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Fitting that this be my 100th post, it being about the end of things, as it were.

No, I’m not ending this blog, but I am ending this semester at college (it’s finals week, hence my lack of blogging, and writing. For shame, I know), and for a while now I’ve been holed up in a whirlwind of anxiety and sickness.

I don’t feel well. I don’t feel…like myself. I feel scared, tired, sad, and, quite frankly, not good enough. I barely go on Å·±¦ÓéÀÖ anymore, I no longer promote or (and part of that is because I’m in the middle of editing/rewriting The Dark World and the version that’s up is no longer valid), and I no longer write (much) of .

I haven’t touched my laptop in weeks (I’m on my boyfriend’s desktop), and any updates I’ve done have been through the library at college or on my phone. I’m…sad. At ill-ease with where I am, I guess. And I suppose it’s due to the finals, the stress of passing my classes, and the stress, I guess, of not having people read . It only adds to my anxiety, my feelings of inadequacy. Now, I’m sure it’s being read, but reviewed, it is not. And that’s a bit disconcerting.

For all the promises of reading it and reviewing it, I’ve only had two people come through on it, and yes it’s received good reviews, but that’s about it.

I know it’s all the stress with everything I have going on on my end, but it is the main thing that has been bumming me out about this, taking me away from the utter…mass of criticisms on Å·±¦ÓéÀÖ. I remember a time when reading used to be what feelings were stirred in me when I read books, what I didn’t like or liked about a book that was only my opinion. Now it seems, with Å·±¦ÓéÀÖ, it’s been exacerbated and the wormhole’s been torn open: everyone has their opinions, especially on vampires (thank you sparkly glitter monsters), and it’s made it quite hard to wrap my head around…it all.

I don’t know, I guess I’m overwhelmed. I know everyone’s entitled to their opinion and we can’t really help what the mainstream media has decided will be the next Harry Potter. I just need a longer break. And that’s what I’ve been taking, I’d say, a well-deserved break, before I have a breakdown and just can’t deal with any of this at all.

I know I sound utterly mad, and just � I’m not making any sense.

Sigh.

I’m gonna drink some tea and take some medicine and study some more before I have to head back to college for a final.

And for those that have followed my blog since day one, thank you.

For those that have just found it and read this and think I’m an overly sensitive person who can’t calm down, you’re kind of right, but not always. It’s one of those days.

I’ll be fine. I’ll leave everyone with this:

“There was much I could say about my life, much I could pen down with reasonable time given, but it was terribly hard for me you see. For I was old. Much too old to remember, but still far too young to forget. I was trapped in time…and as much as I never wanted to be, I had no choice.

My name is Patricia Lauren Bordeaux, and I, like my creator before me, am a very lonely vampire.�

-Excerpt of A Night of Frivolity. Get it today for .

Keep your bite,

I’m keeping mine despite it all.

-S.C. Parris

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A good friend of mine read ANoF and reviewed it. The review is below copied from Å·±¦ÓéÀÖ.com in its entirety:

Kristina‘s review
May 03, 13

5 of 5 stars

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Read on May 03, 2013


As this was a short story, I will make this short…� I thoroughly enjoyed this short story, and wish I could know more about these characters. Also, I loved the language of the story; it felt old and mysterious.


What will you think of this short story?

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Keep your bite,
-S.C. Parris

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Do you crawl in a ball and let yourself rest?

Or are you determined to push past it and carry on with your day knowing it’s going to bring you further down later?

And for the women reading, do you get fatigued when you’re close to those red days?

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I do…or rather I am now.

I attribute my general lack of enthusiam for things and my previous poem , to my upcoming “female week.� And it reminds me how depressed and anxious I used to be on a daily basis. How tired and worn down I would feel, not wanting to even get out of the bed in the morning, no � scared to get out of the bed in the morning, scared to try anything new, scared to live.

I know right? It’s sad.

But it was my life.

I attribute it (with better knowledge on the subject), to my small frame, my pumping adrenal glands that work overtime to keep everything regulated (I was premature, people), and I realized only a year or so ago that everything I let into my weakened immune system whether it be metaphorical or otherwise, was taking its toll on me. And it was my choice to let these things happen.

What can I do now but take the consequences and begin to strengthen myself, and I do that by consciously changing my outlook. Granted, some days are better than most with this. As of now, with my period looming, I’m finding it difficult to keep my eyes open let alone stay conscious for most of the day. I’m just that worn out. And don’t even get me started on what this has done to my drive for writing. -_- (But I still am…barely!)

But I know it’s only temporary and myÌýcore â€� the part of me that can no longer be changed my outside influences and passing fancies â€� is still there â€� is as strong as ever while I go through what everyone goes through â€� life. To let it get to me like I used to is, I have learned, terribly detrimental to my health. And being born 1lb, 10 oz., makes it harder for me to stay healthy from the get-go, but I have been, why?

Love (from family, my other-half, and my puppy). Sticking with the choices I’ve made. Accepting my reality (everything is what it is, right now, and if I want to change it at anytime, I can).

And taking those five or ten minutes where I can just being with myself.

It’s done wonders for my frame of mind, my frame of self, and my immune system. (Vitamins notwithstanding.)

And voila!

Here I am.

Fatigued, yes, but happy about it. For once.

Are you?

(Am still writingand am still editing .)

Keep your bite.

-S.C. Parris

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War

In this fading pain,

A pain encumbering with my action,

I slip,

Recollecting lost fragments of things not in time.

A quote,

A choice,

A love,

Lost.

My head screams with my regret,

But push forward I must.

Fatigue drags me further down,

The sand beneath my feet

Loose,

Rough,

Cold.

