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What lies at heart;
I've got a pocketful of poetry
I've got a head full of songs, 
a heart with wings
you couldn't tie me down to anything 
and that's enough for me.
 

  In Which I Introduce Myself:

Hey, I'm Jingle, a girl trying to make sense of this confusing world. This journal will consist of little muses, thoughts and writings.

  About Me:

?¡ªINFP, 4w5, Ravenclaw
?¡ªFavourite song: Pocketful of Poetry by Mindy Gledhill
?¡ªA music therapy student in training
?¡ªSoprano/soubrette | piano | ukulele | guitar | songwriting
?¡ªBlue Sargent sized
?¡ªLoves animals
?¡ªLives in fairytales and wishful thinking
?¡ªWords come out better on paper so I deal with regular periods of in-coherency in real life

  Things to address:

?¡ªWriting and creating is my form of expression and emulates the amount of effort and originality I have put in. I will not stand for it being plagiarized in any way.
?¡ªFeel free to comment, but know I might do some spring cleaning at times :)

    Favourite Books
  

1. A Little Princess¡ªFrances Hodgson Burnett
2. Up to This Pointe¡ªJennifer Longo
3. The Secret Garden¡ªFrances Hodgson Burnett
4. Peter Pan¡ªJ.M Barrie
5. True¡ªKatherine Hannigan
6. The Vanishing Act¡ªMette Jakobsen
7. Handle With Care¡ªJodi Picoult
8. Matilda¡ªRoald Dahl
9. The Goose Girl¡ªShannon Hale

  





the trees like lungs filling with air
my sister, the mean one, 
pulling my hair
the green gives back later; 
more to take
but all she does is suffocate

  3 September 2016

I was hit with Peter Pan feels like a ton of bricks last night, and happened.

    Holiday Bucket List
  

1. Run everyday (5 km) (Edit: 7km) ?
2. Get a temporary job ?
3. Practice piano daily (1 hour) ?
4. Learn sign language (alphabet) ?
5. Donate hair ?
6. Donate blood ?
7. Volunteer work with kids ?
8. Write and plan Perfect Fit ?

Get better and feel better.

(original)

speak

sand paper
rubbing at my chords as I swallow
a mess of thoughts
I filter for something to say
all these interesting people with
interesting lives
they put anything I have to shame¡ª

cold hammer
swung at my heart as I heave
a desperate cry
because I genuinely want to belong
I don't know why I'm here; why I try
but I tell myself this should be norm¡ª

a pounding want
to run, to be seen
waiting for someone
to pick me up from the lost and found
I'm ready;
I think
so I open my mouth
and

  26 December 2016

Getting my favourite book for Christmas:

4 January 2017

2. Get a temporary job ?

Jingle is now a waitress at a vegetarian restaurant! I love it because it's nearby, pays decently and while I'm still rather awkward, the people are nice. The dynamics are quite entertaining; the manager reminds me of a mother, the young girl and guy chef bicker like lovers although they aren't, and the head chef reminds me of a slightly disgruntled uncle. They call me "СÃà (little sister)" because of my age and stature, and I mostly do everything in between¡ªfood prep, serving, dishes...You say it, I've probably done it. My hands are cracked and rough from all the work I've been doing, but I'm happy. I took the job knowing this would be tiring, and I've been learning a lot about the work that goes into food businesses.

5 January 2017

6. Donate blood ?

Rather funny but disappointing update from me. I've always grown up aspiring to donate blood; my father's done it since I was a child. With his current blood condition, he isn't suitable to donate anymore and since I have the same blood type I was hoping to take his place. I planned to go on the day of my birthday when I was finally old enough to donate and it was this thing I was looking forward to.

Long story short, I went in late December (2016) but found out I apparently didn't even have veins to donate?? The nurse couldn't detect any on my right arm and only a teensy one on my left. She told me to try again in six months and lift heavier things... :P So well, that's one thing I can't cross off. I won't give up though. Only so little people donate blood and I want to be able to make a difference, however small.

