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April 20, 2019

New London Day Article

Of the rainy morning, drinking my coffee: heavy cream and coconut sugar. I am thinking about the week passed.





Due to PR efforts for the that Sabin is sculpting, about me in The New London Day. Perhaps now it’s the The Connecticut Day.





The writer, Lee Howard, no relation to my husband, wrote a wonderful article about my participation in the WWI Memorial as a model in the relief. Howard is a skilled writer and the piece is lovely–warmly written and respectful. He quoted me correctly. He portrayed me with both kindness and some playfulness.





I particularly liked that he quoted what I said about appearing in Sabin’s amazing relief:





“All told, it’s pretty cool,� she said. “Perhaps (someday) one of my great-great-great-great-great-great-great-grandchildren will stand in front of the relief and look at my face and feel our connection.�










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Published on April 20, 2019 06:14

March 5, 2019

Medium Article and YouTube Video

Of late I support my husband sculptor on his journey. He’s embarked on a grand adventure: he’s the sculptor for the National WWI Memorial that will be set in Washington DC.





Sculptor Sabin Howard



Sometimes it feels as if my life has been taken over by Sabin’s mandate. Other times, I think I’m fulfilling an old contract…one that he and I negotiated in the , when we were deciding to come together during this life for our lessons and our love.





One of my favorite astrologers told me that I was in a progressed waning Moon cycle, and that feels about right. The light will return to me. Just not yet.









In the meantime, I’m happy to write about my talented husband. I’m proud of his work! I’m proud of him. Check out my article in Medium about . It’s about what happens when the ancient art of sculpting in clay collides with the newest digital technology.





Here’s a video I did on YouTube about Sabin working on the new maquette:













Moreover, we received word that our book was happily ensconced in the Watson Library of the Metropolitan Museum of Art, which delighted me, indeed. Sabin and I worked together to write this photo-essay of classical figurative sculpture through the ages, and it was independently published. Take that, Phaidon and Taschen!





Until soon, salve!


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Published on March 05, 2019 08:09

February 3, 2019

New Article on Medium about The 64th Viennese Opera Ball

So I have posted a , a site I’ve never used before, about my experiences at the 64th Viennese Opera Ball.


I was invited by a dear friend who’s an Austrian Countess.


What a gorgeous gala! Filled with music, song, fashion, and delectable food. Not to mention the fascinating people I encountered.

I loved the ball and enjoyed myself immensely. It was the most beautiful pageantry! It was truly a treat and I recommend it.




Read all about it on .






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Published on February 03, 2019 15:15

January 30, 2019

Asanas, a poem by Traci L. Slatton

ASANAS
by Traci L. Slatton



My hat warned of twisting postures
breathlessness
an old rag, really, but after a quarter century
imbued with my fondness.
It was suddenly gone, vanished
as if it had never been yet it was
full of my cranium, and my hair, and various
dreams that had rattled through while it wore me


A pair of sunglasses featured
in favorite photos, me kissing my little daughter
growing in front of my eyes
asking to board away at a distant school
posing
next to my friend the blonde Countess
she of evanescent visits

All that is
transient
even my yoga
studio closed, the community
and the classes I enjoyed
the shala of my heart
a pair of suede boots my husband bought me. Will I ever find
them again?
all that is
ephemeral
like the close touch of a mate who has shed
himself
over another woman,
younger than me,
and that faith misplaced
along with haberdashery and footwear and other
miscellany, even people.


Another warrior, a longer dog, a deeper backbend
to open my heart.
I move through until the body trembles denying
myself reprieve.
It is loss that is union.




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Published on January 30, 2019 10:34

December 21, 2018

Best of 2018 by Traci L. Slatton

Best of 2018



2018 was a helluva year. This is my personal, highly idiosyncratic take on the Best of 2018. I hope you enjoy the list and I hope it inspires you.





Best Movie: . I cried like a baby at the end. Love always contains loss, love and loss nest inside each other like Russian matryoshka dolls. And how great was the music?





Best Book I read: The Seven Principles for Making Marriage Workby , PhD. This was a tough choice, I read a lot of great books. I’ll mention 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos; The Coddling of the American Mind; John Medina’s Brain Rules; and � Win Bigly. Oh, and I’ve been working my way through Daniel Kahneman’s Thinking Fast and Slow. In the end, I chose the book that resonated most deeply for the way of the human heart. Dr. Gottman’s work is amazing, and he rocks!





Best Song: Shallow, Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper. I mean, right?!?!





Best TV Show: The Big Bang Theory. I’m binge-watching. I keep plunking down the $ on Amazon Prime for each season. It just makes me happy to snuggle up with my husband at night and watch a few episodes–giggling at my own inner nerd as much as at Sheldon, Leonard, and the gang. “Math, science, history, unraveling the mystery…�





Best Place to Visit: . A world heritage site. Awe-inspiring grandeur. And after a day of hiking up and down the mountains, you get to eat Italian food! How great is that?