There is something there,

A journey of hardened choice,

Greater insight…hindsight.

For my regrets are not masked,

My choices not caught in careful arms.

They fall.

Like my knees to the ground.

The sand biting my knees.

The pain�

It is no longer fading,

Encumbered with my action it is

Heavy,

Thick,

Pulsing.

And my regret,

Knows no greater agony

In a past yet lived,

A future now gained.

I slip from my knees,

Find peace in releasing

My flesh to the ground,

The sand.

There are no waves to greet me,

No hands to grasp me.

I am with my pain,

My choices.

Not free from the binding pain

Of my past,

My journey before me.

Buried with my battles,

The myriad scars.

Yes,

I know,

This war looms on evermore.

Keep your bite,

S.C. Parris

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And I love it. I’m sure you will too.

That is all.

Keep your bite,

S.C. Parris

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It’s been a long time since I’ve had a semi-personal post on my blog, and it’s filled my thoughts, so here it is.

The love of our craft (whatever that may be), the love of…living, whatever it is that drives us, this has been on my mind a lot lately. I’ve recently gotten out of a funky state (what I call a state of depression or just a glum-ridden mood), and now I’m more or less of a ‘I love life,� mindset once more.

I flip flop on these things time and time again. I’ve just accepted that it’s going to happen, I can’t always be rainbows and sunshine and what the hey, I’ve gotten more than halfway through the editing and rewriting of The Dark World while in this ‘funk.� I like to live my life as though every second I have is precious time. And it is. So I try and make every second work for me.

Yes, a lot has happened recently (as I’m sure you all know by now), and I’ve been taking it all in stride, working on my stories, my schoolwork…etc. and generally trying to spread the word that I have a new short story out. Many have told me they would read it, but we’ll see in time, won’t we?

(Sigh)

As I sip my tea and stare at my wandering Siberian Husky as he paces the living room floor, I can’t help but smile for I am high…on love. The love of writing, the love of my opportunities, recent and forthcoming, and the love of my caring boyfriend, the love of my pain in the ass-sometimes dog, and the love of my life…in general. Life and all the amazing things it gives us.

Like writing.

Words can’t express what writing means to me. Upon reading over A Night of Frivolity, I’ve been so impressed with the state of that work and I can’t help but wonder what more I can pen that focuses on a more psychological mind frame.

Ah, I have been reading a fair bit of Bram Stoker’s Dracula, and I find myself falling more and more in love with the deep psychological overtones that exist throughout the book (what I’ve read of it so far), and I really want to expound upon it more.

My hope is that more people read my ebook and want more of the story I’ve created. I already have the outline, the idea ready, it just takes a special…place in my mind to sit down and write that story.

We’ll see what happens.

Go check out now and let me know what you think!

And keep your bite.

-S.C. Parris

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, the author of , read my and reviewed it on Å·±¦ÓéÀÖ.

You can read it in its entirety here, or simply look below:

Jayme K. rated it 5 of 5 stars

ÌýTruthfully I don’t liken myself a fan of Anne Rice or even much period piece literature, so I went into this short story with mixed feelings. That being said, having finished the story â€� I have to say, I was impressed. Despite not being a fan of the genre, S.C. Parris still managed to captivate me with the style and prose of which it was written and delivered a really good and interesting tale. I’m not going to delve much into the storyline since it is a new release and I’m not looking to spoil, but I have to give props to anyone who can get me fully invested in a story, regardless of how long or short, in spite of having a pre-conceived stance on the genre of which it happens to reside. ANoF is a worthwhile read, not just for horror fans, but for readers in general. I recommend.

You can get your copy of A Night of Frivolity for $4.99.

Keep your bite.

-S.C. Parris

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When the daring Miss Clarke enters a gentlemen’s club in London on one cold day in January, the year 1714, she is met with a most cunning vampire who would only see her his before the night is through. With several onlookers, unwanted solicitations, and the watching dark eyes of the mysterious Alexander upon her, Miss Patricia Clarke is forced before long to decide whether her desired night of frowned-upon fun is worth the trouble…and the blood…in A NIGHT OF FRIVOLITY.

S.C. Parris� A Night of Frivolity is available now at and our catalog.

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Keep your bite! And sink your fangs into my new short story and let me know what you think!

-S.C. Parris

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My upcoming ebook, A Night of Frivolity, is being released this week (4/18), Thursday!

In case you can’t scroll down for whatever reason, I’ll upload the cover once again and put the synopsis here for you to read.

When the daring Miss Clarke enters a gentlemen’s club in London on one cold day in January, the year 1714, she is met with a most cunning vampire who would only see her his before the night is through. With several onlookers, unwanted solicitations, and the watching dark eyes of the mysterious Alexander upon her, Miss Patricia Clarke is forced before long to decide whether her desired night of frowned-upon fun is worth the trouble…and the blood in A NIGHT OF FRIVOLITY.

Again it will be available on most ebook devices, including Kindle.

Sound like something you’d like to read?

Let me know when it’s available Thursday!

Keep your bite,

S.C. Parris

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When the daring Miss Clarke enters a gentlemen’s club in London on one cold day in January, the year 1714, she is met with a most cunning vampire who would only see her his before the night is through. With several onlookers, unwanted solicitations, and the watching dark eyes of the mysterious Alexander upon her, Miss Patricia Clarke is forced before long to decide whether her desired night of frowned-upon fun is worth the trouble…and the blood in A NIGHT OF FRIVOLITY.

That’s the cover! Love it like I do?!

A Night of Frivolity is due out April 18th!

And add it to your ‘to-readâ€� lists on Å·±¦ÓéÀÖ today!

Keep your bite,

S.C. Parris

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