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❀ Choosing Happy ❀
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2018 Resolutions
1. Take it slower
❀� Jingle the world won't stop turning if you
stop overloading yourself with commitments
❀� Continue volunteer teaching for Lotus �
❀� Quit TYA if you're in your club's comm �
2. Academics
❀� Achieve GPA goal �
❀� Get into early intervention track �
❀� Figure out if you want that scholarship �
❀� Research overseas unis and scholarships
3. Memorise sign language class syllabus �
4. Run 10 km race (w/o pauses) �
5. Creativity
❀� Edit/write and record rec of songs �
❀—Consider that mentorship if you can manage �
❀� One poem a week �
6. Become first-aid certified �
❀To Jingle, a ball of fluff and pure preciousness�
Happy New Year! May you have a blessed year with greater happiness, prosperity and a loooot of joy! I did my best to construct a, well, nice-looking message with my phone (I really tried) Whatever 2018 has in store for you, think happy thoughts!
Omg is that Wendy I see?! Thank you so much Maya, and I wish you the same 💓💓
🌼 To darling Jingle, the epitome of elegance 🌼Happy New Year! :) I wish you a beautiful 2018 filled with felicity and success!
This feels like I'm copying Maya (and failing miserably), so I'm extremely sorry if it's unoriginal!
Also, I sure hope I can hear some of those songs you are talking about, and perhaps a chance to see you someday :D
I love you 💖
Aww thank you so much Hallie, I love you too ❤️ I don’t think your post is unoriginal at all, in fact it made my day :D I hope I get to meet you guys in real life as well,
: D My earphones! Where are my earphones!?!?! Oh my goodness, yay!!!!
Omg you’re actually clicking it? FAIR WARNING my voice is SUPER SQUEAKY
But your voice is wonderful!
No, it's not. You sound so amazing!!!!! :D It's so beautiful I'm going to cry!
Yes it is! Also, thank you so much, I’ve never put up anything songs I wrote up here before and frankly it still makes me cringe to hear myself :P Are there any suggestions you might have to improve?
Nope. Your singing is just amazing! You really have nothing to be afraid of! :D Improve? Jingle, that was perfect! I'm already listening to it in a loop, and I can't think of anything that should be better than it already is. The only suggestion I have is to go to a music producer and say, "I have some songs here. Would you like to listen?"
(Sorry to interrupt!)••••••••☆ To Jingle, the one who is able to tame the beast of an anxious Alia through sheer compassion alone, ☆•••••••�
Happy New Year!
I wish you a 2018 of peace, security, massive accomplishment, prosperity, and joy achieved through your greatest pleasure: working with kids.
You've served as my greatest cheerleader, especially for the second half of 2017 which, in contrast to the first half, was a test of perseverance rather than a paradise reaching every aspect of my life.
Jingle, that time of paradise is over for me, at least for this school year. But even though I can't keep it around now, I can't let it go to waste. So I'm giving it to you, as you deserve it now.
I'm giving you what I had, but in your own way: with plenty of faith, trust, and pixie dust (is that right?)
Never cease to brighten up the room with your exuberance and pure willingness to bear the brunt of others' struggles with them. The world really needs you, and I know you want it to recognize you. And wow, if you keep that up, the people who are worthy of benefitting from it will, one day, see it.
However, take care of yourself, and remember to reserve some time for you alone: this, while seemingly selfish, is the direct cause of the expanse of understanding you can give to others.
Remember that I'm always here to give that hand out of the deep end to you, as you've given it to me countless times.
In 2018, my goal is to interact with you as a regular person, instead of just when I'm feeling down.
Keep that writing train going too! Nearly everyone on GR has a gift with it in some way but, you and Hallie and Maya and Erin and the others I know in this group? You're special. You hold the ability to write with honest humor, imagination reaching to infinity, and a heart-to-heart humanity that many published writers lack.
I apologize if this is nonsensical, and for its length; blame it on the time being 6 AM here.
But never mind that. Have an amazing year! I love and support you 100%!
We're never done with killing time
Can I kill it with you?
