that aren’t supposed to touch. Neither of us are ready. It feels like reversing the tide,”
― Riley Nash, Make Me Fall

“I’m going to crack soon; I can always feel the rage coming. When metal scrapes against metal again and again, it makes sparks. And you can only throw so many sparks into dry tinder before something ignites.”
― Riley Nash, Bad Dogs

“When I destroy things, people hear me.”
― Riley Nash, Bad Dogs

“I think I finally found my princess, Mom. He’s six and a half feet tall, grumpy as hell, and talks dirty as sin.”
― Riley Nash, Make Me Fall

“He let go of me. I’m standing here with my hands empty. But it’s okay. I’ve been preparing myself for this since he grinned and touched my hand and said he wanted to make me a sweater.”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“It’s the first time I’ve really smelled him, and something about the scent of his skin sets off a tidal wave of endorphins–words like safe and mine, feelings”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“You scared?â€� He’s smirking at me. “You seem like a sensitive guy.â€� “Are you? You let every single one of these people down.â€� “That sounds like a them problem.â€� He pats my knee. “If you’re looking for my conscience, you’re about ten years too late.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“He stands behind me and rests one elbow on my shoulder. He’s always so strong and stable, like he’s anchored solidly to this earth, like he could keep me from floating away.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I don’t think I’m ever going to kiss someone again. But if I had, maybe it would have been right here, right now, just like this.”
― Riley Nash, Make Me Fall

“I still don’t fully understand what makes someone lust after another person’s body. But I love his because it holds the person I want so badly, keeps him safe and gives him life. Lets me touch him. “What have you done to me, Oliver?”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“Maybe I’m an idiot, going half my life without wanting anyone, then falling so hard and so fast for a person I barely know. But he smells like everything I’ve never had, and he feels like home, and he makes sense out of the broken parts of me I’ve been carrying around for thirty fucked-up years. I don’t know what else I could possibly do. Until I remember that forgetting is how I’ve stayed alive this long, and I’m never going to be able to forget this.”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“And maybe I’m doing this just to humiliate him, but deep down I want to know if being hurt by someone who hates you makes cleaner, sharper wounds than the hideous scars love leaves behind.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“One more memory finds me as I drift off, one that I didn’t know existed–the moment each night after Jackson thought I was asleep, when he’d warm his cold nose in the nape of my neck. The tears that have been stuck behind my eyes for days finally release, soaking into the flannel, just a few muffled, hiccupping sobs in the silence. Without him, I’m lost. And without me, wherever he is, he’s cold.”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“I can’t remember what you smelled or sounded like anymore. My dreams remember, but they won’t tell me. I’m gonna have to start dating eventually, because I’ve heard “but Megan needs a momâ€� so many times I want to tattoo it on my forehead so people will shut up about it. Maybe I’ll send you a family photo when I find The One. You can hang it on your fucking fridge.
Fuck you, Jackson.
Fuck you for walking away without giving me a choice.
I hate you. Oliver”
― Riley Nash, Show Me Wonders

“Don’t turn around. Don’t touch me. Don’t speak. Don’t go. Fall asleep between me and the door. Give me your dreams, the dreams of someone who has never done anything wrong. You tasted good. You sounded even better. But I’m not what you deserve. I just needed to make sure you’d stay here, between me and the door. And I don’t know any other way to ask. Sometime in the night, you climb out of bed and put on a shirt, some shorts. I watch you go, because I’m not asleep, and I expect you to leave. Maybe for good. Maybe, after everything I’ve done, it was this that drove you away. But you don’t leave. You pull back the sheet and climb in next to me. No one ever comes back for me. Until you.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Catching sight of him is becoming an obsession; when I look at him, I see something bright, a flame I can use to burn us to the ground.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under