Best Restaurant in Manhattan: The Fairway Cafe. The service is spotty, the noise rattles the windows, and the food is tasty. Go for the yummy eats, not the ambiance. It’s New York for New Yorkers.





Cutest Grandson: Mine. ❤






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Published on December 21, 2018 18:52

October 25, 2018

My Article in Quillette Magazine: Art, Commerce, and Vision

published my article on why artists aren’t necessarily leftist: “Art, Commerce, and Vision.�


If you don’t know , check it out! It’s an online platform for free speech.



Here’s what I wrote my friends:



I am delighted to send you my article on Quillette Magazine. It’s about why artists aren’t necessarily Left-wing. I write about Sabin and his work and broach, yes, the question of what real art is. Hint: “Real art is the product of the personal, human vision of the artist� Beauty, excellence, and the artist’s skill matter.�

If you don’t know Quillette Magazine, I recommend it. Quillette is a platform for free-thinking. It’s one of the very few places taking on current controversies in a thoughtful way. Please consider becoming a Patron of this extraordinary venue.

One note. If you follow my twitter feed, @tracilslatton, you will see that I follow, like, and retweet some Twitter users who are much further to the Right than I am, personally. I do this to preserve their voices. Twitter, along with Facebook and Google, is hell-bent on silencing Conservative voices. I see this as antithetical to free speech, which is the foundation of democracy. We the people need lively, and civil, discussions between people of different viewpoints. We the people need the opportunity to consider all viewpoints of an issue. Technocrat fascism must be resisted.


This article, “Art, Commerce, and Vision� came out of my deep feeling that artists must embrace the business of art.

I hope you enjoy this article. I always enjoy the thought-provoking articles in .

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Published on October 25, 2018 07:29

October 17, 2018

Colette, A Review

On a recent Saturday, my husband and I enjoyed date night at the . We watched the film Colette.


I’m a novelist and so the film held a special resonance for me. It’s always intriguing for me to see how other women do it–how other women wrestle with the great fanged beast of their need to write–how other women embrace the struggle of creativity and storytelling alongside the demands of partnership and self-actualization.


For me, there is no self without writing. If I’m not writing, it’s because I’m in a no-self space. That’s not a wholesome place for me.


Colette is turned on to writing by her husband Willy, who calls himself, in the film, a “writing entrepreneur.� He cheats on her and tells her to pen her thoughts and then proclaims her work to be worthless. Then he re-reads it and loves it. He pores over her prose with her and teaches her to edit and revise. At least in the film, he is instrumental to her discovering her talent.


Willy publishes her book under his own name. When it becomes successful beyond his wildest dreams, he locks her in a room to write another book.


Colette slowly wakes up to her own worth. Her self-awareness grows as she uncovers her individual sexuality. Her husband cheats but she begins to sleep with women–which he permits, as long as she doesn’t sleep with other men.


It’s comical when the husband beds her paramour and they both carry on with the libidinous lady in question.


There’s a kind of leftist-liberal-proselytizing fabric to this movie; the husband is an exploitative patriarchal scumbag and noble, victimized Colette naturally finds a supportive woman partner/lover. So many films these days are taken over by the need to preach leftist liberal values. I wish more films would focus on good storytelling and leave preaching propaganda to the politicians. It’s boring.


When a story delves deeply into the human condition, the spectrum of left-right, liberal-conservative falls away. What is left is meaning. That meaning is far more moving, far more convincing, than even the best propaganda.


In this case, the film transcends the current Hollywood piety. After all, Colette was a French novelist. She’s an archetypal French woman novelist. She actually lived the life and she did so before it was appropriated by a certain tiresome sector of post-modernist feminists–as if being a traveling mime with a woman lover is the only way to be a woman novelist.


I admire Colette but her choices wouldn’t work for me. I would never have been happy or fulfilled without children and a husband. Being a mother and wife contributes to, and enhances, my fruitfulness.


As painful as my situation is with one of my beloved daughters and with a dearly loved husband who took off for the antipodes, putting his own art before the family who needs him–despite everything–I was always supposed to be a wife and mother. And a novelist. And lately a screenwriter.


Willy exceeds his role, too, I think. Yes, he’s selfish, self-indulgent, egotistical, and riddled with vices. He’s also the fulcrum on which Colette’s own writing turns. He’s a catalyst for her. I find that real life is like this, that people are like this: marbled through with light and dark. Variegated. Bittersweet.


People are complex. They enter our lives bearing gifts, some laced with poison, some with nectar. Often the most difficult characters in our stories are our best teachers.


And beyond the propaganda is the story of a woman coming to own her own voice.


