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One day I was sitting outside and thinking about my relationship to God and where/what God is, when I heard...."I am closer than you think" My first reaction was "Of course your are, everyone knows that" but I heard no reply. Then I started to think....closer than you think....closer than I think....closer than thinking....thinking...thought...closer than thought....before thought! I understood that my very being is God and one with God in the absence of thought. Only "thought" separates us from God/oneness with all. It is in the silence of our mind where we find our true Self. It is in the absence of who we think we are....there.... I am.

I remember a time when I wanted nothing more then to know the Truth. This wanting was more like a longing and it went on for years. I read every book I could get my hands on until one day I let go trying to seek on the outside and turned within. My prayer was more like a begging. I wanted to know the truth more than the need to be right, more than my life more than anything I had achieved and more than anything I loved. I gave up everything and was completely empty. I thought I would die, but instead I was filled....all the way to the brim and running over. This experience was over 10 years ago, but it feels like yesterday and even though nothing really seems to have changed on the outside.... where once there was emptiness and darkness there is now a bliss within me and I know I am that bliss.