'Til the veins run red and blue
We come around here all the time
Got a lot to not do, let me kill it with you
You pick me up and take me home again
Head out the window again
We're hollow like the bottles that we drain
You drape your wrists over the steering wheel
Pulses can drive from here
We might be hollow, but we're brave
I love these roads where
the houses don't change
(and I like you)
Where we can talk like
there's something to say
(and I like you)
I'm glad that we stopped kissing
the tar on the highway
(and I like you)
We move in the tree streets
I'd like it if you stayed
Now we're wearing long sleeves
And the heating comes on
(You buy me orange juice)
We're getting good at this
Dreams of clean teeth
I can tell that you're tired
But you keep the car on
While you're waiting out front
A-Z Challenge 2018: Character
26/26 (letters Q, U, X and Z can be placed anywhere)
A - Alice from A Sky Painted Gold �
B - Beauty from
The Beauty and the Beast �
C - Carey from If You Find Me �
D - Dunja from Wicked Like a Wildfire �
E - Er Lang from The Ghost Bride �
F - Frankenstein from The New Annotated Frankenstein �
G - Grandmother from Room �
H - Holly from The Scorpio Races �
I - Imogen from The Girl Without a Voice: The true story of a terrified child whose silence spoke volumes �
J - Josh from To All the Boys
I've Loved Before �
K - Katy from Katy �
L - Lyra from The Amber Spyglass �
M - Mary from The Subtle Knife �
N - Nana from Peter Pan and Wendy �
O - Opal from Opal �
P - Percy from The Gentleman's
Guide to Vice and Virtue �
Q - Raven Queen from A Wonderlandiful World �
R - Rosie from This is How It Always Is �
S - Sparrow from Sparrow �
T - Tedros from Quests for Glory �
U - Shiharu from Love So Life, Vol. 1 �
V - Violette from A Memory of Violets: A Novel of London's Flower Sellers �
W - Wallace from Eliza and Her
Monsters �
X - Grandmother Weatherwax from The Wee Free Men �
Y - Ylessia from Wicked Like a Wildfire �
Z - Zhi Wei from Kappa Quartet �
Genre Challenge 2018
10/12
January� Adventure
The Subtle Knife �
February� Folklore
The Ghost Bride �
March—Wٳ
The Wee Free Men �
April—Urban Fantasy
Trylle: The Complete Trilogy �
May� Gothic
The New Annotated Frankenstein �
June—Coming Of Age
Wonder �
July—Magic Realism
Wicked Like a Wildfire �
August—High Fantasy
Seraphina
September—T
The Gentleman's Guide to Vice and Virtue �
October—V辱
The Coldest Girl in Coldtown
Novemberܲ
Guitar Notes �
December� Christmas
Nutcracker and Mouse King and The Tale of the Nutcracker �
Hallie wrote: "Nope. Your singing is just amazing! You really have nothing to be afraid of! :D Improve? Jingle, that was perfect! I'm already listening to it in a loop, and I can't think of anything that should b..."It sounds great and I'm sure a lot of people to agree are going to agree with me on it *stares* But thank you so much Hallie, I can't tell you how much of a compliment this is to me, even if I know this rhetorical music producer would have a lot to say otherwise :') If I were to play him one of your songs, however...
-Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "••••••••☆ To Jingle, the one who is able to tame the beast of an anxious Alia through sheer compassion alone, ☆•••••••�"
Alia!! Not gonna lie, your message had me tearing up a little while reading. For one thing, thank you for wanting to pass that paradise to me, but I'm sure it's something that you can have yourself as well. Things might get stressful but I believe you're sure to get to where you want to be :) I'm really nowhere as kind or as good a writer as you've made me out to be, but I'm really, really grateful that you believe in me and of course we should talk on normal days xD I hope you have a wonderful year, and as I will try to take your advice, please take care of your well-being too! Feel free to talk to me, I love and support you too!
Good gracious every time I look at this page I get so emotional I'm a mess
Hey, it even made me tear up. XD Because it's true Jingle! You are an absolute sweetheart and I thank you for being such an amazing person! I know that everyone else covered it (and I'll admit, I don't have any Wendy gifs. ;-) but know that you are one of the best people on goodreads.
Now you've done it Lorien, I feel all gooey right now! But thank you so much for your words. You have to be one of the sweetest people I know on ŷ and I'm really glad that I met you ❤️
Jingle ❀� (semi-hiatus) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Nope. Your singing is just amazing! You really have nothing to be afraid of! :D Improve? Jingle, that was perfect! I'm already listening to it in a loop, and I can't think of anythin..."*shrugs* Well, if anyone says otherwise, they have a very bad taste in music :) Nooo mine suck, so he would most likely punch me in the face for creating such bad music.