Hallie wrote: "That's amazing that you want to donate blood! Hats off to you and your father as well! :) So many people die due to lack of blood, and every contribution would save someone's life. And here's me, w..."

Aww thanks (and hi) Hallie! Unfortunately until I do enough dishes or lift, those veins may take a while to cooperate yet :P I think if you're uncomfortable with needles you shouldn't force yourself, but I'd highly encourage donating blood if you decide to :) I myself am terrified but when I think about it, some discomfort on a donor's part could save a life as you said!

  Book Series To Finish:

His Dark Materials
?¡ªThe Golden Compass ?
?¡ªThe Subtle Knife ?
?¡ªThe Amber Spyglass ?

Wildwood Dancing
?¡ªWildwood Dancing ?
?¡ªCybele's Secret ?

The Young Elites
?¡ªThe Young Elites ?
?¡ªThe Rose Society ?
?¡ªThe Midnight Star ?

Into The Wild
?¡ªInto the Wild ?
?¡ªOut of the Wild ?

7 January 2016

1. Run everyday (5 km) ?

5 km without stopping to rest, hoping to increase speed & distance

    
and I'll keep wondering
and wondering
and wondering
and wondering
when will my life begin?
    

    
  

  A little state of grace;
  

  
this is a state of grace
this is the worthwhile fight
love is a ruthless game
unless you play it good and right

16 January 2017

7. Volunteer work with kids ?

Started teaching a new class of 22 six-year-olds yesterday. Immediately, I've noticed quite a few things:

1. The seven year olds I taught last year needed a big sister and listening ear. The six year olds this year need hugs and a lot more encouragement. We had a girl who cried, a boy too scared to sit with the class, and overall a totally different method was required to teach.
2. I'm not sure if it's a new year, but they still seem a little reluctant to come and less chatty. That's gonna change if I can help it!
3. While less talkative, I have to admit they are way more manageable which is a relief for such a large class.
4. I'm going to have to make storytelling much simpler so they can keep up.

But oh my goodness, they are so small and adorable! They come trotting in still needing to hold hands for reassurance, and form little "trains" to keep in line. I'm actually allowed to cuddle them because a lot of them are fidgety and need the older kids/assistant teachers to comfort them.

We have quite the menagerie, but describing each one would probably bore everyone except myself. And the last thing I have to mention: one of the children made me a necklace out of connectable ringlets to wear. And my old kids have grown so much and still wave excitedly at seeing me. If that doesn't melt my heart I don't know what will.

(Lotus II)

19 January 2016

1. Run everyday (5 km) ?

Running faster and longer so my schedule seems to be working. Upping goal to 7km.

2. Get a temporary job ?

I'm being such a wuss, but a part of me is so tired that I almost want to quit. My fingers were literally burning today because I had to handle chilli, and my hands are cracked :( I'll re-think this again at the end of the month.

3. Learn sign language (3 words a day) ?

Up to the letter S in the alphabet! Constantly mixing up F.

Ribs - Lorde

We can talk it so good
We can make it so divine
We can talk it good
How you wish it would be all the time

This dream isn't feeling sweet
We're reeling through the midnight streets
And I've never felt more alone
It feels so scary, getting old

I want 'em back
The minds we had
How all the thoughts
Moved 'round our heads
I want 'em back
The minds we had
It's not enough to feel the lack
I want 'em back, I want 'em back, I want 'em

You're the only friend I need
Sharing beds like little kids
Laughing 'til our ribs get tough
But that will never be enough

7. Volunteer work with kids ?

Good news, I think the kids were just new to the place :) It's been a few weeks and they are now much more at home. I'm starting to learn how to handle them as well.. Most of the kids are little angels, cooperating easily. Some, however, are what I term affectionately "angsty emo kids". One lies face down on the floor and won't do anything, while the other is so shy he refuses to sit with the others. At first glance, they just seem uncooperative, but their situations are actually quite different. The cranky one is the way he is because he doesn't want to be here (I'm gonna change that). The shy one is just afraid and can be coaxed with encouragement.