This is the essential struggle for a woman novelist: owning her own voice. Even for women who come across as strong, as I seem to, there’s vulnerability at the root. How do we embrace, own, and integrate that vulnerability with our creative talent?



film Colette





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Published on October 17, 2018 14:08

October 14, 2018

Art and Representation

Representation


Sabin Howard's Bust of Ceres


My husband can sculpt. Think Carpeaux, Canova, or Augustus Saint-Gaudens. Think Michelangelo. He says, “Art represents us. How do we want to be represented?�


It’s a fair question, and answering it leads me to all the reasons I’m not a post-modernist. Boiling it down, I believe in transcendence and immanence, meaning and responsibility, the integrity of the individual, and free and unfettered thinking. Ultimately, I believe in beauty, excellence, and the artist’s skill.


So it is with both humility and amusement that I behold Sabin’s Bust of Ceres, for which I posed. It was hours and hours of sitting on a step ladder in our bedroom at night, working to hold my head at the right angle. Sabin is a tough taskmaster. Such demands are placed on the wife of an artist!


She is beautiful. She is me, and she isn’t me. She’s me on Mt. Olympus, an idealized plane of existence. She’s a form of representation that alludes to an aesthetic philosophy that is beyond me, in my day to day life, as I sit at my keyboard, wearing stinky yoga clothes and tapping out the latest novel.


I see the transpersonal in Ceres. She’s soulful, she’s elevated and elevating. I feel fondly toward my husband for naming a portrait of me after a Goddess. My ego is gratified, despite knowing that Sabin chose the Goddess out of his own artistic vision, with little to no concern for the model’s vanity.


On the personal level, I see a woman of a certain age, with more lines on her face than she wishes were there.





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Published on October 14, 2018 08:43

July 27, 2018

The Gottman Institute: The Art & Science of Love

The Gottman Institute: The Art & Science of Love


My husband and I had a rude and rough couple of years.


Sabin was briefly ensconced at the antipodes with people who thought they knew him better after 12 minutes than I did after 18 years, and they brought out his worst self. They encouraged him to forget his family–to lose sight of his integrity. I frittered away our months apart with people and pastimes that took me away from my mission in life. I wasn’t my best self, either.


Love brought us back together and our union needed repair.


There were tools that aided us. I’ve blogged about those before. I read several books and used an excellent program developed by a California-based marriage counselor.


In particular, and with some mirth because he’s funny, we watched talking about what makes a marriage work. I bought Gottman’s books and googled The Gottman Institute.


After one fierce fight that ended with me in tears and Sabin apoplectic with hurt and anger, I said, “Enough. We’re going to a .�


Sabin agreed, if skeptically. He was more amenable when I assured him that there was no public disclosure.


The time came and we flew to Seattle a few days early so we could hike Mt. Rainier. I figured two days of exercise on the mountain would exorcise Sabin’s physical restlessness.


We arrived early at the Seattle Sheraton on the morning of the workshop to secure good seats, close to the front. And there began two days of extraordinary learning.


The first day focused on building the ground of being of love through Drs. John and Julie Gottman’s research-based techniques. We listened to lectures on love maps, fondness and admiration, and bids for connection, and then we practiced the skills through carefully thought out exercises. The exercises were good fun as well as good practicum for a marriage. They deepened the friendship, connection, and trust that are so essential in the union.


It was fun to tell Sabin all the good things I think about him–and even more fun to hear him describe my strengths!


We also practiced a “stress reducing conversation� according to a Gottman script. It was an effective tool. When Sabin spoke about the stresses of his life, he was able to feel my empathy; when it was my turn to confide, I felt his empathy. We finished the exercise feeling heard and cared for. Our hearts opened and we felt close to each other.


But it wasn’t just the exercises and lectures that taught us and moved us. Equally eloquent was the way John and Julie Gottman related to each other. They were at turns playful and somber and they were always palpably connected. They teased each other, finished each other’s sentences, demoed exercises together with zest and relish, touched each other affectionately, listened respectfully when the other was saying something of heightened import, admitted to fighting, owned their own parts in their conflict, apologized for hurting each other, and praised the other.


Julie and John were modeling something critical: a real marriage, hugs and warts and tears and laughs and all. A marriage wherein both spouses are deeply committed and deeply engaged in the ongoing work of building a strong and joyful shared sense of “we.�


This was most evident the second day of the workshop, when the Gottmans addressed conflict.


Around 10 am of the second day, I witnessed one of the most profound human interactions I’ve ever seen–and I attended a 4 years hands-on healing school which included a great deal of deep personal process work. But this was astonishing: Julie and John demonstrated their script for repair after a regrettable incident.


I’ve never seen two people be more real, more vulnerable, more honest, and more sensitive with each other. It was deeply soulful. It showed the power of being real, being vulnerable, being honest, and being sensitive with your mate.