Hallie wrote: "Jingle ❀� (semi-hiatus) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Nope. Your singing is just amazing! You really have nothing to be afraid of! :D Improve? Jingle, that was perfect! I'm already listening to it in a lo..."If I remember correctly there were lots of people who thought otherwise :) Believe in yourself Hallie!
Burned Out
1.
He was certain
So was I
There was comfort
In her sighs
Dreams and ideas should
not be the same thing
You waited smiling for this
Oh she'd want it
If she knew
She could take it
I thought too
Be careful, be cautious
but you just wished harder
You waited smiling for this?
2.
“But they love you!"
Over and over "they love you!"
Thousands and thousands of
eyes just like mine
Aching to find who they are
Oh they love you!
Oh you can feel how they
love you!
Coated and warm but
that's all they can do
Words only get through
if they're sharp
3.
I am burnt out
I smell of smoke
It seeps through her cracks and so I start to choke
Sentences sit in her mouth that are templated
You waited smiling for this
Oh I can just talk about it
(I can just talk about it)
Maybe I'll talk about it
(maybe I'll talk about it)
I'll never talk about it
(I'll never talk about it)
No, I cannot talk about it
4.
Don't build hope on something broken
I am not cartoon
Cry for help
I am not joking
I might just leave soon
Don't build hope on something broken
I am not cartoon
Cry for help
I am not joking
I might just leave soon.
2 January 2018I need an escape plan
What’s a polite way to tell someone they need to go
I don't know the situation but maybe make it really subtle? Unless it goes right over their heads..."Are you busy? You can go do your own thing, no need to stick with me :D" or "I'll be busy doing 123, you sure you want to stay? :D" or just make up an excuse, like someone broke into your barn and the sheep needs rescuing. Unless they want to tag along...
Sorry for the late reply Mays, I wasn’t able to get on just now ^^� I definitely used your barn idea - well, sorta - so thank you! I’ve had a classmate from primary school randomly pop by my house for the past few years, and while I appreciate her coming she gives no warnings and er... doesn’t tend to take a hint. (view spoiler) I was rushing to finish an assignment when she came today, and even when I made the excuse that I was going out soon and couldn’t talk anymore she said “Okay� and just sat there which made me panic. Eventually she did leave though, and as bad as I feel I was relieved :P (view spoiler)
Jingle ❀� (semi-hiatus) wrote: "Dream Street; If anyone happens to see this:
1. I apologize for my singing in advance
2. I’m looking to improve my stuff so any
suggestions would help! 😅
Can you tell me which direction
It is to..."
YOUR SINGING HOLY RAVIOLI HOW ARE YOU SO GOOD?!
also your song is amazingggggg!!!
Jingle ❀� (semi-hiatus) wrote: "-Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "••••••••☆ To Jingle, the one who is able to tame the beast of an anxious Alia through sheer compassion alone, ☆•••••••�"
Alia!! Not gonna lie, your message h..."
Sorry I'm so late!
I'm so happy it did that (I was aiming for that but thought I'd fail miserably). You don't need to thank me; who else would I pass it to, who in my life deserves it more (other than the people here I'm splitting with it)? And granted, it wasn't complete paradise: I still had tests I didn't study enough for, heat sensitivity at the dance studio, and tears at night periodically, but it was still more than enough. Amazing friends and times in and out of school. That's absolutely what I want for you. :) I beg to differ; you literally might be the kindest person I know right now, and that's over some wonderful people irl so you should be proud! And there might be better writers in your city but I don't care about that, I care about the fact that it serves as an example for when I write, helps me expand on what I have already.
I've realized that this year won't be last year no matter how hard I try. (School year not calendar year.) But what I am trying to do is come to more peace with that. I think I can be more happy then. I've seen too many people linger on how the past was better (it's a component of our family's DNA) and become unhappy as a result. So I'm going to attempt that for myself. And I'm indebted to you for all the times you've pulled me out of holes. Thank you so much for the support!!
maggie wrote: "YOUR SINGING HOLY RAVIOLI HOW ARE YOU SO GOOD?!"It's really not but thank you so much ^^" Nice to meet you by the way!!
Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Sorry I'm so late!I'm so happy it did that (I was aiming for that but..."
