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Vent here! Please put a warning at the beginning of a post that discusses triggering topics.

TW: implied suicidal contemplations

The more I learn about the world, the more I don't want to be in it. Everything is just an endless cycle of pain and hurt and not being able to do anything about it. I feel like the world is falling apart, and I have no idea what it will look like when I grow up. People and animals and are suffering all around and I can't do a fucking thing. I keep telling myself it will be different when I'm an adult, I'll have more power and a say in my life, but I don't know if I will. I'm bisexual a woman (well, girl) who might not be able to marry the person I want to in the future and may not even have a big say in society. The climate is a disaster and no one seems to be doing anything about it. It's become normal for teens to have mental health problems apparently and everyone seems to think it's not an issue. And so much other stuff that I can't even write out but it's all weighing on me and I'm scared of what the world is turning into and what my life will be like. I also feel so helpless because innocent lives are being ruined by stuff every single day and I can't do anything about it and people are starving and losing loved ones and dying of disease and being torn apart by war brought on by other humans. We kill and destroy other lives just to get what we want. We cause pain and destruction everywhere we go. Why. Why are we here. What's the point of staying here if the bad people are going to destroy everything and the good people are left helpless and hopeless.

And all my friends are fucking falling apart and I feel like I can't do anything and I'm just watching them collapse and I'm totally useless

I feel like that so much too. I feel like everyone's falling apart and how am I supposed to help them when i'm falling apart too?

Sage wrote: "I feel like that so much too. I feel like everyone's falling apart and how am I supposed to help them when i'm falling apart too?"

Exactly. And I saw a quote that said "Good people are like candles. They burn themselves up to give others light." When do you cross the line of helping others to harming yourself?

Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I feel like that so much too. I feel like everyone's falling apart and how am I supposed to help them when i'm falling apart too?"

Exactly. And I saw a quote that said "Good people ar..."

Yeah exactly. Sometimes I feel like that quote so much

I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleaser, I'm not a nice enough person for that, but I don't want to hurt people like that. It's better for me to have to deal with the hurt than them, right? Maybe I deserve it more. Maybe that's why I'm dealing with it. Maybe there's some reason I have to deal with this.

Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleaser, I'm not a nice enough person for that, but I don't want ..."

Exactly the same situation for me. Literally. You just put into words so much of what I'm feeling. T^T

Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleaser, I'm not a nice enough person for that, but ..."

You did too. It's nice knowing I'm not the only one out there...

Sage wrote: "Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a people pleas..."

-hugs-

Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "Barnette *partial mental health break* wrote: "Sage wrote: "I wouldn't actually commit bc I know it would only hurt the people who love me. But I've thought about it. And no, I'm NOT a..."

🫂🫂💔

Seriously, when I was a little younger, I wished I was an adult, I wished I had husband and kids, I wished I was a housewife? I don’t know! Now I’m looking back and thinking ‘what the actual f*** was I thinking?��. I heard somewhere that ‘when you wish you were a kid again, you are an adult��, I’m 12-14 years old. I wish I had that innocence again, oblivious to the world and the most confident I ever was.

It doesn’t help that I’m LGBTQ+/alterhuman either. I’m not out but if I dare express myself, people are going to be like
“Ew what’s that furry doing?��
“You little [insert slur]!��
It absolutely destroys your self esteem, just being vaguely different. I’m the smartest girl in my class judging by my test results. Despite that, no one wants me for anything unless I’m friends with you. Fun fact: I’ve got 5 Georges in my class. We call them via their last names. I’m closest with field.

TW: depression? implied suicidal thoughts & sh thoughts?

(view spoiler)[Yk those days when the depression is really bad? When you're sobbing yourself to sleep and listening to music that matches how you feel, just so you don't feel alone? When you think of everything you've gone through and you just feel so alone and so heavy and tired? When the only thing that takes the pain away is sleep that never comes? When everything you do just makes it worse, just makes people annoyed, just makes you hate yourself more? When no matter how hard you try, you just can't. not. hate. yourself. and it drives you crazy. When you wonder if anyone really loves you, and if they do, you wonder how. When you remember all the horrible things people have said to you and you realize they're true. When you remember all the kind things they've said and you take them down piece by piece to prove they're wrong. When you're ready to give up because life sucks and it's not getting better When you're about to stop trying even though you know you shouldn't. When all the happy moments seem to just be fake and fleeting, ready to be replaced by the darkness. When it feels like everything you've been through is too much, more than you can handle, and you just can't do any more. When you can't even forgive yourself and don't even ask others to consider forgiving you for even the slightest mistake. When you realize how many people have left your life without even saying goodbye, and wonder who's next. When you wonder if what they're saying is really harmless jokes or if it's just the truth. When the stress is piling up on you and you just don't know what to do. When that knife looks so tempting. When you wonder if anyone would even miss you or cry over you or care if you left. (hide spoiler)]

Barnette {mental health hiatus} wrote: "TW: implied suicidal contemplations

The more I learn about the world, the more I don't want to be in it. Everything is just an endless cycle of pain and hurt and not being able to do anything abou..."

You just summed up all of my feelings rn exactly. I see all the hurt that the world is going through, and there's nothing I can do about it. The climate gets worse every single day, and no one else seems to care, especially not the leaders who are going backwards on progress every day, and who were supposed to be standing up for and protecting our country and future

✧₊⁺༻Em�� ✧₊�� wrote: "TW: depression? implied suicidal thoughts & sh thoughts?

[spoilers removed]"

i know those days, all of it
but trust me you are literally an amazing person and no matter how stupid life seems please remember that you're very, very loved and very, very amazing because you are <3

🥹thank you Sai

well it's true :)

❤️❤️ love you

love you too <3 :)