More good news though: I got an internship at a kindergarten.

*squeals* I start Monday.

(Lotus II & Stars)

  8 March 2017

Ivies: 4-year-olds

Kids from a new class: Who are you?

Me: My name is Teacher Jingle!

Kids: Jingle?

Me: Yep, like jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the wayyy

Kids: *laughs*

The past few days: Teacher Jingle! Teacher Jingle Bell!

This girl who makes me want to burst out laughing: Teacher Ginger! Teacher Ginge-

Other kids: No, it's Jingle!

Girl: Jin-gle.

Me: Yes!

Girl: Teacher Ginger!

(Stars)

Haha xD Ginger Jingle!

Oh Hallie xP

  10 March 2017

I almost cried last night because a difficult student couldn't see where I was coming from, the teachers went MIA and left the intern me in charge of ten four-year-olds, and I was struggling to keep up because I'd been carted to whichever class they saw fit, yet each one had different routines they didn't bother to let me know. But then I come back to the same class today and they say the craziest things:

Nap Time

Ivies: 4-year-olds

Sofia: *to other students who haven't gotten ready* Lie down! Lie down! I blanket you!

Me: *to Harry* Are you gonna rip up your shirt this time?

Harry: *shakes head*

Me: Good! Thank god I never thought I'd worry about this

Cherry: LAST TIME, I WAS A PRINCESS IN MY ROOM. I SAID LET IT GO. I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND ME NOW.

Nathan: I am Superman

Cherry: I am Captain America

Me: *nods in all seriousness* Yes, now the two superheroes have to sleep

-

I think I laughed my ass off later.

(Stars)

  14 March 2017

Daisies: 3 year-olds

Teacher Cheer: What animals are there in the farm?

Danielle: I LIKE TEACHER I LIKE DANIELLE

Teacher Cheer: Okay-

Cynthia: I LIKE DANIELLE I LIKE TEACHER

Danielle: I LIKE CYNTHIA I LIKE DANIELLE

Teacher Cheer: ...

(Stars)

  15 March 2017
  

  Puppy Love Gone Insane

Sunflowers: 2-year-olds

Jared: *incapable of saying full sentences, but capable of constantly trying to find and "take care" of two girls who'll inadvertently cry as a result*

-

Daisies: 3-year-olds:

Aaron (the "good boy"): *follows Mei like a lost puppy*

Mei: I DON'T WANT AARON *runs*

Aaron: *looks at her with puppy eyes and scoots closer*

Mei: *pinches his face annoyedly while he just stays and lets himself get pinched*

Me: You'll let her get away with murder, won't you?

Aartan (resident "bad boy" ): *pushes his mattress next to Mei and tries to play with/disturb her*

Mei: NO! *pushes away his mattress*

Aartan: *scoots back*

Mei: I WANT TO SLEEP ON THE FLOOR!

Me: *laughs hysterically in private* Free K-Drama for me XD

-

Ivies: 4 year-olds

Zi Ming: TEACHER JINGLE FIA BEAT ME (he means 'hit')

Me: Sofia, did you do it?

Sofia: *grudging nod*

Me: Why?

Sofia: Because he said he LOVES ME!

Me: Zi Ming, you love her?

Zi Ming: Yes. Because I really really love Fia! *smiles*

Sofia: *stares at me angrily*

Me: *tries not to combust into a choking mess*

(Stars)

These kids are so adorable! ^_^

Hallie wrote: "These kids are so adorable! ^_^"

They totally are, although they also can be nightmares at times XD

Haha xD I'm no good around children, so here's a salute from my side to teacher Jingle :D

Hey!!