Julie and John worked through an actual fight from a few years earlier, following one of the scripts they’d written. Julie went through a bout of tears, remembering early life traumas that had played a part in her responses. I was in tears watching her. John also talked about his triggers. I marveled at his insight into himself.


The goal was to understand each other better. It achieved that and so much more. It was a marvelous process.


In class, Sabin and I did the exercise around a recent fight. Since returning home, we’ve done the exercise around the painful episodes from the last two years.


The Gottman Institute weekend ended with presentations and exercises around shared meaning and helping each other attain life dreams. In a real way, Sabin and I are already strong in that area, because we both feel so strongly about arts and letters. He’s been the strongest supporter of my writing, and I’ve always supported his art.


For me, the best part of the weekend was being in the field of the relationship between Julie and John Gottman. So that’s what a good relationship is, I thought. Perhaps the Gottman tools could even have helped my difficult first marriage. It’s possible. It’s for certain they’re a great blessing for Sabin and me.


In his thoughtful way, Sabin voiced the most beautiful, most telling comment about the weekend. “I never before understood about the sacredness of marriage,� he told me. “Now I do.�


Sabin Howard and Traci Slatton




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Published on July 27, 2018 19:37

July 9, 2018

Mystery of Birth

Mystery of Birth






I had the misfortune to be the impecunious shiksa married into a well-to-do Jewish family.


My sincere conversion to Judaism, a religion I love, slightly blunted their dyspeptic view of me but didn’t resolve it. Not that my former in-laws were aware of their bias or their inability to accept me because of my differentness. They’re a generous folk. They mean well, by and large.


But the plot thickened some years after my divorce, when I did my first DNA test. The results came back with so many “Ashkenazim� notes that I thought there had to be a mistake. I phoned the company.


I said, “I don’t understand my results.�


The lady clerk said brightly, “Oh, you’re Jewish.�


I murmured, “Yes, but who knew?�


I figured my mother had some Jewish progenitors. There were large murky areas in her ancestry, though we knew they largely inhabited the Southern parts of the US, with some Native American Indian thrown in. I figured some lost little Jewish girl had got off the boat in Ellis Island and found her way down South, where the crazy Scotch-Irish were boiling up squirrels in their crockpots and alchemizing moonshine in the hills. As well as marrying themselves some Indians.


My father’s family had been in the US for generations. They all had quintessential American names like Foster and Taylor. They were English-Scotch-Irish, with some Native American Indian thrown in. His mother was dark-haired and claimed Apache blood. There was no way my dad had any Ashkenazim blood.


Then my mother and I both, coincidentally, took another DNA test,


I was visiting my mother when she mentioned she had her results.


“Oh, let’s see your Jewish roots,� I chirped.


She opened a web browser, logged in, and opened her results.


0% Ashkenazim.


This did not accord with the 25.5% Ashkenazim ancestry that 23andMe revealed to me.


For a moment, the room swam in front of my eyes. I had a sinking feeling that I had been switched at birth. My mother, whom I love dearly despite our sometimes fraught relationship, wasn’t really my biological mother.


She said, “I guess Jim was Jewish?�


Oh, right. My father. I said, “He had to be half Jewish because I’m a quarter and you’re zero.�


But this was all very odd. My father’s family was from Arkansas, had been there for generations, and I had a recent Jewish ancestor from the Lithuania-Poland-Russia-Belarus area. Very recent.


I returned home and shared my DNA results with my mother, and 23andMe kindly confirmed that she was, indeed, my biological mother.


That left the mystery of my father. He never fit in with his family. Looked nothing like them. Had at least 75 IQ points over them. Was basically given away to be raised by a prosperous farmer. Called himself “the black sheep of the family� because he was smart, and joined the Navy and moved away from them.


My mother says he never bonded with anyone his whole life.


I didn’t like the man. He was abusive and prone to dark, erratic mood swings. He was an alcoholic. He cheated on my mother and engaged in all sorts of nasty behavior.


But I began to think that there was more to the story than met the eye. I began to believe that he wasn’t biologically related to the people who had raised him so poorly–because none of them are Jewish.


On 23andMe, I’ve been able to eliminate all the DNA relatives from my mother’s side. The remaining DNA relatives fall into 2 camps: one is Jewish, largely Russian-Polish-Ukrainian-Lithuanian. The other side is largely British-Irish and German.


That would be my paternal grandparents. Among them, there aren’t Taylors or Fosters or Slattons, or any of the other surnames associated with the people who raised my father. There is no commonality with the Slatton family.


The question is: Who was my father?


There’s some possibility that the woman who claimed to be his mother was indeed his biological mother, and she had fooled around.


But I think it far more likely that my benighted father, may he rest in eternal peace, was swapped in the hospital. Some other family went home with the real Slatton boy. And the son of a Jew and a German-Brit went home with the Slattons.


So I am sleuthing.


Who was my father? What are my real roots?



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Published on July 09, 2018 11:46