I literally can't express how touched I am so please accept this koala:
I think that's good advice you have given yourself and we'll be cheering you on :D
(original)Dinner
she clapped her hands and yelled in glee
when You pedaled shakily on your bike at four
spoke nothing of the dents in her immaculate shelves
or the tracks on her white tile floors.
You can ride your thousand dollar bike
and i reckon champion anything you try
but those able two feet won’t walk a few blocks
to see the woman who paid you any mind.
he guarded You as You played at nine
followed slowly with a swollen leg
opened his pockets to press You money for snacks
complained nothing of the pain.
You can do as you please now that you're thirteen,
a computer screen is your new “play�
when he’s sent to the hospital, weak and withering
you cry that visiting is mundane.
i guess now it’s the age of You, You, You
You don’t want this, You don’t want that
how grating the sound; being asked about school
or to drink soup that took hours to brew-
but SHE was there when you had nothing to show.
HE was there, through your highs and lows.
Is your pedestal is too high to step down from?
Do I excuse your careless disdain as being headstrong?
I watch their bodies fail as the years pass
my insides wrench cruelly as I beg Father Time -
I don’t know if this insipid couple that loves you so
will still be there when you open your eyes.
You
1.
I told you I was looking
For some empathy
Well, you fooled me
Just a touch and a thought
And I was gone
And now
Someone's gonna get to know
the better you
When I was supposed to
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Why did it have to be you?
2.
I guess, now the next time
There's an opportunity
I'll tread more carefully
My heart's running out of cellotape
You know
How is it I've never felt
that way before?
Oh, I was so sure
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
It wasn't gonna be you
Why do all the red flags just
look like so much fun?
Oh, I have a habit of
searching for the damage to
Share my love
I promised to be numb but
Somehow, you were the one
Now to unwind months
Of a good time
3.
People will tell me that
I messed up
And it wasn't love
I'm secretly hoping they are right
Because whatever it was
It was wonderful
But nonfunctional
Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh
I really hope I don't love you
8 January 2018
"I don’t want to be president because I will freak OUT about screwing things up. Not that they’d choose me anyway. But I also really want to be secretary or even vp because I love this club and I genuinely want to contribute" 29/11/17
I think I jinxed myself. Andd cue freaking out.
13 January 2018
i hate to admit it but i think the people around me are right. they tell me i try to grasp too many things with too small hands, so of course i become as wound up and at a loss for time as i constantly am. they tell me it’s a matter of time before i break down completely.
i argue that it’s a matter of my bad time management, not that it’s impossible. i argue that i love many things and want to grab opportunities, be it to help or improve myself. to refuse a chance to contribute would be a pity; would be selfish, would it not? but i’ve been starting to see the flaws in my argument as time goes on. i’ve been looking back at my breakdowns and realizing they all link back to this greed in my heart that yearns to do more things than my body can physically. i’m the selfish one here. tomorrow i planned to plan (ha inception) and teach two classes, tend to deadlines of my club, finish research on an assignment and discuss with group mates. then realised i was supposed to be at the movies with friends the same time as this discussion and that it couldn't be changed because my friends even switched their schedules and chose to forego a movie to accommodate me. i realise, did i think i could actually squeeze these many fricking things into one day? one class in itself would take up half a day, let alone doing the rest in the remaining time.
i want to tell myself this. squeezing this many things mean no space to breathe. this means breaking down as a means of clawing for air. this means accidentally falling asleep at 3 am because you’re still not done with your never ending list of to-dos, and restarting early in the morning again. it means changing so many appointments with friends and family that they think you don’t love them, even when you do with all your heart. it means in the long run, you’re not as energized as you should be in your commitments and when you fuck up one step, you have no space to act as a safety net. you fall.
i set a resolution and it’s already failed, so i can only seek to juggle this tight schedule until it lets up a little. i’ve quit one of my teaching places; that barely helps but it’s something. for now, i want to keep reminding myself: breathe, jingle.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all yellow.
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
Do you know,
You know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
16 January 2018Things definitely haven’t gotten better. But you get points for not crying and choosing to plan solutions to your problems. And I am grateful for the people around me that make life easier with their kindness.
17 January 2018Note to self: You can’t break down before the bloody meeting you’re facilitating you know your eyes puff and you can’t break down over assignments everyone is stressing out also. But good gracious what my lecturer assumed hurt and I’ve just been panicking over everything and nothing at the same time and I can’t wait to get away to try and calm down a little
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