Hallie wrote: "Haha xD I'm no good around children, so here's a salute from my side to teacher Jingle :D"

Aww Hallie, I'm sure you are! (*coughs* Literally, just ask them about their day and nod for five minutes, it works *coughs*) How are you doing? :)

??Princess K (Kavy) of Books and music ??~It's killing me, I admit it now~ wrote: "Hey!!"

Hey Kavy!!! :D

  21 March 2017

Why I had a bad day:

1. Sleep deprivation
2. Getting sick for the second time because of a virus that's been spreading
3. Losing my voice because of 2. and having to keep calling after/singing with the kids
4. N1s going through their inevitable "MINE" stage
5. Getting hit on the back by Anton (and here's what gets me, it's purely because he wants to test my limit)
6. A block tower dropped over my hand because Evie kept trying to cart her things around
7. Dexter. Throwing. Tantrums. When. He. Was. The. One. Who. Was. Snatching. Toys.
8. Accidentally eating chicken (when I've been vegetarian for years now).


Why I will keep trying:

1. I am inevitably still flawed and inexperienced as much as they are. I cannot blame them when I know they are growing, as much as I am trying to as a person.
2. The sore throat I have isn't as bad as the first round's.
3. I've seen Anton bloom when complimented and encouraged. He also knows every kids' belongings and loves to hand it to them.
4. Evie was only carting her things around because she wanted to show it to me-
5. - as do the other kids which makes me feel honored.
6. Dexter doesn't say "crocodie" instead of "crocodile" anymore. He can also name every vehicle in the vocab list.
7. I've not thought once that I'd rather be anywhere else, and I've been on a clean streak for almost a month.
8. When they smile or want to sit next to me or talk my heart melts. I'm tired now but I'll be better tomorrow.

(Stars)

  24 June 2017
  

  Personal Update

?¡ªEnded internship to start school
?¡ªGrades are decent, exams coming
?¡ªJoined one club promoting deaf awareness and teaching sign language, joined another to tutor disadvantaged children
?¡ªMental wellbeing hahahahaha no

Hey Jingle

??Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ??~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Hey Jingle"

Hey Kavy, how are you doing? :)

  26 July 2017

I am only one of these two at any given time:

  28 July 2017

so embarrassed so embarrassed so embarrassed

Carnival Challenge
(view spoiler)[Challenge from Crazy for 
YA Books group (hide spoiler)]

Duration: June - Aug 

26/26



1. Pink cover ?
2. Purple cover ?
3. Red cover ?
4. Green cover ?
5. Blue cover ?
6.Grey cover ?
7. White cover ?
8. Black cover ?
9. Book with clouds on cover ?
10. Sun on cover ?
11. Water on cover ?
12. Book with trees on cover ?
13. Book with flowers on cover ?
14. Grass on cover ?
15. Car on cover ?
16. Animal on cover ?
17. Food on cover ?
18. Building on cover ?
19. Made up location ?
20. Somewhere you've been ?
21. Somewhere you want to go ?
22. Mythology book ?
23. Paranormal book ?
24. Contemporary book ?
25. Sci-fi book ?
26. Mystery book ?

A-Z Challenge 2017: Title
(view spoiler)[Challenge from Crazy for 
YA Books group (hide spoiler)]

Date start: 1 Jan
Date Completed: 7 Nov

26/26
(Q, X & Z can be anywhere 
in the title)



A -  All the Ugly and Wonderful 
Things ?
B - The Best I Could ?
C - I Capture The Castle ?
D - Dearest ?
E - The Ever Never Handbook ?
F - Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them: The Original Screenplay ?
G - The Girl With All The Gifts ?
H - Hero ?
I - Into The Wild ?
J - Jessaloup's Song ?
K -  Keeping The Castle ?
L - A Little in Love ?
M - Monstrous Beauty ?
N -  Number The Stars ?
O - One ?
P - Pirouette ?
Q - A Quiet Kind Of Thunder ?
R - The Rest Of Us Just Live Here ?
S -  Of Scars and Stardust ?
T - The Truth About Alice ?
U - Up To This Pointe ?
V - The Virago Book of Fairytales ?
W - Wintergirls ?
X - I Am Princess X ?
Y - The Young Elites ?
Z - Harry Potter and the Prisoner 
of Azkaban ?

  
  

Genre Challenge 2017
(view spoiler)[Challenge from Crazy for YA Books
group (hide spoiler)]

Date start: 1 Jan
Date Completed: 14 Dec

12/12




January¡ª³§±è´Ç°ù³Ù²õ
Being Sloane Jacobs ?
February¡ª±·´Ç²Ô-¹ó¾±³¦³Ù¾±´Ç²Ô
Eating Disorders ?
March¡ªSpace Opera
Illuminae ?
´¡±è°ù¾±±ô¡ª Mythology
The Lightning Thief ?
May¡ª Crime
Gardenia ?
June¡ª¹ó°ù¾±±ð²Ô»å²õ³ó¾±±è
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood 
Prince ?
July¡ª°ä´Ç²Ô³Ù±ð³¾±è´Ç°ù²¹°ù²â
Faking Normal ?
August¡ª¹ó²¹²Ô³Ù²¹²õ²â
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows ?
September¡ª³§³Ù±ð²¹³¾±è³Ü²Ô°ì
The Golden Compass ?
October¡ª Horror
Carrie ?
November¡ªHistorical Fiction
Number The Stars ?
December¡ª Romance
Dreamology ?

(original)

Kay

He uses my words like
a double-edged sword:
to strike when he simmers;
to laugh when he's bored.

One second my concern
is so overdue
the next, I'm stifling
the air with my rue.

Somewhere, there's a part
that would hurt so not he,
The little boy who would always
Save me sweets.

But it's exactly this love
That makes me push and swear¡ª
Because it hurts even more
When he says "You don't care."

  13 August 2017

Suddenly realising why I lost weight when I was interning at the kindergarten. While I was supposed to have lunch I:

?¡ª Did damage control for a conflict between two kids that were hitting each other's pieces of paper (let me not go into details and just say I need When I'm Feeling Angry asap)
?¡ª Used the one bite rule on three separate kids telling me they didn't like bamboo shoot, mushroom etc.
?¡ª Held 5000 other simultaneous conversations
?¡ª *just when I took a bite* Sweet quiet Amber comes to stand in front of my desk and won't tell me if she wants something, to play, or to talk
?¡ª Chased after two boys because they kept going to the play corner even when they weren't done eating
?¡ª Began conversation with Amber because she just wanted company (and my heart was melting)
?¡ª Opened two packs of cookies and got crumbed (again, let's not go into details)

And by the time I got to the end of it, I hadn't finished a quarter of my lunch but was so full I felt sick taking more bites. Man I love these children but they can be a crazy bunch xP

(Lotus II)

Alia [full hiatus until 8/19] wrote: "Haha Jingle! I meant to talk to you about this! (yeah¡­ I'm technically on hiatus but I feel the urge to pop in sometimes.) But I so get it because I was working with little kids at a summer camp th..."

Omg you feel me Alia *wipes tears of joy* xP It feels like we were taught to stop, drop and roll not during a fire but when dealing with them! (I think I literally did this tbh) I'm glad you could pop in despite your hiatus :) Is your camp an adventure camp?

Alia [full hiatus until 8/19] wrote: "Jingle ?áê wrote: "Alia [full hiatus until 8/19] wrote: "Haha Jingle! I meant to talk to you about this! (yeah¡­ I'm technically on hiatus but I feel the urge to pop in sometimes.) But I so get it be..."

Oh man how old were those boys? :( Hope you weren't badly hurt! Hahaha it's a good thing it's only indoors. I think Corvus dealing with them would definitely interesting, to say the least xP